VII

I don’t remember how soon it was I spoke to Geoffrey Dawling; his

sittings were irregular, but it was certainly the very next time he gave

me one.

“Has any rumour ever reached you of Miss Saunt’s having anything the

matter with her eyes?” He stared with a candour that was a sufficient

answer to my question, backing it up with a shocked and mystified

“Never!” Then I asked him if he had observed in her any symptom, however

disguised, of embarrassed sight: on which, after a moment’s thought, he

exclaimed “Disguised?” as if my use of that word had vaguely awakened a

train. “She’s not a bit myopic,” he said; “she doesn’t blink or contract

her lids.” I fully recognised this and I mentioned that she altogether

denied the impeachment; owing it to him moreover to explain the ground

of my inquiry, I gave him a sketch of the incident that had taken place

before me at the shop. He knew all about Lord Iffield: that nobleman

had figured freely in our conversation as his preferred, his injurious

rival. Poor Daw-ling’s contention was that if there had been a definite

engagement between his lordship and the young lady, the sort of thing

that was announced in _The Morning Post_, renunciation and retirement

would be comparatively easy to him; but that having waited in vain for

any such assurance he was entitled to act as if the door were not really

closed or were at any rate not cruelly locked. He was naturally much

struck with my anecdote and still more with my interpretation of it.

“There _is_ something, there _is_ something--possibly something

very grave, certainly something that requires she should make use of

artificial aids. She won’t admit it publicly, because with her idolatry

of her beauty, the feeling she is all made up of, she sees in such aids

nothing but the humiliation and the disfigurement. She has used them in

secret, but that is evidently not enough, for the affection she suffers

from, apparently some definite ailment, has lately grown much worse. She

looked straight at me in the shop, which was violently lighted, without

seeing it was I. At the same distance, at Folkestone, where as you know

I first met her, where I heard this mystery hinted at and where she

indignantly denied the thing, she appeared easily enough to recognise

people. At present she couldn’t really make out anything the shop-girl

showed her. She has successfully concealed from the man I saw her with

that she resorts in private to a pince-nez and that she does so not only

under the strictest orders from an oculist, but because literally the

poor thing can’t accomplish without such help half the business of life.

Iffield however has suspected something, and his suspicions, whether

expressed or kept to himself, have put him on the watch. I happened to

have a glimpse of the movement at which he pounced on her and caught her

in the act.”

I had thought it all out; my idea explained many things, and Dawling

turned pale as he listened to me.

“Was he rough with her?” he anxiously asked.

“How can I tell what passed between them? I fled from the place.”

My companion stared at me a moment. “Do you mean to say her eyesight’s

going?”

“Heaven forbid! In that case how could she take life as she does?”

“How _does_ she take life? That’s the question!” He sat there

bewilderedly brooding; the tears had come into his eyes; they reminded

me of those I had seen in Flora’s the day I risked my inquiry. The

question he had asked was one that to my own satisfaction I was ready to

answer, but I hesitated to let him hear as yet all that my reflections

had suggested. I was indeed privately astonished at their ingenuity.

For the present I only rejoined that it struck me she was playing a

particular game; at which he went on as if he hadn’t heard me, suddenly

haunted with a fear, lost in the dark possibility I had opened up: “Do

you mean there’s a danger of anything very bad?” “My dear fellow, you

must ask her oculist.” “Who in the world _is_ her oculist?” “I haven’t a

conception. But we mustn’t get too excited. My impression would be

that she has only to observe a few ordinary rules, to exercise a little

common sense.”

Dawling jumped at this. “I see--to stick to the pince-nez.”

“To follow to the letter her oculist’s prescription, whatever it is

and at whatever cost to her prettiness. It’s not a thing to be trifled

with.”

“Upon my honour it _shan’t_ be trifled with!” he roundly declared; and

he adjusted himself to his position again as if we had quite settled

the business. After a considerable interval, while I botched away, he

suddenly said: “Did they make a great difference?”

“A great difference?”

“Those things she had put on.”

“Oh, the glasses--in her beauty? She looked queer of course, but it was

partly because one was unaccustomed. There are women who look charming

in nippers. What, at any rate, if she does look queer? She must be mad

not to accept that alternative.”

“She _is_ mad,” said Geoffrey Dawling.

“Mad to refuse you, I grant. Besides,” I went on, “the pince-nez, which

was a large and peculiar one, was all awry: she had half pulled it off,

but it continued to stick, and she was crimson, she was angry.”

“It must have been horrible!” my companion murmured.

“It _was_ horrible. But it’s still more horrible to defy all warnings;

it’s still more horrible to be landed in--” Without saying in what I

disgustedly shrugged my shoulders.

After a glance at me Dawling jerked round. “Then you do believe that she

may be?”

I hesitated. “The thing would be to make _her_ believe it. She only

needs a good scare.”

“But if that fellow is shocked at the precautions she does take?”

“Oh, who knows?” I rejoined with small sincerity. “I don’t suppose

Iffield is absolutely a brute.”

“I would take her with leather blinders, like a shying mare!” cried

Geoffrey Dawling.

I had an impression that Iffield wouldn’t, but I didn’t communicate it,

for I wanted to pacify my friend, whom I had discomposed too much for

the purposes of my sitting. I recollect that I did some good work that

morning, but it also comes back to me that before we separated he had

practically revealed to me that my anecdote, connecting itself in

his mind with a series of observations at the time unconscious and

unregistered, had covered with light the subject of our colloquy. He

had had a formless perception of some secret that drove Miss Saunt to

subterfuges, and the more he thought of it the more he guessed this

secret to be the practice of making believe she saw when she didn’t and

of cleverly keeping people from finding out how little she saw. When

one patched things together it was astonishing what ground they covered.

Just as he was going away he asked me from what source, at Folkestone,

the horrid tale had proceeded. When I had given him, as I saw no reason

not to do, the name of Mrs. Meldrum, he exclaimed: “Oh, I know all

about her; she’s a friend of some friends of mine!” At this I remembered

wilful Betty and said to myself that I knew some one who would probably

prove more wilful still.

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