A small boy crept into the darkened hut. The unglazed windows were
roughly curtained with skins, but there was sufficient light from the
open doorway to show him what he wanted. He tiptoed to a corner where
an old travelling trunk lay under a pile of dirty clothes. He opened it
very carefully, and after a little searching found the thing he sought.
Then he gently closed it, and, with a look towards the bed in the other
corner, he slipped out again into the warm October afternoon.
The woman on the bed stirred uneasily and suddenly became fully awake,
after the way of those who are fluttering very near death. She was still
young, and the little face among the coarse homespun blankets looked
almost childish. Heavy masses of black hair lay on the pillow, and the
depth of its darkness increased the pallor of her brow. But the cheeks
were flushed, and the deep hazel eyes were burning with a slow fire....
For a week the milk-sick fever had raged furiously, and in the few hours
free from delirium she had been racked with omnipresent pain and deadly
sickness. Now those had gone, and she was drifting out to sea on a tide
of utter weakness. Her husband, Tom Linkhorn, thought she mending, and
was even now whistling--the first time for weeks--by the woodpile. But
the woman knew that she was close to the great change, and so deep was
her weariness that the knowledge remained an instinct rather than a
thought. She was as passive as a dying animal. The cabin was built of
logs, mortised into each other--triangular in shape, with a fireplace in
one corner. Beside the fire stood a table made of a hewn log, on which
lay some pewter dishes containing the remains of the last family meal.
One or two three-legged stools made up the rest of the furniture, except
for the trunk in the corner and the bed. This bed was Tom Linkhorn's
pride, which he used to boast about to his friends, for he was a
tolerable carpenter. It was made of plank stuck between the logs of the
wall, and supported at the other end by crotched sticks. By way of a
curtain top a hickory post had been sunk in the floor and bent over the
bed, the end being fixed in the log wall. Tom meant to have a fine skin
curtain fastened to it when winter came. The floor was of beaten earth,
but there was a rough ceiling of smaller logs, with a trap in it which
could be reached by pegs stuck the centre post. In that garret the
children slept. Tom's building zeal had come to an end with the bed.
Some day he meant to fit in a door and windows, but these luxuries could
wait till he got his clearing in better order.
On a stool by the bed stood a wooden bowl containing gruel. The woman
had not eaten for days, and the stuff had a thick scum on it. The place
was very stuffy, for it was a hot and sickly autumn day and skins which
darkened the window holes kept out the little freshness that was in the
air. Beside the gruel was a tin pannikin of cold water which the boy Abe
fetched every hour from the spring. She saw the water, but was too weak
to reach it.
The shining doorway was blocked by a man's entrance. Tom Linkhorn was a
little over middle height, with long muscular arms, and the corded neck
sinews which tell of great strength. He had a shock of coarse black
hair, grey eyes and a tired sallow face, as of one habitually overworked
and underfed. His jaw was heavy, but loosely put together, so that he
presented an air of weakness and irresolution. His lips were thick and
pursed in a kind of weary good humour. He wore an old skin shirt and
a pair of towlinen pants, which flapped about his bare brown ankles. A
fine sawdust coated his hair and shoulders, for he had been working in
the shed where he eked out his farming by making spinning wheels for his
neighbours.
He came softly to the bedside and looked down at his wife. His face was
gentle and puzzled.
“Reckon you're better, dearie,” he said in a curious harsh toneless
voice.
The sick woman moved her head feebly in the direction of the stool and
he lifted the pannikin of water to her lips.
“Cold enough?” he asked, and his wife nodded. “Abe fetches it as reg'lar
as a clock.”
“Where's Abe?” she asked, and her voice for all its feebleness had a
youthful music in it.
“I heerd him sayin' he was goin' down to the crick to cotch a fish. He
reckoned you'd fancy a fish when you could eat a piece. He's a mighty
thoughtful boy, our Abe. Then he was comin' to read to you. You'd like
that, dearie?”
