29 August.

Something very strange and terrifying has happened. During the

sitting, while posing quietly, Aniela suddenly shuddered, her face

grew very red and then turned as white as snow. Both Angeli and I were

terribly frightened. He interrupted his work at once and asked Aniela

to rest; I brought her a glass of water. After a few moments she grew

better and wanted to resume the pose; but I saw that it cost her some

effort and that she still seemed dazed. Perhaps she was tired. The

weather is very hot to-day and the streets are like a baker's oven. We

went back much sooner than the day before, and I noticed that she had

not recovered her usual spirits. During dinner she grew suddenly very

red. Pani Celina asked whether she felt indisposed. She assured us

that nothing was the matter with her. To my offer to go and bring

a doctor, she replied with unusual vivacity, and with a touch of

irritation, that there was no need for it, that she was not ill.

During the remainder of the day she was pale, the black eyebrows

contracted every now and then, and there was an expression of

sternness in her face. She was more indifferent to me than yesterday,

and I fancied she avoided my eyes. I cannot make out what it means. I

am very restless, and shall not be able to sleep; or if I go to sleep

I shall have dreams such as I had before.

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