"God is nearer to us than our own soul" "We can never come to full
knowing of God till we know first clearly our own Soul"
And thus I saw full surely that it is readier to us to come to
the knowing of God than to know our own Soul. For our Soul is so
deep-grounded in God, and so endlessly treasured, that we may not come
to the knowing thereof till we have first knowing of God, which is the
Maker, to whom it is oned. But, notwithstanding, I saw that we have,
for fulness, to desire wisely and truly to know our own Soul: whereby
we are learned to seek it where it is, and that is, in God. And thus by
gracious leading of the Holy Ghost, we should know them both in one:
whether we be stirred to know God or our Soul, both [these stirrings]
are good and true.
God is nearer to us than our own Soul: for He is [the] Ground in whom
our Soul standeth, and He is [the] Mean that keepeth the Substance
and the Sense-nature together so that they shall never dispart. For
our soul sitteth in God in very rest, and our soul standeth in God in
very strength, and our Soul is kindly rooted in God in endless love:
and therefore if we will have knowledge of our Soul, and communing and
dalliance therewith, it behoveth to seek unto our Lord God in whom it
is enclosed. (And of this enclosement I saw and understood more in the
Sixteenth Shewing, as I shall tell.)
And as anent our Substance and our Sense-part, both together may
rightly be called our Soul:[1] and that is because of the oneing that
they have in God. The worshipful City that our Lord Jesus sitteth in is
our Sense-soul, in which He is enclosed: and our Kindly Substance is
enclosed in Jesus with the blessed Soul of Christ sitting in rest in
the Godhead.
And I saw full surely that it behoveth needs to be that we should be
in longing and in penance unto the time that we be led so deep into
God that we verily and truly know our own Soul. And truly I saw that
into this high deepness our good Lord Himself leadeth us in the same
love that He made us, and in the same love that He bought us by Mercy
and Grace through virtue of His blessed Passion. And notwithstanding
all this, we may never come to full knowing of God till we know first
clearly our own Soul. For until the time that our Soul is in its full
powers[2] we cannot be all fully holy: and that is [until the time]
that our Sense-soul by the virtue of Christ's Passion be brought up to
the Substance, with all the profits of our tribulation that our Lord
shall make us to get by Mercy and Grace.
I had, in part, [experience of the] Touching [of God in the soul],
and it is grounded in Nature. That is to say, our Reason is grounded
in God, which is Substantial Naturehood.[3] [Out] of this Substantial
Naturehood Mercy and Grace springeth and spreadeth into us, working all
things in fulfilling of our joy: these are our Ground in which we have
our Increase and our Fulfilling.
These be three properties in one Goodness: and where one worketh, all
work in the things which be _now_ belonging to us. God willeth that we
understand [this], desiring with all our heart to have knowing of them
more and more unto the time that we be fulfilled: for fully to know
them is nought else but endless joy and bliss that we shall have in
Heaven, which God willeth should be begun here in knowing of His love.
For only by our Reason we may not profit, but if we have evenly
therewith Mind and Love: nor only in our Nature-Ground that we have
in God we may not be saved but if we have, coming of the same Ground,
Mercy and Grace. For of these three working all together we receive
all our Goodness. Of the which the first [gifts] are goods of Nature:
for in our First making God gave us as full goods as we might receive
in our spirit alone,[4]--and also greater goods; but His foreseeing
purpose in His endless wisdom willed that we should be double.
[1] "& anempts our substance and sensualite it may rytely be clepid our
soule."
[2] "the full myts."
[3] "I had in partie touching and it is grounded in kynd: that is to
sey, our reson is groundid in God, which is substantial kyndhede."
[4] "ffor in our first makyng God gaf us as ful goods and also greter
godes as we myte receivin only in our spirite." In the MS. the word
"spirit" is used only here, where it means "the Substance."