VIII

What was at all events not permanently hidden from him was a

truth much less invidious about his years of darkness. It was the

strange scheme of things again: the years of darkness had been

needed to render possible the years of light. A wiser hand than

he at first knew had kept him hard at acquisition of one sort as

a perfect preliminary to acquisition of another, and the

preliminary would have been weak and wanting if the good faith of

it had been less. His comparative blindness had made the good

faith, which in its turn had made the soil propitious for the

flower of the supreme idea. He had had to LIKE forging and

sweating, he had had to like polishing and piling up his arms.

They were things at least he had had to believe he liked, just as

he had believed he liked transcendent calculation and imaginative

gambling all for themselves, the creation of "interests" that

were the extinction of other interests, the livid vulgarity,

even, of getting in, or getting out, first. That had of course

been so far from really the case--with the supreme idea, all the

while, growing and striking deep, under everything, in the warm,

rich earth. He had stood unknowing, he had walked and worked

where it was buried, and the fact itself, the fact of his

fortune, would have been a barren fact enough if the first sharp

tender shoot had never struggled into day. There on one side was

the ugliness his middle time had been spared; there on the other,

from all the portents, was the beauty with which his age might

still be crowned. He was happier, doubtless, than he deserved;

but THAT, when one was happy at all, it was easy to be. He had

wrought by devious ways, but he had reached the place, and what

would ever have been straighter, in any man's life, than his way,

now, of occupying it? It hadn't merely, his plan, all the

sanctions of civilization; it was positively civilization

condensed, concrete, consummate, set down by his hands as a house

on a rock--a house from whose open doors and windows, open to

grateful, to thirsty millions, the higher, the highest knowledge

would shine out to bless the land. In this house, designed as a

gift, primarily, to the people of his adoptive city and native

State, the urgency of whose release from the bondage of ugliness

he was in a position to measure--in this museum of museums, a

palace of art which was to show for compact as a Greek temple was

compact, a receptacle of treasures sifted to positive sanctity,

his spirit to-day almost altogether lived, making up, as he would

have said, for lost time and haunting the portico in anticipation

of the final rites.

These would be the "opening exercises," the august dedication of

the place. His imagination, he was well aware, got over the

ground faster than his judgment; there was much still to do for

the production of his first effect. Foundations were laid and

walls were rising, the structure of the shell all determined; but

raw haste was forbidden him in a connection so intimate with the

highest effects of patience and piety; he should belie himself by

completing without a touch at least of the majesty of delay a

monument to the religion he wished to propagate, the exemplary

passion, the passion for perfection at any price. He was far from

knowing as yet where he would end, but he was admirably definite

as to where he wouldn't begin. He wouldn't begin with a small

show--he would begin with a great, and he could scarce have

indicated, even had he wished to try, the line of division he had

drawn. He had taken no trouble to indicate it to his fellow-

citizens, purveyors and consumers, in his own and the

circumjacent commonwealths, of comic matter in large lettering,

diurnally "set up," printed, published, folded and delivered, at

the expense of his presumptuous emulation of the snail. The snail

had become for him, under this ironic suggestion, the loveliest

beast in nature, and his return to England, of which we are

present witnesses, had not been unconnected with the appreciation

so determined. It marked what he liked to mark, that he needed,

on the matter in question, instruction from no one on earth. A

couple of years of Europe again, of renewed nearness to changes

and chances, refreshed sensibility to the currents of the market,

would fall in with the consistency of wisdom, the particular

shade of enlightened conviction, that he wished to observe. It

didn't look like much for a whole family to hang about waiting-

they being now, since the birth of his grandson, a whole family;

and there was henceforth only one ground in all the world, he

felt, on which the question of appearance would ever really again

count for him. He cared that a work of art of price should "look

like" the master to whom it might perhaps be deceitfully

attributed; but he had ceased on the whole to know any matter of

the rest of life by its looks.

He took life in general higher up the stream; so far as he was

not actually taking it as a collector, he was taking it,

decidedly, as a grandfather. In the way of precious small pieces

he had handled nothing so precious as the Principino, his

daughter's first-born, whose Italian designation endlessly amused

him and whom he could manipulate and dandle, already almost toss

and catch again, as he couldn't a correspondingly rare morsel of

an earlier pate tendre. He could take the small clutching child

from his nurse's arms with an iteration grimly discountenanced,

in respect to their contents, by the glass doors of high

cabinets. Something clearly beatific in this new relation had,

moreover, without doubt, confirmed for him the sense that none of

his silent answers to public detraction, to local vulgarity, had

ever been so legitimately straight as the mere element of

attitude--reduce it, he said, to that--in his easy weeks at

Fawns. The element of attitude was all he wanted of these weeks,

and he was enjoying it on the spot, even more than he had hoped:

