The Test of Faith

Why should we be so avid of honourable and affectionate remembrance after

death? Why should we hold this the one thing worth living or dying for?

Why should all that we can know or feel seem but a very little thing as

compared with that which we never either feel or know? What a reversal

of all the canons of action which commonly guide mankind is there not

here? But however this may be, if we have faith in the life after death

we can have little in that which is before it, and if we have faith in

this life we can have small faith in any other.

Nevertheless there is a deeply rooted conviction, even in many of those

in whom its existence is least apparent, that honourable and affectionate

remembrance after death with a full and certain hope that it will be ours

is the highest prize to which the highest calling can aspire. Few pass

through this world without feeling the vanity of all human ambitions;

their faith may fail them here, but it will not fail them—not for a

moment, never—if they possess it as regards posthumous respect and

affection. The world may prove hollow but a well-earned good fame in

death will never do so. And all men feel this whether they admit it to

themselves or no.

Faith in this is easy enough. We are born with it. What is less easy is

to possess one’s soul in peace and not be shaken in faith and broken in

spirit on seeing the way in which men crowd themselves, or are crowded,

into honourable remembrance when, if the truth concerning them were

known, no pit of oblivion should be deep enough for them. See, again,

how many who have richly earned esteem never get it either before or

after death. It is here that faith comes in. To see that the infinite

corruptions of this life penetrate into and infect that which is to come,

and yet to hold that even infamy after death, with obscure and penurious

life before it, is a prize which will bring a man more peace at the last

than all the good things of this life put together and joined with an

immortality as lasting as Virgil’s, provided the infamy and failure of

the one be unmerited, as also the success and immortality of the other.

Here is the test of faith—will you do your duty with all your might at

any cost of goods or reputation either in this world or beyond the grave?

If you will—well, the chances are 100 to 1 that you will become a

faddist, a vegetarian and a teetotaller.

And suppose you escape this pit-fall too. Why should you try to be so

much better than your neighbours? Who are you to think you may be worthy

of so much good fortune? If you do, you may be sure that you do not

deserve it.

And so on _ad infinitum_. Let us eat and drink neither forgetting nor

remembering death unduly. The Lord hath mercy on whom he will have mercy

and the less we think about it the better.

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