XXXII.

"At the court of the Tuileries," said Mr. Sillerton Jackson with his

reminiscent smile, "such things were pretty openly tolerated."

The scene was the van der Luydens' black walnut dining-room in Madison

Avenue, and the time the evening after Newland Archer's visit to the

Museum of Art. Mr. and Mrs. van der Luyden had come to town for a few

days from Skuytercliff, whither they had precipitately fled at the

announcement of Beaufort's failure. It had been represented to them

that the disarray into which society had been thrown by this deplorable

affair made their presence in town more necessary than ever. It was one

of the occasions when, as Mrs. Archer put it, they "owed it to society"

to show themselves at the Opera, and even to open their own doors.

"It will never do, my dear Louisa, to let people like Mrs. Lemuel

Struthers think they can step into Regina's shoes. It is just at such

times that new people push in and get a footing. It was owing to the

epidemic of chicken-pox in New York the winter Mrs. Struthers first

appeared that the married men slipped away to her house while their

wives were in the nursery. You and dear Henry, Louisa, must stand in

the breach as you always have."

Mr. and Mrs. van der Luyden could not remain deaf to such a call, and

reluctantly but heroically they had come to town, unmuffled the house,

and sent out invitations for two dinners and an evening reception.

On this particular evening they had invited Sillerton Jackson, Mrs.

Archer and Newland and his wife to go with them to the Opera, where

Faust was being sung for the first time that winter. Nothing was done

without ceremony under the van der Luyden roof, and though there were

but four guests the repast had begun at seven punctually, so that the

proper sequence of courses might be served without haste before the

gentlemen settled down to their cigars.

Archer had not seen his wife since the evening before. He had left

early for the office, where he had plunged into an accumulation of

unimportant business. In the afternoon one of the senior partners had

made an unexpected call on his time; and he had reached home so late

that May had preceded him to the van der Luydens', and sent back the

carriage.

Now, across the Skuytercliff carnations and the massive plate, she

struck him as pale and languid; but her eyes shone, and she talked with

exaggerated animation.

The subject which had called forth Mr. Sillerton Jackson's favourite

allusion had been brought up (Archer fancied not without intention) by

their hostess. The Beaufort failure, or rather the Beaufort attitude

since the failure, was still a fruitful theme for the drawing-room

moralist; and after it had been thoroughly examined and condemned Mrs.

van der Luyden had turned her scrupulous eyes on May Archer.

"Is it possible, dear, that what I hear is true? I was told your

grandmother Mingott's carriage was seen standing at Mrs. Beaufort's

door." It was noticeable that she no longer called the offending lady

by her Christian name.

May's colour rose, and Mrs. Archer put in hastily: "If it was, I'm

convinced it was there without Mrs. Mingott's knowledge."

"Ah, you think--?" Mrs. van der Luyden paused, sighed, and glanced at

her husband.

"I'm afraid," Mr. van der Luyden said, "that Madame Olenska's kind

heart may have led her into the imprudence of calling on Mrs. Beaufort."

"Or her taste for peculiar people," put in Mrs. Archer in a dry tone,

while her eyes dwelt innocently on her son's.

"I'm sorry to think it of Madame Olenska," said Mrs. van der Luyden;

and Mrs. Archer murmured: "Ah, my dear--and after you'd had her twice

at Skuytercliff!"

It was at this point that Mr. Jackson seized the chance to place his

favourite allusion.

"At the Tuileries," he repeated, seeing the eyes of the company

expectantly turned on him, "the standard was excessively lax in some

respects; and if you'd asked where Morny's money came from--! Or who

paid the debts of some of the Court beauties ..."

"I hope, dear Sillerton," said Mrs. Archer, "you are not suggesting

that we should adopt such standards?"

"I never suggest," returned Mr. Jackson imperturbably. "But Madame

Olenska's foreign bringing-up may make her less particular--"

"Ah," the two elder ladies sighed.

"Still, to have kept her grandmother's carriage at a defaulter's

door!" Mr. van der Luyden protested; and Archer guessed that he was

remembering, and resenting, the hampers of carnations he had sent to

the little house in Twenty-third Street.

"Of course I've always said that she looks at things quite

differently," Mrs. Archer summed up.

A flush rose to May's forehead. She looked across the table at her

husband, and said precipitately: "I'm sure Ellen meant it kindly."

"Imprudent people are often kind," said Mrs. Archer, as if the fact

were scarcely an extenuation; and Mrs. van der Luyden murmured: "If

only she had consulted some one--"

"Ah, that she never did!" Mrs. Archer rejoined.

