Very soon after this triumphal journey, a second child was born to

Nicholas II. and his wife; another girl, to the intense disappointment

of everybody. I am informed that the first words of Alexandra Feodorowna

upon being told of the sex of the infant were:

“What will the nation say, what will it say?”

As a fact the nation said nothing; it had already begun to lose interest

in the family affairs of its rulers.

As time went on this indifference to the joys and the woes of the

Reigning House grew and grew, until at last it became a recognized fact

in the whole of Russia that, as far as Nicholas II. was concerned,

whatever happened to him or to his relatives was an object which

presented no interest whatever to the millions of Russian men and women,

who all of them were looking forward for a change in the destinies and

the Government of their country. When he had ascended the Throne, any

amount of expectations had been connected with him and with his name.

These were very quickly dashed to the ground by his first public

speech--the one which he made in reply to the congratulations of the

zemstvos, or Russian local assemblies, on his accession and marriage,

when he told the representatives of these institutions that they must

not indulge “in senseless dreams” or hope that he would ever sacrifice

the least little bit of his Imperial prerogatives or autocratic

leanings. The Revolutionary committees, which had begun at that time and

from the very day of the death of Alexander III. to renew their

political activity, addressed to him a letter which, read to-day in the

light of the events which have happened during the last twelvemonth,

seems almost prophetic. They warned him that the struggle begun by him

would only come to an end with his downfall, and the whole tone of this

remarkable epistle, which I have reproduced in my volume, _Behind the

Veil of the Russian Court_, reminds one at present that the prophesied

blow has fallen, of the writing on the wall which appeared during the

banquet of the Persian King, warning him of his approaching ruin.

Neither the Czar nor his Consort thought about these things. As time

went on, the attention of the latter became more and more concentrated

on the one fixed idea of having a son. She imagined that the secret of

her unpopularity, which she had at last discovered, lay in the fact that

she had not been able to give an Heir to the Russian Throne. Four times

in succession daughters were born to her, each one received with

increased disappointment, as the years went on, bringing into prominence

the youngest brother of Nicholas II., the Grand-Duke Michael, whom the

Empress began hating with all her heart and soul. She imagined that

wherever she went she was greeted with reproaches for having failed to

fulfil the first duty of a Sovereign’s Consort, that of assuring his

succession in the direct line. The hysterical part of her temperament

rose to the surface more and more with each day that passed. She locked

herself up in her private apartments, refusing to see the members of her

family and denying herself to all visitors, until at last it began to be

whispered in Court circles that Alexandra Feodorowna’s mind was getting

unhinged and that she was suffering from religious mania, mixed up with

the dread of persecution from her relatives. She used to sob for hours

at a stretch, when no one could comfort her, and during those attacks of

despair one cry continually escaped her lips, and was repeated until she

could utter it no longer, out of sheer excitement and fatigue:

“Why, _why_ will God not grant me a son?”

VI

THE EMPRESS’S OPINIONS ABOUT RUSSIA

One of the points about which there has been the most discussion in

Russia is as to whether the Empress Alexandra had ever cared for the

country which had become her own. Her friends have repeatedly asserted

that she had become an ardent Russian patriot, and that her great,

particular misfortune was that every action, word, or thought of hers

had been misunderstood and this willingly.

As for her enemies, they declared, from the very first days which

followed upon her unlucky marriage, that she had arrived in Russia

imbued with the feelings of the deepest contempt for the country and its

people, and that all her efforts had been applied toward making out of

the Empire over which she reigned a vassal of her own native land.

It seems to me, who have had the opportunity to approach her personally,

as well as that of hearing about her from persons who nourished no

animosity against her, that neither the one nor the other of these two

opinions was absolutely correct, though both were right, each in its

way. When one attempts to judge the personality and the character of

Alexandra Feodorowna, one must first of all take into account the fact

that she belonged to that class of individuals who, while being fools,

nevertheless think themselves clever. To this must be added a highly

strung, hysterical temperament and the fact which was unknown in Russia

at the time of her marriage, that madness was a family disease in the

House of Hesse, to which she belonged by birth. The circumstances

attending her rearing and education also had a good deal to do with the

strangeness of her conduct after she had reached the years of

discretion. She had been a mere baby, five or six years old, when she

had lost her mother, the charming, clever, and accomplished Princess

Alice of Great Britain, and she had been brought up partly at Windsor by

Queen Victoria and partly at Darmstadt, where, however, she had not

found any of the good examples its Court might have afforded her had her

mother remained alive. She was the youngest member of her family, and as

such treated with negligence and made to give way to her elder sisters,

who were neither kind nor affectionate in regard to her--a fact which

must have helped her a good deal to develop the haughty, disagreeable

temper which was later on to play her so many bad tricks in life. On

the other hand, the person who had charge of her education, as well as

of that of the other Princesses, had conceived a great and most

ill-advised affection for her; ill-advised in so far that she used to

repeat to her that she was handsomer and cleverer than her sisters, and

that she ought not to mind any slights which the latter might try to put

upon her, because she was sure to make a better marriage than they.

