_A WISH AND ITS TRAGIC FULFILMENT._
“YOU do not speak like a Westerner,” said Kleki-Petrah as we started.
“No, I am from the East,” I replied. “I came here to see the world.”
“A bad thing to see sometimes. I am a German. It must seem strange to
you to find a German become a full-fledged Apache.”
“God’s ways seem marvellous, but they are natural after all.”
“God’s ways! Why do you say _God_, instead of destiny, fate, or
fortune?”
“Because I am a Catholic, and recognize that the hand of God is in the
affairs of men.”
“You are right, and are happier than you know; never lose that
conviction. Yes, it is true that God’s ways often seem marvellous, but
are perfectly natural. The greatest marvels are the fulfilment of His
laws, and the daily actions of nature are the greatest marvels. A
German, a student, a teacher of some renown, and now an Apache—these
seem wonderful changes, but they came about naturally.”
Though he had taken me with him half unwillingly, he seemed glad to
speak of himself. We had not gone far from camp, and had lain down under
a tree, where I could study his face and expression at leisure. The
vicissitudes of life had engraved deep lines upon his brow; long furrows
of sorrow, the marks of doubt and thought, the many seams of care and
privation. Though his eyes might once have been piercing, angry,
threatening, now they were as calm and clear as a forest lake.
I should not have dared to question him as to his evidently strange
history, though I longed to know it, but he asked me all about myself,
and my answers were so full and frank that they gave him evident
pleasure.
When he had heard all there was to learn of me he bowed his head,
saying: “You are at the beginning of the conflict which I am ending, but
you need not fear. You have the good God with you who will never forsake
you. It was otherwise with me. I had lost my God when I left home, or
rather was driven from it, and instead of the staff of strong faith I
took with me the worst companion a man can have—a bad conscience.”
He looked at me as he said these words, and, seeing my face unchanged,
asked: “Are you not shocked?”
“Nonsense! who could suspect you of a great crime? I doubt your being a
thief or a murderer.”
I laughed as I spoke, but he said gravely: “Thank you, but you are
mistaken. I was a thief, for I stole much that was priceless. And I was
a murderer, the worst of murderers, for I slew souls. I was a teacher in
an advanced school, it does not matter where. I was born a Catholic, but
lost my faith, and my greatest pride lay in being free and having
dethroned God, and all my influence and skill went to robbing others of
their faith. I had great power over men, and numberless were the hearers
whom my lectures led into infidelity. Then came the revolution. He who
acknowledges no God recognizes no king or authority as sacred. I placed
myself at the head of a lawless band of malcontents, who acclaimed me as
their leader, and we rose in mad rebellion against constituted
authority. How many fell in that struggle! I was a murderer, and the
murderer not only of these, but of others that perished later behind
prison walls. I fled from my fatherland to escape a like fate. I had no
father or mother, no brother or sister; not a soul wept for me, but many
cursed me as the cause of their sorrow. In fleeing from the police I ran
one day through a little garden and entered a dilapidated house, where I
found an old mother and her daughter in direst need. They told me their
pitiful story with bitter tears. They had been comfortable, the daughter
married but a year to an honest man who earned enough for a decent
livelihood. He had heard my lectures, and been led away by them. He
persuaded his father-in-law to join him and take part in the rebellion
under my leadership. The young man fell on what he thought a field of
honor, but the old father was imprisoned. The women told me this not
knowing it was their listener who was responsible for their
wretchedness. God’s mills began to grind. Freedom was mine still, but
peace was gone. I wandered everywhere, but found no rest. I was often on
the verge of suicide, but a hand held me back—God’s hand. At last I
reached the United States, and came to the West. In Kansas I met a
priest, one of my own countrymen, and he saved me. He dispelled my
doubts, and gave me back faith and contentment. Dear Lord, I thank Thee
for it.”
He was silent awhile, with hands folded and gaze directed heavenward.
Then he resumed: “I fled from the world and men to do penance, and
turned towards the wilderness. I saw the red man’s wrongs, and my heart
overflowed with wrath and compassion. I resolved to atone as far as
might be for my wrong to the white man by devotion to the red. I went
among the Apaches, learned their tongue, and became their teacher.
Winnetou is my especial charge; were he the son of a European lord he
would be a renowned prince, for he is richly endowed by nature. Would
that I might see him a Christian! But though I have taught him all I
could of Catholic truth, it may never be, for he shrinks from deserting
the religion of his ancestors. However it may end I will remain with him
to the day of my death. He is my spiritual son; I love him more than
myself, and it would be joy to me to receive in my own heart a shot
intended for his, for I would gladly die for him, feeling that perhaps
such a death might wash away the last stain of my sins.”
His head sank on his breast, and I remained silent, feeling that
anything I could say would be trivial after such a confession, but I
took his hand and pressed it heartily. He understood, and returned the
pressure.
After a time he spoke again. “Why have I told you this? I have seen you
to-day for the first time, and probably we shall never meet again. Has
it been by the inspiration of God? For I, the former blasphemer, now
seek to find His will in all things. There is an indefinable feeling of
melancholy in my heart, which is not exactly sorrow. It is like the
feeling that comes to one when the autumn leaves are falling. How shall
my tree of life shed its leaves? Gently and after they are sere, or
shall it be cut down before its natural time has come?” He gazed in
silence down the valley, where I saw Intschu-Tschuna and Winnetou
returning. They were mounted now, and leading Kleki-Petrah’s horse.
