We strangled the merchants at the place we had fixed on, them and
their bullock-drivers,--nine in all, and yet we were only seventeen
Thugs; but we were desperate. In our route we had travelled towards
Jhalone, and I could no longer delay my project of proceeding thither,
and making over my concealed treasure to the good Moola who had charge
of my child. Hoormut volunteered to accompany me; and desiring the
remainder of the band to make the best of their way to Calpee, and
there to await our arrival, we pushed on to Jhalone.
Considering the risk we ran, in approaching a place where inevitable
death awaited _me_, should I be discovered, we did well to disguise
ourselves as Gosaeens. We covered our bodies with ashes, matted the
hair on our heads with mud, hung gourds at our waist, and in this
mean and wretched disguise we entered the town--that spot where I had
passed so many years of happiness, where my fairest prospects had been
blighted, and the resolutions I had formed of leading a new life and
forsaking Thuggee, rendered alike impracticable and distasteful to me.
My emotions on entering the town, and more than all on passing the
house where I had resided, were overpowering; but I rallied my heart;
I passed through the city, and my friend and myself took up our abode
for the day near a well outside the gates, which was not far from the
spot where I had buried my treasure. We had selected the best disguise
possible for my purpose; we were visited during the day by some
Hindoos, who came, some out of curiosity, and a few to offer alms to
us; my companion replied to their inquiries and declared me to be under
a vow of silence, which satisfied them, and they departed, leaving us
to prosecute our plans.
As the evening approached, I strolled towards the trees under which was
deposited the sum I had hoarded up to serve me at any time of need.
It was a deserted burial-place, overgrown by custard-apple bushes and
other brushwood, and the rank grass had sprung up from the frequent
rain. My heart beat quick as I approached the spot; my hoard might have
been discovered, and if it had been removed my child would be a beggar,
dependent upon the charity of strangers; she might even be thrust into
the street, to herd with the vile and worthless, when the care of her
became irksome or expensive to her present protectors. But anything,
thought I, is better than that she should accompany me, where a life
of hardship would be her portion, and where she could not escape the
contamination which scenes of guilt and murder would effect in a short
time, and from which, alone as I was, I could not protect her.
I reached the tomb in which, by removing a stone, I had placed the
vessel containing the money. I hardly dared look at the well-remembered
spot, hardly dared attempt to remove the stone; but I did remove it,
and, O joy of joys, there was my treasure undisturbed! I hastily
seized the earthen vessel, and crawled with it into the thickest of
the underwood ere I ventured to open and examine it. I had forgotten
what it contained, and the contents surpassed my expectations. I found
thirty ashruffees and four small bars of gold, a box containing two
strings of pearls of some value and some jewels, and tied up in a
rag were some loose stones of value, one of them a diamond of great
lustre and beauty. The jewels I determined to keep, as they might be
afterwards of use to me, not only from their value, but to enable me to
assume the character of a dealer in precious stones, which is always a
respectable calling and for which, in the jewels before me, I had ample
stock for trade. I replaced the vessel and its precious contents, which
could not have been worth less than a thousand rupees; and I felt my
heart lightened of a load, both at seeing my treasure safe, and at the
assurance it gave me that by means of it my daughter would be decently
provided for. I returned to my companion, who had been anxiously
watching my proceedings, and he too rejoiced at my good fortune.
I did not proceed into the town till it was dusk: the gates, I knew,
would be open until long after dark, and I went alone to avoid any
chance of being remarked. I soon reached the house of the Moola, when,
abandoning my character of a Gosaeen, I asked for alms in a lusty voice
in the name of Moula Ali of Hyderabad. Fortunately the old Moola was
sitting alone in his verandah; I saw him through the open gate, and
advanced rapidly, shutting it behind me. He was engaged in reading his
Koran, and was rocking himself to and fro, apparently absorbed in the
book before him, so that he did not observe my approach; nor was he
aware of my presence till I had prostrated myself before him.
"Punah i Khoda!" he exclaimed; "what is this, a Gosaeen? thou must be
mad, good friend; or what seekest thou with the old Moola? Speak, thou
hast almost frightened me, and disturbed my meditations on the holy
volume."