When she was about twelve years old there occurred in the Grand-Ducal

Palace of Darmstadt the tragedy or romance, call it as one likes, of the

Grand Duke’s morganatic union with a lovely Russian, Madame Kolémine,

which came to such a sad end, owing to the interference of Queen

Victoria and to the stupidity of the Grand Duke himself, who, in any

case, ought first of all to have made careful inquiries as to the past

life and conduct of his intended bride, and then--once he had plighted

his troth to her--to have held the promises which he had made to her. He

allowed her to be sent away from his Court and country in disgrace; the

lady herself would have been but too willing to come to honorable terms

with a man for whom she could no longer feel any esteem or affection,

because in the whole long story of his intercourse with her Grand-Duke

Louis never showed himself otherwise than the true German he really was.

Of course, the object of his transient affections was represented to

his children as being merely an intriguing, base woman who had tried to

make a great marriage and to supplant their mother. Whether the elder

Darmstadt Princesses believed this calumny to have been the truth

remains a matter of doubt. Judging impartially, this would seem to be

hardly likely if one takes into consideration the fact that their ages

hovered between eighteen and twenty-two, and that consequently one could

reasonably assume that they knew what they were about when they showered

one proof of affection after another on Madame Kolémine, and when they

declared to her in many letters that there was nothing they wished for

more than to see her become their father’s wife.

This whole story, together with its heroine, is about one of the most

perplexing affairs that ever occurred in any Royal House, and everything

connected with it is to this very day shrouded in mystery. Madame

Kolémine, who (this by the way) married again, after her divorce from

the Grand Duke, a Russian diplomat, may or may not have been a bad

woman. I hold no brief for or against her. Many people assert that in

regard to certain scandals connected with the time of her early married

life she was more sinned against than sinning, and that she became the

victim of calumnies launched against her by unscrupulous enemies. But,

true or not, the breath of suspicion had hovered around her good name to

a sufficiently strong degree to have absolutely justified the objections

of Queen Victoria to her becoming even the morganatic wife of the Grand

Duke of Hesse.

It ought also to have influenced the latter into not admitting the

fascinating Russian into the intimacy of his young daughters, which was

precisely what he did. The girls could not be told every kind of gossip

going about in the world, but they ought to have been shielded from the

possibility of contracting friendships likely to lead them into

unpleasantnesses in the future. On the other hand, considering the fact

that this intimacy had once been established, one does not very well see

how any of the Darmstadt Princesses could have been led to believe,

after the three years or more that it had lasted, that Madame Kolémine

was base and intriguing and cared only for a great marriage. Because

this last accusation, leaving aside all others, was absolutely false, a

fact no one was better able to know than themselves, who had repeatedly

begged and implored her to accept their father’s offer and to make him,

together with themselves, happy people.

I have had some of these letters in my hands, and can therefore vouch

for the truth of this last assertion, and to put an end to the

questions of a suspicious public that may wonder how it came that such

a correspondence was ever communicated to me, I will say at once that

the reason for it was that I am a blood relation of Madame Kolémine, who

after her divorce had thought I might be of some help to her in her

troubles, and had herself asked me to read them. The impossibility in

which I found myself to be of any use to the poor woman, whom I had

never seen in my life before, and of interfering in a business which did

not concern me in the very least, led her to take a most bitter attitude

in regard to me and to become my enemy, so that in trying to take her

part to-day I am doing so out of a feeling of justice and nothing else.

I have mentioned the story in general only because it explains to a

certain degree the undisguised aversion of the Empress Alexandra for

everything that was Russian or that had anything to do with Russia. She

had never shared her sisters’ admiration for Madame Kolémine; on the

contrary, she had always nourished a pronounced antipathy for the lady,

and whatever the three other Darmstadt Princesses may have felt in

regard to the woman whom their father was to marry and divorce on the

same day, she, at least, had made no secret of her hatred for her. One

of the first remarks which she made after she had become acquainted with

St. Petersburg society was:

“I shall never like it; all the women remind me of Madame Kolémine.”

