30 October.

With my returning health I am gradually drifting back into the magic

circle. The doctor says that in a few days I shall be able to travel.

I will go hence, for it is too near Warsaw and Ploszow. It may be one

of my nervous whims, but I feel I shall be better and more at rest in

Rome on the Babuino. I do not promise myself to forget the past; on

the contrary, I shall think of it from morning until night, but the

thoughts will be like unto meditations behind cloister walls. Besides,

what can I know of how it will be? All I know is that I cannot remain

here any longer. I shall call upon Angeli by the way; I must have her

portrait at Rome.

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