CHAPTER XLV.

Four days passed, and the merchant was still in our company. He was

slightly attended, and we could have terminated his existence whenever

we pleased; but we were anxious to carry him on as much of the journey

as we could, and to baffle any traces of our route, by turning to the

right and left, away from the regular tracks, and by footpaths and

byways only known to ourselves. Yet we had got far enough, and I knew

that the next day's march would lead us through a jungle, which was one

of our favourite bhils, and where I had from the first determined that

he should die.

We were on the road early on the fifth morning, and as before (indeed,

as was my wont) I was riding at the head of my party. It was now

daylight, but we were entering the jungle, and I was merry in my heart

to think that he was in my power, and that a large and valuable booty

would be our prize in the course of a short hour, when I saw an animal

move in the bushes on my right hand. Another instant, and a hare again

crossed my path! I laughed within myself. Fools that they are, thought

I, these brethren of mine! no Jemadar but myself would dare to pursue

this track after so dire an omen; himself and his whole band would fly,

as though a hundred tigers were in their path, and would leave their

bunij to escape, or to follow them, as his destiny might guide him. But

I!--I laugh at it: once I have proved that the omen is harmless, and

shall it deter me now? Ah, no, no! my game is sure, and within my grasp.

And so it was. Sahib, we had not gone a coss, when I saw the place I

had determined on; and there the merchant died and his two servants.

Yes, he died by my own hand. I pulled him off his pony and strangled

him; and the servants were cared for by the others, but not before one

of them had cut down one of my men; for in my eagerness to possess

myself of the prize before me, I had not seen that the servants of the

merchant could observe my actions. The poor fellow who had fallen was

dreadfully wounded; yet he still breathed. What to do with him I knew

not: we could not wait, and to transport him with us was out of the

question.

"What shall we do with Anundee?" said I to Laloo: "we are far from our

stage, and we cannot, with our large party, say we have fallen among

thieves."

He solved my doubts at once. "Put him out of his pain," said he; "the

man is dying: what matters another thrust? he can be buried with the

rest. The men might not like it if they saw it, but all here are

engaged, and most of the band have gone on. We can wrap him up in his

sheet afterwards."

I drew my sword and stepped towards the dying wretch; he looked

supplicatingly towards me and strove to speak, but my heart was hard.

I was sickened by the deed I had done, and I prayed Alla to forgive me

the blood of the miserable creature.

Wretch! said I--interrupting Ameer Ali--and you murdered your own

companion, your brother to whom you were sworn?

I did, Sahib, I did; yet why call it murder? He would have died in a

short time; I did but rid him of his misery.

It was a foul deed, Ameer Ali; and one that haunts your memory, I doubt

not.

Sometimes, was the careless answer of the Thug; and I bade him proceed.

We wrapped the body in the sheet which was around its waist, having

taken the money from the waistband. Laloo and myself carried it to the

grave, now nearly filled to the top.

"So he is dead!" cried the Lughaees; "he could not have lived long

after that cut: the fellow who gave it would have done for more of us

had not some of us seized on him; but we have laid him quietly,--he

will break no more good men's heads: and as for poor Anundee, he must

be buried with the rest, for to burn him is impossible in this lonely

place."

And he _was_ buried; they deepened the centre of the pit, put some

heavy stones over him, and covered him with earth: and I felt a load

taken from my heart as he was covered from my sight for ever. Only

Laloo knew what I had done, and I knew him to be faithful and silent:

nevertheless I often afterwards wished either that another had done the

deed, or that I had let him die.

A rare booty we had, Sahib. After we had eaten the Goor at the next

village, we hastened on to the end of the stage; and before we ungirded

our loins I opened the caskets and divided the spoil. Not only had the

merchant brought the necklace I have mentioned before, but a heap of

unstrung pearls; and on reckoning up their probable value, we estimated

the amount at twenty-five thousand rupees. Now therefore we had no

inducement to tarry away from our homes; we needed no fresh adventure

to enrich us, and we pushed on to Jhalone. We reached it in safety,

and again I clasped Azima to my heart, and rejoiced to see that my

child was well, and with a girl's eagerness looking forward to the

time when her marriage ceremony was to take place. My father too was

well, and had reached Jhalone without any adventure worth recording,

so at least he told me. But of Ganesha there was no news, save that

he had diverged to the eastward, and was supposed to have gone in the

direction of Benares; and I little cared, except that the revenge for

the destruction of the Moonshee's son rankled in my heart and was not

forgotten.