"Pardon, Moolajee!" I cried; "you see one before you who has risked his
life to speak with you, and you must listen to me for a few moments. I
know you well, though you do not recognise me in this disguise."
"I know thee not, friend," he said; "nevertheless, if I can do aught to
serve thee, speak; yet it is seldom that the Hindoo seeks the house of
the priest of the Moslem faith; and I am in astonishment at thy garb
and address."
"Moola!" I said, "I would fain speak with thee in absolute secrecy;
are we secure from interruption here? Fear me not; I come with good
intent, and am not what you think me, but one of thine own faith;" and
I repeated the Belief.
"Strange, most strange is this," said the old man rising; "I doubt thee
not: no one would do the old Moola harm; and so, as thou requirest
secrecy, I will but fasten the outer gate and join thee instantly." He
did so, and returned.
"Moola," said I, when he was once more seated, and was prying into my
face with a look of mingled curiosity and wonder, "Moolajee! O Wullee
Mahomed! dost thou not recognise me?"
"Thy voice is familiar to mine ears," said the old man, "yet I remember
not thy features. Who art thou?"
"Mine is a name which may hardly be pronounced in Jhalone," I replied;
"but we are alone. Have you forgotten Ameer Ali?"
"Punah!" exclaimed the Moola, sidling away from me to the edge of his
carpet; "Punah i Khoda! do I behold that bad and reckless man?"
"Bad I may be, Moola," said I quietly; "and reckless I certainly am;
yet I wish thee no harm. You were kind to one I loved--you have my
child in your house--it is of them I would speak, not of myself. Tell
me, for the sake of Alla, whether my child is well--tell me whether she
lives, and I will bless you." I gasped for breath while he replied,
lest I should perchance have to hear of further misfortune.
"This is madness, Ameer Ali," said he; "know you not that your father's
fate awaits you if you are discovered here?"
"I know, I know all," said I; "and I have braved everything. I have
sought you despite of danger--for my heart clove to my child, and I
would fain hear of her. Ah, Moola, think not of what I was, and be
merciful to me."
"Unhappy man!" he cried; "thy crimes brought with them their own
reward; but I will not speak of the past. Know then that thy daughter
is well; but she grieves still for thee and for her mother, whom Alla
in mercy removed from her sufferings before she knew her degradation."
"Shookr Khoda!" I exclaimed: "ah, Alla, thou art merciful even to me.
And my child is well, and remembers me?"
"She does, Meer Sahib; she often speaks of you, but we have told her
you are dead, and she no longer thinks of you as one whom she may ever
meet again."
"And you are right, Moola," said I; "you are wise in having done this.
May Alla repay your kindness to a deserted child, for I cannot. I have
sought you for a purpose which you must promise to agree to, even
before I speak it--it is the only request I shall ever make for my
child, and from henceforth you will never see my face again nor hear my
name."
"Speak," said the Moola; "I promise nothing, Ameer Ali; thou hast
deceived thousands, and the old Moola is no match for thee in deceit."
"Briefly then," said I, "there was a small treasure which I buried in a
field here long ago: I have returned and found it safe. It is a trifle,
yet it is of no use to me; and I would give it over to you, both as a
portion for my daughter when she is married, and as some provision for
her until that can be effected."
"The spoil of the murdered," said the old man, drawing himself up
proudly, "can never enter the house of the Moola; it would bring a
curse with it, and I will have none of it. Keep it yourself, Ameer
Ali, and may Alla give you the grace to use it in regaining the honest
reputation you have lost."
"No, no," cried I; "the money was my wife's; she had hoarded it up for
our child; she brought it with her from the Dukhun, and it has remained
as she placed it in the vessel. I swear to you that it is honest money;
would I curse my child with the spoil of murders?"
"Swear to me on the Koran that it is, and I will believe you, Ameer
Ali, but not else;" and he tendered me the holy book.
I raised it to my lips; I kissed it, and touched my forehead and eyes
with it. I swore to what was false; but it was for my child. "Are you
satisfied now?" I asked; "now that you have humbled me by obliging me
to swear?"
