CHAPTER V

LA BUTTE

To-morrow I shall drive to breakfast, seeing Paris continuously

unfolding, prospect after prospect, green swards, white buildings,

villas engarlanded; to-day I drive to breakfast through the white

torridities of Rue Blanche. The back of the coachman grows drowsier,

and would have rounded off into sleep long ago had it not been for the

great paving stones that swing the vehicle from side to side, and we

have to climb the Rue Lepic, and the poor little fainting animal will

never be able to draw me to the Butte. So I dismiss my carriage, half

out of pity, half out of a wish to study the Rue Lepic, so typical is

it of the upper lower classes. In the Rue Blanche there are

_portes-cochères_, but in Rue Lepic there are narrow doors,

partially grated, open on narrow passages at the end of which,

squeezed between the wall and the stairs, are small rooms where

_concierges_ sit, eternally _en camisole_, amid vegetables

and sewing. The wooden blinds are flung back on the faded yellow

walls, revealing a portion of white bed-curtain and a heavy

middle-aged woman, _en camisole_, passing between the cooking

stove, in which a rabbit in a tin pail lies steeping, and the men

sitting at their trades in the windows. The smell of leather follows

me for several steps; a few doors farther a girl sits trimming a

bonnet, her mother beside her. The girl looks up, pale with the

exhausting heat. At the corner of the next street there is the

_marchand de vins_, and opposite the dirty little _charbonnier_,

and standing about a little hole which he calls his _boutique_

a group of women in discoloured _peignoirs_ and heavy carpet

slippers. They have baskets on their arms. Everywhere traces of

meagre and humble life, but nowhere do I see the demented wretch

common in our London streets--the man with bare feet, the furtive

and frightened creature, gnawing a crust and drawing a black,

tattered shirt about his consumptive chest.

The asphalt is melting, the reverberation of the stones intolerable,

my feet ache and burn. At the top of the street I enter a still poorer

neighbourhood, a still steeper street, but so narrow that the shadow

has already begun to draw out on the pavements. At the top of the

street is a stairway, and above the stairway a grassy knoll, and above

the knoll a windmill lifts its black and motionless arms. For the mill

is now a mute ornament, a sign for the _Bal du Moulin de la

Galette_.

As I ascend the street grows whiter, and at the Butte it is empty of

everything except the white rays of noon. There are some dusty

streets, and silhouetting against the dim sky a dilapidated façade of

some broken pillars. Some stand in the midst of ruined gardens,

circled by high walls crumbling and white, and looking through a

broken gateway I see a fountain splashing, but nowhere the inhabitants

that correspond to these houses--only a workwoman, a grisette, a child

crying in the dust. The Butte Montmartre is full of suggestion; grand

folk must at some time have lived there. Could it be that this place

was once country? To-day it is full of romantic idleness and

abandonment.

On my left an iron gateway, swinging on rusty hinges, leads on to a

large terrace, at the end of which is a row of houses. It is in one of

these houses that my friend lives, and as I pull the bell I think that

the pleasure of seeing him is worth the ascent, and my thoughts float

back over the long time I have known Paul. We have known each other

always, since we began to write. But Paul is not at home. The servant

comes to the door with a baby in her arms, another baby! and tells me

that Monsieur et Madame are gone out for the day. No breakfast, no

smoke, no talk about literature, only a long walk back--cabs are not

found at these heights--a long walk back through the roasting sun. And

it is no consolation to be told that I should have written and warned

them I was coming.

But I must rest, and ask leave to do so, and the servant brings me in

some claret and a siphon. The study is better to sit in than the front

room, for in the front room, although the shutters are closed, the

white rays pierce through the chinks, and lie like sword-blades along

the floor. The study is pleasant and the wine refreshing. The house

seems built on the sheer hillside. Fifty feet--more than that--a

hundred feet under me there are gardens, gardens caught somehow in the

hollow of the hill, and planted with trees, tall trees, for swings

hang out of them, otherwise I should not know they were tall. From

this window they look like shrubs, and beyond the houses that surround

these gardens Paris spreads out over the plain, an endless tide of

bricks and stone, splashed with white when the sun shines on some

railway station or great boulevard: a dim reddish mass, like a

gigantic brickfield, and far away a line of hills, and above the plain

a sky as pale and faint as the blue ash of a cigarette.

I can never look upon this city without strong emotion; it has been

all my life to me. I came here in my youth, I relinquished myself to

Paris, never extending once my adventure beyond Bas Meudon, Ville

d'Avray, Fontainebleau--and Paris has made me. How much of my mind do

I owe to Paris? And by thus acquiring a fatherland more ideal than the

one birth had arrogantly imposed, because deliberately chosen, I have

doubled my span of life. Do I not exist in two countries? Have I not

furnished myself with two sets of thoughts and sensations? Ah! the

delicate delight of owning _un pays ami_--a country where you may

go when you are weary to madness of the routine of life, sure of

finding there all the sensations of home, plus those of irresponsible

caprice. The pleasure of a literature that is yours without being

wholly your own, a literature that is like an exquisite mistress, in

whom you find consolation for all the commonplaces of life! The

comparison is perfect, for although I know these French folk better

than all else in the world, they must ever remain my pleasure, and not

my work in life. It is strange that this should be so, for in truth I

know them strangely well. I can see them living their lives from hour

to hour; I know what they would say on any given occasion.

