"February 29. 1816.
"I have not answered your letter for a time; and, at present, the
reply to part of it might extend to such a length, that I shall
delay it till it can be made in person, and then I will shorten it
as much as I can.
"In the mean time, I am at war 'with all the world and his wife;'
or rather, 'all the world and _my_ wife' are at war with me, and
have not yet crushed me,--whatever they _may_ do. I don't know that
in the course of a hair-breadth existence I was ever, at home or
abroad, in a situation so completely uprooting of present pleasure,
or rational hope for the future, as this same. I say this, because
I think so, and feel it. But I shall not sink under it the more for
that mode of considering the question--I have made up my mind.
"By the way, however, you must not believe all you hear on the
subject; and don't attempt to defend me. If you succeeded in that,
it would be a mortal, or an immortal, offence--who can bear
refutation? I have but a very short answer for those whom it
concerns; and all the activity of myself and some vigorous friends
have not yet fixed on any tangible ground or personage, on which or
with whom I can discuss matters, in a summary way, with a fair
pretext;--though I nearly had _nailed one_ yesterday, but he evaded
by--what was judged by others--a satisfactory explanation. I speak
of _circulators_--against whom I have no enmity, though I must act
according to the common code of usage, when I hit upon those of the
serious order.
"Now for other matters--poesy, for instance. Leigh Hunt's poem is a
devilish good one--quaint, here and there, but with the substratum
of originality, and with poetry about it, that will stand the test.
I do not say this because he has inscribed it to me, which I am
sorry for, as I should otherwise have begged you to review it in
the Edinburgh.[91] It is really deserving of much praise, and a
favourable critique in the E.R. would but do it justice, and set it
up before the public eye where it ought to be.
"How are you? and where? I have not the most distant idea what I am
going to do myself, or with myself--or where--or what. I had, a few
weeks ago, some things to say that would have made you laugh; but
they tell me now that I must not laugh, and so I have been very
serious--and am.
"I have not been very well--with a _liver_ complaint--but am much
better within the last fortnight, though still under Iatrical
advice. I have latterly seen a little of * * * *
"I must go and dress to dine. My little girl is in the country,
and, they tell me, is a very fine child, and now nearly three
months old. Lady Noel (my mother-in-law, or, rather, _at_ law) is
at present overlooking it. Her daughter (Miss Milbanke that was)
is, I believe, in London with her father. A Mrs. C. (now a kind of
housekeeper and spy of Lady N.'s) who, in her better days, was a
washerwoman, is supposed to be--by the learned--very much the
occult cause of our late domestic discrepancies.
"In all this business, I am the sorriest for Sir Ralph. He and I
are equally punished, though _magis pares quam similes_ in our
affliction. Yet it is hard for both to suffer for the fault of one,
and so it is--I shall be separated from my wife; he will retain
his.
"Ever," &c.
[Footnote 91: My reply to this part of his letter was, I find, as
follows:--"With respect to Hunt's poem, though it is, I own, full of
beauties, and though I like himself sincerely, I really could not
undertake to praise it _seriously_. There is so much of the _quizzible_
in all he writes, that I never can put on the proper pathetic face in
reading him."]
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In my reply to this letter, written a few days after, there is a passage
which (though containing an opinion it might have been more prudent,
perhaps, to conceal,) I feel myself called upon to extract on account of
the singularly generous avowal,--honourable alike to both the parties in
this unhappy affair,--which it was the means of drawing from Lord Byron.
The following are my words:--"I am much in the same state as yourself
with respect to the subject of your letter, my mind being so full of
things which I don't know how to write about, that _I_ too must defer
the greater part of them till we meet in May, when I shall put you
fairly on your trial for all crimes and misdemeanors. In the mean time,
you will not be at a loss for judges, nor executioners either, if they
could have their will. The world, in their generous ardour to take what
they call the weaker side, soon contrive to make it most formidably the
strongest. Most sincerely do I grieve at what has happened. It has upset
all my wishes and theories as to the influence of marriage on your life;
for, instead of bringing you, as I expected, into something like a
regular orbit, it has only cast you off again into infinite space, and
left you, I fear, in a far worse state than it found you. As to
defending you, the only person with whom I have yet attempted this task
is myself; and, considering the little I know upon the subject, (or
rather, perhaps, _owing_ to this cause,) I have hitherto done it with
very tolerable success. After all, your _choice_ was the misfortune. I
never liked,--but I'm here wandering into the [Greek: aporrêta], and so
must change the subject for a far pleasanter one, your last new poems,
which," &c. &c.
The return of post brought me the following answer, which, while it
raises our admiration of the generous candour of the writer, but adds to
the sadness and strangeness of the whole transaction.
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