CHAPTER XXIII.

“Well,” said Gussy, “I cannot say that I see any harm in that. We have

not had anything of the kind for a long time. We must see what mamma

says. It does turn the house upside down, and give a great deal of

trouble. But--you know mamma always likes to do anything to please you,

and make you fond of your home, Dolff----”

“I should like to see any fellow that is more fond of his home, or

sticks to it more,” cried Dolff.

“You have been very good lately,” said Gussy, in a hesitating tone, “if

only one could be quite sure.”

Gussy did not know what to think. Mr. Meredith’s laughter and innuendoes

had opened her eyes as to the cause of the virtue of Dolff; and she did

not like the persistence with which Charley came back to the subject.

She had no desire to be talked to about Miss Summerhayes and her

influence for a whole evening, even if it was by way of jest. And as

regarded the matter itself, though Gussy was quite willing to accept

Janet’s aid in keeping Dolff from nightly wanderings which were not for

his advantage, she did not like to be called upon to acknowledge that

aid; still less to consider that it might lead to what she called

further complications: the idea of “further complications” was highly

disagreeable to her. Janet was very well in her way. She was good for

Julia, and fortunately for Dolff too. It was a great advantage to have

anyone who would keep those troublesome members of the family in order.

But--the idea of further complications alarmed her very much. It was the

last thing in the world that was desirable for any one concerned.

“I shall tell my mother I have set my heart on having a dance. How can

you expect a man to stick to his home as you wish if he has nothing to

amuse him? I will settle all that with my mother myself,” said Dolff,

somewhat magisterially. He turned round upon her, however, after a

moment: “If you don’t interfere.”

“Why should I interfere, if it makes you happy? To be sure it is a great

trouble turning everything upside down.”

“One would think you were forty, Gussy!”

“I am not so young as you, at all events,” she said.

Gussy was as good as her word, and did not interfere. Even when she was

privately consulted by her mother she said nothing against Dolff’s wish.

“If it keeps him up to the mark,” said Mrs. Harwood. “It is such a

pleasure to see him so nice, to see him so improved--none of those

wanderings out at night.”

“Yes, it is a great improvement,” said Gussy. She shook her head, with a

sigh, and hoped that it would last.

“It has lasted a month,” said Mrs. Harwood, “I see no reason why it

should not last forever. How can I refuse him anything when he is so

good? Vicars will not like it. It distracts his mind, and he says he

never knows what may happen: but I think I can smooth down Vicars,

Gussy, if you are sure that you approve.”

“Oh, yes, I approve,” said Gussy, “anything to keep him steady.”

But Gussy herself was still young enough, and she thought of all the

opportunities of the dance and the talks aside, the conversations in

quiet corners, which were legitimate on such an occasion, with a little

stir in her heart. At the piano, even though it was at the other end of

the room, it was still under her mother’s eyes. She never saw her lover,

never talked with him except under her mother’s eyes. How could he say

anything under such circumstances? Her heart was a little sick that it

should all go on forever in the same way, without the least progress. He

talked about the songs, or about Janet and her influence on Dolff,

laughing at what he said he had foreseen from the first. Gussy did not

quite like the discussion of her brother, who, after all, _was_ her

brother, and not to be dissected as Charley loved to do, and she was not

fond of hearing so much about Miss Summerhayes. There was no special

interest in Miss Summerhayes that she should be the object of so much

conversation between the two. And Gussy could not help thinking with a

little pleasure of all the possibilities of the ball, where it was not

only possible that two could talk together quite untrammelled, but where

it was even a necessity that they should do so. To sit apart in a room

unobserved with Charley once at least in the evening would be almost her

duty; and then--with nothing to disturb them, no occasion for

self-restraint--Gussy thought of this with a thrill through her veins

yet with a sigh. She was becoming weary. All this had gone on for so

long, and it looked as if it might go on forever without change.

Curiously enough it was the governess alone--as if she had any say in

the matter!--who objected to the idea. Of course she did not object in

words--but she nearly wrecked the project notwithstanding. She said,

very innocently, that she did not think--even though Mrs. Harwood was so

good as to ask her--that she could be present. There was a great outcry

over this, for it was at luncheon, and the whole family was at table.

“Not come to the dance?” said Dolff. “Oh, but, Miss Summerhayes, that

will spoil everything. I have--we’ve all calculated upon you, haven’t

we, mother. Tell her she must come.”

