The day had been rainy, some time after these occurrences, and the
governess and her pupil were taking their needful exercise in the
garden--up one side and down the other under the bare trees. They
trudged along, making a sharp noise upon the wet gravel with their
heels, occasionally very fast when they thought of it in the true spirit
of a constitutional, occasionally lingering when they got into a
discussion, and their tongues went faster than their feet.
Things had fallen into comparative tranquillity, and Janet, though far
from at ease in more respects than one, was drawn on from day to day
with the force of the current, and had no idea, whatever mysteries there
might lie under the surface or troubles might be to come, of packing up
in a hurry and rushing away. She wanted to see what was going to
happen--very curious, a little disturbed, with more things going on in
her little mind than were known to any philosophy. Julia was the
greatest talker when the two were alone, and Janet carried on her
thoughts and the thread of many a reflection through the girl’s chatter
at her ease--for Julia answered her own questions in a great many cases,
or forgot that she asked any, and a very small response on the part of
Janet sufficed to keep her satisfied.
What had happened, however, on this particular afternoon was that Dolff
had seen them from a window, and had sallied forth to join them. Dolff
had a very comfortable little study to which he retired for certain
hours in the day “to work”--as everybody said. Perhaps in her heart Mrs.
Harwood had not very much more confidence than other people in Dolff’s
work. But she liked to say she had--to deceive, perhaps, a family friend
now and then, or, what was more likely, herself.
Dolff, however, smoking a cigarette over his work--which in this case
was an old French novel--saw the two figures in the garden, and threw
aside his book with as much alacrity as if it had been Aristotle. He did
not much care even for a French novel: literature of any kind was not
his forte. And it was the afternoon, in which no man, nor woman either,
has any call to work. It is going against the very rules of Providence
to work between four and five o’clock, and you cannot disregard these
laws with impunity. Nothing that is done between these hours is ever
good. If it is reading, it runs out of your memory as fast as you put
it in; if it is writing, it is so bad that next morning you tear the
paper across and throw it into the fire. Dolff was deeply sensible of
this penalty of untimely labor. He threw his book aside, picked up his
cap, and went downstairs. A walk in the garden before tea, which was a
refreshment his mother liked him to share, was exactly what was needed
to keep him up to the mark.
It is difficult to say how these things happen; but after Dolff joined
the pair, Julia separated herself with an instinct which need not be
defined. She found that two was company and three was none. She was a
little impatient at the sight of her brother when he first appeared, but
afterwards accepted the situation, and began to find that she had a
great many things to distract her attention. She wanted to speak to the
gardener. She wanted to see whether the snowdrops were appearing which
grew in the grass under the trees. She wished to look how the primulas
were coming on in the little conservatory. It was well, on the whole,
that Dolff had appeared to leave her free, for she could not have
allowed Janet to walk alone, and yet she had all these things to do.
Dolff was not very great at conversation, as the reader may imagine; and
it was very seldom that he had found a chance of talking to Janet alone,
or so nearly alone as they were now. He began with the weather, as was
natural. It had been very cold. That night he went to the ball he
thought he should have been frozen walking home, coming out of the hot
rooms after dancing all night. It was a beautiful moonlight night,
indeed, as Miss Summerhayes remarked--but dreadfully cold.
“I hope it was a nice ball?” said Janet.
“Oh, yes; it was a nice enough ball, but I did not know very many
people. I wish you had been there, Miss Summerhayes; but perhaps you
don’t care for that sort of thing?”
“Indeed I do,” said Janet. “I am very fond of dancing. At least, I used
to be when I was in the way of it.”
“I hope you are not out of the way of it now. We must have a dance at
Christmas. I am sure you dance to perfection, Miss Summerhayes.”
“Oh, no,” said Janet, with a laugh. “I don’t do anything to perfection,
but I confess I am fond of dancing.”
“And of music, too,” said the grateful Dolff. “I know you are--good
music, not my sort. And yet you are so very kind as to play for me.”
“Oh, please don’t speak so. I am very glad to play--for anyone.
Everybody is very kind to me. I am here to be of any use I can.”
“I hope, Miss Summerhayes,” said Dolff, growing very red, “that you
don’t think I would presume to ask you--on that ground.”
“I don’t mean anything disagreeable,” said Janet. “I am sure you don’t
ask me because I am the governess. But if your mother makes me like one
of the family in other things, I must be so in this too.”
“How strange it is!” cried Dolff; and then he added, growing redder,
“Don’t be angry with me, Miss Summerhayes. To think that being one of
our family should be anything to you!”
