After this there fell some very still and quiet days upon Mrs Laurie’s
cottage. Every thing went on languidly; there was no heart to the work
which Menie touched with dreamy fingers; there was something subdued and
spiritless in her mother’s looks and movements; and even Jenny’s foot
rang less briskly upon her earthen floor. They did not know what ailed
them, nor what it was they looked for; but with a brooding stillness of
expectation, they waited for something, if it were tempest, earthquake,
or only a new glow of sunshine out of the kindly skies.
Was it a spirit? Asking so often, you make your cheek pale, Menie
Laurie; you make your eyelids droop heavy and leaden over your dim eyes.
Few people come here to break the solitude, and we all dwell with our
own thoughts, through these still days, alone.
“Menie, you are injuring yourself; we will take a long walk, and see
some people to-day,” said Mrs Laurie. “Come, it is quite mild--it will
do us both good; we will go to the manse to see Miss Johnston, and then
to Woodlands and Burnside. Put up your papers--we will take a holiday
to-day.”
Menie’s heavy eyes said faintly that she cared nothing about Miss
Johnston, about Woodlands or Burnside; but Menie put aside her papers
slowly, and prepared for the walk. They went out together, not saying
much, though each sought out, with labour and difficulty, something to
say. “I wonder what ails us?” said Menie, with a sigh. Her mother made
no answer. It was not easy to tell; and speaking of it would do more
harm than good.
A hazy day--the sky one faint unvaried colour, enveloped in a uniform
livery of cloud; a faint white mist spread upon the hills; small
invisible rain in the air, and the withered leaves heavily falling down
upon the sodden soil.
“This will not raise our spirits, mother,” said Menie, with a faint
smile; “better within doors, and at work, on a day like this.”
But why, with such a start and tremble, do you hear those steps upon the
path? Why be struck with such wild curiosity about them, although you
would not turn your head for a king’s ransom? Anybody may be coming--the
shepherd’s wife from Whinnyrig yonder, the poor crofter from the edge
of the peat-moss, or little Jessie’s mother bound for the universal
rural shop at the Brigend. We are drawing near to the Brigend--already
the aromatic flavour of the peats warms the chill air with word of
household fires, and we see smoke rise beyond the ash trees--the smoke
of our old family home, the kind hearth of Burnside.
Hush! whether it were hope or fear, is no matter; the steps have ceased;
vain this breathless listening to hear them again; go on through the ash
trees, Menie Laurie--on through the simple gateway of this humble rural
world. By the fireside--in the cottage--with such simple joy as friendly
words and voices of children can give you--this is your life.
And only one--only one--this your mother--to watch your looks and
gestures--the falling and the rising of your tired heart. Wistful eyes
she turns upon you--tender cares. Look up to repay her, Menie; smile for
her comfort; you are all that remains to her, and she is all that
remains to you.
Look up; see how solemnly the ash trees lift their old bleached arms to
heaven. Look up, Menie Laurie; but here, at our very ear, these
bewildering steps again!
Do not shrink; here has come the ordeal you have looked for many a day.
Well said your prophetic heart, that it drew near in the hush and
silence of this fated time. They stand there, arched and canopied, under
these familiar trees, the hamlet’s quiet houses receding behind
them--Burnside yonder, the limit of the scene, and the burn, the kindly
country voice, singing a quiet measure to keep them calm. An old man and
a young, learned with experiences of life: the elder, fresh and noble,
daring to meet the world with open face, aware of all the greatest
truths and mysteries of the wonderful existence which we call common
life, but nothing more; the younger trained in a more painful school,
with his lesson of self-forgetting newly conned, with knowledge sadder
than his father’s, with a heart and conscience quivering still with
self-inflicted wounds--they stand there bareheaded under the cloudy
sky--not with the salutation of common respect, which might permit them
to pass on. A courtly natural grace about them both, makes their
attitude all the more remarkable. With blanched cheeks and failing eyes,
Menie Laurie’s face droops; she dares not look up, but waits, trembling
so greatly that she can scarcely stand, for what has to be said.