“My dear,” said Mrs. Harwood, “this is quite a new idea. I couldn’t have

a dance in the house, knowing there was a young person upstairs alone.

Oh, no, I couldn’t do it. Dolff is quite right--you must come.”

Gussy had only said “Oh!” raising her eyelids--but Janet read in that

exclamation a suspicion and question. Gussy did not believe that she was

sincere, and was curious to know what her motive was. The two had

drifted apart strangely, but this suspicion was not native to Miss

Harwood’s mind. It came from all those talks about Janet, and Dolff’s

subjection to her, which had afforded an opportunity for so much

amusement over the piano. Meredith would say, “Ah! I wonder what she

means by that?” till Gussy put the question to herself involuntarily as

he would have put it, feeling all the same that sick weariness with the

subject which translated itself unjustly, but not unnaturally, into an

impatience with Janet which sometimes she could hardly restrain.

“I should like to come,” said Janet, “but you forget I am in mourning.

It is not six months yet----”

“That is true,” said the old lady; but she added: “My dear, I like you

the better for thinking of it. But, after all, she was not a near

relation--not like your mother. For an aunt, six months’ mourning is

all that any one thinks of nowadays. And I believe the late poor lady

was not even an aunt.”

“She was all I ever had, for mother or aunt or guardian.”

“Yes, I know--but left you to struggle for yourself, which makes a

little difference. And what harm can it do her, poor thing, that you

should enjoy yourself a little? You don’t get so many opportunities in

this quiet house. When Dolff goes away we shall all relapse into our

needlework again.”

“And Charley Meredith,” said Julia.

Thought is quicker than the most rapid utterance. Julia’s words came

instantaneously, almost before her mother had done speaking, but it had

flashed into two different minds before she spoke. And Charley Meredith!

Gussy added that reflection to the picture of the future with an

increasing sickness and impatience of her heart, seeing the same thing

over again stretch before her, not without happiness in it, but with a

weariness and incompleteness which would grow day by day. And it gleamed

into Janet’s thoughts with a certain excitement and suspense, as of a

thing of which nobody could prophesy how it would end. The sudden

movement in both minds was curiously struck as by a false note by Mrs.

Harwood’s calm reply:

“And Charley Meredith, perhaps. But that can’t affect Janet, except the

wrong way: for I confess, myself, I get sick of these two always

philandering--I beg your pardon, Gussy, my dear, but I’ve been young in

my day--and other young people looking on, you know: why they must

either make fun of you or the water must come into their mouths.”

The old lady laughed in the heartless way in which old ladies will

laugh. She was only the more tickled when Gussy drew herself up, and,

looking straight before her with a blank countenance and the sternest

gravity, replied,

“I cannot form the slightest idea what you mean, mamma, or what there is

in anything that has been said to call forth such a digression. We were

speaking of the dance, I think, and of Janet’s mourning, which I agree

with you is no reason why she should shut herself up.”

“I’m sure I beg your pardon, Gussy,” said Mrs. Harwood, wiping her eyes,

for she had not been able to stop her laugh, “but I’m glad of your

support. No, no, my dear, the mourning has nothing to say to it. You

have worn it very faithfully, and you have done your poor aunt full

justice. I’m sure, poor lady, she would be the first to say, could she

know, that you must now begin to enjoy yourself a little. At least, take

what enjoyment you can: for you know the men are generally in the

minority, and nobody can ever tell till the last moment whether there

will be enough partners or not.”

“There shall be enough,” said Dolff, with a grand air. “I should be

ashamed of myself if I couldn’t produce a lot of fellows--only you’ll

have to put some of them up for the night. Couldn’t you clear out that

old wing? There must be some rooms that could be used if they were

tidied up.”

“No,” said Mrs. Harwood, with a change of countenance. She, too, became

perfectly blank, as Gussy had done, dismissing all expression from her

face. “It is quite out of the question to open the wing.”

“Why?” said Dolff. “I don’t see the difficulty. A couple of housemaids

and a few brooms----”

“My boy, I must be the judge on this point,” said Mrs. Harwood. “There

is nothing to be done with the wing.”

“But, mother----”

“I will have no more said on the subject,” she answered, peremptorily.

“You had better come and wheel me into my room, I have some business to

do this morning. And, Janet, I hope it’s settled, and that I shall hear

no more about your mourning.”

