CHAPTER LIII

A minute after his parting with Emilia, Wilfrid swung round in the

street and walked back at great strides. “What a fool I was not to see

that she was acting indifference!” he cried. “Let me have two seconds

with her!” But how that was to be contrived his diplomatic brain

refused to say. “And what a stiff, formal fellow I was all the time!”

He considered that he had not uttered a sentence in any way pointed to

touch her heart. “She must think I am still determined to marry that

woman.”

Wilfrid had taken his stand on the opposite side of the street, and

beheld a male figure in the dusk, that went up to the house and then

stood back scanning the windows. Wounded by his audacious irreverence

toward the walls behind which his beloved was sheltered, Wilfrid crossed

and stared at the intruder. It proved to be Braintop.

“How do you do, sir!--no! that can't be the house,” stammered Braintop,

with a very earnest scrutiny.

“What house? what do you want?” enquired Wilfrid.

“Jenkinson,” was the name that won the honour of rescuing Braintop from

this dilemma.

“No; it is Lady Gosstre's house: Miss Belloni is living there; and stop:

you know her. Just wait, and take in two or three words from me, and

notice particularly how she is looking, and the dress she wears. You

can say--say that Mrs. Chump sent you to enquire after Miss Belloni's

health.”

Wilfrid tore a leaf from his pocket-book, and wrote:

“I can be free to-morrow. One word! I shall expect it, with your name in

full.”

But even in the red heat of passion his born diplomacy withheld his own

signature. It was not difficult to override Braintop's scruples about

presenting himself, and Wilfrid paced a sentinel measure awaiting the

reply. “Free to-morrow,” he repeated, with a glance at his watch under a

lamp: and thus he soliloquized: “What a time that fellow is! Yes, I can

be free to-morrow if I will. I wonder what the deuce Gambier had to do

in Monmouthshire. If he has been playing with my sister's reputation,

he shall have short shrift. That fellow Braintop sees her now--my little

Emilia! my bird! She won't have changed her dress till she has dined.

If she changes it before she goes out--by Jove, if she wears it to-night

before all those people, that'll mean 'Good-bye' to me: 'Addio, caro,'

as those olive women say, with their damned cold languor, when they have

given you up. She's not one of them! Good God! she came into the room

looking like a little Empress. I'll swear her hand trembled when I went,

though! My sisters shall see her in that dress. She must have a clever

lady's maid to have done that knot to her back hair. She's getting as

full of art as any of them--Oh! lovely little darling! And when she

smiles and holds out her hand! What is it--what is it about her? Her

upper lip isn't perfectly cut, there's some fault with her nose, but

I never saw such a mouth, or such a face. 'Free to-morrow?' Good God!

she'll think I mean I'm free to take a walk!”

At this view of the ghastly shortcoming of his letter as regards

distinctness, and the prosaic misinterpretation it was open to, Wilfrid

called his inventive wits to aid, and ran swiftly to the end of the

street. He had become--as like unto a lunatic as resemblance can

approach identity. Commanding the length of the pavement for an instant,

to be sure that no Braintop was in sight, he ran down a lateral street,

but the stationer's shop he was in search of beamed nowhere visible

for him, and he returned at the same pace to experience despair at the

thought that he might have missed Braintop issuing forth, for whom he

scoured the immediate neighbourhood, and overhauled not a few quiet

gentlemen of all ages. “An envelope!” That was the object of his desire,

and for that he wooed a damsel passing jauntily with a jug in her hand,

first telling her that he knew her name was Mary, at which singular

piece of divination she betrayed much natural astonishment. But a fine

round silver coin and an urgent request for an envelope, told her as

plainly as a blank confession that this was a lover. She informed him

that she lived three streets off, where there were shops. “Well, then,”

said Wilfrid, “bring me the envelope here, and you'll have another

opportunity of looking down the area.”

“Think of yourself,” replied she, saucily; but proved a diligent

messenger. Then Wilfrid wrote on a fresh slip:

“When I said 'Free,' I meant free in heart and without a single chain

to keep me from you. From any moment that you please, I am free. This is

written in the dark.”

He closed the envelope, and wrote Emilia's name and the address as

black as his pencil could achieve it, and with a smart double-knock he

deposited the missive in the box. From his station opposite he guessed

the instant when it was taken out, and from that judged when she would

be reading it. Or perhaps she would not read it till she was alone?

“That must be her bedroom,” he said, looking for a light in one of the

upper windows; but the voice of a fellow who went by with: “I should

keep that to myself, if I was you,” warned him to be more discreet.

“Well, here I am. I can't leave the street,” quoth Wilfrid, to the stock

of philosophy at his disposal. He burned with rage to think of how he

might be exhibiting himself before Powys and his sister.

It was half-past nine when a carriage drove up to the door. Into this

Mr. Powys presently handed Georgiana and Emilia. Braintop followed the

ladies, and then the coachman received his instructions and drove away.

Forthwith Wilfrid started in pursuit. He calculated that if his wind

held till he could jump into a light cab, his legitimate prey Braintop

might be caught. For, “they can't be taking him to any party with them!”

he chose to think, and it was a fair calculation that they were simply

conducting Braintop part of his way home. The run was pretty swift.