enjoying it in spite of Mrs. Rance and the Miss Lutches; in spite

of the small worry of his belief that Fanny Assingham had really

something for him that she was keeping back; in spite of his full

consciousness, overflowing the cup like a wine too generously

poured, that if he had consented to marry his daughter, and

thereby to make, as it were, the difference, what surrounded him

now was, exactly, consent vivified, marriage demonstrated, the

difference, in fine, definitely made. He could call back his

prior, his own wedded consciousness--it was not yet out of range

of vague reflection. He had supposed himself, above all he had

supposed his wife, as married as anyone could be, and yet he

wondered if their state had deserved the name, or their union

worn the beauty, in the degree to which the couple now before him

carried the matter. In especial since the birth of their boy, in

New York--the grand climax of their recent American period,

brought to so right an issue--the happy pair struck him as having

carried it higher, deeper, further; to where it ceased to concern

his imagination, at any rate, to follow them. Extraordinary,

beyond question, was one branch of his characteristic mute

wonderment--it characterised above all, with its subject before

it, his modesty: the strange dim doubt, waking up for him at the

end of the years, of whether Maggie's mother had, after all, been

capable of the maximum. The maximum of tenderness he meant--as

the terms existed for him; the maximum of immersion in the fact

of being married. Maggie herself was capable; Maggie herself at

this season, was, exquisitely, divinely, the maximum: such was

the impression that, positively holding off a little for the

practical, the tactful consideration it inspired in him, a

respect for the beauty and sanctity of it almost amounting to awe

--such was the impression he daily received from her. She was her

mother, oh yes--but her mother and something more; it becoming

thus a new light for him, and in such a curious way too, that

anything more than her mother should prove at this time of day

possible.

He could live over again at almost any quiet moment the long

process of his introduction to his present interests--an

introduction that had depended all on himself, like the "cheek"

of the young man who approaches a boss without credentials or

picks up an acquaintance, makes even a real friend, by speaking

to a passer in the street. HIS real friend, in all the business,

was to have been his own mind, with which nobody had put him in

relation. He had knocked at the door of that essentially private

house, and his call, in truth, had not been immediately answered;

so that when, after waiting and coming back, he had at last got

in, it was, twirling his hat, as an embarrassed stranger, or,

trying his keys, as a thief at night. He had gained confidence

only with time, but when he had taken real possession of the

place it had been never again to come away. All of which success

represented, it must be allowed, his one principle of pride.

Pride in the mere original spring, pride in his money, would have

been pride in something that had come, in comparison, so easily.

The right ground for elation was difficulty mastered, and his

difficulty--thanks to his modesty--had been to believe in his

facility. THIS was the problem he had worked out to its

solution--the solution that was now doing more than all else to

make his feet settle and his days flush; and when he wished to

feel "good," as they said at American City, he had but to retrace

his immense development. That was what the whole thing came back

to--that the development had not been somebody's else passing

falsely, accepted too ignobly, for his. To think how servile he

might have been was absolutely to respect himself, was in fact,

as much as he liked, to admire himself, as free. The very finest

spring that ever responded to his touch was always there to

press--the memory of his freedom as dawning upon him, like a

sunrise all pink and silver, during a winter divided between

Florence, Rome and Naples some three years after his wife's

death. It was the hushed daybreak of the Roman revelation in

particular that he could usually best recover, with the way that

there, above all, where the princes and Popes had been before

him, his divination of his faculty most went to his head. He was

a plain American citizen, staying at an hotel where, sometimes,

for days together, there were twenty others like him; but no

Pope, no prince of them all had read a richer meaning, he

believed, into the character of the Patron of Art. He was ashamed

of them really, if he wasn't afraid, and he had on the whole

never so climbed to the tip-top as in judging, over a perusal of

Hermann Grimm, where Julius II and Leo X were "placed" by their

treatment of Michael Angelo. Far below the plain American

citizen--in the case at least in which this personage happened

not to be too plain to be Adam Verver. Going to our friend's

head, moreover, some of the results of such comparisons may

doubtless be described as having stayed there. His freedom to

see--of which the comparisons were part--what could it do but

steadily grow and grow?

It came perhaps even too much to stand to him for ALL freedom--

since, for example, it was as much there as ever at the very time

of Mrs. Rance's conspiring against him, at Fawns, with the

billiard-room and the Sunday morning, on the occasion round which

we have perhaps drawn our circle too wide. Mrs. Rance at least

controlled practically each other license of the present and the

near future: the license to pass the hour as he would have found

convenient; the license to stop remembering, for a little, that,

though if proposed to--and not only by this aspirant but by any

other--he wouldn't prove foolish, the proof of wisdom was none

the less, in such a fashion, rather cruelly conditioned; the

license in especial to proceed from his letters to his journals

and insulate, orientate, himself afresh by the sound, over his

gained interval, of the many-mouthed monster the exercise of

whose lungs he so constantly stimulated. Mrs. Rance remained with

him till the others came back from church, and it was by that

time clearer than ever that his ordeal, when it should arrive,

would be really most unpleasant. His impression--this was the

point--took somehow the form not so much of her wanting to press

home her own advantage as of her building better than she knew;

that is of her symbolising, with virtual unconsciousness, his own

special deficiency, his unfortunate lack of a wife to whom

applications could be referred. The applications, the

contingencies with which Mrs. Rance struck him as potentially

bristling, were not of a sort, really, to be met by one's self.