“Why not?” said Janet. “It is always a great thing for a governess to
have such a kind home.”
“A governess!” he said. “It hurts me to hear you call yourself a
governess. Don’t, oh, don’t, please!”
“Why not?” she said again, and laughed. “It does not hurt me at all. I
have no objection to being a governess. You need not be so careful of my
feelings. I am quite contented to be what I am.”
“That is because you are----” Dolff murmured something in his young
moustache, and grew redder than ever.
Janet was not sure that it was not ‘an angel’; and she was very much
amused--not displeased either. There is no harm in being well thought
of. She liked it on the whole.
“It is because I had--nothing else to look for,” she said; “and I am not
a discontented person. One can always get a little fun out of
everything. It was rather fun coming out like this upon the world, not
knowing what sort of place one might find oneself in. It is the nearest
to beginning a brand-new life of anything I know.”
“Well, about fun I can’t tell,” said Dolff, a little abashed. “I--I hope
you think there is a little more in us than that.”
“There is a great deal more,” said Janet, “oh, a great deal more. You
have all been so good. I mean before I came that it was fun imagining
what my new family would be like, and how I should get on, and what sort
of a pupil I should have, and all that.”
“I daresay,” said Dolff, “you never thought there would be a cub of a
brother to bother you with his vulgar songs--oh, I know they’re
vulgar--at least, I know now. A set of men, you know, is different. We
bellow them out at each other’s rooms, and make an awful row in the
chorus, and think them jolly.”
“And so they are, I suppose,” said Janet, with a smile.
“I assure you,” said Dolff, “I don’t think so now. I have been getting
more and more ashamed of them, Miss Summerhayes. I’ve gone on singing
them just for the pleasure of your playing. But I’ll not do it any
more.”
“I cannot see why you should give up what is a pleasure to you,” said
Janet. “If you think I dislike playing for you, it is not so at all.”
“That’s because you’re so good and charitable; they’re not fit for you
to touch. I can see that now. In a roomful of men that are thinking of
nothing but noise and diversion, such things are all very well; but for
your hands to touch, no, no--I see it all now.”
There was in Dolff’s voice a tone of touching regret. He felt the
sacrifice he was making, yet he was ready to lay it at the feet of his
lady. Between amusement and a certain pleasure in his devotion Janet’s
countenance shone.
“I can’t allow you,” she said, “to make such a sacrifice. You must have
something to amuse you in the evenings; and your mother likes to hear
you sing. Never mind if they are a little--well! some of them are quite
nice--they are not all vulgar. I will show you the ones I like best.”
“Will you be so very, very kind to me, Miss Summerhayes? It is out of
the goodness of your heart, I know. Yes, my mother likes it, and she has
good reason. I used always to be going out of nights getting into bad
company. I can tell _you_, Miss Janet, though I could not tell anyone
else. Poor mother was anxious about me, of course. But now I have no
wish to go out at night. The Strand may be in Timbuctoo for anything I
care. I never want to spend an evening away from home. So long as you
will go on playing them--the best of them, don’t you know--you will make
both mother and me happy.”
“Well,” said Janet, “it is very easily done: and there are some others
that I think would suit your voice. We might go over them together.”
Dolff turned quickly round as if he would have seized her hand, but
overawed by the imposing vision of Janet, who met his eager look with a
slight elevation of her head and withdrawal from his side, drew back
again a little shyly. But he was beaming with happiness and gratitude.
“If you will do that for me, Miss Summerhayes,” he said, “I can’t tell
you how happy you will make me.” He paused a moment, and then gave vent
to a laugh. “Gussy and Meredith may think they’re very grand,” he said;
“they look down upon me as if I was a clown at the circus; but just you
stand by me, Miss Summerhayes,” he said, with a little break in his
voice; “by Jove, we’ll put them on their mettle!”
Dolff was so delighted with the future joys which he saw before him
that he smote his manly thigh in exultation. His face was crimsoned with
pleasure and satisfaction, shining behind the faint shadows thrown upon
it by his colorless hair and light mustache. He was happy and he was
proud, doubly repaid for the genuine humility which had prompted his
sacrifice. Janet had made him feel his coarseness and imperfection. It
was with all the greater exultation that he felt himself mounting up
with her into a higher place.
“You must remember, Mr. Harwood,” said Janet, “that Mr. Meredith has a
beautiful voice. There are not many people that have a voice like that.”
“Do you really think so?” said Dolff, somewhat crestfallen. “He thinks a
deal of it himself, I know.”
