XXX.

That evening when Archer came down before dinner he found the

drawing-room empty.

He and May were dining alone, all the family engagements having been

postponed since Mrs. Manson Mingott's illness; and as May was the more

punctual of the two he was surprised that she had not preceded him. He

knew that she was at home, for while he dressed he had heard her moving

about in her room; and he wondered what had delayed her.

He had fallen into the way of dwelling on such conjectures as a means

of tying his thoughts fast to reality. Sometimes he felt as if he had

found the clue to his father-in-law's absorption in trifles; perhaps

even Mr. Welland, long ago, had had escapes and visions, and had

conjured up all the hosts of domesticity to defend himself against them.

When May appeared he thought she looked tired. She had put on the

low-necked and tightly-laced dinner-dress which the Mingott ceremonial

exacted on the most informal occasions, and had built her fair hair

into its usual accumulated coils; and her face, in contrast, was wan

and almost faded. But she shone on him with her usual tenderness, and

her eyes had kept the blue dazzle of the day before.

"What became of you, dear?" she asked. "I was waiting at Granny's, and

Ellen came alone, and said she had dropped you on the way because you

had to rush off on business. There's nothing wrong?"

"Only some letters I'd forgotten, and wanted to get off before dinner."

"Ah--" she said; and a moment afterward: "I'm sorry you didn't come to

Granny's--unless the letters were urgent."

"They were," he rejoined, surprised at her insistence. "Besides, I

don't see why I should have gone to your grandmother's. I didn't know

you were there."

She turned and moved to the looking-glass above the mantel-piece.

As she stood there, lifting her long arm to fasten a puff that had

slipped from its place in her intricate hair, Archer was struck by

something languid and inelastic in her attitude, and wondered if the

deadly monotony of their lives had laid its weight on her also. Then he

remembered that, as he had left the house that morning, she had called

over the stairs that she would meet him at her grandmother's so that

they might drive home together. He had called back a cheery "Yes!" and

then, absorbed in other visions, had forgotten his promise. Now he was

smitten with compunction, yet irritated that so trifling an omission

should be stored up against him after nearly two years of marriage.

He was weary of living in a perpetual tepid honeymoon, without the

temperature of passion yet with all its exactions. If May had spoken

out her grievances (he suspected her of many) he might have laughed

them away; but she was trained to conceal imaginary wounds under a

Spartan smile.

To disguise his own annoyance he asked how her grandmother was, and she

answered that Mrs. Mingott was still improving, but had been rather

disturbed by the last news about the Beauforts.

"What news?"

"It seems they're going to stay in New York. I believe he's going into

an insurance business, or something. They're looking about for a small

house."

The preposterousness of the case was beyond discussion, and they went

in to dinner. During dinner their talk moved in its usual limited

circle; but Archer noticed that his wife made no allusion to Madame

Olenska, nor to old Catherine's reception of her. He was thankful for

the fact, yet felt it to be vaguely ominous.

They went up to the library for coffee, and Archer lit a cigar and took

down a volume of Michelet. He had taken to history in the evenings

since May had shown a tendency to ask him to read aloud whenever she

saw him with a volume of poetry: not that he disliked the sound of

his own voice, but because he could always foresee her comments on

what he read. In the days of their engagement she had simply (as he

now perceived) echoed what he told her; but since he had ceased to

provide her with opinions she had begun to hazard her own, with results

destructive to his enjoyment of the works commented on.

Seeing that he had chosen history she fetched her workbasket, drew up

an arm-chair to the green-shaded student lamp, and uncovered a cushion

she was embroidering for his sofa. She was not a clever needle-woman;

her large capable hands were made for riding, rowing and open-air

activities; but since other wives embroidered cushions for their

husbands she did not wish to omit this last link in her devotion.

She was so placed that Archer, by merely raising his eyes, could see

her bent above her work-frame, her ruffled elbow-sleeves slipping back

from her firm round arms, the betrothal sapphire shining on her left

hand above her broad gold wedding-ring, and the right hand slowly and

laboriously stabbing the canvas. As she sat thus, the lamplight full

on her clear brow, he said to himself with a secret dismay that he

would always know the thoughts behind it, that never, in all the years

to come, would she surprise him by an unexpected mood, by a new idea,

a weakness, a cruelty or an emotion. She had spent her poetry and

romance on their short courting: the function was exhausted because the

need was past. Now she was simply ripening into a copy of her mother,

and mysteriously, by the very process, trying to turn him into a Mr.

Welland. He laid down his book and stood up impatiently; and at once

she raised her head.

"What's the matter?"

"The room is stifling: I want a little air."

He had insisted that the library curtains should draw backward and

forward on a rod, so that they might be closed in the evening, instead

of remaining nailed to a gilt cornice, and immovably looped up over

layers of lace, as in the drawing-room; and he pulled them back and

pushed up the sash, leaning out into the icy night. The mere fact of

not looking at May, seated beside his table, under his lamp, the fact

of seeing other houses, roofs, chimneys, of getting the sense of other

lives outside his own, other cities beyond New York, and a whole world

beyond his world, cleared his brain and made it easier to breathe.

