Clerambault was struck by the morbid character of the intellectual

species. In the _bourgeois_ caste the power of organisation and

expression of ideas has reached almost monstrous proportions. The

equilibrium of life is destroyed by a bureaucracy of the mind which

thinks itself much superior to the simple worker. Certainly no one can

deny that it has its uses; it collects and classifies thoughts in its

pigeon-holes and puts them to various purposes, but the idea rarely

occurs to it to examine its material and renew the content of thought.

It remains the vain guardian of a demonetised treasure. If only

this mistake were a harmless one; but ideas that are not constantly

confronted with reality, which are not frequently dipped into the

stream of experience, grow dry, and take on a toxic character. They

throw a heavy shadow over the new life, bring on the night and produce

fever. What a stupid thraldom to abstract words! Of what use is it to

dethrone kings and by what right do we jeer at those who die for their

masters, if it is only to put tyrannic entities in their places, which

we adorn with their tinsel? It is much better, to have a flesh and

blood monarch, whom you can control--suppress if necessary--than these

abstractions, these invisible despots, that no one knows now, nor ever

has known. We deal only with the head Eunuchs, the priests of the

hidden Crocodile, as Taine calls him, the wire-pulling ministers who

speak in the idol's name.--Ah! let us tear away the veil and know the

creature hidden inside of us. There is less danger when man shows

frankly as a brute than when he drapes himself in a false and sickly

idealism. He does not eliminate his animal instincts, he only deifies

and tries to explain them, but as this cannot be done without

excessive simplification--according to the law of the mind which

in order to grasp must let go an equal amount--he disguises and

intensifies them in one direction. Everything that departs from the

straight line or that interferes with the strict logic of his mental

edifice, he denies; worse he pulls it up by the roots, and commands

that it be destroyed in the name of sacred principles. It therefore

follows that he cuts down much of the infinite growth of nature, and

allows to stand only the trees of the mind that he chooses--generally

those that flourish in deserts and ruins and which there grow

abnormally. Of such is the crushing predominance of one single

tyrannous form of the Family, of Country, and of the narrow morality

which serves them. The poor creature is proud of it all; and it is he

who is the victim.

Humanity does not dare to massacre itself from interested motives. It

is not proud of its interests, but it does pride itself on its ideas

which are a thousand times more deadly. Man sees his own superiority

in his ideas, and will fight for them; but herein I perceive his

folly, for this warlike idealism is a disease peculiar to him, and its

effects are similar to those of alcoholism; they add enormously to

wickedness and criminality. This sort of intoxication deteriorates

the brain, filling it with hallucinations, to which the living are

sacrificed.

What an extraordinary spectacle, seen from the interior of our skulls!

A throng of phantoms rising from our overexcited brains: Justice,

Liberty, Right, Country.... Our poor brains are all equally honest,

but each accuses the other of insincerity. In this fantastic shadowy

struggle, we can distinguish nothing but the cries and the convulsions

of the human animal, possessed by devils.... Below are clouds charged

with lightnings, where great fierce birds are fighting; the realists,

the men of affairs, swarm and gnaw like fleas in a skin; with open

mouths, and grasping hands, secretly exciting the folly by which they

profit, but in which they do not share....

O Thought! monstrous and splendid flower springing from the humus

of our time-honoured instincts!... In truth, thou art an element

penetrating and impregnating man, but thou dost not spring from him,

thy source is beyond him, and thy strength greater than his. Our

senses are fairly well-adapted to our needs but our thought is not,

it overflows and maddens us. Very, very few among us men can guide

themselves on this torrent; the far greater number are swept along,

at random, trusting to chance. The tremendous power of thought is not

under man's control; he tries to make it serve him, and his greatest

danger is that he believes that it does so; but he is like a child

handling explosives; there is no proportion between these colossal

engines and the purpose for which his feeble hands employ them.

Sometimes they all blow up together....

