XIII

More than a year had passed. Yulia and Yartsev were lying on the

grass at Sokolniki not far from the embankment of the Yaroslav

railway; a little distance away Kotchevoy was lying with hands under

his head, looking at the sky. All three had been for a walk, and

were waiting for the six o'clock train to pass to go home to tea.

"Mothers see something extraordinary in their children, that is

ordained by nature," said Yulia. "A mother will stand for hours

together by the baby's cot looking at its little ears and eyes and

nose, and fascinated by them. If any one else kisses her baby the

poor thing imagines that it gives him immense pleasure. And a mother

talks of nothing but her baby. I know that weakness in mothers, and

I keep watch over myself, but my Olga really is exceptional. How

she looks at me when I'm nursing her! How she laughs! She's only

eight months old, but, upon my word, I've never seen such intelligent

eyes in a child of three."

"Tell me, by the way," asked Yartsev: "which do you love most--

your husband or your baby?"

Yulia shrugged her shoulders.

"I don't know," she said. "I never was so very fond of my husband,

and Olga is in reality my first love. You know that I did not marry

Alexey for love. In old days I was foolish and miserable, and thought

that I had ruined my life and his, and now I see that love is not

necessary--that it is all nonsense."

"But if it is not love, what feeling is it that binds you to your

husband? Why do you go on living with him?"

"I don't know. . . . I suppose it must be habit. I respect him, I

miss him when he's away for long, but that's--not love. He is a

clever, honest man, and that's enough to make me happy. He is very

kind and good-hearted. . . ."

"Alyosha's intelligent, Alyosha's good," said Kostya, raising his

head lazily; "but, my dear girl, to find out that he is intelligent,

good, and interesting, you have to eat a hundredweight of salt with

him. . . . And what's the use of his goodness and intelligence? He

can fork out money as much as you want, but when character is needed

to resist insolence or aggressiveness, he is faint-hearted and

overcome with nervousness. People like your amiable Alyosha are

splendid people, but they are no use at all for fighting. In fact,

they are no use for anything."

At last the train came in sight. Coils of perfectly pink smoke from

the funnels floated over the copse, and two windows in the last

compartment flashed so brilliantly in the sun, that it hurt their

eyes to look at it.

"Tea-time!" said Yulia Sergeyevna, getting up.

She had grown somewhat stouter of late, and her movements were

already a little matronly, a little indolent.

"It's bad to be without love though," said Yartsev, walking behind

her. "We talk and read of nothing else but love, but we do very

little loving ourselves, and that's really bad."

"All that's nonsense, Ivan Gavrilitch," said Yulia. "That's not

what gives happiness."

They had tea in the little garden, where mignonette, stocks, and

tobacco plants were in flower, and spikes of early gladiolus were

just opening. Yartsev and Kotchevoy could see from Yulia's face

that she was passing through a happy period of inward peace and

serenity, that she wanted nothing but what she had, and they, too,

had a feeling of peace and comfort in their hearts. Whatever was

said sounded apt and clever; the pines were lovely--the fragrance

of them was exquisite as it had never been before; and the cream

was very nice; and Sasha was a good, intelligent child.

After tea Yartsev sang songs, accompanying himself on the piano,

while Yulia and Kotchevoy sat listening in silence, though Yulia

got up from time to time, and went softly indoors, to take a look

at the baby and at Lida, who had been in bed for the last two days

feverish and eating nothing.

"My friend, my tender friend," sang Yartsev. "No, my friends, I'll

be hanged if I understand why you are all so against love!" he said,

flinging back his head. "If I weren't busy for fifteen hours of the

twenty-four, I should certainly fall in love."

Supper was served on the verandah; it was warm and still, but Yulia

wrapped herself in a shawl and complained of the damp. When it got

dark, she seemed not quite herself; she kept shivering and begging

her visitors to stay a little longer. She regaled them with wine,

and after supper ordered brandy to keep them from going. She didn't

want to be left alone with the children and the servants.

"We summer visitors are getting up a performance for the children,"

she said. "We have got everything--a stage and actors; we are

only at a loss for a play. Two dozen plays of different sorts have

been sent us, but there isn't one that is suitable. Now, you are

fond of the theatre, and are so good at history," she said, addressing

Yartsev. "Write an historical play for us."

"Well, I might."

The men drank up all the brandy, and prepared to go.

It was past ten, and for summer-villa people that was late.

"How dark it is! One can't see a bit," said Yulia, as she went with

them to the gate. "I don't know how you'll find your way. But, isn't

it cold?"

She wrapped herself up more closely and walked back to the porch.

"I suppose my Alexey's playing cards somewhere," she called to them.

"Good-night!"

After the lighted rooms nothing could be seen. Yartsev and Kostya

groped their way like blind men to the railway embankment and crossed

it.

"One can't see a thing," said Kostya in his bass voice, standing

still and gazing at the sky. "And the stars, the stars, they are

like new three-penny-bits. Gavrilitch!"