Months passed at my home without care, and in peace. Alas! now that I

think on it, I can only compare the course of that time to the gentle

stream of a river, which, as it winds among peaceful scenes and between

green and flowery banks, ruffled only by the soft winds playing over

its bosom, is suddenly arrested, dashed among rocks, and its current

changed to turmoil and furious contention with its stony opposers. I

saw no mark of my future lot, no warning was given to me; destruction

came upon me in one fell swoop, and I was overwhelmed--I and mine!

But for that stroke of fortune I had lived till now an honest and

gentle life, for I abandoned Thuggee; and the more I experienced of

the soothing pleasures of my home, the more I became estranged from

my habits of wandering, and of plunder and destruction. Nor was the

least urgent reason in the meditated change of my life, that I dreaded

every day more and more that some unlucky chance would reveal to Azima

the dreadful trade I followed. I could paint to myself the effect it

would have on her loving and gentle disposition, and the prostration of

every faculty of her existence, under the shock of knowing that I was

a murderer; and often, as she lay upon my heart in the dead of night,

these thoughts have come so thick on me, that could her soul have held

any mysterious communion with mine, she would have recoiled in horror

from my embrace, and fled from me for ever. And these fancies recurred

so frequently and forcibly, that sometimes I almost thought them a

warning of coming evil, and I had fully determined to remove my abode

and my wealth to Delhi, after my daughter's marriage, there to reside

for the remainder of the days which might be allotted to me.

I have said months passed without incident; I should have mentioned

that an English gentleman, some time after my arrival, came to Jhalone;

and in the many conferences he held in secret with the Rajah, we were

given to understand that a treaty of some kind or other had been made,

and that he had placed himself under the protection of the English

Government. I thought not of it: yet even then a system was working

silently yet surely, which, for a time, struck at the power and

confederacy of the Thugs a blow as severe, nay more so, as being more

lasting, than any they had yet experienced.

The Englishman had left Jhalone some time, and his visit was nearly

forgotten by us; my daughter's marriage had begun, and everything was

rejoicing in my house. About noon one day one of the Rajah's Hurkaras

came with a message that he required my presence and my father's in the

Durbar, on particular business. In vain was it that I excused myself on

the plea of the marriage ceremony. The messenger would take no excuse;

and at last, seeing no alternative, we girded our loins and accompanied

the Hurkara.

We were ushered through the various courts to the Dewan Khana, where

the Rajah sat in Durbar, surrounded by his Mutsuddees and soldiers.

Leaving our shoes at the entrance, we were as usual advancing towards

his Guddee to make the customary salutations, when a sudden rush was

made upon us from both sides of the hall, and we were at once seized

and disarmed. In vain I struggled with my captors, in vain I attempted

to shake them off by the most strenuous exertions; it was useless: I

was surrounded and overpowered, my turban was torn rudely from my head,

and my arms were bound so tightly with it, that I thought the blood

would have burst from under my nails. I desisted at last, and remained

passive in the hands of the soldiers. My hour is come, and my fate has

led me on thus far to desert me at last! thought I; it is the will of

Bhowanee and of Alla, why should I resist?

Seeing me quiet, the Rajah addressed me. "Ah, Ameer Ali," said he;

"what is this I hear of thee, that thou art a Thug, a common murderer?

Can this be true of one who was looked up to in Jhalone as a merchant,

and a respectable man? What hast thou to say? Speak, man, and prove if

thou canst to me, that the accusations I hear against thee are false."

"Rajah," said I, "I know not who hath poisoned thy mind against me or

mine; is there any one in your city who can speak one word against,

me? Have I not been fair and honourable in my dealings with all,

and with thyself, too? Have not I managed villages and brought them

to prosperity from desolation? and can any one, young or old, in

this Durbar say that I have ever wronged him, or defrauded him of a

fraction? Rajah, none can say this; and therefore, why am I and my old

father thus disgraced in the eyes of the city, and torn from our houses

in the midst of the rejoicings of marriage?"