“A man cannot have a voice like that,” said Janet, “without knowing it.
I will do my very best for you, but no one can give you a voice like
that. And your sister sings very well, too. I think I could help her a
little--but she doesn’t think so, which is a pity. But you cannot do as
well as that, Mr. Harwood--oh, no, whatever we may do.”
“I don’t mind,” said Dolff, magnanimously, “so long as you back me up,
Miss Summerhayes. If you’re pleased, that’s all I care for. I know you
don’t like Meredith, I’ve seen it in your eyes. We’ll have concerts of
our own, and my mother will like it, for one, better than twenty
Merediths. And Gussy can’t hold a candle to you--not in any way. Do you
think I am so stupid that I can’t be trusted to see that?”
Janet’s mind was a little excited by this conversation. An uninterrupted
course of adulation is not a disagreeable thing altogether: even if we
do not have a very high opinion to begin with of the genius of the
person who expresses it, our idea of his judgment will probably improve
when we see how he appreciates our merits. Janet was no doubt more or
less influenced by this natural sentiment; but she was also a little
shaken by his confidence in respect to Meredith.
I know you don’t like him--was it true? She felt herself pulled up short
by that unhesitating expression. I know you don’t like Meredith. It gave
her heart a quicker beat: it was like the drawing up of a curtain upon a
scene--a scene very much confused and covered with clouds, but not what
her companion in ignorance of her and of all things had made sure it
was. The curtain divided, opened for a moment, and then the folds fell
back again, leaving her not much the wiser. No, not much the wiser; but
not at least as Dolff supposed. After all he was a lout, though he
admired her so much, which was a sign of good taste; but to take it for
granted that he understood her was a little too much. Also, it was
quite time to change the subject. He might rush upon her at any moment
with other words that it might not be easy to answer. Decidedly the
subject must be changed. She turned round upon him quite suddenly,
though not without a little conscious artifice.
“Mr. Harwood,” she said, “I want you to tell me one thing.”
“A hundred things, Miss Summerhayes; as many as you like.”
“Well, it is just this. Do you put full confidence in Mr. Vicars?” she
said, looking him full in the face.
“Mr. Vicars,” cried Dolff, with the most comical expression of
astonishment and dismay. He had thought, poor fellow, that he was
“getting on very well” with Miss Summerhayes; he had felt himself able
to speak to her as he never had been able to speak before. Yes, and she
had understood him, agreed to what he had scarcely ventured to ask, and,
though she had not flattered him (which was so much greater a compliment
he had said to himself somewhat ruefully), had at least seemed willing
to help him--to stand by him. Decidedly he had been getting on; but what
in the world could she mean by this sudden _volte-face_. “Mr. Vicars!”
he repeated, with amaze; then slowly dawning into understanding. “Old
Vicars?” he said; “the old butler?” then Dolff paused to laugh. “You
startled me so, I could not think what you meant. Do I put confidence in
him? Well, I suppose so--that is--I can’t tell. I know very little about
him; but my mother does, I have always heard. Do you--take any interest
in Vicars, Miss Summerhayes?”
“Oh, no,” said Janet. “I thought as he was such an old servant you must
know him very well.”
“So I do,” said Dolff, “and yet I don’t. I have not been much at
home--only for the holidays when I was at school, and now only for
vacations. And half the time we were always away at the seaside or
somewhere. It is strange how little a fellow is at home when he is
young, though of course when one is the only man of the family, and all
that, I suppose you think I ought to pay some attention to things at my
age.”
“Oh, it was only an idle question,” Janet said.
“But I should like you to know: everything is in my mother’s hands for
her life. That is--not everything. I have the most of the money, but not
till I’m twenty-five: and she has the house and all the management. Of
course I ought to pay more attention; and if I was to marry, or that
sort of thing, I should have to settle up, and I don’t know that she
would have enough left to keep up this house. I have never thought of
marrying till--quite lately; and I’ve always left everything in her
hands and never interfered. Do you think I ought to pay more attention,
Miss Summerhayes?”
“Oh,” cried Janet, after two or three attempts to stop him, “I did not
indeed want you to tell me about your family matters. It was only an
idle question. I--I don’t like the look of the man, and I only asked for
curiosity. I never wanted to pry into your family affairs.”
Dolff gave her a look which was full of meaning. He drew himself up to
his full length, and instinctively pulled at his shirt-collar, and
smoothed his mustache.
“Miss Summerhayes,” he said, with dignity, “never speak of prying, for
that is what you could not do. It is I who wanted you to know.”