After he had leaned out into the darkness for a few minutes he heard

her say: "Newland! Do shut the window. You'll catch your death."

He pulled the sash down and turned back. "Catch my death!" he echoed;

and he felt like adding: "But I've caught it already. I _am_ dead--I've

been dead for months and months."

And suddenly the play of the word flashed up a wild suggestion. What if

it were _she_ who was dead! If she were going to die--to die soon--and

leave him free! The sensation of standing there, in that warm familiar

room, and looking at her, and wishing her dead, was so strange, so

fascinating and overmastering, that its enormity did not immediately

strike him. He simply felt that chance had given him a new possibility

to which his sick soul might cling. Yes, May might die--people did:

young people, healthy people like herself: she might die, and set him

suddenly free.

She glanced up, and he saw by her widening eyes that there must be

something strange in his own.

"Newland! Are you ill?"

He shook his head and turned toward his arm-chair. She bent over her

work-frame, and as he passed he laid his hand on her hair. "Poor May!"

he said.

"Poor? Why poor?" she echoed with a strained laugh.

"Because I shall never be able to open a window without worrying you,"

he rejoined, laughing also.

For a moment she was silent; then she said very low, her head bowed

over her work: "I shall never worry if you're happy."

"Ah, my dear; and I shall never be happy unless I can open the windows!"

"In _this_ weather?" she remonstrated; and with a sigh he buried his head

in his book.

Six or seven days passed. Archer heard nothing from Madame Olenska,

and became aware that her name would not be mentioned in his presence

by any member of the family. He did not try to see her; to do so while

she was at old Catherine's guarded bedside would have been almost

impossible. In the uncertainty of the situation he let himself drift,

conscious, somewhere below the surface of his thoughts, of a resolve

which had come to him when he had leaned out from his library window

into the icy night. The strength of that resolve made it easy to wait

and make no sign.

Then one day May told him that Mrs. Manson Mingott had asked to see

him. There was nothing surprising in the request, for the old lady

was steadily recovering, and she had always openly declared that

she preferred Archer to any of her other grandsons-in-law. May gave

the message with evident pleasure: she was proud of old Catherine's

appreciation of her husband.

There was a moment's pause, and then Archer felt it incumbent on him to

say: "All right. Shall we go together this afternoon?"

His wife's face brightened, but she instantly answered: "Oh, you'd much

better go alone. It bores Granny to see the same people too often."

Archer's heart was beating violently when he rang old Mrs. Mingott's

bell. He had wanted above all things to go alone, for he felt sure the

visit would give him the chance of saying a word in private to the

Countess Olenska. He had determined to wait till the chance presented

itself naturally; and here it was, and here he was on the doorstep.

Behind the door, behind the curtains of the yellow damask room next to

the hall, she was surely awaiting him; in another moment he should see

her, and be able to speak to her before she led him to the sick-room.

He wanted only to put one question: after that his course would be

clear. What he wished to ask was simply the date of her return to

Washington; and that question she could hardly refuse to answer.

But in the yellow sitting-room it was the mulatto maid who waited. Her

white teeth shining like a keyboard, she pushed back the sliding doors

and ushered him into old Catherine's presence.

The old woman sat in a vast throne-like arm-chair near her bed. Beside

her was a mahogany stand bearing a cast bronze lamp with an engraved

globe, over which a green paper shade had been balanced. There was

not a book or a newspaper in reach, nor any evidence of feminine

employment: conversation had always been Mrs. Mingott's sole pursuit,

and she would have scorned to feign an interest in fancywork.

Archer saw no trace of the slight distortion left by her stroke. She

merely looked paler, with darker shadows in the folds and recesses of

her obesity; and, in the fluted mob-cap tied by a starched bow between

her first two chins, and the muslin kerchief crossed over her billowing

purple dressing-gown, she seemed like some shrewd and kindly ancestress

of her own who might have yielded too freely to the pleasures of the

table.

She held out one of the little hands that nestled in a hollow of her

huge lap like pet animals, and called to the maid: "Don't let in any

one else. If my daughters call, say I'm asleep."

The maid disappeared, and the old lady turned to her grandson.

"My dear, am I perfectly hideous?" she asked gaily, launching out one

hand in search of the folds of muslin on her inaccessible bosom. "My

daughters tell me it doesn't matter at my age--as if hideousness didn't

matter all the more the harder it gets to conceal!"

"My dear, you're handsomer than ever!" Archer rejoined in the same

tone; and she threw back her head and laughed.

"Ah, but not as handsome as Ellen!" she jerked out, twinkling at him

maliciously; and before he could answer she added: "Was she so awfully

handsome the day you drove her up from the ferry?"

He laughed, and she continued: "Was it because you told her so that

she had to put you out on the way? In my youth young men didn't desert

pretty women unless they were made to!" She gave another chuckle, and

interrupted it to say almost querulously: "It's a pity she didn't marry

you; I always told her so. It would have spared me all this worry. But

who ever thought of sparing their grandmother worry?"

