CROSS-LIGHTS

They say the sun is a very small star, and the thing is plausible

enough in itself, without the proofs which presumably the astronomers

can give of it. That which nature produces she is apt to produce in

crowds; what she does once, if she has her way, she will do often, with

a persistency and monotony which would be intolerable to her if she

were endowed with memory; but hers is a life of habit and automatic

repetition, varied only when there is some hitch in the clockwork, and

she begins hurriedly beating a new tune. Accordingly, what any creature

calls the present time, the living interest, the ruling power, or the

true religion is almost always but as one leaf in a tree. The same

plastic stress which created it creates a million comparable things

around it. Yet it is easy for each to ignore its neighbours, and to be

shocked at the notion of loving them as itself; for they all have their

separate places or seasons, and bloom on their several stems, so that

an accident that overwhelms one of them may easily leave the others

unscathed. But for all that, they are as multitudinous and similar as

the waves of the sea. Take any star at random, like our sun, or any

poet, or any idea, and whilst certainly it will be the nearest and

warmest to somebody, it is not at all likely to be the greatest of its

kind, or even very remarkable.

Nevertheless, in a moral perspective, nearness makes all the

difference; and for us the sun is a veritable ruling deity and parent

of light; he is the centre and monarch of our home system. Similarly

each living being is a sort of sun to itself; this spark within me,

by whose light I see at all, is a great sun to me; and considering

how wide a berth other spiritual luminaries seem to give me, I must

warm myself chiefly by my own combustion, and remain singularly

important to myself. This importance belongs to the humour of material

existence, visible when I look at my seamy side; it vanishes in so

far as my little light actually bums clear, and my intent flies with

it to whatever objects its rays can reach, no matter how distant or

alien. Yet this very intelligence and scope in me are functions of my

inward fire: seeing, too, is burning. An atomic and spark-like form of

existence, prevalent in nature, is absolutely essential to spirit; and

I find it very acceptable. It is a free, happy, and humble condition.

I welcome the minute bulk, the negligible power, the chance quality

and oddity of my being, combined as it is with vital independence

and adequate fuel in my small bunkers for my brief voyage. On a

vaster scale, I think the sun, for all his littleness, has a splendid

prerogative, and I honour Phoebus as a happy god. The happiest part

of his condition and his best claim to deity lie in this: that he can

irradiate and kindle the frozen or vaporous bodies that swim about him;

he can create the moonlight and the earthlight, much more powerful than

the moonlight. This earthlight, if we could only get far enough from

the earth to see it, would seem strangely brilliant and beautiful; it

would show sea-tints and snow-tints and sand-tints; there would be

greens and purples in it reflected from summer and winter zones, dotted

with cinder scars and smoke-wreaths of cities. Yet all these lights are

only sunlight, received and returned with thanks.

Nor is this surface shimmer, visible to telescopic observers, the

only benefit gained: something is kept back and absorbed; some warmth

sinks into the substance of the earth and permeates its watery soil,

initiating currents in the sea and air, and quickening many a nest of

particles into magnetic and explosive and contagious motions. This

life which arises in the earth is an obeisance to the sun. The flowers

turn to the light and the eye follows it, animal bodies imbibe it, and

send it forth again in glad looks and keen attention; and when dreams

and thoughts, even with the eyes shut, play within us like flamelets

amongst the coals, it is still the light of the sun, strangely stored

and transmuted, that shines in those visions. Certainly intelligence

in its cognitive intent is radically immaterial, and nothing could be

more heterogeneous from vibrations, attractions, or ethereal currents

than the power to make assertions that shall be true or false, relevant

or irrelevant to outlying things; but this so spiritual power is

profoundly natural; it plainly exhibits an animal awaking to the

presence of other bodies that actually surround him, resenting their

cruelty or warming to their conquest and absorption. Apart from its

roots in animal predicaments, spirit would be wholly inexplicable in

its moods and arbitrary in its deliverance. The more ecstatic or the

more tragic experience is, the more unmistakably it is the voice of

matter. It then obviously retraces and makes incandescent the silent

relations of things with things, by which its weal or woe is decided.