This episode in the career of the Grand Duke of Hesse brought about, as

might have been expected, a change in his relations with Queen Victoria,

and he was no longer such a desired guest at Windsor or Balmoral as had

been the case. His elder daughters married in quick succession, the

second one wedding the Grand-Duke Sergius of Russia. The little Alice

was left alone at home, and though she was often requested by her

grandmother to join her in England, she did not care so much for these

invitations as formerly. The fact was that she was gradually acquiring a

considerable influence over her father’s mind, whose weakness of

intellect rendered him an easy tool in his enterprising daughter’s

hands. She became the virtual mistress of his house, and developed

during those years, where she remained absolutely without any feminine

control over her, the imperious, disagreeable temper which was to play

her such sorry tricks in the future. Small as was the Hessian Court, it

yet was administered with that strict respect for etiquette always in

vogue in Germany, and it pleased the Princess Alix to find herself the

first lady in the land in her father’s Dukedom. She preferred it to

being the second in Rome.

It was during those years that she was taken on a visit to the Russian

Court. This did not turn out a success, because no one in St.

Petersburg was in the very least impressed by the beauty of the young

girl. Russia, being celebrated for the loveliness of its women, would

have required something more than she possessed to fall on its knees and

worship her. Then, again, she was dressed with bad taste, her manners

left much to be desired, and the rumor which began to circulate at the

time of the possibility of her wedding the Heir to the Russian Throne

did not appeal to public feeling. Alice thought herself slighted, and

returned to her beloved Darmstadt more anti-Russian than she had ever

been.

Two years went by, and the Grand Duke of Hesse died, carried off by a

disease of the brain, difficult to account for if one takes into

consideration the fact that he had never had any brains to lose. His son

succeeded him, and, together with his sister, continued to inhabit the

Darmstadt Palace, where nothing was changed except the master of the

house, whom no one missed. For eighteen months Princess Alice reigned

supreme, as she had done before; then one fine morning her brother

announced to her that he was about to ask their cousin, the Princess

Victoria Mélita of Coburg, to become his wife. A fit of hysterics

followed upon this announcement. Alice could not resign herself to the

necessity of playing second fiddle at her brother’s Court, where she

had been the center of attraction for such a long time. The fact that

her future sister-in-law was just as young and more beautiful than she

did not help her to get over her mortification. She was of a terribly

jealous character and temperament, and she began from that very day to

hate, with a ferocious hatred which went on increasing as time passed,

the innocent girl for whom this Hessian marriage was to prove the source

of so much sorrow. But about this I shall speak later on.

It was at this precise moment that talk about a Russian marriage for her

began again. Many people wished for it. The Berlin Court was actively

intriguing in favor of it, and during the whole of that winter of

1893-94 the newspapers were busy with it. The chancelleries of the

different European capitals were very much preoccupied as to whether or

not it would take place.

Perhaps few people will believe me when I say that had it not been for

her brother’s engagement nothing in the world would have ever decided

the Princess Alice to give her consent to a union for which she did not

feel the least sympathy. She was not at all dazzled by the prospect of

becoming the Empress of Russia, because in her vanity and with her ideas

of German grandeur she thought herself far superior to the Romanoffs,

thanks to her long and unbroken line of ancestry. Her unimpeachable

quarterings seemed to her to be so immeasurably above their doubtful

ones that she considered it would be she who would do him an

incommensurable honor by accepting as her wedded husband the Heir to the

Throne of All the Russias. She would have infinitely preferred going on

queening it in Darmstadt, or in any other small German town, than to

have been chosen as the bride of the future Nicholas II., for whom she

felt neither sympathy, affection, nor esteem.

But her brother’s prospective marriage changed considerably her

position. She would no longer occupy the position of the first lady of

her beloved Hesse; she would find installed in the place which had been

her own for so many happy years a woman younger than herself, with an

independent character, a determined mind, a woman who would most

probably grow very quickly to impose herself and her ways of thinking,

not only on the whole Hessian Court, but also on the Grand Duke, whose

sister was condemned beforehand to be neglected and treated as a

negligible quantity.

This was gall and wormwood to the passionate, selfish girl, and this

feeling of hers, which she allowed her cousin the Kaiser to guess, was

very cleverly exploited by the latter in view of a marriage which none

desired more ardently than himself. Next to his own sister, there was no

one in the whole world whom he would have more ardently wished to

become Empress of Russia than his cousin Alix. He invited himself to

Darmstadt for a short visit, and while there took the first opportunity

to discuss the subject with her. He told her what very few people knew

at the time, and what the general public was entirely ignorant of--the

serious nature of the illness with which Alexander III. was attacked, an

illness which gave no hope whatever of recovery. By marrying the young

Grand-Duke Nicholas the Princess would find herself but for a short time

in a so to say subordinate position. A few months would see her raised

to one of the greatest thrones in Europe, from the height of which she

would be enabled to look down with contempt and pity on the cousin who

was about to take at the Darmstadt Court the place she had occupied so

long she had grown to consider it as her very own.