The sick woman made no sign. Her eyes were vacantly regarding the
doorway.
“I've got to leave you now. I reckon I'll borrow the Dawneys' sorrel
horse and ride into Gentryville. I've got the young hogs to sell, and
I'll fetch back the corn-meal from Hickson's. Sally Hickson was just
like you last fall, and I want to find out from Jim how she got her
strength up.”
He put a hand on her brow, and felt it cool.
“Glory! You're mendin' fast, Nancy gal. You'll be well in time to can
the berries that the childern's picked.” He fished from below the bed a
pair of skin brogues and slipped them on his feet. “I'll be back before
night.”
“I want Abe,” she moaned.
“I'll send him to you,” he said as he went out
Left alone the woman lay still for a little in a stupor of weariness.
Waves of that terrible lassitude, which is a positive anguish and not
a mere absence of strength, flowed over her. The square of the doorway,
which was directly before her eyes, began to take strange forms. It
was filled with yellow sunlight, and a red glow beyond told of the
sugar-maples at the edge of the clearing. Now it seemed to her unquiet
sight to be a furnace. Outside the world was burning; she could feel
the heat of it in the close cabin. For a second acute fear startled her
weakness. It passed, her eyes cleared, and she saw the homely doorway as
it was, and heard the gobble of a turkey in the forest.
The fright had awakened her mind and senses. For the first time she
fully realised her condition. Life no longer moved steadily in her body;
it flickered and wavered and would soon gutter out.... Her eyes marked
every detail of the squalor around her--the unwashed dishes, the foul
earthen floor, the rotting apple pile, the heap of rags which had been
her only clothes. She was leaving the world, and this was all she had
won from it. Sheer misery forced a sigh which seemed to rend her frail
body, and her eyes filled with tears. She had been a dreamer, an adept
at make-believe, but the poor coverings she had wrought for a dingy
reality were now too threadbare to hide it.
And once she had been so rich in hope. She would make her husband a
great man, and--when that was manifestly impossible without a rebirth
of Tom Linkhorn--she would have a son who would wear a black coat like
Lawyer Macneil and Colonel Hardin way back in Kentucky, and make fine
speeches beginning “Fellow countrymen and gentlemen of this famous
State.” She had a passion for words, and sonorous phrases haunted her
memory. She herself would have a silk gown and a bonnet with roses in
it; once long ago she had been to Elizabethtown and seen just such a
gown and bonnet.... Or Tom would be successful in this wild Indiana
country and be, like Daniel Boone, the father of a new State, and have
places and towns called for him--a Nancyville perhaps or a Linkhorn
County. She knew about Daniel Boone, for her grandfather Hanks had been
with him.... And there had been other dreams, older dreams, dating far
back to the days when she was a little girl with eyes like a brown owl.
Someone had told her fairy-tales about princesses and knights,
strange beings which she never quite understood, but of which she made
marvellous pictures in her head She had learned to read in order to
follow up the doings of those queer bright folk, but she had never
tracked them down again. But one book she had got called The
Pilgrim's Progress, printed by missionaries in a far-away city called
Philadelphia, which told of things as marvellous, and had pictures,
too--one especially of a young man covered with tin, which she supposed
was what they called armour. And there was another called The Arabian
Nights, a close-printed thing difficult to read by the winter fire,
full of wilder doings than any she could imagine for herself; but
beautiful, too, and delicious to muse over, though Tom, when she read a
chapter to him, had condemned it as a pack of lies.... Clearly there
was a world somewhere, perhaps outside America altogether, far more
wonderful than even the magnificence of Colonel Hardin. Once she had
hoped to find it herself; then that her children should find it. And
the end was this shack in the wilderness, a few acres of rotting crops,
bitter starving winters, summers of fever, the deeps of poverty, a
penniless futureless family, and for herself a coffin of green lumber
and a yard or two of stony soil.
She saw everything now with the clear unrelenting eyes of childhood.