Archer wondered if her illness had blurred her faculties; but suddenly

she broke out: "Well, it's settled, anyhow: she's going to stay with

me, whatever the rest of the family say! She hadn't been here five

minutes before I'd have gone down on my knees to keep her--if only, for

the last twenty years, I'd been able to see where the floor was!"

Archer listened in silence, and she went on: "They'd talked me over, as

no doubt you know: persuaded me, Lovell, and Letterblair, and Augusta

Welland, and all the rest of them, that I must hold out and cut off her

allowance, till she was made to see that it was her duty to go back

to Olenski. They thought they'd convinced me when the secretary, or

whatever he was, came out with the last proposals: handsome proposals

I confess they were. After all, marriage is marriage, and money's

money--both useful things in their way ... and I didn't know what to

answer--" She broke off and drew a long breath, as if speaking had

become an effort. "But the minute I laid eyes on her, I said: 'You

sweet bird, you! Shut you up in that cage again? Never!' And now it's

settled that she's to stay here and nurse her Granny as long as there's

a Granny to nurse. It's not a gay prospect, but she doesn't mind; and

of course I've told Letterblair that she's to be given her proper

allowance."

The young man heard her with veins aglow; but in his confusion of

mind he hardly knew whether her news brought joy or pain. He had so

definitely decided on the course he meant to pursue that for the moment

he could not readjust his thoughts. But gradually there stole over

him the delicious sense of difficulties deferred and opportunities

miraculously provided. If Ellen had consented to come and live with

her grandmother it must surely be because she had recognised the

impossibility of giving him up. This was her answer to his final

appeal of the other day: if she would not take the extreme step he had

urged, she had at last yielded to half-measures. He sank back into the

thought with the involuntary relief of a man who has been ready to risk

everything, and suddenly tastes the dangerous sweetness of security.

"She couldn't have gone back--it was impossible!" he exclaimed.

"Ah, my dear, I always knew you were on her side; and that's why I sent

for you today, and why I said to your pretty wife, when she proposed

to come with you: 'No, my dear, I'm pining to see Newland, and I don't

want anybody to share our transports.' For you see, my dear--" she drew

her head back as far as its tethering chins permitted, and looked him

full in the eyes--"you see, we shall have a fight yet. The family don't

want her here, and they'll say it's because I've been ill, because I'm

a weak old woman, that she's persuaded me. I'm not well enough yet to

fight them one by one, and you've got to do it for me."

"I?" he stammered.

"You. Why not?" she jerked back at him, her round eyes suddenly as

sharp as pen-knives. Her hand fluttered from its chair-arm and lit on

his with a clutch of little pale nails like bird-claws. "Why not?" she

searchingly repeated.

Archer, under the exposure of her gaze, had recovered his

self-possession.

"Oh, I don't count--I'm too insignificant."

"Well, you're Letterblair's partner, ain't you? You've got to get at

them through Letterblair. Unless you've got a reason," she insisted.

"Oh, my dear, I back you to hold your own against them all without my

help; but you shall have it if you need it," he reassured her.

"Then we're safe!" she sighed; and smiling on him with all her ancient

cunning she added, as she settled her head among the cushions: "I

always knew you'd back us up, because they never quote you when they

talk about its being her duty to go home."

He winced a little at her terrifying perspicacity, and longed to ask:

"And May--do they quote her?" But he judged it safer to turn the

question.

"And Madame Olenska? When am I to see her?" he said.

The old lady chuckled, crumpled her lids, and went through the

pantomime of archness. "Not today. One at a time, please. Madame

Olenska's gone out."

He flushed with disappointment, and she went on: "She's gone out, my

child: gone in my carriage to see Regina Beaufort."

She paused for this announcement to produce its effect. "That's what

she's reduced me to already. The day after she got here she put on her

best bonnet, and told me, as cool as a cucumber, that she was going to

call on Regina Beaufort. 'I don't know her; who is she?' says I. 'She's

your grand-niece, and a most unhappy woman,' she says. 'She's the wife

of a scoundrel,' I answered. 'Well,' she says, 'and so am I, and yet

all my family want me to go back to him.' Well, that floored me, and I

let her go; and finally one day she said it was raining too hard to go

out on foot, and she wanted me to lend her my carriage. 'What for?' I

asked her; and she said: 'To go and see cousin Regina'--_cousin_! Now,

my dear, I looked out of the window, and saw it wasn't raining a drop;

but I understood her, and I let her have the carriage.... After all,

Regina's a brave woman, and so is she; and I've always liked courage

above everything."

Archer bent down and pressed his lips on the little hand that still lay

on his.

"Eh--eh--eh! Whose hand did you think you were kissing, young man--your

wife's, I hope?" the old lady snapped out with her mocking cackle; and

as he rose to go she called out after him: "Give her her Granny's love;

but you'd better not say anything about our talk."

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