We rose to go to the camp, which we reached as the Indians came up.
Rattler leaned against the wagon, his face on fire, for in the short
time that had passed he had drunk as much as he possibly could, and was
a horrible sight. His eyes were like a wild beast’s, and I made up my
mind to watch him, for he was dangerous.
The chief and Winnetou dismounted and came towards us. “Have my white
brothers decided to go or stay?” asked Intschu-Tschuna.
The head engineer had thought of a compromise, and said: “We must stay
here whether we would or not, and obey the command laid upon us. But we
will send to Santa Fé and ask for instructions from those that sent us,
and then we will answer.”
This was a cunning thought, for by that time our work would be done. But
the chief said decidedly: “I will not wait. My white brother must say at
once what he will do.”
Rattler had filled a glass with whisky, and came towards the two
Indians, saying incoherently: “If the Indians will drink with me we will
go, if not we won’t. Let the young one drink first. Here’s fire-water,
Winnetou.”
He held out the glass. Winnetou stepped back in disgust.
“What! You won’t drink with me? That’s an insult. Here, take the whisky,
you red dog; lick it up, if you won’t drink it.” Before any one could
stop him, he had thrown the contents of the glass in the young Apache’s
face. According to Indian custom such an insult was to be avenged by
death, but Winnetou merely struck him to the earth, while, like his
father’s, his face betrayed no sign of what he felt, and the drunkard
picked himself up and staggered back to the wagon.
“Once more,” said Intschu-Tschuna, “and this is the last time, I ask:
Will the pale-faces leave our valley to-day?”
“We cannot,” was the reply.
“Then remember there is strife between us.”
I started towards them, but the three strangers turned back to their
horses without noticing me.
From the wagon came Rattler’s voice crying: “Get out, you red coyotes!
but the young one shall pay for knocking me down.” Quicker than it can
be told he had snatched a gun from the wagon and aimed it at Winnetou,
who was standing alone, without protection, where the bullet must have
found him; nor was there time to warn him.
Kleki-Petrah cried in anguish: “Down, Winnetou, down,” at the same time
springing before the young Apache. The shot whistled through the air.
Kleki-Petrah fell to the ground with one hand at his breast, while at
the same moment Rattler fell, struck by my hand. I had sprung at him as
soon as I saw his intention, but too late.
A cry of horror arose from all sides; only the two Apaches were silent.
They knelt by the friend who had given his life for them, and examined
his wound. It was close to the heart, and the blood flowed from it in
torrents. I, too, knelt by Kleki-Petrah, whose eyes were closed and
whose face was fast growing white and drawn.
“Lay his head on your breast,” I said to Winnetou. “If he sees you when
he opens his eyes, his death will be happier.”
Without a word Winnetou followed my suggestion, and his eyes never
wandered from the dying man.
At last he opened his eyes, and seeing Winnetou bending over him a
peaceful smile came over his suffering face, and he whispered:
“Winnetou, O my son, Winnetou!” Then his failing eyes seemed to seek
something, till he saw me, and he said to me in German: “Stay with him;
be true to him; carry on my work.”
He raised his hand imploringly; I took it, and replied: “I will, I
promise you I will.”
An ineffable expression came upon his face, and he murmured in a faint
voice: “My leaves are cut off, not fading; it is—wiped out. I
die—as—I—wished. God, forgive—forgive. Jesus, mercy—mercy—Mary,
pray—mercy—” He folded his hands, a flood of blood burst from his wound,
his head fell back: he was dead.
Now I knew what had led him to unburden his heart to me—the inspiration
of God, as he had said. He had wished to die for Winnetou; how quickly
had his wish been fulfilled! The last trace of his sin had been washed
away. God is love and infinite compassion; the contrite He will in no
wise cast out.
Winnetou laid the dead man’s head in the grass, slowly rose, and looked
interrogatively at his father.
“There lies the murderer where I have struck him down; he is yours,” I
said.
“Fire-water!” Only this brief reply came from the chief’s lips in
contemptuous tones.
“I will be your friend, your brother; I will go with you.” The words
burst from me involuntarily.
Intschu-Tschuna spat in my face. “Miserable cur!” he said, “thief of our
land, dare to follow us, and I will crush you!”
I let the insult pass, awed by the presence of the dead and my promise
to him.
The white men stood dumbly waiting to see what the Apaches would do.
They never glanced at us again. Placing the corpse on the horse which
Kleki-Petrah had ridden, they bound it fast, took the bridle, and,
mounting themselves, rode away.
They spoke no word, and as Sam Hawkins watched them disappear he said:
“That is more dangerous than the most dreadful threats. We shall see
trouble, and there lies the cause, with no mind or soul; what shall we
do with him?”
I did not wait to hear the answer; I saddled my horse and rode away. I
wished to be alone to escape hearing this last awful half-hour
discussed. It was late in the evening when, weary and exhausted in body
and soul, I returned to the camp.
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