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Judith’s wedding was to be celebrated with great magnificence.

Even to the preliminary festival more than two hundred guests had been

invited. There was no end to the line of motor cars and carriages.

The coal and iron barons of the whole province appeared, military and

civil officials of high rank with their ladies, the chief patricians

and financiers of Frankfort, members of the Court circles of Darmstadt

and Karlsruhe, and friends from afar. A tenor from Berlin, a famous

lyric singer, a Viennese comedian, a magician, and a juggler had been

engaged to furnish the guests with amusement.

The great horse-shoe table in the dining-hall, radiant with gold,

silver, and cut glass, had three hundred and thirty covers.

The festive throng surged up and down in the marble gallery and the

adjoining rooms. Yellow and rose predominated in the toilettes of the

ladies; the young girls were mostly in white. Bare shoulders were

agleam with diamonds and pearls. The severe black and white of the men

effectually softened the gorgeousness of the colour scheme.

Christian was walking up and down with Randolph von Stettner, a young

lieutenant of hussars, stationed at Bonn. They had been friends since

their boyhood, had not seen each other for several years, and were

exchanging reminiscences. Randolph von Stettner said that he was

not very happy in his profession; he would much rather have taken a

university degree. He had a strong taste for the study of chemistry,

and felt out of place as a soldier. “But it is futile to kick against

the pricks,” he ended, sighing; “a man must merely take the bit between

his teeth and keep still.”

Christian happened to observe Letitia, who stood in the centre of a

circle of men. Upon her forehead was forgetfulness; she knew nothing of

yesterday and nothing of to-morrow. There was no one else so absorbed

by the passing hour as she.

A footman approached Christian and gave him a card. The footman frowned

doubtfully, for the card was not quite clean. On it Christian read

these pencilled words: “I. M. Becker must speak with you at once.”

Hurriedly he excused himself and went out.

Ivan Michailovitch stood perfectly still in the outer hall. Newly

arrived guests, who gave the footmen their hats and coats, passed by

without noticing him. The men took mincing steps, the ladies sought the

mirror for a final look with their excited eyes.

Ivan Michailovitch wore a long grey coat, shabby and wet. The

black-bearded face was pale as wax. Christian drew him into an empty

corner of the hall, where they were undisturbed.

“I beg you to forgive me for throwing a shadow on all this festivity,”

Ivan Michailovitch began, “but I had no choice. I received a

notification of expulsion from the police this afternoon. I must leave

the city and the country within twelve hours. The simple favour I ask

of you is to take this notebook into your keeping, until I myself

or some properly identified friend asks it back.” He glanced swiftly

about him, took a thin, blue notebook out of his pocket, and gave it to

Christian, who slid it swiftly and unobtrusively into a pocket of his

evening coat.

“It contains memoranda in Russian,” Ivan continued, “which have no

value to any one but myself, but which must not be found on me. Since I

am being expelled there is little doubt but that my person and effects

will be searched.”

“Won’t you come and rest in my room?” Christian asked, timidly. “Won’t

you eat or drink something?”

Ivan Michailovitch shook his head. From the hall floated the sound of

the violins, playing an ingratiating air by Puccini.

“Won’t you at least dry your coat?” Christian asked again. The strains

of the music, the splendour there within, the merriment and laughter,

the fullness of beauty and happiness, all this presented so sharp a

contrast to the appearance of this man in a wet coat, with wax-like

face and morbidly flaming eyes, that Christian could no longer endure

his apparently unfeeling position between these two worlds, of whose

utter and terrible alienation from each other he was acutely aware.

Ivan Michailovitch smiled. “It is kind of you to think of my coat. But

you can’t do any good. It will only get wet again.”

“I’d like to take you, just as you are,” said Christian, and he smiled

too, “and go in there with you.”

Ivan Michailovitch shrugged his shoulders, and his face grew dark.

“I don’t know why I should like to do that,” Christian murmured. “I

don’t know why it tempts me. I stand before you, and you put me in the

wrong. Whether I speak or am silent does not matter. By merely being

I am in the wrong. We should not be conversing here in the servants’

corner. You are making some demand of me, Ivan Michailovitch, are you

not? What is it that you demand?”

The words bore witness to a confusion of the emotions that went to the

very core of his being. They throbbed with the yearning to become and

to be another man. Ivan Michailovitch, in a sudden flash of intuition,

saw and understood. At first he had suspected that here was but a

lordly whim, or that it was at best but the foolish and thoughtless

defiance of a too swiftly ardent proselyte that urged this proud and

handsome man to his words. He recognized his error now. He understood

that he heard a cry for help, and that it came from the depth of one of

those decisive moments of which life holds but few.

“What is it that I am to demand of you, Christian Wahnschaffe?” he

asked, earnestly. “Surely not that you drag me in there to your

friends, and ask me to regard that as a definite deed and as a triumph

over yourself?”

“It would not be that,” Christian said, with lowered eyes, “but a

simple confession of my friendship and my faith.”

“But consider what a figure I would cut in my blouse, taken so

unwillingly and emphatically, to use the Russian proverb, into the

realm of the spheres. You would be forgiven. You would be accused

of an eccentricity, and laughed at; but it would be overlooked. But

what would happen to me? You could guard me from obvious insult. The

profound humiliation of my position would still be the same. And what

purpose would such a boastful action serve? Do you see any promise of

good in it--for myself, or you, or the others? I could accuse no one,

persuade no one, convince no one. Nor would you yourself be convinced.”

He was silent for a few seconds, and then regarded Christian with a

kind and virile glance. Then he continued. “Had I appeared in evening

clothes, this whole conversation would be without meaning. That shows

how trivial it is. Why, Christian Wahnschaffe, should I exhibit my

blouse and coat amid the garb of your friends? Do you go with me to a

place where your coat is a blasphemy and a stain, and where my rough,

wet one is a thing of pride and advantage. I know such a house. Go with

me!”

Christian, without answering a word, summoned a footman, took his

fur-coat, and followed Ivan Becker into the open. The lackey hurried

to the garage. In a few minutes the car appeared. Christian permitted

Ivan Michailovitch to precede him into it, asked for the address, and

sat down beside him. The car started.

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