VII.

Dartmouth opened his eyes and looked about him. The storm had died,

the waves were at rest, and he was alone. He let his head fall back

against the frame of the window, and his eyes closed once more. What a

dream!--so vivid!--so realistic! Was it not his actual life? Could

he take up the threads of another? He felt ten years older; and,

retreating down the dim, remote corridors of his brain, were trooping

memories of a long, regretted, troubled, eventful past. In a moment

they had vanished like ghosts and left no trace; he could recall none

of them. He opened his eyes again and looked down the gallery, and

gradually his perceptions grasped its familiar lines, and he was

himself once more. He rose to his feet and put his hand to his head.

That woman whom he had taken for the ghost of one dead and gone had

been Weir, of course. She had arisen in her sleep and attired herself

like the grandmother whose living portrait she was; she had piled up

her hair and caught her white gown up under her bosom; and, in the

shadows and mystery of night, small wonder that she had looked as if

the canvas in the gallery below had yielded her up! But what had her

words meant?--her words, and that dream?--but no--they were not what

he wanted. There had been something else--what was it? He felt as if a

mist had newly arisen to cloud his faculties. There had been something

else which had made him not quite himself as he had stood there with

his arms about the woman who had been Weir, and yet not Weir. Above

the pain and joy and passion which had shaken him, there had been

an unmistakable perception of--an attribute--a quality--of another

sort--of a power, of which he, Harold Dartmouth, had never been

conscious--of--of--ah, yes! of the power to pour out at the feet of

that woman, in richest verse, the love she had awakened, and make them

both immortal. What were the words? They had been written legibly in

his brain; he remembered now. He had seen and read them--yes, at last,

at last! "Her face! her form!" No! no! not that again. Oh, why would

they not come? They had been there, the words; the sense must be

there, the inspiration, the battling for voice and victory. They were

ready to pour through his speech in a flood of song, but that iron

hand forced them back--down, down, setting blood and brain on fire.

Ah! what was that? Far off, at the end of some long gallery, there

was a sweet, dying strain of music, and there were words--gathering in

volume; they were rolling on; they were coming; they were thundering

through his brain in a mighty chorus! There! he had grasped them--No!

that iron hand had grasped them--and was hurling them back. In another

moment it would have forced them down into their cell and turned

the key! He must catch and hold one of them! Yes, he had it! Oh!

victory!--"Her eyes, her hair."

Dartmouth thrust out his hands as if fighting with a physical enemy,

and he looked as if he had been through the agonies of death. The

conflict in his brain had suddenly ceased, but his physical strength

was exhausted. He turned and walked uncertainly to his room; then he

collected his scattered wits sufficiently to drop some laudanum and

take it, that he might ward off, if possible, the attack of physical

and spiritual prostration which had been the result of a former

experience of a similar kind. Then, dressed as he was, he flung

himself on the bed and slept.

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