CHAPTER IV

LONDON AND ELSEWHERE

"... These homes, this valley spread below me here,

The rooks, the tilted stacks, the beasts in pen,

Have been the heartfelt things, past-speaking dear

To unknown generations of dead men,

Who, century after century, held these farms,

And, looking out to watch the changing sky,

Heard, as we heard, the rumours and alarms

Of war at hand and danger pressing nigh.

And knew, as we know, that the message meant

The breaking off of ties, the loss of friends,

Death, like a miser getting in his rent,

And no new stones laid where the trackway ends.

The harvest not yet won, the empty bin,

The friendly horses taken from the stalls,

The fallow on the hill not yet brought in,

The cracks unplastered in the leaking walls.

Yet heard the news, and went discouraged home,

And brooded by the fire with heavy mind,

With such dumb loving of the Berkshire loam

As breaks the dumb hearts of the English kind,

Then sadly rose and left the well-loved Downs,

And so by ship to sea, and knew no more

The fields of home, the byres, the market towns,

Nor the dear outline of the English shore,

But knew the misery of the soaking trench,

The freezing in the rigging, the despair

In the revolting second of the wrench

When the blind soul is flung upon the air,

And died (uncouthly, most) in foreign lands

For some idea but dimly understood

Of an English city never built by hands

Which love of England prompted and made good...."

JOHN MASEFIELD: _August_, 1914.

I

Whatever the success of English public schools and universities

in training the sons of the wealthier classes for their part in

the professional and public life of the country, one result of an

educational system which takes charge of a boy at seven or eight

and releases him only at twenty-one or twenty-two is that he

enters upon his adult life and work later than the young men of

other countries, including those which impose a term of military

service. As all but a negligible few in England have to earn their

own livings and as several years of preparation are required before

the barristers, doctors or solicitors are qualified to practise

and before artists, politicians or men of business are of any use

in their calling, the English also make their entry into public

affairs later than other nations; they also marry later, but, as

the climate of England does not necessitate early marriage for men,

this influences the lives of the women more deeply and goes some

way towards explaining the social and psychological position of

girls who remain unmarried for some years after they are ripe for

marriage.

While the value of general experience, gained in other parts of

the world, may outweigh that of the technique, the atmosphere and

the moods of parliament, gained from within, it is indisputable

that most young men cannot enter the House of Commons even if

they wish.[17] On leaving Oxford, those who had not to earn their

living entered the army or returned to manage their estates; the

politicians dispersed for the most part to the Temple, to Fleet

Street and to the City, there to forget that they were politicians

until they had mastered the business of making themselves

independent. And a few spent the whole or a part of the next years

in acting as _aides-de-camp_ to colonial governors or in travelling

privately for the study of imperial and foreign conditions.

Those who remained in London and those who periodically returned

thither in the five years before the war alike discovered that they

were in a new imperial Rome in a new silver age. All who had waited

for the passing of Victorianism were rewarded for their patience

by finding a vacuum which they were free to fill in what way

soever they chose; and to the task they brought unbounded energy,

almost unbounded wealth, a vigorous dislike of restraint and an

ingenuous ignorance of tradition. Never, in the recorded history

of England, has the social power of money been greater; never has

the pursuit of pleasure been more widespread and successful; never

has the daily round of the educated and reflective, of the wealthy

and influential, of the stolid and slow been brought nearer to

the feverishness, the superficiality and the recklessness which

characterized one section--but one only--of the French in the years

immediately before the first revolution.

Until his receptivity and taste for mild excitement became blunted,

a young bachelor, who found in London at this time an indefinite

prolongation of his most careless and gregarious undergraduate

mood, could contrive to divert himself with enviably little effort:

one dance was, indeed, very like another, the only difference

between two _débutantes_ was that of name, and--like Disraeli's

young exquisite--he might come to relish bad wine as a relief from

the monotony of excellence; but, before he grew jaded, there was

nothing, save a substitute for his own attendance, with which his

hostesses refused to provide him. Morning after morning, in those

spacious years, brought to his bedside a thick pile of invitations;

as he breakfasted and dressed, his telephone was only released by

one anxious friend in order that another might use it; luncheons

and dinners, theatres and operas, balls and week-end parties poured

down upon him in promiscuous welcome. The enervating suspicion

that he was achieving a personal triumph by being passed from

house to house and from list to list was quickly dissipated when

he recognised himself as one of six men whom his dinner hostess

had pledged herself to bring; but his self-respect could always be

restored by the reflection that, if his entertainers were solely

concerned to collect so many male heads, he himself only wanted a

place where he could smoke, dance and sup between the moment of

leaving the theatre and the moment of going to bed. Every one was

the gainer by his presence.