At this point Mr. van der Luyden glanced at his wife, who bent her head

slightly in the direction of Mrs. Archer; and the glimmering trains

of the three ladies swept out of the door while the gentlemen settled

down to their cigars. Mr. van der Luyden supplied short ones on Opera

nights; but they were so good that they made his guests deplore his

inexorable punctuality.

Archer, after the first act, had detached himself from the party and

made his way to the back of the club box. From there he watched, over

various Chivers, Mingott and Rushworth shoulders, the same scene that

he had looked at, two years previously, on the night of his first

meeting with Ellen Olenska. He had half-expected her to appear again in

old Mrs. Mingott's box, but it remained empty; and he sat motionless,

his eyes fastened on it, till suddenly Madame Nilsson's pure soprano

broke out into "_M'ama, non m'ama ..._"

Archer turned to the stage, where, in the familiar setting of giant

roses and pen-wiper pansies, the same large blonde victim was

succumbing to the same small brown seducer.

From the stage his eyes wandered to the point of the horseshoe where

May sat between two older ladies, just as, on that former evening, she

had sat between Mrs. Lovell Mingott and her newly-arrived "foreign"

cousin. As on that evening, she was all in white; and Archer, who had

not noticed what she wore, recognised the blue-white satin and old lace

of her wedding dress.

It was the custom, in old New York, for brides to appear in this costly

garment during the first year or two of marriage: his mother, he knew,

kept hers in tissue paper in the hope that Janey might some day wear

it, though poor Janey was reaching the age when pearl grey poplin and

no bridesmaids would be thought more "appropriate."

It struck Archer that May, since their return from Europe, had seldom

worn her bridal satin, and the surprise of seeing her in it made him

compare her appearance with that of the young girl he had watched with

such blissful anticipations two years earlier.

Though May's outline was slightly heavier, as her goddesslike build

had foretold, her athletic erectness of carriage, and the girlish

transparency of her expression, remained unchanged: but for the

slight languor that Archer had lately noticed in her she would

have been the exact image of the girl playing with the bouquet of

lilies-of-the-valley on her betrothal evening. The fact seemed an

additional appeal to his pity: such innocence was as moving as

the trustful clasp of a child. Then he remembered the passionate

generosity latent under that incurious calm. He recalled her glance

of understanding when he had urged that their engagement should be

announced at the Beaufort ball; he heard the voice in which she had

said, in the Mission garden: "I couldn't have my happiness made out

of a wrong--a wrong to some one else;" and an uncontrollable longing

seized him to tell her the truth, to throw himself on her generosity,

and ask for the freedom he had once refused.

Newland Archer was a quiet and self-controlled young man. Conformity

to the discipline of a small society had become almost his second

nature. It was deeply distasteful to him to do anything melodramatic

and conspicuous, anything Mr. van der Luyden would have deprecated

and the club box condemned as bad form. But he had become suddenly

unconscious of the club box, of Mr. van der Luyden, of all that had so

long enclosed him in the warm shelter of habit. He walked along the

semi-circular passage at the back of the house, and opened the door of

Mrs. van der Luyden's box as if it had been a gate into the unknown.

"_M'ama_!" thrilled out the triumphant Marguerite; and the occupants

of the box looked up in surprise at Archer's entrance. He had already

broken one of the rules of his world, which forbade the entering of a

box during a solo.

Slipping between Mr. van der Luyden and Sillerton Jackson, he leaned

over his wife.

"I've got a beastly headache; don't tell any one, but come home, won't

you?" he whispered.

May gave him a glance of comprehension, and he saw her whisper to his

mother, who nodded sympathetically; then she murmured an excuse to Mrs.

van der Luyden, and rose from her seat just as Marguerite fell into

Faust's arms. Archer, while he helped her on with her Opera cloak,

noticed the exchange of a significant smile between the older ladies.

As they drove away May laid her hand shyly on his. "I'm so sorry you

don't feel well. I'm afraid they've been overworking you again at the

office."

"No--it's not that: do you mind if I open the window?" he returned

confusedly, letting down the pane on his side. He sat staring out

into the street, feeling his wife beside him as a silent watchful

interrogation, and keeping his eyes steadily fixed on the passing

houses. At their door she caught her skirt in the step of the carriage,

and fell against him.

"Did you hurt yourself?" he asked, steadying her with his arm.

"No; but my poor dress--see how I've torn it!" she exclaimed. She bent

to gather up a mud-stained breadth, and followed him up the steps into

the hall. The servants had not expected them so early, and there was

only a glimmer of gas on the upper landing.

Archer mounted the stairs, turned up the light, and put a match to the

brackets on each side of the library mantelpiece. The curtains were

drawn, and the warm friendly aspect of the room smote him like that of

a familiar face met during an unavowable errand.

He noticed that his wife was very pale, and asked if he should get her

some brandy.