"_I_ accuse thee not," said the Rajah; "Bhugwan alone knows whether

what I hear is the truth or not; but witnesses are many against thee

and the old man; let them speak, and we will afterwards decide in your

case. Bring them forth!" cried he to an attendant; "one by one let them

give their evidence before these unhappy men: we desire no secrecy in

this matter."

There was a moment's pause in the assembly, and every eye--a hundred

eyes were upon us. I looked to my father, to see the effect his

situation had on him; but I read no hope in the glance he threw on

me; his energy had deserted him, and he looked like a convicted felon

long before he was so in reality; he returned my anxious and meaning

glances by a stare of stupid apathy or extreme fear,--I know not which;

and it was pitiable to behold him, for his venerable and respectable

appearance but ill assorted with the disgraceful situation he was in.

I turned away from him to look at the man who entered, and then I

felt that my doom was sealed. I have never mentioned him, but he had

been connected with our gang from the first as a Tilhaee, or scout,

and had afterwards assisted as a Bhuttote on many occasions. His name

was Sooruj; he had accompanied me on all my first expeditions, and

had served under my father for some time before I became a Thug; he

therefore knew every particular of my career, and until I became a

Pindharee described every event with minuteness and fidelity, omitting

not one nor adding in any way to those I had been so deeply concerned

in. He offered to point out the spots upon which travellers had

been destroyed, declared the amount of booty we had gained on many

occasions, and ended by denouncing both my father and myself as the

greatest leaders in Bundelkhund, as men who could take the field at any

time with two hundred followers or more, and as cruel and remorseless

Thugs. He dared me to disprove his words, and indeed I quailed under

his accusations; for they were true, and truth searches the heart and

overwhelms the guilty. But against my father he was the most bitter.

"Look on him, Rajah!" cried he; "look on this hoary wretch! one

would think that, old as he is, he would have ceased to deprive his

fellow-creatures of life; that he would have spent the remainder of

his days in propitiating Bhowanee by sacrifices, and his own Prophet

by prayers! yet it has not been so. Within the last two months he

has returned from an expedition laden with spoil, and the last man

he strangled was one of thine own subjects, oh Rajah,--one who was

respected and beloved here, and whose bereaved family will rue this day

that I have declared his fate in your Durbar."

"One of my subjects!" cried the Rajah; "thou canst not mean it. Speak!

and let not fear prevent your disclosing the truth."

"Fear! Rajah, I know it not. If I feared him, that old man, should I

have dared to speak as I have done? Listen; you knew Jeswunt Mul, one

of the most respectable of the shroffs of Jhalone?"

"Knew him, oh messenger of ill tidings! Jeswunt Mul is not dead?"

"Ask _him_," said the man hoarsely; "or stay, ask the other man you

have here; let him be brought forward, he will tell the tale; I saw it

not. But Jeswunt Mul will never speak more, and let those who believe

the good man safe at Saugor shave their mustachios and mourn, for he

will never more be seen. Yes, he is dead, and _that_ old man looked on

while he writhed out his last agony under the roomal of the Bhuttote;"

and he pointed at my father, while he regarded him with a look of grim

and revengeful pleasure.

There was a general shudder through the assembly, as the deep tones

of the informer's voice fell on the ears of those who heard it; and

"Jeswunt Mul dead!" was repeated by many in an incredulous tone as they

drew into knots and whispered together. Nor was the Rajah himself

least struck by the melancholy information. He sat on his musnud in

silence, though it could be seen by the working of his features how

much he was affected. But he aroused himself at last.

"Thou didst not then see this murder?" said he to the informer.

"I did not, Maha Rajah; but send for Bodhee, he will relate the

particulars."

Bodhee! thought I; then there is indeed no hope. Until his name was

mentioned, I had a faint idea that the accusation might be a fabricated

one; especially as I had heard nothing of the sahoukar's fate from

my father: but Bodhee had been with him, and he was the chief of the

Lughaees, and it was more than probable that he had dug the grave for

the victim.

"Let Bodhee be brought forward," cried the rajah.

