JOURNAL.

"_August 30._--A stormy day, but I went by train to Tynehead for

Crichton. Two old ladies of ninety got into the carriage after me.

An old gentleman opposite made a civil speech to one of them, upon

which she tartly replied, 'I don't hear a word, for I thank

Almighty God for all His mercies, and most of all that He has made

me quite deaf, for if I heard I should be obliged to speak to

_you_, and I don't _want_ to speak to you.'

"Crichton is a red ruined castle on a hill, with a distance of

purple moorland, and inside is the courtyard so exactly described

in 'Marmion.' With storm raging round it, it was awfully desolate.

Close by is an old stumpy-towered thoroughly Scotch church."

After a visit to the Dalzels at North Berwick, my mother went south from

Durham. I turned backwards to pay my first visit to Mrs. Davidson--the

"Cousin Susan" with whom I was afterwards most intimate. "The beautiful

Lord Strathmore," my great-grandmother's brother, so often painted by

Angelica Kauffmann, who married "the Unhappy Countess," had two

daughters, Maria and Anna. After Lady Strathmore was released from her

brutal second husband, the one thing she had the greatest horror of for

her daughters was matrimony, and she did all she could to prevent their

seeing any one. But Lady Anna Bowes, while her mother was living in

Fludyer Street, made the acquaintance of a young lawyer who lived on the

other side the way, and performed the extraordinary acrobatic feat of

walking across a plank suspended across the street to his rooms,[169]

where she was married to him. The marriage was an unhappy one, but Mr.

Jessop did not survive long, and left Lady Anna with two young

daughters, of whom one died early: the other was "Cousin Susan." Lady

Anna was given a home (in a house adjoining the park at Gibside) by her

brother, John, Lord Strathmore, and her daughters were brought up in

sister-like intimacy with his (illegitimate) son, John Bowes. Susan

Jessop afterwards married Mr. Davidson of Otterburn, who, being a very

rich man, to please her, bought and endowed her with the old Ridley

property--Ridley Hall on South Tyne.

Cousin Susan was an active, bright little woman, always beautifully

dressed, and with the most perfect figure imaginable. No one except Mr.

Bowes knew how old she was, and he would not tell, but she liked to be

thought very young, and still danced at Newcastle balls. She was a

capital manager of her large estate, entered into all business questions

herself, and would walk for hours about her woods, marking timber,

planning bridges or summer-houses, and contriving walks and staircases

in the most difficult and apparently inaccessible places.

Ridley Hall was the most intense source of pride to Cousin Susan, and

though the house was very ugly, the place was indeed most beautiful. The

house stood on a grassy hill above the South Tyne Railway, with a large

flower-garden on the other side, where, through the whole summer, three

hundred and sixty-five flower-beds were bright with every colour of the

rainbow. I never saw such a use of annuals as at Ridley Hall--there were

perfect sheets of Colinsia, Nemophila, and other common things, from

which, in the seed-time, Cousin Susan would gather what she called her

harvest, which it took her whole evenings to thresh out and arrange. A

tiny inner garden, concealed by trees and rockwork, would have been

quite charming to children, with a miniature thatched cottage, filled

with the smallest furniture that could be put into use, bookcases, and

pictures, &c. Beyond the garden was a lovely view towards the moors,

ever varied by the blue shadows of clouds fleeting across them. Thence

an avenue, high above the river, led to the kitchen-garden, just where

the rushing Allen Water, seen through a succession of green arches, was

hurrying to its junction with the Tyne. Here one entered upon the wood

walks, which wound for five miles up and down hill, through every

exquisite variety of scenery--to Bilberry Hill Moss House, with its

views, across the woods, up the gorge of the Allen to the old tower of

Staward Peel--to the Raven's Crag, the great yellow sandstone cliff

crowned with old yew-trees, which overhangs the river--and across the

delicately swung chain-bridge by the Birkie Brae to a lonely tarn in the

hills, returning by the Swiss Cottage and the Craggy Pass, a steep

staircase under a tremendous overhanging rock.