While the excess of demand over supply set a premium on young

bachelors, it forced down the value of those who entertained them

and drove entertaining to a lasting discount. In 1910, a few of the

Victorians still left cards at the houses where they had dined; by

1914, the custom was suspect as a weak admission of thankfulness;

and, when the gracious days of the great small courtesies were

voted obsolete, an uncaring telephone invitation from the lips of a

butler was inevitably met by an acceptance or a refusal as careless

of even formal obligation. The despised prim decorum of Victorian

social intercourse was replaced by head-hunting on the one side

and by moss-trooping on the other; and, as, in three years, there

was more entertaining and less hospitality in London than in any

other part of the world, so there was also less gratitude and more

greed. The young girl with social gifts, and the young man without,

were not only enabled but encouraged to live from Tuesday until

Friday at the expense of those whom they would have disdained to

call their friends; and the parasite had by no means exhausted

the flow of hospitality when he bade farewell to his party in the

early hours of Saturday morning. If he played golf, lawn-tennis

and bridge, if he played any one of them, if--playing no games of

any kind--he could satisfy his hostess that he would be content to

slumber in the country for two nights and a day, he would receive

more invitations than he could use.

II

In the engaging or tragic folly of the æsthetes, in the literary

and artistic adventures of the nineties, in the blatancy and

arrogance of the new imperialism, the death-knell of the Victorian

age was sounded before the death of Queen Victoria. Between the

end of the South African war and the outbreak of hostilities with

Germany, there was time for the whole face of English social life

to be changed.

There was time, and there was a will. English society, so defiant

of definition, had hitherto been founded on an aggregate of

families deriving their influence from landed estates and made

sensible of their obligations by their territorial position. The

original nucleus was gradually increased by recruits from among

those who made fortunes in commerce or rose to a commanding

position in politics or the public services; but the new blood

filtered in so sparingly that it was absorbed and transmuted by the

old. The existing order was not threatened until the personality

and power of those who clamoured without the gate exceeded the

resistance of those who wilted within.

The balance of strength began to be reversed when one of the

periodical waves of new riches coincided with a sharp depreciation

in the old media of wealth: the industrial millionaire, the Rand

magnate, the American heiress and the cosmopolitan Jew, hitherto

suspect and shy, made a simultaneous appearance at a time when to

the afflictions of agricultural depression was added the capital

taxation of the Harcourt death duties. Welcomed by the most august

and forced upon the most repellent, new and alien faces appeared

at Cowes, on the turf and at Covent Garden; new names among the

birthday honours and in the list of those who rented grouse-moors.

Faced with the choice of marrying money or of economising and doing

without it, the old aristocracy of land crossed its blood with the

new aristocracy of commerce, hoping no doubt that the system by

which isolated newcomers had been tamed would prevail to convert

the barbarian host in companies and to baptise it in platoons. On

either side lessons were given and received; but, while interest

urged the stranger to acquire ready-made an air of breeding, the

fading memory of a waning prestige could not preserve to the older

society the arbitrament in manners which it had held unchallenged

before this surrender to wealth.

A few families resisted the lure and kept their doors straitly

barred; but, as Dane-gelt, instead of buying security for English

soil, only tempted more Danes in search of more gold, so the first,

partial capitulation brought more invaders with ever more and more

gold to offer in exchange for a slice of England. As influence

and importance were focussed on money and no longer on land,

power shifted from the landed estates to London; the steadying

responsibilities of a territorial position, which was already

threatened by subversive democratic ideals, were allowed to dwindle.