How guard against this danger? Shall we stifle thought, uproot living

ideas? That would mean the castration of man's brain, the loss of his

chief stimulus in life; but nevertheless the _eau-de-vie_ of his mind

contains a poison which is the more to be dreaded because it is spread

broadcast among the masses, in the form of adulterated drugs....

Rouse thee, Man, and sober thyself! Look about; shake off ideas. Free

thyself from thine own thoughts and learn to govern thy gigantic

phantoms which devour themselves in their rage.... And begin by

taking the capitals from the names of those great goddesses, Country,

Liberty, Right. Come down from Olympus into the manger, and come

without ornaments, without arms, rich only in your beauty, and our

love.... I do not know the gods of Justice and Liberty; I only know

my brother-man, and his acts, sometimes just, sometimes unjust; and I

also know of peoples, all aspiring to real liberty but all deprived of

it, and who all, more or less, submit to oppression.

The sight of this world in a fever-fit would have filled a sage with

the desire to withdraw until the attack was over; but Clerambault was

not a sage. He knew this, and he also knew that it was vain to

speak; but none the less he felt that he must, that he should end by

speaking. He wished to delay the dangerous moment, and his timidity,

which shrank from single combat with the world, sought about him for a

companion in thought. The fight would not be so hard if there were two

or three together.

The first whose feeling he cautiously sounded were some unfortunate

people who, like him, had lost a son. The father, a well-known

painter, had a studio in the Rue Notre Dame des Champs. His name was

Omer Calville and the Clerambaults were neighbourly with him and his

wife, a nice old couple of the middle class, devoted to each other.

They had that gentleness, common to many artists of their day, who had

known Carrière, and caught remote reflections of Tolstoïsm, which,

like their simplicity, appeared a little artificial, for though it

harmonised with their real goodness of heart, the fashion of the time

had added a touch of exaggeration.

Those artists who sincerely profess their religious respect for all

that lives, are less capable than anyone else of understanding the

passions of war. The Calvilles had held themselves outside the

struggle; they did not protest, they accepted it, without acquiescing,

as one accepts sickness, death, or the wickedness of men, with a

dignified sadness.

When Clerambault read them his burning poems they listened politely

and made little response--but strangely enough, at the very time that

Clerambault, cured of his warlike illusions, turned to them, he found

that they had changed places with him. The death of their son had

produced on them the opposite effect. And now they were awkwardly

taking part in the conflict, as if to replace their lost boy. They

snuffed up eagerly all the stench in the papers, and Clerambault found

them actually rejoicing, in their misery, over the assertion that the

United States was prepared to fight for twenty years.

"What would become of France, of Europe, in twenty years?" he tried

to say, but they hastily put this thought away from them with much

irritation, almost as if it were improper to mention, or even to think

of such a thing.

The question was to conquer; at what price? That could be settled

afterwards.--Conquer? Suppose there were no more conquerors left in

France? Never mind, so long as the others are beaten. No, it should

not be that the blood of their son had been shed in vain.

"And to avenge his death, must other innocent lives also be

sacrificed?" thought Clerambault, and in the hearts of these good

people he read the answer: "Why not?" The same idea was in the minds

of all those who, like the Calvilles, had lost through the war what

they held dearest--a son, a husband, or a brother....

"Let the others suffer as we have, we have nothing left to lose." Was

there nothing left? In truth there was one thing only, on which the

fierce egotism of these mourners kept jealous guard; their faith in

the necessity of these sacrifices. Let no one try to shake that, or

doubt that the cause was sacred for which these dear ones fell. The

leaders of the war knew this, and well did they understand how to make

the most of such a lure. No, by these sad fire-sides there was no

place for Clerambault's doubts and feelings of pity.

"They had no pity on us," thought the unhappy ones, "why should we

pity them?"