Moreover, she would be able to win back Russia and its ruler to the

cause of the German alliance, and thus accomplish one of her duties as a

loyal German woman. He appealed to her worst instincts while seeming to

call on her noblest ones to assert themselves, and once more he won the

day.

In St. Petersburg, too, Hohenzollern influence and intrigues had worked

actively, until at last the Czar, feeling perhaps that his days were

numbered and perhaps also no longer strong enough to resist perfidious

advice given to him by interested people, yielded the point, and when

his eldest son started for Coburg to attend there the Princess Victoria

Mélita’s wedding, he authorized him to ask for the hand of Alix of

Hesse.

As I have related, the marriage was at once announced, and we have seen

already its first results. The reason why I have once more returned to

its subject was to explain some of the causes which led the Empress

Alexandra to conceive such a bad opinion about Russia, and to detest so

cordially the Russian people. Her early dislike for Madame Kolémine had

given her a natural antipathy for everything connected with the latter

country; her visits there had strengthened this feeling; her vanity had

been hurt by finding that St. Petersburg’s society had paid absolutely

no attention to her; and her slow, commonplace mind had been utterly

unable to understand the refinement and high breeding of the Russian

upper classes. Her natural coldness and ignorance had been repulsed

instead of attracted by the simplicity but genuine kind-heartedness of

the lower ones. She thought the nation one of savages and she made no

secret whatever of that opinion, expressing her intention of correcting

those “awful Russian manners,” which had seemed to her young and

inexperienced eyes so very dreadful when she had first become acquainted

with them.

It is most likely that if she had married a small German Prince or

Potentate she would have put herself out of the way to please his

subjects. But she did not think the Russians worth her while. She

considered that they ought to feel themselves highly honored by the fact

that she had consented to come and reign over them, and in her own mind

she did not attach any more importance to the judgments they might be

inclined to bestow in regard to her person than she would have done to

the criticisms of the first beggar in the street. She arrived in her new

country despising it, together with its people, determined to ignore the

wishes it might have or the necessities it might require. She arrived

there prejudiced and bigoted, and so full of contempt for the land that

hailed her as its Queen that she did not admit the possibility of

treating it as one inhabited by human beings, but determined to apply to

it some of the methods used by the Germans in their treatment of their

Colonies.

For the opinion held by Alix of Hesse-Darmstadt in regard to Russia was

simply that it ought to be nothing else but a Colony of the vast German

Empire, and she felt more pride at the thought that she might reduce it

to this condition than at the idea that she had been chosen out of so

many other women to become the Empress of that Realm.

VII

WHAT THE IMPERIAL FAMILY THOUGHT ABOUT THE EMPRESS

It would not have been human on the part of the Imperial Family to like

the young wife of Nicholas II. in those early days which followed upon

her marriage. The feminine portion of it especially could have been

expected, before even the wedding of Alexandra Feodorowna had been

solemnized, to look upon her with eyes full of criticism and with the

desire to find fault with whatever she might say or do. Here she was, a

young, lovely girl, in the full bloom of her beauty, put into the place

of the first lady in the Realm, at a moment’s notice, before even she

had gone through that period of probation which falls as a general rule

to the lot of every Consort of a Sovereign when she is but the wife of

the Heir to the Throne. Had the haughty Imperial ladies, who for so many

years had ruled according to their fancies St. Petersburg society, found

themselves in presence of a Grand-Duchess Czarevna whom they would have

been able to advise, scold, or pet, according to their fancy, they

might have taken, from the height of their own unassailable positions, a

more indulgent view of her unavoidable mistakes. They would have thought

of her as of a young niece who owed them respect and submission, and

whom it was their duty to train according to the exigencies of Russian

etiquette. It must be remembered that Nicholas II. to the very day of

his accession had been treated by his family like a mere boy without any

importance. All of a sudden he found himself a Sovereign and, what was

even worse, his wife, the little Hessian Princess, upon whom everybody

had looked down with pity mixed with contempt, was the Empress of All

the Russias. This was more than the Romanoffs could endure, especially

when they remembered the cool, authoritative manner which the late Czar

Alexander III. had always adopted in regard to them, and when they

thought it might be possible his successor would imitate him in that

respect at least, if not in others.

They need not have been in any apprehension as to this last point.

Nicholas II., though he detested his uncles, yet stood in such awe of

them that he would never have dared assert himself in their presence,

far less contradict them. But the Empress had a different character, and

she very quickly realized that all her relatives were furious at the

fact of her being placed so far above them in rank and position. Fully

conscious as she was of that rank, she determined that she would use its

advantages to crush those in whom she saw but enemies, which in some

cases was not quite exact, because there were then still some persons

who, had she only appealed to them, would have responded to her call for

sympathy and put themselves at her disposal, if only out of the motive

that in rallying around her they were at the same time establishing

their own influence.

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