By the end of the South African war London had become a

cosmopolitan place of entertainment with more money, a greater

zest for pleasure, a larger proportion of sycophants and a weaker

control by any recognized group of social leaders than any other

European capital. The first flood of Rand, Jewish, American

and native commercial wealth, which had been at least in part

unobtrusively absorbed, was followed by a second flood which

English society was still too much saturated to take in; and for a

dozen years the tottering sea-wall of society was buffeted by angry

and uncontrolled waves of wealth. As the new rich of those days had

abandoned one social sphere without establishing their position

in another, their first task was to surround themselves with men

and women who would accept their hospitality and mitigate their

solitude; a few impoverished promoters furnished lists of eligible

names; money and the amenities of the big hotels, which were then

springing up in London, accomplished the rest. During those years

there was on one side a steady stream of rich newcomers who asked

only that their parties should be well attended; on the other, a

stream no less steady of those who saw in this opportunity the

finger of God.

A temporary check was imposed in 1910, when the sudden death

of King Edward plunged the country into mourning, but in 1911

London crowded two seasons into one. Perhaps there was a fear that

the new reign would usher in simpler manners and a more austere

way of life, perhaps the pleasure-loving, who had lived for a

twelve-month, murmuring in undertones behind shuttered windows,

grudged their days of abstinence. The coronation gave legitimate

excuse for carnival; and in 1912 the fear of reaction merged into a

resolve to postpone the reaction until carnival had spent itself:

the resources of the new rich, not yet exhausted, began to seem

inexhaustible; and every day, by unfitting the parasites for any

other life, multiplied their number. By 1913 the lust for amusement

had become constant and was whipped by a neurotic dread of

anticlimax; by 1914 there was a panic feeling that this old order

could not last. Already war had rumbled distantly since Agadir;

twice in the Balkans the rumblings had given place to storms which

suggested how the suffering and ruthlessness of twentieth-century

fighting would transcend all that had been known before and had

demonstrated how strong were the meshes which held all European

diplomacy involved, how weak the paper safeguard of peace. The

labour world had half risen in the great railway strike of 1911 and

might any day rise in its full strength; Ireland was at the mercy

of two lawless armies; and the government was powerless even to

prevent a determined body of women, already opposed by overwhelming

public opinion, from breaking windows and burning churches.

"How long, O Lord?" asked one.

"Après moi, le deluge; mais après le deluge ...?" asked another.

And in the first week of August, 1914, the cynics who had been

watching the growth of hostility between classes agreed that, if

there had been no war, it would have been necessary to create one.

These were the mad, neurotic years of private horseplay and public

lawlessness, when no hoax was too gigantic, no folly too laborious

to be undertaken for a wager and when ill-conditioned defiance led

every class in the land to proclaim that, if it disliked a law,

it would disobey it. They were days of great costume-balls, of

freak dinners and of nascent night-clubs. Perhaps they are best

regarded as the years which, of all in recent times, the ingrained

puritanism of the English would most gladly forget.

Under the shock of war it became fashionable to look upon this

wanton life as an offence to God, which the scourge of God was

being used to end; and from an audience whose heart is not yet

healed the satirist of those years can always be sure of applause.

It is easy to paint too glittering a picture and to foster a new

sense of superiority which is not justified. For a dozen years

before the war there was much ostentation and polite mendicancy,

much frivolity of head and vulgarity of soul among a world of

merrymakers who had been born without a feeling for responsibility

or who had shaken off the restraints of tradition. Was their crime

more grave than that?

Every vulgarian must be vulgar in his own way; so long as the

institution of private property continues, rich and poor are

equally free to misspend their money; and, though they differed

in their means and in their tastes, rich and poor were equally

guilty of waste, display, lawlessness and sloth; a just sumptuary

law would have borne as hardly on one as on the other. In the

absence of a civic conscience, all struggled to obtain the maximum

of personal enjoyment with the minimum of exertion, protesting

self-righteously the while against the idleness and improvidence

of their neighbours; and, if the poor murmured at the misuse

of surplus wealth, the rich were sometimes amazed at their own

moderation in not resenting the sight of so much leisure with so

little taxation among the working classes.

While those who mocked at the primness and overthrew the decorum of

the Victorian era constructed a social system which to Irish eyes

seemed intolerably vulgar and mercenary, it may be pleaded that the

new and alien arbiters of taste, lacking any tradition of breeding,

could hardly be expected to know any better and that Providence

would surely have made allowances for this before unloosing the

scourge.