During my first visits at Ridley Hall, words would fail to express my

enjoyment of the natural beauties of the place, and I passed many

delightful hours reading in the mossy walks, or sketching amongst the

huge rocks in the bed of the shallow river; but at Ridley more than

anywhere else I have learnt how insufficient mere beauty is to fill

one's life; and in later years, when poor Cousin Susan's age and

infirmities increased, I felt terribly the desolation of the place, the

miles and miles of walks kept up for no one else to enjoy them--the

hours, and days, and weeks in which one might wander for ever and never

meet a human being.

During my earlier visits, however, Cousin Susan would fill her house in

the summer, especially in the shooting season. There was nothing

particularly intellectual in the people, but a large party in a

beautiful place generally finds sources of enjoyment: which were always

sought on foot, for there was only one road near Ridley Hall, that along

the Tyne valley, which led to Hexham on the east and Haltwhistle on the

west. Constant guests and great friends of Cousin Susan were the two old

Miss Coulsons--Mary and Arabella--of Blenkinsop, primitive, pleasant old

ladies, and two of the most kind-hearted people I have ever known.

Cousin Susan delighted in her denomination of "the Great Lady of the

Tyne," and, in these earlier years of our intimacy, was adored by her

tenantry and the people of the neighbouring villages, who several times,

when she appeared at a public gathering, insisted on taking out her

horses and drawing her home. With her neighbours of a higher class,

Cousin Susan was always very exacting of attention, and very apt to take

offence.

But no account of Ridley Hall can be complete without alluding to the

dogs, of which there were great numbers, treated quite as human beings

and part of the family. An extra dog was never considered an infliction;

thus, when Cousin Susan engaged a new servant, he or she was always

told that a dog would be especially annexed to them, and considered to

belong to them. When the footman came in to put on the coals, his dog

came in with him; when you met the housemaid in the passage, she was

accompanied by her dog. On the first day of my arrival, Cousin Susan

said at dessert, "John, now bring in the boys," and when I was expecting

the advent of a number of unknown young cousins, the footman threw open

the door, and volleys of little dogs rushed into the room, but all white

Spitzes except the Chowdy-Tow, a most comical Japanese. Church service

at Ridley Hall was held at the Beltingham Chapel, where Cousin Susan was

supreme. The miserable little clergyman, who used to pray for

"Queen-Victori-[=a]," was never allowed to begin till she had entered

the church and taken her place in a sort of tribune on a level with the

altar. Many of the dogs went to church too, with the servants to whom

they were annexed. This was so completely considered a matter of course,

that I never observed it as anything absurd till one day when my

connections the Scotts (daughters of Alethea Stanley) came to the chapel

from Sir Edward Blackett's, and were received into Cousin Susan's pew.

In the Confession, one Miss Scott after another became overwhelmed with

uncontrollable fits of laughter. When I looked up, I saw the black noses

and white ears of a row of little Spitz dogs, one over each of the

prayer-books in the opposite seat. Cousin Susan was furiously angry, and

declared that the Scotts should never come to Ridley Hall again: it was

not because they had laughed in church, but because they had laughed at

the dogs!

Upon leaving Ridley Hall, I paid another visit, which I then thought

scarcely less interesting. My grandmother's first cousin, John, Earl of

Strathmore (who left £10,000 to my grandfather), was a very agreeable

and popular man, but by no means a moral character. Living near his

castle of Streatlam was a beautiful girl named Mary Milner, daughter of

a market-gardener at Staindrop. With this girl he went through a false

ceremony of marriage, after which, in all innocence, she lived with him

as his wife. Their only boy, John Bowes, was sent to Eton as Lord

Glamis. On his deathbed Lord Strathmore confessed to Mary Milner that

their marriage was false and that she was not really his wife. She said,

"I understand that you mean to marry me now, but that will not do: there

must be no more secret marriages!" and, ill as he was, she had every

one within reach summoned to attend the ceremony, and she had him

carried to church and was married to him before all the world. Lord

Strathmore died soon after he re-entered the house, but he left her

Countess of Strathmore. It was too late to legitimatise John Bowes.