“You are very kind, Mrs. Harwood. I am afraid I have no dress----”

“You have a very pretty dress; and let me tell you, my dear--though I

daresay you know it--that black is always becoming, and that you look

very well in that dress. Now, Dolff----”

“I hope we shan’t hear any more on that subject,” said Gussy, with an

air of decision, as her mother’s chair was wheeled away. “I’m very glad

to humor Dolff, but I shall soon be very tired of it if there are many

more difficulties. Dress is always a nuisance on such occasions. One

wears a ball dress once--it is as good as new, but when one takes it out

it is old-fashioned, or faded, or something, and it is such a waste of

good money to get another to be worn again only on one occasion. You may

be very glad you are in black, Janet--and there is Ju, she is not out,

and won’t be for a couple of years. And yet she can’t be sent to bed.

How is she to be dressed for this one night? I know mamma will overdo it

if she is left to herself. All that and the supper, and the musicians,

and everything of that kind is left on my hands. A ball may be very nice

at the moment--for those who like it--but the trouble it gives, both

before and after! Every spare inch of room must, of course, be got ready

for Dolff’s friends.”

“Do you think, then, that Mrs. Harwood will yield about the wing?” said

Janet, very curious.

“As if Vicars would!” cried Julia. “Mamma doesn’t matter--it’s Vicars

that won’t have it. I’ve always wanted to get into the wing, but Vicars

stands sentinel as if he were a jailer. I’ve told him a dozen times I

was sure he had got something wrong in there. I can’t bear Vicars!” said

Julia, hurrying out the words to get as much said as possible before

Gussy’s imperative tones broke in.

“Ju! you are unbearable. I thought at one time there was an improvement,

but there’s none. Vicars is a most valuable servant. We have the highest

respect for him and his opinion, both mamma and I. At such a time as

this he is more good than words can say--and always so careful for the

credit of the house. Isn’t it time you had begun lessons? I must go and

see after the house.”

As Janet followed her pupil out of the room she was met in the hall by

Dolff, very eager and breathless.

“You’re coming, Miss Summerhayes? I must stop you just for a moment to

make sure. Don’t spoil it altogether by saying you’ll not come. I shan’t

care a brass farthing for it if you’re not there. But you _will_

come--say you will? You won’t disappoint us all and ruin it for me----”

“I can’t see what difference it would make,” said Janet, “especially if

there are too many ladies already.”

“But that wouldn’t affect _you_. You will always---- Miss Summerhayes,

I’ll throw it all up if you don’t come.”

“Don’t threaten me, Mr. Harwood; besides, after what your mother so

kindly said, I am coming--to look on at least.”

“Oh, I like that!” cried Dolff. He seized her hand and squeezed it as

she passed him. “But you may say anything you like,” he said, rejoicing,

“so long as you come.”

“Janet,” said Julia, when they had reached the school-room, “I think

this is getting a very queer house. Gussy cares for nothing but Charley

Meredith, and Dolff cares for nothing but you. It is--odd--don’t you

think?”

“It would be if it were true,” said Janet; “but as it is a mere fancy,

it is not worth discussing. I hope you are quite ready with your

preparation to-day.”

“I can’t see,” said Julia, “any signs in you like the other two: but

perhaps it’s just your artfulness. One thing, Dolff is much nicer than

he was before. As for Gussy----”

“We are not here to discuss either your brother or your sister, Julia,

and I will not have it. Where are your books?”

“Janet, you have a dreadfully strong will. Mamma says so. I suppose you

never would give in to another person; to do what they wanted, and not

what you wanted yourself?”

“It does not look as if I had a very strong will,” said Janet, with a

laugh, “when you run on defying me, instead of getting out your books.”

“That’s no answer,” said Julia. “If Dolff asked you----”

“Come,” said Janet, “this is going too far. I think the Wars of the

Roses are much more interesting. You have never yet made out that table

showing how Henry the Seventh succeeded; and how it was so wise of him

to marry Elizabeth of York. Come, you’ll understand it all so much the

better when you see how it comes----”

“As if I cared,” said Julia, opening her books with a sigh; “they were

all cousins, and the one that was strongest took everything, and when

the other one got stronger he took it all back. I know exactly how it

was; all cousins are like that. The very same thing happened with Mary

Morgan, who is my cousin. All the toys used to be mine while I had

Dolff, and Fred was away; but as soon as Fred came home, who was the

biggest, he seized them all. I know it far better than any book could

say.”

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