The films she had woven for selfprotection were blown aside. She was
dying--she had often wondered how she should feel when dying--humble and
trustful, she had hoped, for she was religious after a fashion, and had
dreamed herself into an affection for a kind fatherly God. But now all
that had gone. She was bitter, like one defrauded. She had been promised
something, and had struggled on in the assurance of it. And the result
was nothing--nothing. Tragic tears filled her eyes. She had been so
hungry, and there was to be no satisfying that hunger this side the
grave or beyond it. She was going the same way as Betsy Sparrow, a death
like a cow's, with nothing to show for life, nothing to leave. Betsy had
been a poor crushed creature, and had looked for no more. But she was
different. She had been promised something, something fine--she couldn't
remember what, or who had promised it, but it had never been out of her
mind.
There was the ring, too. No woman in Indiana had the like of that. An
ugly thing, but very ancient and of pure gold. Once Tom had wanted to
sell it when he was hard-pressed back at Nolin Creek, but she had fought
for it like a tigress and scared the life out of Tom. Her grandfather
had left it her because she was his favourite and it had been her
grandmothers, and long ago had come from Europe. It was lucky, and
could cure rheumatism if worn next the heart in a skin bag.... All her
thoughts were suddenly set on the ring, her one poor shred of fortune.
She wanted to feel it on her finger, and press its cool gold with the
queer markings on her eyelids.
But Tom had gone away and she couldn't reach the trunk in the corner.
Tears trickled down her cheeks and through the mist of them she saw that
the boy Abe stood at the foot of the bed.
“Feelin' comfortabler?” he asked. He had a harsh untunable voice,
his father's, but harsher, and he spoke the drawling dialect of the
backwoods.
His figure stood in the light, so that the dying mother saw only its
outline. He was a boy about nine years old, but growing too fast,
so that he had lost the grace of childhood and was already lanky and
ungainly. As he turned his face crosswise to the light he revealed a
curiously rugged profile--a big nose springing sharply from the brow,
a thick underhung lower lip, and the beginning of a promising Adam's
apple. His stiff black hair fell round his great ears, which stood
out like the handles of a pitcher. He was barefoot, and wore a pair of
leather breeches and a ragged homespun shirt. Beyond doubt he was ugly.
He moved round to the right side of the bed where he was wholly in
shadow.
“My lines is settin' nicely,” he said. “I'll have a fish for your
supper. And then I'm goin' to take dad's gun and fetch you a turkey. You
could eat a slice of a fat turkey, I reckon.”
The woman did not answer, for she was thinking. This uncouth boy was the
son she had put her faith in. She loved him best of all things on earth,
but for the moment she saw him in the hard light of disillusionment.
A loutish backwoods child, like Dennis Hanks or Tom Sparrow or anybody
else. He had been a comfort to her, for he had been quick to learn and
had a strange womanish tenderness in his ways. But she was leaving him,
and he would grow up like his father before him to a life of ceaseless
toil with no daylight or honour in it.... She almost hated the sight of
him, for he was the memorial of her failure.
The boy did not guess these thoughts. He pulled up a stool and sat very
close to the bed, holding his mother's frail wrist in a sunburnt hand so
big that it might have been that of a lad half-way through his teens.
He had learned in the woods to be neat and precise in his ways, and his
movements, for all his gawky look, were as soft as a panther's.
“Like me to tell you a story?” he asked. “What about Uncle Mord's tale
of Dan'l Boone at the Blue Licks Battle?”
There was no response, so he tried again.
“Or read a piece? It was the Bible last time, but the words is mighty
difficult. Besides you don't need it that much now. You're gettin'
better.... Let's hear about the ol' Pilgrim.”
He found a squat duodecimo in the trunk, and shifted the skin curtain
from one of the window holes to get light to read by. His mother lay
very still with her eyes shut, but he knew by her breathing that she
was not asleep. He ranged through the book, stopping to study the
crude pictures, and then started laboriously to read the adventures of
Christian and Hopeful after leaving Vanity Fair--the mine of Demas, the
plain called Ease, Castle Doubting, and the Delectable Mountains. He
boggled over some of the words, but on the whole he read well, and his
harsh voice dropped into a pleasant sing-song.