III

The breach between Victorianism and that which succeeded it was not

more complete in manners than in art and literature. By the time

that King George V ascended the throne, the great lights of the

preceding century were, almost without exception, flickering out

or already extinguished; those who survived the transition in time

were none the less influenced so deeply by the change in atmosphere

that their later work differs from the earlier as much as one man's

from another's. This is so much more than the normal advance from

youth to maturity that it suggests a revaluation, a new point of

view and a reaction to changed psychological conditions without.

While Kipling's art as a supreme story-teller attained by natural

development to a rarer perfection, his change of standpoint may

be measured by the distance from any one of the _Plain Tales_ to

_They_ or _The Brushwood Boy_; with Conrad the change is from

_Nostromo_ to _Chance_; with James from _The Wings of a Dove_ to

_The Awkward Age_.

The younger men, untrammelled by memories of what they had tried to

express in a previous incarnation, worked with a freedom of which

they only became conscious when they paused to compare it with

the restrictions under which their predecessors laboured. It has

been said that, in the early nineties, _The Second Mrs. Tanqueray_

opened a new chapter in dramatic history; when it was reproduced a

dozen years later, it hardly seemed, for all its skill and power,

so daring as before; and, if it were reproduced again to-day after

another dozen years, the younger critics would doubtless continue

to praise its technique, but they might be unable to realise its

psychology. In 1920 it is felt to be surprising that any one

should bother when a man marries his mistress; that she should

commit suicide when another old lover comes back into her life is

inconceivable: to the modern playwright that is not a dramatic

theme worthy of his mettle, to the modern English world that is not

a problem to cause more than passing embarrassment to any one.

Whether England has become morally more lax or merely less reticent

about its laxity is a problem which no one can solve; but the

greatest change that has overtaken literature and art in the last

twenty years is in the new freedom to choose any theme and to

treat it by any method. The plays of Shaw and the novels of Wells

had embraced every subject from brothels and baldness to God and

gunpowder-factories, from patent medicine and politics to love and

linen-drapery. The form of the medium has changed as profoundly

as the content; the play and the novel have been made an avowed

platform for the dramatic or narrative discussion of any thesis

that interests the author at any given moment.

This new emancipation has been accompanied by a new receptivity,

welcome at first and only dangerous when criticism seeks to

navigate without a compass; a new willingness to explore unfamiliar

spaces and to experiment with new instruments. The twenty years

which have passed since Queen Victoria's death have seen the

literary birth, development or at least general recognition of a

company so varied as Synge and Barker, Housman and Yeats, De Morgan

and Galsworthy, Masefield and Rabindranath Tagore, to take but a

few; it has seen translations of Russian novels and Chinese lyrics,

of Belgian mystical essays and Scandinavian realistic plays; there

is no form of literature, whatever its atmosphere and language, to

which a hearing has been refused.

Nor is this merely an Athenian craving for something new. All--and

perhaps more than all--that was worth rescuing of Oscar Wilde's

perverse wit was restored to circulation as soon as the English had

satisfied their love for a legal separation between art and morals;

Samuel Butler was one of several to enjoy a posthumous vogue; and,

if the other heroes were rearranged in the national pantheon, many

were brought into prominence who had long languished in obscurity.

This period saw an immense flood of cheap reprints issuing from a

dozen different publishers; more experiments were tried on more

Shakespearean plays than ever before; and theatrical societies

produced Elizabethan and Restoration dramas which had been left

long unplayed.

These years were enriched by two repertory seasons at the Court and

Duke of York's Theatres, in which some of the maturest work of Shaw

and Barker, Galsworthy and Barrie was seen; and the Abbey Theatre

company came annually from Dublin to delight new audiences with

some of the greatest comedies, the greatest tragedy and the finest

teamwork in acting that had been seen in London for a generation.

As a rule, however, the stage was more fortunate in what it

revived than in what it presented for the first time; dramatic

literature has lagged so far behind other forms that playwrights

would compose and managers produce what no conscientious novelist

or self-respecting publisher dared to expose for sale. The level

of acting, too, was no higher than might be expected in a country

where actors and actresses "starred" on the strength of a single

part and continued in one groove, with plays written down to them,

because they had not endured the discipline of a diversified early

training. To suggest that the English get the drama that they

deserve would be unfair to a nation which, on the whole and with

startling exceptions, enjoys and supports the rare good plays

offered to it; yet there rests unexplained the mystery that,

although the dramatic is the most lucrative form of writing,

although managers and public were clamouring for plays, although

the theatres were filled with erotic comedies, brain-saving revues,

emasculated French farces, clattering American melodramas and

perverse, senile sentimentalities, there were not in these years

more than three British playwrights who could be trusted to give a

recognisable representation of life.