Some had suffered less, but what characterised nearly all of these

_bourgeois_ was the reverence they had for the great slogans of

the past: "Committee of Public Safety," "The Country in Danger,"

"Plutarch," "_De Viris_," "Horace,"--it seemed impossible for them to

look at the present with eyes of today; perhaps they had no eyes to

see with. Outside of the narrow circle of their own affairs, how many

of our anemic _bourgeoisie_ have the power to think for, themselves,

after they have reached the age of thirty? It would never cross their

minds; their thoughts are furnished to them like their provisions,

only more cheaply. For one or two cents a day they get them from their

papers. The more intelligent, who look for thought in books, do not

give themselves the trouble to seek it also in life, and think that

one is the reflection of the other. Like the prematurely aged, their

members become stiff, and their minds petrified.

In the great flock of those ruminating souls who fed on the past, the

group of bigots pinning its faith to the French Revolution was easily

distinguished. Among the backward _bourgeoisie_ they were reckoned

incendiary in former days;--about the time of the 16th of May, or a

little later. Like quinquagenarians grown stolid and settled, they

looked back with pride to their wild conduct, and lived on the memory

of the emotions of by-gone days. If their mirror showed them no

change, the world had altered around them without their suspecting it,

while they continued to copy their antiquated models. It is a curious

imitative instinct, a slavery of the brain, to remain hypnotised by

some point in the past, instead of trying to follow Proteus in his

course--the life of change. One picks up the old skin which the young

snake has thrown off long ago, and tries to sew it together again.

These pedantic admirers of old revolutions believe that those of the

future will be made on the same lines. They will not see that the new

liberty must have a gait of its own, and will overleap barriers before

which its grandmother of ninety-three stopped, out of breath. They are

also much more vexed by the disrespect of the young people who have

gone by them, than they are by the spiteful yelping of the old whom

they have left behind; this is only natural, for these young folks

make them feel their age, and then it is their turn to yelp.

So it ever shall be; as they grow older there are very few men willing

to let life take its own course, and who are generous enough to look

at the future through the eyes of their juniors, as their own sight

grows dim. The greater number of those who loved liberty in their

youth, want to make a case of it now for the new broods, because they

can no longer fly themselves.

The followers of the national revolutionary cult--in the style of

Danton, or of Robespierre--were the bitterest adversaries of the

internationalism of today; though they did not always agree perfectly

amongst themselves, and the friends of Danton and Robespierre, with

the shadow of the guillotine between them, hurled the epithet of

heretic at each other with the deadliest threats. They did, however,

all agree on one point, and devoted to destruction those who did not

believe that Liberty is shot out of the mouth of cannon, those who

dared to feel the same aversion towards violence, whether it was

exerted by Caesar, Demos, or his satellites, or even if it was in the

name of right and liberty itself. The face underneath is the same, no

matter what mask may be worn.

Clerambault knew several of these fanatics, but there was no point in

discussing with them whether the right, or its counterfeit, were only

on one side in war; it would have been equally sensible to argue about

the Holy Inquisition with a Manichee. Lay religions have their great

seminaries and secret societies where they deposit their doctrinal

treasures with great pride. He who departs from these is

excommunicated--until he in turn belongs to the past, when he becomes

a god, and can excommunicate in future himself.

* * * * *

If Clerambault was not tempted to convert these hardened intellectuals

with their stiff helmet of truth, he knew others who had not the same

proud certainty; far from it. Those who sinned rather through softness

and pure dilettantism--Arsène Asselin was one of these, an amiable

Parisian, unmarried, a man of the world, clever and sceptical; and as

much shocked by a defect in sentiment as in expression. How could he

like extremes of thought, which are the cultures in which the germs of

war develop? His critical and sarcastic spirit inclined him towards

doubt; so there was no reason why he should not have understood

Clerambault's point of view, and he came within an ace of doing so.

His choice depended on some fortuitous circumstances, but from

the moment that he turned his face in the other direction, it was

impossible for him to go back; and the more he stuck in the mud, the

more obstinate he grew. French self-respect cannot bear to admit its

mistakes; it would rather die in defence of them.... But French or

not, how many are there in the world who would have the strength of

mind to say: "I have made a mistake, we must begin all over again."

Better deny the evidence ... "To the bitter end" ... And then break

down.

