CXXII

I HAD barely uttered these words, when that invisible being, like a

whirlwind, caught me up and bore me away into a large room, where he

made himself visible to my eyes in human form, appearing like a young

man whose beard is just growing, with a face of indescribable beauty,

but austere, not wanton. He bade me look around the room, and said: “The

crowd of men thou seest in this place are all those who up to this day

have been born and afterwards have died upon the earth.” Thereupon I

asked him why he brought me hither, and he answered: “Come with me and

thou shalt soon behold.” In my hand I had a poniard, and upon my back a

coat of mail; and so he led me through that vast hall, pointing out the

people who were walking by innumerable thousands up and down, this way

and that. He led me onward, and went forth in front of me through a

little low door into a place which looked like a narrow street; and when

he drew me after him into the street, at the moment of leaving the hall,

behold I was disarmed and clothed in a white shirt, with nothing on my

head, and I was walking on the right hand of my companion. Finding

myself in this condition, I was seized with wonder, because I did not

recognise the street; and when I lifted my eyes, I discerned that the

splendour of the sun was striking on a wall, as it were a house-front,

just above my head. Then I said: “Oh, my friend! what must I do in order

to be able to ascend so high that I may gaze upon the sphere of the sun

himself?” He pointed out some huge stairs which were on my right hand,

and said to me: “Go up thither by thyself.” Quitting his side, I

ascended the stairs backwards, and gradually began to come within the

region of the sunlight. Then I hastened my steps, and went on, always

walking backwards as I have described, until I discovered the whole

sphere of the sun. The strength of his rays, as is their wont, first

made me close my eyes; but becoming aware of my misdoing, I opened them

wide, and gazing steadfastly at the sun, exclaimed: “Oh, my sun, for

whom I have passionately yearned! Albeit your rays may blind me, I do

not wish to look on anything again but this!” So I stayed awhile with my

eyes fixed steadily on him; and after a brief space I beheld in one

moment the whole might of those great burning rays fling themselves upon

the left side of the sun; so that the orb remained quite clear without

its rays, and I was able to contemplate it with vast delight. It seemed

to me something marvellous that the rays should be removed in that

manner. Then I reflected what divine grace it was which God had granted

me that morning, and cried aloud: “Oh, wonderful Thy power! oh, glorious

Thy virtue! How far greater is the grace which Thou art granting me than

that which I expected!” The sun without his rays appeared to me to be a

bath of the purest molten gold, neither more nor less. While I stood

contemplating this wondrous thing, I noticed that the middle of the

sphere began to swell, and the swollen surface grew, and suddenly a

Christ upon the cross formed itself out of the same substance as the

sun. He bore the aspect of divine benignity, with such fair grace that

the mind of man could not conceive the thousandth part of it; and while

I gazed in ecstasy, I shouted: “A miracle! a miracle! O God! O clemency

Divine! O immeasurable Goodness! what is it Thou hast deigned this day

to show me!” While I was gazing and exclaiming thus, the Christ moved

toward that part where his rays were settled, and the middle of the sun

once more bulged out as it had done before; the boss expanded, and

suddenly transformed itself into the shape of a most beautiful Madonna,

who appeared to be sitting enthroned on high, holding her child in her

arms with an attitude of the greatest charm and a smile upon her face.

On each side of her was an angel, whose beauty far surpasses man’s

imagination. I also saw within the rondure of the sun, upon the right

hand, a figure robed like a priest; this turned its back to me, and kept

its face directed to the Madonna and the Christ. All these things I

beheld, actual, clear, and vivid, and kept returning thanks to the glory

of God as loud as I was able. The marvellous apparition remained before

me little more than half a quarter of an hour: then it dissolved, and I

was carried back to my dark lair.

I began at once to shout aloud: “The virtue of God hath deigned to show

me all His glory, the which perchance no mortal eye hath ever seen

before. Therefore I know surely that I am free and fortunate and in the

grace of God; but you miscreants shall be miscreants still, accursed,

and in the wrath of God. Mark this, for I am certain of it, that on the

day of All Saints, the day upon which I was born in 1500, on the first

of November, at four hours after nightfall, on that day which is coming

you will be forced to lead me from this gloomy dungeon; less than this

you will not be able to do, because I have seen it with these eyes of

mine and in that throne of God. The priest who kept his face turned to

God and his back to me, that priest was S. Peter, pleading my cause, for

the shame he felt that such foul wrongs should be done to Christians in

his own house. You may go and tell it to whom you like; for none on

earth has the power to do me harm henceforward; and tell that lord who

keeps me here, that if he will give me wax or paper and the means of

portraying this glory of God which was revealed to me, most assuredly

shall I convince him of that which now perhaps he holds in doubt.”

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