There is Paul. I understand nothing more completely than that man's

mind. I know its habitual colour and every varying shade, and yet I

may not make him the hero of a novel when I lay the scene in

Montmartre, though I know it so well. I know when he dresses, how long

he takes to dress, and what he wears. I know the breakfast he eats,

and the streets down which he passes--their shape, their colour, their

smell. I know exactly how life has come to him, how it has affected

him. The day I met him in London! Paul in London! He was there to meet

_une petite fermière_ with whom he had become infatuated when he

went to Normandy to finish his novel. Paul is _foncièrement bon; he

married her_, and this is their abode. There is the _salle-à-manger_,

furnished with a nice sideboard in oak, and six chairs to match; on the

left is their bedroom, and there is the baby's cot, a present from

_le grand, le cher et illustre maître_.

Paul and Mrs. Paul get up at twelve, and they loiter over breakfast;

some friends come in and they loiter over les _petits verres_.

About four Paul begins to write his article, which he finishes or

nearly finishes before dinner. They loiter over dinner until it is

time for Paul to take his article to the newspaper. He loiters in the

printing office or the cafe until his proof is ready, and when that is

corrected he loiters in the many cafés of the Faubourg Montmartre,

smoking interminable cigars, finding his way back to the Butte between

three and four in the morning. Paul is fat and of an equable

temperament. He believes in naturalism all the day, particularly after

a breakfast over _les petits verres_. He never said an unkind

word to any one, and I am sure never thought one. He used to be fond

of grisettes, but since he married he has thought of no one but his

wife. _Il écrit des choses raides_, but no woman ever had a

better husband. And now you know him as well as I do. Here are his own

books, "The End of Lucie Pellegrin," the story that I have just

finished writing: I think I must explain how it was that I have come

to rewrite one of Paul's stories, the best he ever wrote. I remember

asking him why he called her Lucie, and he was surprised to hear her

name was Marie; he never knew her, he had never been to Alphonsine's,

and he had told the story as he had picked it up from the women who

turned into the Rat Mort at midnight for a _soupe à l'oignon_. He

said it was a pity he did not know me when he was writing it, for I

could have told him her story more sympathetically than the women in

the Rat Mort, supplying him with many pretty details that they had

never noticed or had forgotten. It would have been easy for me to have

done this, for Marie Pellegrin is enshrined in my memory like a

miniature in a case. I press a spring, and I see the beautifully

shaped little head, the pale olive face, the dark eyes, and the

blue-black hair. Marie Pellegrin is really part of my own story, so

why should I have any scruple about telling it? Merely because my

friend had written it from hearsay? Whereas I knew her; I saw her on

her death-bed. Chance made me her natural historian. Now I think that

every one will accept my excuses, and will acquit me of plagiarism.

I see the Rougon-Macquart series, each volume presented to him by the

author, Goncourt, Huysmans, Duranty, Céard, Maupassant, Hennique,

etc.; in a word, the works of those with whom I grew up, those who

tied my first literary pinafore round my neck. But here are "Les

Moralités Legendaires" by Jules Laforgue, and "Les Illuminations" by

Rambaud. Paul has not read these books; they were sent to him, I

suppose, for review, and put away on the bookcase, all uncut; their

authors do not visit here.

And this sets me thinking that one knows very little of any generation

except one's own. True that I know a little more of the symbolists

than Paul. I am the youngest of the naturalists, the eldest of the

symbolists. The naturalists affected the art of painting, the

symbolists the art of music; and since the symbolists there has been

no artistic manifestation--the game is played out. When Huysmans and

Paul and myself are dead, it will be as impossible to write a

naturalistic novel as to revive the megatherium. Where is Hennique?

When Monet is dead it will be as impossible to paint an

impressionistic picture as to revive the ichthyosaurus. A little world

of ideas goes by every five-and-twenty years, and the next that

emerges will be incomprehensible to me, as incomprehensible as Monet

was to Corot.... Was the young generation knocking at the door of the

Opéra Comique last night? If the music was the young generation, I am

sorry for it. It was the second time I had gone. I had been to hear

the music, and I left exasperated after the third act. A friend was

with me and he left, but for different reasons; he suffered in his

ears; it was my intelligence that suffered. Why did the flute play the

chromatic scale when the boy said, "Il faut que cela soit un grand

navire," and why were all the cellos in motion when the girl answered,

"Cela ou bien tout autre chose?" I suffered because of the divorce of

the orchestra and singers, uniting perhaps at the end of the scene. It

was speaking through music, no more, monotonous as the Sahara, league

after league, and I lost amid sands. A chord is heard in "Lohengrin"

to sustain Elsa's voice, and it performs its purpose; a motive is

heard to attract attention to a certain part of the story, and it

fills its purpose, when Ortrud shrieks out the motive of the secret,

and in its simplest form, at the church door, the method may be

criticised as crude, but the crudest melodrama is better than this

desert wandering. While I ponder on the music of the younger

generation, remembering the perplexity it had caused me, I hear a

vagrant singing on the other side of the terrace:

[Illustration]

Moi, je m'en fous, Je reste dans mon trou

and I say: "I hear the truth in the mouth of the vagrant minstrel, one

who possibly has no _trou_ wherein to lay his head." _Et moi

aussi, je reste dans mon trou, et mon trou est assez beau pour que j'y

reste, car mon trou est_--Richard Wagner. My _trou_ is the

Ring--the Sacrosanct Ring. Again I fall to musing. The intention of

Liszt and Wagner and Strauss was to write music. However long Wotan

might ponder on Mother Earth the moment comes when the violins begin

to sing; ah! how the spring uncloses in the orchestra, and the lovers

fly to the woods!...

The vagrant continued his wail, and forgetful of Paul, forgetful of

all things but the philosophy of the minstrel of the Butte, I picked

my way down the tortuous streets repeating:

[Illustration]

Moi, je m'en fous, Je reste dans mon trou

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