Alexandre Mignon was a before-the-war pacifist and an old friend

of Clerambault's. He was a _bourgeois_ of about his own age,

intellectual, a member of the University, and justly respected for the

dignity of his life. He should not be confounded with those parlour

pacifists covered with official decorations and grand cordons of

international orders, for whom peace is a gilt-edged investment in

quiet times. For thirty years he had sincerely denounced the dangerous

intrigues of the dishonest politicians and speculators of his country;

he was a member of the League for the Rights of Man, and loved to make

speeches for either cause, as it might happen. It was enough if his

client purported to be oppressed; it did not matter if the victim had

been a would-be oppressor himself. His blundering generosity sometimes

made him ridiculous, but he was always liked. He did not object to the

ridicule, nor did he dread a little unpopularity, as long as he was

surrounded by his own group, whose approbation was necessary to him.

As a member of a group which was independent when they all held

together, he thought that he was an independent person, but this was

not the case. Union is strength they say, but it accustoms us to lean

upon it, as Alexandre Mignon found to his cost.

The death of Jaurès had broken up the group; and lacking one

voice--the first to speak--all the others failed. They waited for the

password that no one dared to give. When the torrent broke over them

these generous but weak men were uncertain, and were carried away by

the first rush. They did not understand nor approve of it, but they

could make no resistance. From the beginning desertions began in

their ranks, produced largely by the terrible speech-makers who

then governed the country--demagogue lawyers, practised in all the

sophistries of republican idealogy: "War for Peace, Lasting Peace at

the End ..." (_Requiescat_) ... In these artifices the poor pacifists

saw a way to get out of their dilemma; it was not a very brilliant

way and they were not proud of it, but it was their only chance. They

hoped to reconcile their pacific principles with the fact of violence

by means of "big talk" which did not sound to them as outrageous as

it really was. To refuse would have been to give themselves up to the

war-like pack, which would have devoured them.

Alexandre Mignon would have had courage to face the bloody jaws if he

had had his little community at his back, but alone it was beyond his

strength. He let things go at first, without committing himself,

but he suffered, passing through agonies something like those of

Clerambault, but with a different result. He was less impulsive and

more intellectual. In order to efface his last scruples he hid

them under close reasoning, and with the aid of his colleagues he

laboriously proved by a + b that war was the duty of consistent

pacifism. His League had every advantage in dwelling on the criminal

acts of the enemy; but did not dwell on those in its own camp.

Alexandre Mignon had occasional glimpses of the universal injustice;

an intolerable vision, on which he closed his shutters....

In proportion as he was swaddled in his war arguments, it became more

difficult for him to disentangle himself, and he persisted more and

more. Suppose a child carelessly pulls off the wing of an insect; it

is only a piece of nervous awkwardness, but the insect is done for,

and the child ashamed and irritated, tears the poor creature to pieces

to relieve his own feelings.

The pleasure with which he listened to Clerambault's _mea culpa_ may

be imagined; but the effect was surprising. Mignon, already ill at

ease, turned on Clerambault, whose self-accusations seemed to point

at him, and treated him like an enemy. In the sequel no one was more

violent than Mignon against this living remorse.

* * * * *

There were some politicians who would have understood Clerambault

better, for they knew as much as he did and perhaps more; but it did

not keep them awake at night. They had been used to mental

trickery ever since they cut their first teeth, and were expert at

_combinazione_; they had the illusion of serving their party, cheaply

gained by a few compromises here and there!... To think and walk

straightforwardly was the one thing impossible to these flabby

shufflers, who backed, or advanced in spirals, who dragged their

banner in the mud, by way of assuring its triumph, and who, to reach

the Capitol, would have crawled up the steps on their stomachs.

* * * * *

Here and there some clear-sighted spirits were hidden, but they were

easier to guess at than to see; they were melancholy glow-worms who

had put out their lanterns in their fright, so that not a gleam was

visible. They certainly had no faith in the war, but neither did they

believe in anything against it;--fatalists, pessimists all.