"Ah?" Yartsev responded somewhere in the darkness.

"I say, one can't see a thing. Where are you?"

Yartsev went up to him whistling, and took his arm.

"Hi, there, you summer visitors!" Kostya shouted at the top of his

voice. "We've caught a socialist."

When he was exhilarated he was always very rowdy, shouting, wrangling

with policemen and cabdrivers, singing, and laughing violently.

"Nature be damned," he shouted.

"Come, come," said Yartsev, trying to pacify him. "You mustn't.

Please don't."

Soon the friends grew accustomed to the darkness, and were able to

distinguish the outlines of the tall pines and telegraph posts.

From time to time the sound of whistles reached them from the station

and the telegraph wires hummed plaintively. From the copse itself

there came no sound, and there was a feeling of pride, strength,

and mystery in its silence, and on the right it seemed that the

tops of the pines were almost touching the sky. The friends found

their path and walked along it. There it was quite dark, and it was

only from the long strip of sky dotted with stars, and from the

firmly trodden earth under their feet, that they could tell they

were walking along a path. They walked along side by side in silence,

and it seemed to both of them that people were coming to meet them.

Their tipsy exhilaration passed off. The fancy came into Yartsev's

mind that perhaps that copse was haunted by the spirits of the

Muscovite Tsars, boyars, and patriarchs, and he was on the point

of telling Kostya about it, but he checked himself.

When they reached the town gate there was a faint light of dawn in

the sky. Still in silence, Yartsev and Kotchevoy walked along the

wooden pavement, by the cheap summer cottages, eating-houses,

timber-stacks. Under the arch of interlacing branches, the damp air

was fragrant of lime-trees, and then a broad, long street opened

before them, and on it not a soul, not a light. . . . When they

reached the Red Pond, it was daylight.

"Moscow--it's a town that will have to suffer a great deal more,"

said Yartsev, looking at the Alexyevsky Monastery.

"What put that into your head?"

"I don't know. I love Moscow."

Both Yartsev and Kostya had been born in Moscow, and adored the

town, and felt for some reason antagonistic to every other town.

Both were convinced that Moscow was a remarkable town, and Russia

a remarkable country. In the Crimea, in the Caucasus, and abroad,

they felt dull, uncomfortable, and ill at ease, and they thought

their grey Moscow weather very pleasant and healthy. And when the

rain lashed at the window-panes and it got dark early, and when the

walls of the churches and houses looked a drab, dismal colour, days

when one doesn't know what to put on when one is going out--such

days excited them agreeably.

At last near the station they took a cab.

"It really would be nice to write an historical play," said Yartsev,

"but not about the Lyapunovs or the Godunovs, but of the times of

Yaroslav or of Monomach. . . . I hate all historical plays except

the monologue of Pimen. When you have to do with some historical

authority or even read a textbook of Russian history, you feel that

every one in Russia is exceptionally talented, gifted, and interesting;

but when I see an historical play at the theatre, Russian life

begins to seem stupid, morbid, and not original."

Near Dmitrovka the friends separated, and Yartsev went on to his

lodging in Nikitsky Street. He sat half dozing, swaying from side

to side, and pondering on the play. He suddenly imagined a terrible

din, a clanging noise, and shouts in some unknown language, that

might have been Kalmuck, and a village wrapped in flames, and forests

near covered with hoarfrost and soft pink in the glow of the fire,

visible for miles around, and so clearly that every little fir-tree

could be distinguished, and savage men darting about the village

on horseback and on foot, and as red as the glow in the sky.

"The Polovtsy," thought Yartsev.

One of them, a terrible old man with a bloodstained face all scorched

from the fire, binds to his saddle a young girl with a white Russian

face, and the girl looks sorrowful, understanding. Yartsev flung

back his head and woke up.

"My friend, my tender friend . . ." he hummed.

As he paid the cabman and went up his stairs, he could not shake

off his dreaminess; he saw the flames catching the village, and the

forest beginning to crackle and smoke. A huge, wild bear frantic

with terror rushed through the village. . . . And the girl tied to

the saddle was still looking.

When at last he went into his room it was broad daylight. Two candles

were burning by some open music on the piano. On the sofa lay Polina

Razsudin wearing a black dress and a sash, with a newspaper in her

hand, fast asleep. She must have been playing late, waiting for

Yartsev to come home, and, tired of waiting, fell asleep.

"Hullo, she's worn out," he thought.

Carefully taking the newspaper out of her hands, he covered her

with a rug. He put out the candles and went into his bedroom. As

he got into bed, he still thought of his historical play, and the

tune of "My friend, my tender friend" was still ringing in his

head. . . .

Two days later Laptev looked in upon him for a moment to tell him

that Lida was ill with diphtheria, and that Yulia Sergeyevna and

her baby had caught it from her, and five days later came the news

that Lida and Yulia were recovering, but the baby was dead, and

that the Laptevs had left their villa at Sokolniki and had hastened

back to Moscow.

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