Wilfrid's blood was fired by the pace, until, forgetting the traitor

Braintop, up rose Truth from the bottom of the well in him, and he felt

that his sole desire was to see Emilia once more--but once! that night.

Running hard, in the midst of obstacles, and with eye and mind fined

on one object, disasters befell him. He knocked apples off a stall, and

heard vehement hallooing behind: he came into collision with a gentleman

of middle age courting digestion as he walked from his trusty dinner at

home to his rubber at the Club: finally he rushed full tilt against

a pot-boy who was bringing all his pots broadside to the flow of the

street. “By Jove! is this what they drink?” he gasped, and dabbed

with his handkerchief at the beer-splashes, breathlessly hailing the

looked-for cab, and, with hot brow and straightened-out forefinger,

telling the driver to keep that carriage in sight. The pot-boy had to

be satisfied on his master's account, and then on his own, and away

shot Wilfrid, wet with beer from throat to knee--to his chief protesting

sense, nothing but an exhalation of beer! “Is this what they drink?” he

groaned, thinking lamentably of the tastes of the populace. All idea

of going near Emilia was now abandoned. An outward application of beer

quenched his frenzy. She seemed as an unattainable star seen from the

depths of foul pits. “Stop!” he cried from the window.

“Here we are, sir,” said the cabman.

The carriage had drawn up, and a footman's alarum awakened one of

the houses. The wretched cabman had likewise drawn up right under the

windows of the carriage. Wilfrid could have pulled the trigger of a

pistol at his forehead that moment. He saw that Miss Ford had recognized

him, and he at once bowed elegantly. She dropped the window, and said,

“You are in evening dress, I think; we will take you in with us.”

Wilfrid hoped eagerly he might be allowed to hand them to the door, and

made three skips across the mire. Emilia had her hands gathered away

from the chances of seizure. In wild rage he began protesting that he

could not possibly enter, when Georgiana said, “I wish to speak to you,”

and put feminine pressure upon him. He was almost on the verge of the

word “beer,” by way of despairing explanation, when the door closed

behind him.

“Permit me to say a word to your recent companion. He is my father's

clerk. I had to see him on urgent business; that is why I took this

liberty,” he said, and retreated.

Braintop was still there, quietly posted, performing upon his head with

a pocket hair-brush.

Wilfrid put Braintop's back to the light, and said, “Is my shirt

soiled?”

After a short inspection, Braintop pronounced that it was, “just a

little.”

“Do you smell anything?” said Wilfrid, and hung with frightful suspense

on the verdict. “A fellow upset beer on me.”

“It is beer!” sniffed Braintop.

“What on earth shall I do?” was the rejoinder; and Wilfrid tried to

remember whether he had felt any sacred joy in touching Emilia's dress

as they went up the steps to the door.

Braintop fumbled in the breast-pocket of his coat. “I happen to have,”

he said, rather shamefacedly.

“What is it?”

“Mrs. Chump gave it to me to-day. She always makes me accept something:

I can't refuse. It's this:--the remains of some scent she insisted on my

taking, in a bottle.”

Wilfrid plucked at the stopper with a reckless desperation, saturated

his handkerchief, and worked at his breast as if he were driving a lusty

dagger into it.

“What scent is it?” he asked hurriedly.

“Alderman's Bouquet, sir.”

“Of all the detestable!---” Wilfrid had no time for more, owing to fresh

arrivals. He hastened in, with his smiling, wary face, half trusting

that there might after all be purification in Alderman's Bouquet, and

promising heaven due gratitude if Emilia's senses discerned not the

curse on him. In the hall a gust from the great opening contention

between Alderman's Bouquet and bad beer, stifled his sickly hope.

Frantic, but under perfect self-command outwardly, he glanced to right

and left, for the suggestion of a means of escape. They were seven steps

up the stairs before his wits prompted him to say to Georgiana, “I have

just heard very serious news from home. I fear--”

“What?--or, pardon me: does it call you away?” she asked, and Emilia

gave him a steady look.

“I fear I cannot remain here. Will you excuse me?”

His face spoke plainly now of mental torture repressed. Georgiana put

her hand out in full sympathy, and Emilia said, in her deep whisper,

“Let me hear to-morrow.” Then they bowed. Wilfrid was in the street

again.

“Thank God, I've seen her!” was his first thought, overhearing “What did

she think of me?” as he sighed with relief at his escape. For, lo! the

Branciani dress was not on her shoulders, and therefore he might imagine

what he pleased:--that she had arrayed herself so during the day to

delight his eyes; or that, he having seen her in it, she had determined

none others should. Though feeling utterly humiliated, he was yet happy.

Driving to the station, he perceived starlight overhead, and blessed it;

while his hand waved busily to conduct a current of fresh, oblivious air

to his nostrils. The quiet heavens seemed all crowding to look down on

the quiet circle of the firs, where Emilia's harp had first been heard

by him, and they took her music, charming his blood with imagined

harmonies, as he looked up to them. Thus all the way to Brookfield his

fancy soared, plucked at from below by Alderman's Bouquet.

The Philosopher, up to this point rigidly excluded, rushes forward

to the footlights to explain in a note, that Wilfrid, thus setting a

perfume to contend with a stench, instead of wasting for time, change

of raiment, and the broad lusty airs of heaven to blow him fresh again,

symbolizes the vice of Sentimentalism, and what it is always doing.

Enough!

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