"I am," he replied; "your trust shall be carefully and religiously
kept. Have you the money with you?"
"No," said I; "but I will go and return with it instantly. Admit me
alone; I will cough at your gate when I arrive."
I hastened to the spot I have before described; I hastily seized my
treasure and returned to the Moola; he was waiting for me at the gate
of his house, and we entered it together. "Here is all I have," said I,
pouring out the contents of the vessel on the carpet; "it is not much,
but it is the only portion of my wealth which remains to me."
"Think not of the past, Meer Sahib, what happened was predestinated,
and was the will of the All-powerful!"
"I have indeed no alternative but to submit, good Moola. But my time is
short, and night advances; ere morning breaks, I must be far away from
this, where my associates expect me. One favour I would beg,--it is, to
see my child: one look will be sufficient for my soul to dwell on in
after years, for I am assured that it will be the last--you will not
deny me?"
"I will not, Meer Sahib; she is now at play with a neighbour's child
in the zenana, and if you will follow me I will show her to you. One
look must be sufficient for you; after that she is mine, and I will be
a father to her. Follow me." I did; I followed him through a court-yard
to the door of a second, which was the entrance to his zenana. I heard
the merry voices of the children, as they played with light and joyful
hearts, and I could distinguish the silvery tones of my precious
child's voice, so like those of her mother, which were now silent for
ever.
"We will not disturb them, Meer Sahib," said the Moola in a whisper, as
he pushed open the door gently; "look in, so that you may not be seen;
you will easily distinguish your daughter."
Yes, she was there, my child, my beautiful child! still delicate and
fragile as she had ever been; but her face had a joyous expression,
and she was as merry as those by whom she was surrounded. Long, long
I gazed, and oh, my heart yearned to rush in, and for the last time to
clasp her to my bosom and bless her. But I restrained myself; she would
not, could not have recognized me in the disguise I wore and I should
have only needlessly alarmed and terrified her. Yet I put up a fervent
prayer to Alla for her protection and happiness, and I tore myself from
the spot--dejected, yet satisfied that she still lived and was happy.
"Enough!" said I to the Moola, when we regained the outer apartment; "I
now leave you; be kind to my child, and Alla will more than repay you
for aught of care or anxiety she may cause you. What I have given you
will be ample for a dowry to her in marriage with any person you may
select--any one who may be ignorant of her father's shame."
"I will: and rest assured that wherever you are, whatever your after
lot in life may be, you never need give one anxious thought about
Meeran; for I again repeat it, I am now her parent, and she has also
found another mother."
"I believe you," said I; "and if ever I am again favoured by fortune
and in a situation to come to you without shame to her, you shall take
me to her and present a father to his child: until then you hear not of
me again."
I left him. I had borne up against my feelings, I had struggled
against and overcome them so long as I was with him; but as I passed
his threshold the fond love of a parent would not be stifled: I was
overcome by bitter grief, and I sat down and wept, for I felt that I
had seen my child for the last time,--and it was even so; I have never
beheld her since, Sahib, nor ever been able to get a clue to her fate.
May Alla grant she is happy, and knows not of mine! But of this more
hereafter.
I wept! yes, I sat at the threshold of what had been my own home and
wept, yet not aloud. My eyes were a fountain of tears, and they welled
over their lids, and coursed down my rough visage, and fell hot upon
my hands. My memory was busy with the past, that period of bliss when
all earthly joy was my portion, and with it wealth and fame. All
was gone--gone like the fleeting dream--a mockery, which, gorgeous
or blissful as it may be while it possesses the sleeping senses, is
broken--even the remembrance of it lost--by awakening to reality. Alla
help me! I said, in the bitterness of my heart at that moment; I am,
indeed, desolate, and it matters not what becomes of me: I have no hope.
How long I thus sat I know not; but, arousing myself by a sudden
thought of the danger I was in, I rose up, took one long, sad survey
of what was once my own, but which was now deserted; and hurrying away
from the spot, I reached the gate as it was about to be shut, and soon
afterwards joined my companion.