By and by he noticed that his mother was asleep. He took the tin
pannikin and filled it with fresh water from the spring. Then he kissed
the hand which lay on the blanket, looked about guiltily to see if
anyone had seen him, for kisses were rare in that household and tiptoed
out again.
The woman slept, but not wholly. The doorway, which was now filled with
the deeper gold of the westering sun, was still in her vision. It had
grown to a great square of light, and instead of being blocked in the
foreground by the forest it seemed to give on an infinite distance. She
had a sense not of looking out of a hut, but of looking from without
into a great chamber. Peace descended on her which she had never known
before in her feverish dreams, peace and a happy expectation.
She had not listened to Abe's reading, but some words of it had caught
her ear. The phrase “delectable mountains” for one. She did not know
what “delectable” meant, but it sounded good; and mountains, though she
had never seen more of them than a far blue line, had always pleased
her fancy. Now she seemed to be looking at them through that magical
doorway.... The country was not like anything she remembered in the
Kentucky bluegrass, still less like the shaggy woods of Indiana. The
turf was short and very green, and the hills fell into gracious folds
that promised homesteads in every nook of them. It was a “delectable”
country--yes, that was the meaning of the word that had puzzled her....
She had seen the picture before in her head. She remembered one hot
Sunday afternoon when she was a child hearing a Baptist preacher
discoursing on a Psalm, something about the “little hills rejoicing.”
She had liked the words and made a picture in her mind. These were the
little hills and they were joyful.
There was a white road running straight through them till it disappeared
over a crest. That was right, of course. The road which the Pilgrims
travelled.... And there, too, was a Pilgrim.
He was a long way off, but she could see him quite clearly. He was a
boy, older than Abe, but about the same size--a somewhat forlorn figure,
who seemed as if he had a great way to go and was oppressed by the
knowledge of it. He had funny things on his legs and feet, which were
not proper moccasins. Once he looked back, and she had a glimpse of fair
hair. He could not be any of the Hanks or Linkhorn kin, for they
were all dark.... But he had something on his left arm which she
recognised--a thick ring of gold. It was her own ring, the ring she
kept in the trunk and she smiled comfortably. She had wanted it a little
while ago, and now there it was before her eyes. She had no anxiety
about its safety, for somehow it belonged to that little boy as well as
to her.
His figure moved fast and was soon out of sight round a turn of the
hill. And with that the landscape framed in the doorway began to waver
and dislimn. The road was still there, white and purposeful, but
the environs were changing.... She was puzzled, but with a pleasant
confusion. Her mind was not on the landscape, but on the people, for she
was assured that others would soon appear on the enchanted stage.
He ran across the road, shouting with joy, a dog at his heels and a bow
in his hand. Before he disappeared she marked the ring, this time on his
finger.... He had scarcely gone ere another appeared on the road, a slim
pale child, dressed in some stuff that gleamed like satin, and mounted
on a pony.... The spectacle delighted her, for it brought her in mind of
the princes she had been told of in fairytales. And there was the ring,
worn over a saffron riding glove....
A sudden weakness made her swoon; and out of it she woke to a
consciousness of the hut where she lay. She had thought she was dead and
in heaven among fair children, and the waking made her long for her own
child. Surely that was Abe in the doorway.... No, it was a taller and
older lad, oddly dressed, but he had a look of Abe--something in his
eyes. He was on the road too, and marching purposefully--and he had
the ring. Even in her mortal frailty she had a quickening of the heart.
These strange people had something to do with her, something to tell
her, and that something was about her son....