It was clear to Clerambault that when personal energy is lacking,

the highest qualities of head and heart only increase the public

servitude. The stoicism which submits to the laws of the universe

prevents us from resisting those which are cruel, instead of saying to

destiny: "No, thus far, and no farther!" ... If it pushes on you

will see the stoic stand politely aside, as he murmurs: "Please come

in!"--Cultivated heroism, the taste for the superhuman, even the

inhuman, chokes the soul with its sacrifices, and the more absurd they

are, the more sublime they appear--Christians of today, more generous

than their Master, render all to Caesar; a cause seems sacred to them

from the moment that they are asked to immolate themselves to it. To

the ignominy of war they piously kindle the flame of their faith, and

throw their bodies on the altar. The people bend their backs, and

accept with a passive, ironic resignation.... "No need to borrow

trouble." Ages and ages of misery have rolled over this stone, but in

the end stones do wear down and become mud.

Clerambault tried to talk with one and another of these people but

found himself everywhere opposed by the same hidden, half-unconscious

resistance. They were armed with the will not to hear, or rather with

a remarkable not-will to hear. Their minds were as impervious to

contrary arguments as a duck's feathers to water. Men in general are

endowed, for their comfort, with a precious faculty; they can make

themselves blind and deaf when it does not suit them to see and hear,

and when by chance they pick up some inconvenient object, they drop it

quickly, and forget it as soon as possible. How many citizens in any

country knew the truth about the divided responsibility for the

war, or about the ill-omened part played by their politicians, who,

themselves deceived, pretended with great success to be ignorant!

If everyone is trying to escape from himself, it is clear, that a man

will run faster from someone who, like Clerambault, would help him to

recover himself. In order to avoid their own conscience, intelligent,

serious, honourable men do not blush to employ the little tricks of a

woman or a child trying to get its own way; and dreading a discussion

which might unsettle them, they would seize on the first awkward

expression used by Clerambault. They would separate it from the

context, dress it up if necessary, and with raised voices and eyes

starting from their heads, feign an indignation which they ended by

feeling sincerely. They would repeat "_mordicus_," even after the

proof, and if obliged to admit it, would rush off, banging the door

after them: "Can't stand any more of that!" But two, or perhaps ten

days after, they would come back and renew the argument, as if nothing

had happened.

Some treacherous ones provoked Clerambault to say more than he

intended, and having gained their point, exploded with rage. But even

the most good-natured told him that he lacked good sense--"good," of

course, meaning "my way of thinking."

There were the clever talkers also who, having nothing to fear from a

contest of words, began an argument in the flattering hope that they

could bring the wandering sheep back to the fold. It was not his main

idea that they disputed, so much as its desirability; they would

appeal to Clerambault's better side:

"Certainly, of course, I think as you do, or almost as you do; I

understand what you mean; ... but you ought to be cautious, my dear

friend, not to trouble the consciences of those who have to fight. You

cannot always speak the truth, at least not all at once. These fine

things may come about ... in fifty years, perhaps. We must wait and

not go too fast for nature ..."

"Wait, until the appetites of the exploiter, and the folly of the

exploited are equally exhausted? When the thinking of clear-sighted,

better sort gives way to the blindness of coarser minds, it goes

directly contrary to that nature which it professes to follow, and

against the historical destiny which they themselves make it a point

of honour to obey. For do we respect the plans of Nature when we

stifle one part of its thought, and the higher, at that? The theory

which would lop off the strongest forces from life, and bend it

before the passions of the multitude, would result in suppressing the

advance-guard, and leaving the army without leaders.... When the boat

leans over, must I not throw my weight on the other side to keep an

even keel? Or must we all sit down to leeward? Advanced ideas are

Nature's weights, intended to counter-balance the heavy stubborn past;

without them the boat will upset.... The welcome they will receive is

a side issue. Their advocates can expect to be stoned, but whoever has

these things in his mind and does not speak them, is a dishonoured

man. He is like a soldier in battle, to whom a dangerous message is

entrusted; is he free to shirk it?... Why does not everyone understand

these things?"

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