"Oh, no," she exclaimed with a momentary flush, as she took off her

cloak. "But hadn't you better go to bed at once?" she added, as he

opened a silver box on the table and took out a cigarette.

Archer threw down the cigarette and walked to his usual place by the

fire.

"No; my head is not as bad as that." He paused. "And there's something

I want to say; something important--that I must tell you at once."

She had dropped into an armchair, and raised her head as he spoke.

"Yes, dear?" she rejoined, so gently that he wondered at the lack of

wonder with which she received this preamble.

"May--" he began, standing a few feet from her chair, and looking over

at her as if the slight distance between them were an unbridgeable

abyss. The sound of his voice echoed uncannily through the homelike

hush, and he repeated: "There is something I've got to tell you ...

about myself ..."

She sat silent, without a movement or a tremor of her lashes. She

was still extremely pale, but her face had a curious tranquillity of

expression that seemed drawn from some secret inner source.

Archer checked the conventional phrases of self-accusal that were

crowding to his lips. He was determined to put the case baldly, without

vain recrimination or excuse.

"Madame Olenska--" he said; but at the name his wife raised her hand as

if to silence him. As she did so the gaslight struck on the gold of her

wedding-ring.

"Oh, why should we talk about Ellen tonight?" she asked, with a slight

pout of impatience.

"Because I ought to have spoken before."

Her face remained calm. "Is it really worth while, dear? I know I've

been unfair to her at times--perhaps we all have. You've understood

her, no doubt, better than we did: you've always been kind to her. But

what does it matter, now it's all over?"

Archer looked at her blankly. Could it be possible that the sense of

unreality in which he felt himself imprisoned had communicated itself

to his wife?

"All over--what do you mean?" he asked in an indistinct stammer.

May still looked at him with transparent eyes. "Why--since she's going

back to Europe so soon; since Granny approves and understands, and has

arranged to make her independent of her husband--"

She broke off, and Archer, grasping the corner of the mantelpiece in

one convulsed hand, and steadying himself against it, made a vain

effort to extend the same control to his reeling thoughts.

"I supposed," he heard his wife's even voice go on, "that you had been

kept at the office this evening about the business arrangements. It

was settled this morning, I believe." She lowered her eyes under his

unseeing stare, and another fugitive flush passed over her face.

He understood that his own eyes must be unbearable, and turning away,

rested his elbows on the mantel-shelf and covered his face. Something

drummed and clanged furiously in his ears; he could not tell if it were

the blood in his veins, or the tick of the clock on the mantel.

May sat without moving or speaking while the clock slowly measured out

five minutes. A lump of coal fell forward in the grate, and hearing her

rise to push it back, Archer at length turned and faced her.

"It's impossible," he exclaimed.

"Impossible--?"

"How do you know--what you've just told me?"

"I saw Ellen yesterday--I told you I'd seen her at Granny's."

"It wasn't then that she told you?"

"No; I had a note from her this afternoon.--Do you want to see it?"

He could not find his voice, and she went out of the room, and came

back almost immediately.

"I thought you knew," she said simply.

She laid a sheet of paper on the table, and Archer put out his hand and

took it up. The letter contained only a few lines.

"May dear, I have at last made Granny understand that my visit to her

could be no more than a visit; and she has been as kind and generous as

ever. She sees now that if I return to Europe I must live by myself, or

rather with poor Aunt Medora, who is coming with me. I am hurrying back

to Washington to pack up, and we sail next week. You must be very good

to Granny when I'm gone--as good as you've always been to me. Ellen.

"If any of my friends wish to urge me to change my mind, please tell

them it would be utterly useless."

Archer read the letter over two or three times; then he flung it down

and burst out laughing.

The sound of his laugh startled him. It recalled Janey's midnight

fright when she had caught him rocking with incomprehensible mirth over

May's telegram announcing that the date of their marriage had been

advanced.

"Why did she write this?" he asked, checking his laugh with a supreme

effort.

May met the question with her unshaken candour. "I suppose because we

talked things over yesterday--"

"What things?"

"I told her I was afraid I hadn't been fair to her--hadn't always

understood how hard it must have been for her here, alone among so many

people who were relations and yet strangers; who felt the right to

criticise, and yet didn't always know the circumstances." She paused.

"I knew you'd been the one friend she could always count on; and I

wanted her to know that you and I were the same--in all our feelings."

She hesitated, as if waiting for him to speak, and then added slowly:

"She understood my wishing to tell her this. I think she understands

everything."

She went up to Archer, and taking one of his cold hands pressed it

quickly against her cheek.

"My head aches too; good-night, dear," she said, and turned to the

door, her torn and muddy wedding-dress dragging after her across the

room.

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