The mystery is deepened by the fact that, during the same period,

the English, who accept with resignation if not with pride the

stigma of being unmusical, crowded a lifetime of musical progress

into a few years. Covent Garden has always been a battleground

between those who wish to hear the greatest number of the most

interesting operas in their best rendering and those who find a box

and the second half of a tuneful banality the best place and time

for meeting again the friends whom they have not seen since dinner.

For a generation the two armies existed amicably side by side on

a compromise by which the music-lovers secured that, whatever the

opera, it should be competently given and the others conceded

that it might be competently given so long as no experiments or

innovations were made. Year after year the hackneyed _Rigolettos_

and _Lohengrins_, the _Traviatas_ and _Tannhaüsers_ soothed the

conservative hearing of any one whose musical education had been

arrested in childhood; from time to time the _Ring_ was given, but

the inordinate length of each part provided a plausible excuse

for those who stayed at home, and a martyr's crown or at least a

victor's laurel for those who attended.

Then, without warning, the new artistic receptivity spread to

music, and a trial was offered to new men and to new works. _Der

Rosenkavalier_ and _Elektra_ were given in those years; _Parsifal_

was played for the first time in England; and all whose knowledge

of ballet was limited to the Empire and Adeline Genée found

themselves led to a mountain-top and invited to regard the new

world wherein Pavlova and Mordken, Karsavina and Nijinski lorded

it. With the Russian ballet and under the shadow of war came the

Russian opera; and, while the old repertory was played at Covent

Garden, a new ecstacy was offered at Drury Lane by _Prince Igor_,

_Boris Godounov_ and _Ivan le terrible_. With the Russian opera

came an artist whose admirers have not yet determined whether he

is greater as a singer or as an actor, though they agree that as a

combination of the two he is the greatest figure on any operatic

stage in the world. The incomparable voice and superb presence of

Chaliapin blew a new vigour of youth and a new conception of beauty

into the stale dust of the London theatre.

Though the spirit of the emancipation breathed also on the

graphic and the plastic arts, as yet its breath has produced only

intoxication. For ten years one experiment has succeeded another,

one school has hustled another out of the way; and the artists

whom the public is enjoined to admire of a morning are devoured

by their own children in the afternoon. Beyond a contempt for the

academic and a revolt from the traditional--not always supported by

technical proficiency in the method rejected--the impressionists

and post-impressionists, the cubists, vorticists and dadaists have

not made plain the goal of their exploration and as yet, though

they have formulated new theories of art, they have not achieved a

new beauty. As, in the reaction from Victorian stiffness, social

emancipation led to a gilded hooliganism, so, in graphic art,

the reaction from the strictness of the pre-Raphaelites led to

chaotic lawlessness. If all England went mad for five years before

the war, her madness is registered, though--it may be hoped--not

immortalised, in the painting of the period.

IV

It was in these years of change and upheaval that the men of the

vanished generation served their apprenticeship and came to first

grips with life. Their fathers and grandfathers, seeing England

riven by a new political dispensation, had acquiesced grudgingly

in the transference of power without seeking to understand the

aspirations of the newly emancipated millions and without striving

to create a new and united community. The fact of social, economic

and racial antagonism, impressed upon them as the legacy of

the French revolution by a hundred years of riots, strikes and

wars, came to be buttressed in the middle of the century by a

biological doctrine which taught that antagonism of beast to beast

and of man to man, of class to class and of creed to creed, of

nation to nation and of hunger, cold and pestilence to all was an

eternal and ineluctable decree of nature. It was easier to repeat

half-comprehended phrases about a struggle for existence and the

survival of the fittest than to attack the disorder which is the

ineluctable and eternal result of antagonism.

After a hundred years of ill-will and dissension, a new generation

arose to protest against the confusion of this endless antagonism.