There was a new boy in the picture. A dejected child who rubbed the ring
on his small breeches and played with it, looking up now and then with a
frightened start. The woman's heart ached for him, for she knew her own
life-long malady. He was hungry for something which he had small hope
of finding.... And then a wind seemed to blow out-of-doors and the world
darkened down to evening. But her eyes pierced the gloaming easily, and
she saw very plain the figure of a man.
He was sitting hunched up, with his chin in his hands, gazing into
vacancy. Without surprise she recognised something in his face that was
her own. He wore the kind of hunter's clothes that old folk had worn in
her childhood, and a long gun lay across his knees. His air was sombre
and wistful, and yet with a kind of noble content in it. He had Abe's
puckered-up lips and Abe's steady sad eyes.... Into her memory came a
verse of the Scriptures which had always fascinated her. “These all died
in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar
off, and were persuaded of them, and embraced them, and confessed that
they were strangers and pilgrims upon the earth.”
She saw it all in a flash of enlightenment. These seekers throughout the
ages had been looking for something and had not found it. But Abe, her
son, was to find it. That was why she had been shown those pictures.
Once again she looked through the door into bright sunshine. It was
a place that she knew beside the Ohio she remembered the tall poplar
clump. She did not see the Jacksons' farm which stood south of the
trees, but there was the Indian graveyard, which as a little girl she
had been afraid to pass. Now it seemed to be fresh made, for painted
vermilion wands stood about the mounds. On one of them was a gold
trinket, tied by a loop of hide, rattled in the wind. It was her ring.
The seeker lay buried there with the talisman above him.
She was awake now, oblivious of the swift sinking of her vital energy.
She must have the ring, for it was the pledge of a great glory....
A breathless little girl flung herself into the cabin. It was Sophy
Hanks, one of the many nieces who squattered like ducks about the
settlement.
“Mammy!” she cried shrilly. “Mammy Linkorn!” She stammered with the
excitement of the bearer of ill news. “Abe's lost your ring in the
crick. He took it for a sinker to his lines, for Indian Jake telled him
a piece of gold would cotch the grit fish. And a grit fish has cotched
it. Abe's bin divn' and divn' and can't find it nohow. He reckons it's
plumb lost. Ain't he a bad 'un, Mammy Linkhorn?”
It was some time before the dying woman understood. Then she began
feebly to cry. For the moment her ring loomed large in her eyes: it was
the earnest of the promise, and without it the promise might fail. She
had not strength to speak or even to sob, and the tears trickled over
her cheeks in dumb impotent misery.
She was roused by the culprit Abe. He stood beside her with his wet hair
streaked into a fringe along his brow. The skin of his neck glistened
wet in the opening of his shirt. His cheeks too glistened, but not with
the water of the creek. He was crying bitterly.
He had no words of explanation or defence. His thick underlip stuck out
and gave him the appeal of a penitent dog; the tears had furrowed paler
channels down grimy cheeks; he was the very incarnation of uncouth
misery.
But his mother saw none of these things.... On the instant he seemed
to her transfigured. Something she saw in him of all the generations
of pleading boys that had passed before her, something of the stern
confidence of the man over whose grave the ring had fluttered. But
more--far more. She was assured that the day of the seekers had passed
and that the finder had come.... The young features were transformed
into the lines of a man's strength. The eyes dreamed but also commanded,
the loose mouth had the gold of wisdom and the steel of resolution. The
promise had not failed her.... She had won everything from life, for
she had given the world a master. Words seemed to speak themselves
in her ear... “Bethink you of the blessedness. Every wife is like the
Mother of God and has the hope of bearing a saviour of mankind.”
She lay very still in her great joy. The boy in a fright sprang to her
side, knocking over the stool with the pannikin of water. He knelt on
the floor and hid his face in the bed-clothes. Her hand found his shaggy
head.
Her voice was very faint now, but he heard it.
“Don't cry, little Abe,” she said. “Don't you worry about the ring,
dearie. It ain't needed no more.”
Half an hour later, when the cabin door was dim with twilight, the hand
which the boy held grew cold.