I remember Misha at thirteen. He was a very pretty boy, with rosy little
cheeks and soft lips (indeed he was soft and plump-looking all over),
with prominent liquid eyes, carefully brushed and combed, caressing and
modest--a regular little girl! There was only one thing about him I did
not like: he rarely laughed; but when he did laugh, his teeth--large
white teeth, pointed like an animal’s--showed disagreeably, and the
laugh itself had an abrupt, even savage, almost animal sound, and there
were unpleasant gleams in his eyes. His mother was always praising him
for being so obedient and well behaved, and not caring to make friends
with rude boys, but always preferring feminine society. ‘A mother’s
darling, a milksop,’ his father, Andrei Nikolaevitch, would call him;
‘but he’s always ready to go into the house of God.... And that I am
glad to see.’ Only one old neighbour, who had been a police captain,
once said before me, speaking of Misha, ‘Mark my words, he’ll be a
rebel.’ And this saying, I remember, surprised me very much at the time.
The old police captain, it is true, used to see rebels on all sides.
Just such an exemplary youth Misha continued to be till the eighteenth
year of his age, up to the death of his parents, both of whom he lost
almost on the same day. As I was all the while living constantly at
Moscow, I heard nothing of my young kinsman. An acquaintance coming from
his province did, it is true, inform me that Misha had sold the paternal
estate for a trifling sum; but this piece of news struck me as too
wildly improbable! And behold, all of a sudden, one autumn morning there
flew into the courtyard of my house a carriage, with a pair of splendid
trotting horses, and a coachman of monstrous size on the box; and in the
carriage, wrapped in a cloak of military cut, with a beaver collar two
yards deep, and with a foraging cap cocked on one side, _à la diable
m’emporte_, sat ... Misha! On catching sight of me (I was standing at
the drawing-room window, gazing in astonishment at the flying equipage),
he laughed his abrupt laugh, and jauntily flinging back his cloak, he
jumped out of the carriage and ran into the house.
‘Misha! Mihail Andreevitch!’ I was beginning, ... ‘Is it you?’
‘Call me Misha,’--he interrupted me. ‘Yes, it’s I, ... I, in my own
person.... I have come to Moscow ... to see the world ... and show
myself. And here I am, come to see you. What do you say to my
horses?... Eh?’ he laughed again.
Though it was seven years since I had seen Misha last, I recognised him
at once. His face had remained just as youthful and as pretty as
ever--there was no moustache even visible; only his cheeks looked a
little swollen under his eyes, and a smell of spirits came from his
lips. ‘Have you been long in Moscow?’ I inquired.
‘I supposed you were at home in the country, looking after the
place.’ ...
‘Eh! The country I threw up at once! As soon as my parents died--may
their souls rest in peace--(Misha crossed himself scrupulously, without
a shade of mockery) at once, without a moment’s delay, ... _ein, zwei,
drei!_ ha, ha! I let it go cheap, damn it! A rascally fellow turned up.
But it’s no matter! Anyway, I am living as I fancy, and amusing other
people. But why are you staring at me like that? Was I, really, to go
dragging on in the same old round, do you suppose? ... My dear fellow,
couldn’t I have a glass of something?’
Misha spoke fearfully quick and hurriedly, and, at the same time, as
though he were only just waked up from sleep.
‘Misha, upon my word!’ I wailed; ‘have you no fear of God? What do you
look like? What an attire! And you ask for a glass too! And to sell such
a fine estate for next to nothing....’
‘God I fear always, and do not forget,’ he broke in.... ‘But He is good,
you know--God is.... He will forgive! And I am good too.... I have
never yet hurt any one in my life. And drink is good too; and as for
hurting,... it never hurt any one either. And my get-up is quite the most
correct thing.... Uncle, would you like me to show you I can walk
straight? Or to do a little dance?’
‘Oh, spare me, please! A dance, indeed! You’d better sit down.’
‘As to that, I’ll sit down with pleasure.... But why do you say nothing
of my greys? Just look at them, they’re perfect lions! I’ve got them on
hire for the time, but I shall buy them for certain, ... and the
coachman too.... It’s ever so much cheaper to have one’s own horses. And
I had the money, but I lost it yesterday at faro. It’s no matter, I’ll
make it up to-morrow. Uncle, ... how about that little glass?’
I was still unable to get over my amazement. ‘Really, Misha, how old are
you? You ought not to be thinking about horses or cards, ... but going
into the university or the service.’
Misha first laughed again, then gave vent to a prolonged whistle.
‘Well, uncle, I see you’re in a melancholy humour to-day. I’ll come
back another time. But I tell you what: you come in the evening to
Sokolniki. I’ve a tent pitched there. The gypsies sing, ... such
goings-on.... And there’s a streamer on the tent, and on the streamer,
written in large letters: “The Troupe of Poltyev’s Gypsies.” The
streamer coils like a snake, the letters are of gold, attractive for
every one to read. A free entertainment--whoever likes to come! ... No
refusal! I’m making the dust fly in Moscow ... to my glory! ... Eh? will
you come? Ah, I’ve one girl there ... a serpent! Black as your boot,
spiteful as a dog, and eyes ... like living coals! One can never tell
what she’s going to do--kiss or bite! ... Will you come, uncle? ...
Well, good-bye, till we meet!’
And with a sudden embrace, and a smacking kiss on my shoulder, Misha
darted away into the courtyard, and into the carriage, waved his cap
over his head, hallooed,--the monstrous coachman leered at him over his
beard, the greys dashed off, and all vanished!
The next day I--like a sinner--set off to Sokolniki, and did actually
see the tent with the streamer and the inscription. The drapery of the
tent was raised; from it came clamour, creaking, and shouting. Crowds of
people were thronging round it. On a carpet spread on the ground sat
gypsies, men and women, singing and beating drums, and in the midst of
them, in a red silk shirt and velvet breeches, was Misha, holding a
guitar, dancing a jig. ‘Gentlemen! honoured friends! walk in, please!
the performance is just beginning! Free to all!’ he was shouting in a
high, cracked voice. ‘Hey! champagne! pop! a pop on the head! pop up to
the ceiling! Ha! you rogue there, Paul de Kock!’
Luckily he did not see me, and I hastily made off.
I won’t enlarge on my astonishment at the spectacle of this
transformation. But, how was it actually possible for that quiet and
modest boy to change all at once into a drunken buffoon? Could it all
have been latent in him from childhood, and have come to the surface
directly the yoke of his parents’ control was removed? But that he had
made the dust fly in Moscow, as he expressed it--of that, certainly,
there could be no doubt. I have seen something of riotous living in my
day; but in this there was a sort of violence, a sort of frenzy of
self-destruction, a sort of desperation!