Impatience with disorder, hatred of ugliness and preoccupation

with the government of man by man--a normal part of youth's mental

equipment--were stimulated in the dawn of the twentieth century by

the literary challenge of each year: in play after play Bernard

Shaw was attacking some social abuse with the penetration of an

old controversialist, the ferocity of a fanatic and the wit of

an Irishman; in novel after novel H. G. Wells cried out on the

slovenly thinking and spiritual laziness which barred beauty and

order from life; and in play after play and novel after novel John

Galsworthy pleaded for gentleness and explored with unanswerable

questions the place where a civic conscience should have been. At

no time since the days of the _philosophes_ has literature been so

much engrossed with the shortcomings of civilisation; at no time

has it appealed so fervently nor experimented so widely. The waking

dream of beauty was reinforced more than ever before by a sense

of personal responsibility; and a higher proportion of the young

men from twenty-two to twenty-seven were waiting only until they

were equipped to undertake it. With a background of new ethical

standards and of new political ideals, in an atmosphere of artistic

experiment and of social revolt, amid a shifting social population

and an unceasing redistribution of wealth, under the menace of

war abroad and of revolution at home, they first measured their

strength against the difficulties of the career that each had

chosen.

Between 1909 and 1914 a few married; but, as the necessity for

earning a living was their first concern in those days, the

majority were for the present as much debarred from matrimony as

from public life. A few went utterly to pieces, ranging in their

downfall from the squalor of touting among their friends for

insignificant loans to the supreme waste of suicide. One or two

flashed meteorically to the highest plane of their professions.

The rest followed an average course and in diplomacy or in the

civil service, in the army or in holy orders, in commerce or at the

bar, in medicine or in journalism worked with what patience they

could muster through the unproductive years of early plodding. By

1914 the original fortunate three or four who had entered public

life as soon as they came down from Oxford were reinforced by a

dozen more who had made enough progress in five years to fight an

election or at least to nurse a constituency; and five years were

long enough to enable the rest to decide whether they had made

wise choice of a career. Some of those who had been called to the

bar now abandoned their wearisome inactivity in order to make a

livelihood in the City; the young soldiers who had been sent into

the army to be kept out of mischief now assumed that they had

reached years of discretion and resigned their commissions; and any

one who had obstinately cherished the ambition of a literary life

might well, after five years, be deemed incurable.

It was the fate characteristic of nearly all that generation that,

as their training neared completion, they were called away for

ever from the work for which they had been trained and lost to the

peaceful service of mankind. By 1914 their seniors had completed

their apprenticeship and made their transition; though their

uprooting was greater, they had at least found for a moment their

place in the uncaring void. The apprenticeship of their juniors

had not yet begun: they passed from school or university to their

war-service, and the survivors postponed until the end of the war

their practical preparation for civic life. This is not to say that

one is to be envied more than another; in every country at the

outbreak of every war, one generation is more violently dislocated

than the rest; when all loss of life is waste of a nation's

resources, it may be felt that the most grievous waste is among

those who have completed their scholastic education and prepared

themselves for work which they can never fulfil. "Childhood makes

the instrument, youth tunes the strings, and early manhood

plays the melody." The vanished generation never played upon the

instrument; it was hardly tuned before it was struck to the ground,

and music of another kind was heard.

It is useless to speculate how much the loss has cost humanity; to

the men in the middle twenties at least as much as to the men of

any age it was left to pay for the madness of the world and the

crimes of its rulers. They were at the summit of their physical

condition; their spirit and training carried them unfalteringly

into the war; and, enrolling themselves in the first days, they

supported the chief burden of a game in which the odds lengthened

against them with every hour of immunity. A strange marching-song

sent them to their death: strident and shrill cries of impatience

with everything, revolt against everything; catches of crooning

waltz and clattering rag-time to bring back memories and to twist

hearts; the craving for excitement and the whimper of fretfulness;

the sigh of a world in despair heard in the silent pause of mankind

bewildered; all blended their notes to a thunder of confusion,

banishing thought. The onlookers cried in rival tumult that this,

at all events, would be the last war in history; and an echo of

their consoling philosophy carried to the departing troops and, in

the belief that this was a war to end war, furnished them at last

with a ready explanation of their going.

A few perhaps wondered why war could only be ended by war and

whether this was indeed the last war; hardly any one risked the

odium of penetrating official propaganda in order to enquire why

war had been made possible, though some liberals searched their

hearts to discover how the historic peace-party of Great Britain,

elected on other issues and periodically fed on professions of

good-will, had been persuaded in a day to honour, by payment in

flesh and blood, international obligations whose existence the

government had more than once denied.

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