He came; his fetters clanked as he moved, and it was not until he had

advanced into the midst of the Durbar that he beheld my father and

myself bound and as criminals. The sight staggered him, and well it

might; he had been trusted by us, raised to the rank he held by my

father, and ever treated by him as a son, though he was of a different

faith to ours. His face was convulsed by his emotions--they might have

been those of a faithful heart struggling against ingratitude; and I

looked with a breathless anxiety to the first words which should fall

from him. But before he spoke the Rajah addressed him.

"Miserable wretch!" said he, "your life has been spared on the

condition that you speak the truth, and reveal, without reservation

of a single circumstance, every deed of murder you have been engaged

in: this has been promised you by the English, and you have now to

prove that you will perform your engagement. If you do perform it,

well; if not, though the English are your protectors, I swear to you

that you shall be dragged to death by my elephants ere a ghurree of

time has passed over you. Bid the elephant be brought!" cried he to an

attendant; "and see that the chains are ready. By Gunga! there will be

work for him ere long: and now," continued he to the approver, "knowest

thou aught of the death of Jeswunt Mul of this town,--he who used to

manage my private affairs, or if he indeed be dead? Speak, and remember

that truth alone can save you."

There was a breathless silence; my father gazed at the informer with

an intense anxiety; it was evident to me that he thought one word from

him would seal his fate for ever, or that, should he deny the deed,

he would escape. Earnestly, imploringly, he looked at him, and the

informer was well nigh overcome; he trembled in every limb, and the big

drops of sweat stood out on his face, while the veins of his forehead

swelled almost to bursting.

"Speak, Bodhee!" said my father in a hollow voice,--yet still he

smiled,--"speak, and tell the rajah that his poor servant Ismail is not

guilty of this deed."

"Silence!" exclaimed the Rajah; "gag him if he attempts to utter a word

to influence the informer; we will do justice in this matter; and you,

Meer Sahib (turning to a respectable-looking person who was seated near

him), you shall be able to tell the Sahib-logue that justice can be

done in the Durbar of Jhalone. Bring up the elephant," he cried to the

attendants; "and do you, Bodhee, look your last on the earth and sky,

for by Gunga, I swear, thou art nigh to death if thou deceivest me. I

read it in thy face that this matter is known to thee."

But still Bodhee hesitated: there was evidently a struggle within him

whether he should die in defence of his old protector, or betray him to

save his own life. For a moment the former feeling prevailed; he turned

to the Rajah, and said distinctly and firmly, "May I be your sacrifice,

Maha Rajah! I know nothing of this matter: of other murders I can tell

you, but I know nought of this."

"He lies!" said the other approver; "he was with Ismail Jemadar; he is

afraid to speak out, and has lied to you, O Prince."

"You hear him," cried the Rajah to Bodhee; "you hear what your

fellow Thug says; yet, much as you have deserved death, I give you

a few moments more: the shadow of the verandah is now close on my

musnud,--till it reaches it thou shalt live--beyond it, one finger's

breadth, and you die!"

There was not an eye in the crowd that was not fixed on the advancing

shadow; barely a hand's breadth of light remained, and the Thug

gazed on it as though he were fascinated by the eye of a tiger. My

father! oh he was fearful to look on; his eyes were glazed--his lips

were tightened across his teeth--fear, _agony_, was depicted in his

countenance in stronger lines than I had ever before seen. I could not

look on him--his face was altered, and his usual bland expression had

been usurped by that I have described. I felt sick, I could have died I

thought; and would that I _had_ died, to have been spared what followed.

"Fool!" cried the other approver, "will you sacrifice your life for

those who will be instantly put to death?" He spoke in Ramasee.

The words rallied the man to whom he addressed them, and they saved him.

"Pardon, pardon!" he cried; "O, mighty prince, I have told lies.

Jeswunt Mul is indeed dead; these hands dug his grave, and bore his yet

warm body to it."

"Ai Bhugwan! Ai Seeta-ram!" cried the Rajah, "and is it even so? My poor

friend, and art thou dead?" and for a moment or two he wept. "This is

womanly," said he, rallying himself. "Proceed, O kumbukht! Let me know

all, and what share _he_ had in it."