Lady Strathmore always behaved well. As soon as she was a widow, she

said to all the people whom she had known as her husband's relations and

friends, that if they liked to keep up her acquaintance, she should be

very grateful to them, and always glad to see them when they came to

her, but that she should never enter any house on a visit again: and she

never did. My grandmother, and, in later years, "Italima," had always

appreciated Lady Strathmore, and so had Mrs. Davidson, and the kindness

they showed her was met with unbounded gratitude. Lady Strathmore

therefore received with the greatest effusion my proposal of a visit to

Gibside. She was a stately woman, still beautiful, and she had educated

herself since her youth, but, from her quiet life (full of

unostentatious charity), she had become very eccentric. One of her

oddities was that her only measurement of time was one thousand years.

"Is it long since you have seen Mrs. Davidson?" I said. "Yes, one

thousand years!"--"Have you had your dog a long time?"--"A thousand

years."--"That must be a very old picture."--"Yes, a thousand years

old."

Seeing no one but Mr. Hutt, the agreeable tutor of her son, Lady

Strathmore had married him, and by her wealth and influence he became

member for Gateshead. He was rather a prim man, but could make himself

very agreeable, and he was vastly civil to me. I think he rather

tyrannised over Lady Strathmore, but he was very well behaved to her in

public. Soon after her death[170] he married again.

[Illustration: GIBSIDE.]

Gibside was a beautiful place. The long many-orielled battlemented house

was reached through exquisite woods feathering down to the Derwent. A

tall column in the park commemorates the victory of George Bowes (the

father of the unhappy 9th Lady Strathmore, who married a Blakiston, the

heiress of Gibside) over Sir Robert Walpole at a Newcastle election.

There was a charming panelled drawing-room, full of old furniture and

pictures. The house had two ghosts, one "in a silk dress," being that

Lady Tyrconnel who died in the house while living there on somewhat too

intimate terms with John, Earl of Strathmore. He gave her a funeral

which almost ruined the estate. Her face was painted like the most

brilliant life. He dressed her head himself! and then, having decked her

out in all her jewels, and covered her with Brussels lace from head to

foot, he sent her up to London, causing her to lie in state at every

town upon the road, and finally to be buried in Westminster Abbey!

At the end of the garden was the chapel, beneath which many of my

Strathmore ancestors are buried--a beautiful building externally, but

hideous within, with the pulpit in the centre. During the service on

Sundays a most extraordinary effect was produced by the clerk not only

giving out the hymns, but singing them entirely through afterwards by

himself, in a harsh nasal twang, without the very slightest help from

any member of the congregation.

* * * * *

After we parted at Paris in the autumn of 1858, Mrs. Hare and my sister,

as usual, spent the winter at Rome, returning northwards by the seat of

the war in Lombardy. Thence Esmeralda wrote:--

"_Turin, May 25, 1859._--Instead of a _dolce far niente_ at

Frascati or Albano, we have been listening to the roaring of

cannon. The Austrians are said to be fourteen miles off, but there

is no apparent excitement in the town. The juggler attracts a crowd

around him as usual in the piazza, the ladies walk about with their

fans and smelling-bottles, the men sing _vivas_. The town is

guarded by the _guardia civile_; all the regular troops have left

for the battlefield. The nobility are either shut up or walk about

in the streets, for all their carriage and riding horses have been

taken from them for the use of the army. Bulletins are published

twice a day, and give a short account of the engagements. The

Piedmontese are confident of ultimate success: fresh French troops

are pouring in every day. The lancers came in this morning with

flying colours, splendidly mounted, and were received with

thundering applause, the people shouting and clapping their hands,

waving their handkerchiefs, and decorating them with bouquets and

wreaths of flowers. I hear the Emperor has been waiting for the

arrival of this regiment to begin war in earnest, and a great

battle is expected on Monday.... We left Genoa at night, and came

on by the ten o'clock train to the seat of war. The French were

mounting guard in Alessandria,--the Zouaves and Turcos in their

African dress lounging at the railway station. The Austrians had

been repulsed the day before in trying to cross the river; the

cannon had been rolling all day, but the officers were chatting as

gaily as if nothing had happened, and were looking into the railway

carriages for amusement. I longed to stop at Alessandria and go to

see the camp, but Mama would not hear of it. There were troops

encamped at distances all along the line.... We have had no

difficulty in coming by land, though people tried to frighten us.