Mrs Laurie, with a sudden impulse of protection, draws her child’s arm
within her own--moves forward steadily, all her pride of mother and of
woman coming to her aid; bows to her right hand and her left; says she
is glad to see that this is really Mr Randall, and not the wraith her
simple Jenny had supposed; and, speaking thus in a voice which is but a
murmur of inarticulate sound to Menie, bows again, and would pass on.
But John Home of Crofthill lays his hand upon her sleeve. “You and me
have no outcast to settle. Leave the bairns to themselves.”
With a startled glance Mrs Laurie looks round her, at the old man’s face
of anxious friendliness, at the deep flush on Randall’s brow, and at her
own Menie’s drooping head. “Shall I leave you, Menie?” Menie makes no
answer--as pale and as cold as marble, with a giddy pain in her
forehead, unable to raise her swimming eyes--but she makes a great
effort to support herself, as her mother gradually looses her hand from
her arm.
Passive, silent, her whole mind absorbed with the pain it takes to keep
herself erect, and guide her faltering steps along the road; but Randall
is by Menie’s side once more.
Father and mother have gone on, back towards the cottage; silently,
without a word, these parted hearts follow them side by side. If she had
any power left but what is wanted for her own support, she would wonder
why Randall does not speak. She does wonder, indeed, faintly, even
through her pain. With downcast eyes like hers, he walks beside her,
through this chill dewy air, between these rustling hedges, in a
conscious silence, which every moment becomes more overpowering, more
strange.
“Menie!” With a sudden start she acknowledges her name; but there is
nothing more.
“I said, when we parted, that you were disloyal to me and to Nature,”
said Randall, after another pause. “Menie, I have learned many a thing
since then. It was I that was disloyal to Nature--but never to you.”
Still no answer; this giddiness grows upon her, though she does not miss
a syllable of what he says.
“There is no question between us--none that does not fade like a vapour
before the sunlight I see. Menie, can you trust me again?”
She cannot answer--she can do nothing but falter and stumble upon this
darkening road. It grows like night to her. What is this she leans
upon--the arm of Randall Home?
Miss Janet sits in her shawl of state in Jenny’s kitchen--very curious
and full of anxiety. “Eh, woman, such a sair heart I had,” said Miss
Janet, “when wha should come, as fast up the road as if he kent I was
watching, but my ain bairn? He hasna been hame since July’s wedding; ye
wouldna think it o’ a grand lad like our Randall, and him sae clever,
and sae muckle thocht o’ in the world--but when he gaed owre his
father’s door-stane again, the puir laddie grat like a bairn. Will you
look if they’re coming, Jenny--nae word o’ them? Eh, woman, what can
make Miss Menie sae ill at the like o’ him?”
“The like o’ him’s nae such great things,” said Jenny, with a little
snort. “I wouldna say but what Miss Menie has had far better in her
offer. She’s a self-willed thing--she’ll no take Jenny’s word; but weel
I wat, if she askit me----”
“Whisht, you’re no to say a word,” cried Miss Janet, coming in from the
door. “I see them on the road--I see them coming hame. Jenny, you’re no
to speak. Miss Menie and my Randall, they’re ae heart ance mair.”
And so it was--one heart, but not a heart at ease; the love-renewed
still owned a pang of terror. But day after day came out of the
softening heavens--hour after hour preached and expounded of the
mellowed nature--the soul which had learned to forget itself; other
pictures rose under Menie’s fingers--faces which looked you bravely in
the face--eyes that forgot to doubt and criticise. The clouds cleared
from her firmament in gusts and rapid evolutions, as before these brisk
October winds. One fear followed another, falling like the autumn
leaves; a warmer atmosphere crept into the cottage, a brighter sunshine
filled its homely rooms. Day by day, advancing steadily, the son drew
farther in, to his domestic place. The mother gave her welcome heartily;
the daughter, saying nothing, felt the more; and no one said a word of
grumbling, save perverse Jenny, who wept with joy the while, when
another year and another life lighted up into natural gladness the sweet
harmonious quiet of Menie Laurie’s heart.
THE END.
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