And the possibility of them, when his visitor said, or as good as

said, "I'm restrained, you see, because of Mr. Rance, and also

because I'm proud and refined; but if it WASN'T for Mr. Rance and

for my refinement and my pride!"--the possibility of them, I say,

turned to a great murmurous rustle, of a volume to fill the

future; a rustle of petticoats, of scented, many-paged letters,

of voices as to which, distinguish themselves as they might from

each other, it mattered little in what part of the resounding

country they had learned to make themselves prevail. The

Assinghams and the Miss Lutches had taken the walk, through the

park, to the little old church, "on the property," that our

friend had often found himself wishing he were able to transport,

as it stood, for its simple sweetness, in a glass case, to one of

his exhibitory halls; while Maggie had induced her husband, not

inveterate in such practices, to make with her, by carriage, the

somewhat longer pilgrimage to the nearest altar, modest though it

happened to be, of the faith--her own as it had been her

mother's, and as Mr. Verver himself had been loosely willing,

always, to let it be taken for his--without the solid ease of

which, making the stage firm and smooth, the drama of her

marriage might not have been acted out.

What at last appeared to have happened, however, was that the

divided parties, coming back at the same moment, had met outside

and then drifted together, from empty room to room, yet not in

mere aimless quest of the pair of companions they had left at

home. The quest had carried them to the door of the billiard-

room, and their appearance, as it opened to admit them,

determined for Adam Verver, in the oddest way in the world, a new

and sharp perception. It was really remarkable: this perception

expanded, on the spot, as a flower, one of the strangest, might,

at a breath, have suddenly opened. The breath, for that matter,

was more than anything else, the look in his daughter's eyes--the

look with which he SAW her take in exactly what had occurred in

her absence: Mrs. Rance's pursuit of him to this remote locality,

the spirit and the very form, perfectly characteristic, of his

acceptance of the complication--the seal set, in short,

unmistakably, on one of Maggie's anxieties. The anxiety, it was

true, would have been, even though not imparted, separately

shared; for Fanny Assingham's face was, by the same stroke, not

at all thickly veiled for him, and a queer light, of a colour

quite to match, fairly glittered in the four fine eyes of the

Miss Lutches. Each of these persons--counting out, that is, the

Prince and the Colonel, who didn't care, and who didn't even see

that the others did--knew something, or had at any rate had her

idea; the idea, precisely, that this was what Mrs. Rance,

artfully biding her time, WOULD do. The special shade of

apprehension on the part of the Miss Lutches might indeed have

suggested the vision of an energy supremely asserted. It was

droll, in truth, if one came to that, the position of the Miss

Lutches: they had themselves brought, they had guilelessly

introduced Mrs. Rance, strong in the fact of Mr. Rance's having

been literally beheld of them; and it was now for them,

positively, as if their handful of flowers--since Mrs. Rance was

a handful!--had been but the vehicle of a dangerous snake. Mr.

Verver fairly felt in the air the Miss Lutches' imputation--in

the intensity of which, really, his own propriety might have been

involved.

That, none the less, was but a flicker; what made the real

difference, as I have hinted, was his mute passage with Maggie.

His daughter's anxiety alone had depths, and it opened out for

him the wider that it was altogether new. When, in their common

past, when till this moment, had she shown a fear, however

dumbly, for his individual life? They had had fears together,

just as they had had joys, but all of hers, at least, had been

for what equally concerned them. Here of a sudden was a question

that concerned him alone, and the soundless explosion of it

somehow marked a date. He was on her mind, he was even in a

manner on her hands--as a distinct thing, that is, from being,

where he had always been, merely deep in her heart and in her

life; too deep down, as it were, to be disengaged, contrasted or

opposed, in short objectively presented. But time finally had

done it; their relation was altered: he SAW, again, the

difference lighted for her. This marked it to himself--and it

wasn't a question simply of a Mrs. Rance the more or the less.

For Maggie too, at a stroke, almost beneficently, their visitor

had, from being an inconvenience, become a sign. They had made

vacant, by their marriage, his immediate foreground, his personal

precinct--they being the Princess and the Prince. They had made

room in it for others--so others had become aware. He became

aware himself, for that matter, during the minute Maggie stood

there before speaking; and with the sense, moreover, of what he

saw her see, he had the sense of what she saw HIM. This last, it

may be added, would have been his intensest perception had there

not, the next instant, been more for him in Fanny Assingham. Her

face couldn't keep it from him; she had seen, on top of

everything, in her quick way, what they both were seeing.

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