Sometimes it simply burns in their midst and moves in their company

like the sun amongst the stars he ignores; sometimes it gilds in its

highly coloured lights the surface of things turned in its direction.

Were not the distances between bodies spanned by some universal

gravitation (which we are now told may be a sort of light), we may be

sure that sense and fancy, which are profoundly vegetative things,

would never leap from their source and discount their images in the

heroic effort to understand the world. But the fire of life casts

its passionate illumination on the dead things that control it, and

raises to aesthetic actuality various poetic symbols of their power.

Dead things possess, of course, in their own right, their material and

logical being, but they borrow from the adventitious interest which a

living creature must needs take in them their various moral dignities

and all their part in the conscious world. It is intelligible that

moralists and psychologists should be absorbed in those reflections

of their attention which reach them from things distant or near, and

that they should pronounce the whole universe to be nothing but their

experience of it, a sort of rainbow or crescent kindly decorating their

personal sky. On the same principle the sun (who, being a material

creature, would also be subject to egotism) might say that the only

substance in the universe was light, and that the earth and moon were

nothing but ethereal mirrors palely reflecting his own fire. It would

seem absurd to him that the earth or its inhabitants should profess to

have any bowels. Inextinguishable laughter and self-assurance would

seize him at the report that any dark places existed, or any invisible

thoughts. He would never admit that, in all this, he was himself

thinking; what we should call his thoughts he would maintain (without

thinking!) were evident meteors moving and shining on their own account.

Such are the cross-lights of animal persuasion. Things, when seen,

seem to come and go with our visions; and visions, when we do not know

why they visit us, seem to be things. But this is not the end of the

story. Opacity is a great discoverer. It teaches the souls of animals

the existence of what is not themselves. Their souls in fact live and

spread their roots in the darkness, which embosoms and creates the

light, though the light does not comprehend it. If sensuous evidence

flooded the whole sphere with which souls are conversant, they would

have no reason for suspecting that there was anything they did not

see, and they would live in a fool's paradise of lucidity. Fortunately

for their wisdom, if not for their comfort, they come upon mysteries

and surprises, earthquakes and rumblings in their hidden selves and

in their undeciphered environment; they live in time, which is a

double abyss of darkness; and the primary and urgent object of their

curiosity is that unfathomable engine of nature which from its ambush

governs their fortunes. The proud, who shine by their own light, do

not perceive matter, the fuel that feeds and will some day fail them;

but the knowledge of it comes to extinct stars in their borrowed light

and almost mortal coldness, because they need to warm themselves at

a distant fire and to adapt their seasons to its favourable shining.

When we are on the shady side of the earth we can, as a compensation,

range in knowledge far beyond our painted atmosphere, and far beyond

that little sun who, so long as he shone upon us, seemed to ride at

the top of heaven; we can perceive a galaxy of other lights, no less

original than he, to which his glory blinded us; we can even discover

how he himself, if his hot head of burning hair would only suffer him

to notice it, lives subject to their perpetual influence. Beautiful and

happy god as Phoebus may be, he is not a just god nor an everlasting

one. He is a lyric singer; he is not responsible save to his own

heart, and not obliged to know other things. He lives in the eternal,

and does not need to be perpetual. And he is often beneficent in his

spontaneity, and many of us have cause to thank and to love him. There

is an uncovenanted society of spirits, like that of the morning stars

singing together, or of all the larks at once in the sky; it is a happy

accident of freedom and a conspiracy of solitudes. When people _talk

together_, they are at once entangled in a mesh of instrumentalities,

irrelevance, misunderstanding, vanity, and propaganda; and all to no

purpose, for why should creatures become alike who are different? But

when minds, being naturally akin and each alone in its own heaven,

_soliloquize in harmony_, saying compatible things only because their

hearts are similar, then society is friendship in the spirit; and the

unison of many thoughts twinkles happily in the night across the void

of separation.

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