"We met the Sahoukar at ----," said the Thug. "Ismail well knew that

if we were all seen by him he would suspect us, so he sent the greater

part of the band out of the village, and prevailed upon Jeswunt Mul to

come and sleep in our camp, instead of remaining where he was. He went

to the village, and brought him away himself, else he would not have

come. The grave was dug long before he arrived; and he had not been

an hour with us after the sun had set, when he was strangled in the

Jemadar's presence by two Bhuttotes; and his two servants shared the

same fate. I buried them all. The Sahoukar's pony we sold the next day

for twenty-five rupees; and we got but little else, for he had no money

but in hoondees, which we burned."

"Enough, enough," said the Rajah; "this is ample proof."

"Nay, if your greatness requires more proof, I can give you some now,"

continued the approver. "Look at the Jemadar's hand: he wears on it a

ring he took from the body himself, and it may be recognized even by

you, Maha Rajah."

My heart sank within me at this new and desperate stroke of fortune. I

saw the ring torn from my father's finger. All examined it. A Sahoukar

who was in the assembly declared it to have belonged to Jeswunt Mul,

and, more than all, his name was engraven on its inner surface.

"Enough!" again cried the Rajah; "I know it myself. I could have sworn

to that diamond among a thousand. Away with him! chain him to the

elephant; let him be dragged through the town, and proclamation made

that he was a Thug."

"Stay," cried the Syud, who had not as yet spoken, "he may have

something to urge in his defence. Ask him, and hear him."

"Speak!" cried the Rajah to my miserable father--"speak, O kumbukht!"

And then my father's proud spirit broke out. With the certainty of

death before his eyes, he quailed not. While hope remained of life,

he had clung to it, as every man will; and when I had expected a

grovelling entreaty for his life to be spared, from his previous

demeanour, he asked it not, but gloried in the cause for which he died.

"Yes," said he, drawing himself up, while his eye glistened proudly, "I

scorn to die with a lie upon my lips. I killed Jeswunt Mul because he

was a villain, as you are, Rajah! because he employed Thugs, and would

not reward them, but wrung from them every rupee he could, as you do.

I have murdered hundreds of men, because they were given into my hands

by Alla; but I never destroyed one with the satisfaction I did your

friend. Ay, you were friends and brothers in guilt, and you know it.

My life! I care not for it. What has an old man to do with life? his

enjoyments are gone, his existence is a burthen to him. A short time,

and nature would have claimed me. You have anticipated the period. Yet,

O Rajah! Bhowanee will question you for this deed--for the destruction

of her votary. My blood be on your head, and the curse of a dying man

be with you! You have deceived me, robbed me, shared my spoils, taken

the produce of murder; nay, be not impatient, you know it is the truth,

and that Alla, who is the judge of all, knows it also. He will cast

your portion in Jehanum, as a kafir; and Bhowanee will rejoice that the

destroyer of her votary writhes in the torments of the damned."

"Gag him! strike the kafir's mouth with a shoe!" roared the Rajah in a

fury, more like that of a beast than a man, as he foamed at the mouth.

"Away with him! and let his son look on his dying agony."

And they dragged us both forth,--I should not say my father, for his

step was firm. I struggled against my tormentors, but it availed me

not. "One word, my father!" cried I to him as we were brought near each

other. "Wilt thou not speak to thy son?"

He turned his head, and a tear stood in his eye. "I leave thee, Ameer

Ali; but thou knowest a believer's Paradise, and the joys which await

him--the seventy virgins and everlasting youth. Thou art not my son;

but I have loved thee as one, and may Alla keep thee!"

"No more!" cried the rough soldiers, striking him on the mouth, and

dragging him forward.

"Revenge me!" exclaimed my father in Ramasee. "Tell the English of that

monster's conduct to us; and when he is torn from his seat of pride, my

soul will be happy in Paradise."

He spoke no more; I was held forcibly, so that I saw the end of that

butchery. They secured him by a chain round his loins to the fore-foot

of the elephant, and they tied his hands behind him, so that he could

not save himself by clinging to it. He still continued repeating the

Kulma; but now all was ready--the Mahout drove his ankoos into the head

of the noble beast, which uttering a loud scream, dashed forward. A few

steps, and my father's soul must have been in Paradise!

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