We proceeded by _vetturino_ to Siena: everything was quiet, and we

met troops of volunteers singing 'Viva l'Italia'--so radiant, they

seemed to be starting for a festival. Five hundred volunteers went

with us in the same train, and when we arrived at Pisa, more

volunteers were parading the streets amid the acclamations of the

people. At Genoa, hundreds of French soldiers were walking about

the town, looking in at the shop-windows. Prince Napoleon

Bonaparte was walking about the Via Balbi with his hands in his

pockets, followed by great crowds.

"We packed up everything before leaving Palazzo Parisani, in case

we should not be able to return there next winter. I will not think

of the misery of being kept out of Rome; it would be too great.

Perhaps you will see us in England this year, but it is not at all

probable."

* * * * *

Alas! my sister did not return to Rome that year, or for many years

after. "L'homme s'agite et Dieu le mêne."[171] Parisani was never again

really her home. A terrible cloud of misfortune was gathering over her,

accompanied by a series of adventures the most mysterious and the most

incredible. I should not believe all that happened myself, unless I had

followed it day by day; therefore I cannot expect others to believe it.

As Lucas Malet says, "English people distrust everything that does not

carry ballast in the shape of obvious dulness," and they are not likely,

therefore, to believe what follows. But it is _true_ nevertheless. In

narrating what occurred, I shall confine myself to a simple narrative of

facts: as to the source of the extraordinary powers possessed by the

lady who for some time exercised a great influence upon the fortunes of

our family, I can offer no suggestion.

When Mrs. Hare and my sister arrived at Geneva in June 1859, though

their fortunes had suffered very considerably by the Paul bankruptcy,

they were still in possession of a large income, and of every luxury of

life. To save the trouble of taking a villa, they engaged an excellent

suite of apartments in the Hôtel de la Metropole, where they intended

remaining for the greater part of the summer.

Soon after her arrival, Italima (Mrs. Hare) wrote to her banker for

money, and was much astonished to hear from him that she had overdrawn

her account by £150. Knowing that she ought at that season to have

plenty of money in the bank, she wrote to her attorney, Mr. B. (who had

the whole management of her affairs), to desire that he would pay the

rest of the money due into Coutts', and that he would send her £100

immediately. She had no answer from Mr. B., and she wrote again and

again, without any answer. She was not alarmed, because Mr. B. was

always in the habit of going abroad in the summer, and she supposed that

her letters did not reach him because he was away. Still, as she really

wanted the money, it was very inconvenient.

One day, when she came down to the table-d'hôte, the place next to her

was occupied by an elderly lady, who immediately attempted to enter into

conversation with her. Italima, who always looked coldly upon strangers,

answered shortly, and turned away. "Je vois, Madame," said the lady,

with a most peculiar intonation, "que vous aimez les princesses et les

grandeurs." "Yes," said Italima, who was never otherwise than perfectly

truthful, "you are quite right; I do." And after that--it was so very

singular--a sort of conversation became inevitable. But the lady soon

turned to my sister and said, "_You_ are very much interested about the

war in Italy: _you_ have friends in the Italian army: _you_ are longing

to know how things are going on. I _see_ it all: to-morrow there will be

a great battle, and if you come to my room to-morrow morning, you will

hear of it, for I shall be _there_."--"Yes," said Esmeralda, but she

went away thinking the lady was perfectly mad--quite raving.

