28 May.

My aunt is spending six to eight hours out of the twenty-four at

Burzany, one of her farms, a mile from Ploszow, where she passes her

time in contemplation of Naughty Boy, and in looking after Webb, the

English trainer. I was there above an hour yesterday. Naughty Boy is

a fine animal,--let us hope he will not be naughty when the great day

arrives. But what does it matter to me? Various business is taking me

to town, but I am loath to leave Ploszow. Pani Celina has been worse

the last few days, but young Chwast, as my aunt calls him, says it

is merely a passing symptom; he considers it necessary that somebody

should always be with the sick lady, to distract her from the thoughts

which dwell upon the loss of the dear ancestral home, and consequently

weaken her nerves. I try to show her almost a son's attention, because

in this way I earn Aniela's gratitude, and she gets used to consider

me as belonging to them. I have now not the slightest ill-feeling

towards the old lady,--she is too unhappy herself; and besides, I

begin to love everything and everybody that belongs to Aniela,--with

one exception.

Yesterday I spent several hours with the invalid, together with Aniela

and Chwast. We were reading and talking. Pani Celina does not sleep at

night, and as the doctor does not approve of sleeping-draughts, she

dozes off in the daytime after any lengthy conversation, and strange

to say, only a sudden silence wakes her up. For this reason we keep up

the conversation or the reading. It was the same to-day. But for the

doctor's presence I could speak to Aniela with the greatest freedom.

Just at this time the daily papers are fully occupied with the divorce

of the beautiful Pani Korytzka. Everybody talks about it, and my aunt,

who is related to the husband, is greatly shocked. I resolved to make

the most of my opportunity, and plant ideas in Aniela's mind that had

not been there before.

"You are quite wrong, dear aunt, to blame Pani Korytzka. To me it

seems that she acts as a true and honest woman should. Where love

begins, human will ends,--even you must acknowledge that. If Pani

Korytzka loves somebody else, nothing remains for her but to leave

her husband. I know what you are going to say, and also what Aniela

thinks,--that duty still remains; is it not so?"

"I think you too must be of the same opinion," replied Aniela.

"Most certainly. The question is which way lies Pani Korytzka's duty."

I do not know why, but the young doctor stipulated that he did

not recognize any free will, but afterwards listened attentively,

evidently pleased with the boldness of my views.

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