At length we reached Calpee, where we found the band and their
families; and at a council of all assembled, after many plans of
proceeding had been discussed, and many plans proposed for our final
settling-place by the different members, I opened to them one of my
own, which I had long entertained. It was, to proceed to Lukhnow by
a boat, which could be easily hired, and to remain there, as it was
a city which promised an ample harvest to a Thug; and, from the not
over-strict character of its government, a more likely one than any
other to enable us to pursue our calling with security. The plan was
agreed on; and the next morning I betook myself to the Ghaut, to hold
communication with the Manjees of the boats, and to strike a bargain
for their conveyance of my party.
All was arranged to the satisfaction of my associates; and at the hour
appointed, which had been declared a lucky moment by some astrologer
employed by the boatmen, the anchor was raised, and a fair wind carried
us rapidly over the smooth waters. Day after day passed in this manner,
and there was a kind of dreamy pleasure about the voyage, which was
indescribably grateful to me. Here I had no alarms, no fatiguing
journeys, no anxiety; my mind became calm and unruffled, and I was once
more at peace.
At Lukhnow we lived for some time upon the proceeds of our last booty,
and I established a small traffic in precious stones, upon those I had
brought with me; but it yielded small returns to me, and I only delayed
commencing operations till I could fix upon some settled plans. I had
erred deeply in leaving my own country; if I needs must have left it,
I ought to have gone to the Dukhun: there I should have succeeded--I
should have risen; for the Dukhun Thugs required leaders, and, as you
may have heard, whenever a Hindostan Jemadar led them, they behaved
well and became the terror of the country. Here, I was in a place of
which I was ignorant, and I dared not venture to take to the roads. At
length I thought I would attempt the same system we had practised so
successfully at Hyderabad. No sooner had the idea possessed me, than I
longed to put it into execution; the more so, as my associates received
it with ardour, and seemed strongly convinced of its practicability.
We were unknown in that crowded and vicious city, lived in an obscure
part, and could never be suspected in our daily perambulations through
the bazars in search of bunij. And so it turned out; we were in great
luck for two months, money flowed in upon us, and we had killed upwards
of thirty persons, mostly travellers to distant parts, whom we decoyed
from the serais; and as we succeeded, I had more money at my disposal,
and was enabled to bribe several of the serai-keepers; and by allowing
them to participate to a large amount in our gains, I secured admission
to the serais, and had facilities of speaking with travellers, which I
should never have enjoyed had I neglected to secure their goodwill. But
fortune was against me, despite of this cheering commencement, and we
did not long enjoy our easy and profitable career.
We had one day taken out of the city a party of seven travellers,
we being sixteen Thugs in number. I well remember it was a Friday,
an unlucky day at best. Among the Thugs was an old man, one of the
old Murnae stock, a capital Bhuttote, who had joined us a short time
before; he had known my father, and me when a child, and had recognized
me in a street in Lukhnow, which led to his joining us. We had taken
the travellers to a favourite bhil of ours about four coss distant, and
were in the act of strangling them,--some even lay dead on the ground,
and the rest were in their last agonies,--when by the merest chance
a body of horse, which were on their way from the city to a distant
pergunnah, came upon us. We had grown too confident from our frequent
successes,--it was still far from morning, and we had neglected to
place scouts. The horse came upon us unheard and unseen, and, as I
have told you, caught us in the very act. Nine of us were seized after
a faint resistance; the rest--fortunate men!--made their escape. Our
hands were bound behind us, and we were dragged into the city, objects
of wonder and terror to the inhabitants. The bodies were brought in
after us; and two of the travellers who had been only half strangled,
and were revived by the horsemen, gave so clear an account of our whole
proceedings, how we had inveigled them and accompanied them on their
march till we attacked them unawares, that no doubt remained of our
guilt; and after our brief trial had been concluded before the Kazee,
we were cast into prison, to await our fate. The old Thug and myself
had been bound together, and we were in this state thrust into one of
the narrow cells of the jail. There we were told we should remain till
the pleasure of the king was known regarding us.