The next morning, as my sister was going down the passage of the hotel,

she heard a strange sound in one of the bedrooms. The door was ajar, she

pushed it rather wider open, and there, upon two chairs, lay the lady,

quite rigid, her eyes distended, speaking very rapidly. Esmeralda

fetched her mother, and there they both remained transfixed from 10 A.M.

to 3 P.M. The lady was evidently at a great battle: she described the

movements of the troops: she echoed the commands: she shuddered at the

firing and the slaughter, and she never ceased speaking. At 3 P.M. she

grew calm, her voice ceased, her muscles became flexible, she was soon

quite herself. My sister spoke to her of what had taken place: she

seemed to have scarcely any remembrance of it. At 6 P.M. they went down

to dinner. Suddenly the lady startled the table-d'hôte by dropping her

knife and fork and exclaiming, "Oh, l'Empereur! l'Empereur! il est en

danger." She described a flight, a confusion, clouds of dust arising--in

fact, all the final act of the battle of Solferino. That night the

telegrams of Solferino came to Geneva, and for days afterwards the

details kept arriving. Everything was what the lady described. It was at

the battle of Solferino that she had been.

When my sister questioned the landlord, she learnt that the lady was

known as Madame de Trafford, that she had been _née_ Mademoiselle

Martine Larmignac (de l'Armagnac?), and that she was possessed of what

were supposed to be supernatural powers. Esmeralda herself describes

the next incident in her acquaintance with Madame de Trafford.

* * * * *

"One day when we were sitting in our room at Geneva, a lady came

in, a very pleasing-looking person, perfectly _gracieuse_, even

_distinguée_. She sat down, and then said that the object of her

visit was to ask assistance for a charity; that Madame de Trafford,

who was living below us, had given her sixty francs, and that she

hoped we should not refuse to give her something also. Then she

told us a story of a banker's family at Paris who had been totally

ruined, and who were reduced to the utmost penury, and living in

the greatest destitution at Lausanne. She entered into the details

of the story, dwelling upon the beauty of the children, their

efforts at self-help, and various other details. When she had

ended, Mama said she regretted that she was unable to give her more

than ten francs, but that she should be glad to contribute so much,

and I was quite affected by the story, which was most beautifully

told.

"Meantime, Madame de Trafford, by her secondsight, knew that she

was going to be robbed, yet she would not forego her usual custom

of keeping a large sum of money by her. She wrapped up a parcel of

bank-notes and some napoleons in a piece of newspaper, and threw it

upon the top of a wardrobe in which her dresses were hung. She told

me of this, and said she had hidden the money so well that it was

unlikely that any one could find it.

"In a few days, the lady came again to tell us of the improvement

in the poor family, and she also went to see Madame de Trafford.

She was alone with her, and Madame de Trafford told her about her

money, and showed her the place where she had put it, asking her if

she did not think it well concealed.

"Some days after, when we came up from dinner, we found the same

lady, the _quêteuse_, walking up and down the gallery fanning

herself. She said she had been waiting for Madame de Trafford, but

had found her apartment so hot, she had left it to walk about the

passage. We all went into the public sitting-room together, but

Mama and I stayed to read the papers, whilst the lady passed on

with Madame de Trafford to her room beyond, as she said she wished

to speak to her. Soon she returned alone, and began talking to us,

when ... the door opened, and in came Madame de Trafford,

dreadfully agitated, looking perfectly livid, and exclaiming in a

voice of thunder, 'On m'a volé,' and then, turning to the lady, 'Et

voilà la voleuse.' Then, becoming quite calm, she said coldly,

'Madame, vous étiez seule pendant que nous étions à table; je vous

prie donc de vous ... déshabiller.'--'Mais, Madame, c'est inoui de

me soupçonner,' said the lady, 'mais ... enfin ... Madame....' But

she was compelled to pass before Madame de Trafford into the

bedroom and to undo her dress. In her purse were ten napoleons, but

of these no notice was taken; she might have had them before. Then

Madame de Trafford gave the lady five minutes to drop the notes she

had taken, and came out to us--'Car c'est elle!' she said. In five

minutes the lady came out of the room and passed us, saying,

'Vraiment cette Madame de Trafford c'est une personne très

exaltée,' and went out. Then Madame de Trafford called us. 'Venez,

Madame Hare,' she said. We went into the bedroom, and in the corner

of the floor lay a bundle of bank-notes. 'Elle les a jeté,' said

Madame de Trafford."

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