Starting again ad Infinitum

A man from the cradle to the grave is but the embryo of a being that may

be born into the world of the dead who still live, or that may die so

soon after entering it as to be practically still-born. The greater

number of the seeds shed, whether by plants or animals, never germinate

and of those that grow few reach maturity, so the greater number of those

that reach death are still-born as regards the truest life of all—I mean

the life that is lived after death in the thoughts and actions of

posterity. Moreover of those who are born into and fill great places in

this invisible world not one is immortal.

We should look on the body as the manifesto of the mind and on posterity

as the manifesto of the dead that live after life. Each is the mechanism

whereby the other exists.

Life, then, is not the having been born—it is rather an effort to be

born. But why should some succeed in attaining to this future life and

others fail? Why should some be born more than others? Why should not

some one in a future state taunt Lazarus with having a good time now and

tell him it will be the turn of Dives in some other and more remote

hereafter? I must have it that neither are the good rewarded nor the bad

punished in a future state, but every one must start anew quite

irrespective of anything they have done here and must try his luck again

and go on trying it again and again _ad infinitum_. Some of our lives,

then, will be lucky and some unlucky and it will resolve itself into one

long eternal life during which we shall change so much that we shall not

remember our antecedents very far back (any more than we remember having

been embryos) nor foresee our future very much, and during which we shall

have our ups and downs _ad infinitum_—effecting a transformation scene at

once as soon as circumstances become unbearable.

Nevertheless, some men’s work does live longer than others. Some achieve

what is very like immortality. Why should they have this piece of good

fortune more than others? The answer is that it would be very unjust if

they knew anything about it, or could enjoy it in any way, but they know

nothing whatever about it, and you, the complainer, do profit by their

labour, so that it is really you, the complainer, who get the fun, not

they, and this should stop your mouth. The only thing they got was a

little hope, which buoyed them up often when there was but little else

that could do so.

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