III.

'I was very much alarmed, my dear John, about your not sleeping. Mr.

Hare told me you said that you went two or three nights without

closing your eyes, and that you had to have recourse to sleeping

draughts.'

'Not at all, mother, I never took a sleeping draught but twice in my

life.'

'Well, you don't sleep well, and I am sure it is those college beds.

But you will be far more comfortable here. You are in the best bedroom

in the house, the one in front of the staircase, the bridal chamber;

and I have selected the largest and softest feather-bed in the house.'

'My dear mother, if there is one thing more than another I dislike, it

is a feather-bed. I should not be able to close my eyes; I beg of you

to have it taken away.'

Mrs. Norton's face flushed. 'I cannot understand, John; it is absurd

to say that you cannot sleep on a feather-bed. Mr. Hare told me you

complained of insomnia, and there is no surer way of losing your

health. It is owing to the hardness of those college mattresses,

whereas in a feather-bed--'

'There is no use in our arguing that point, mother. I say I cannot

sleep on a feather-bed---'

'But you have not tried one; I don't believe you ever slept on a

feather-bed in your life.'

'Well, I am not going to begin now.'

'We haven't another bed aired, and it is really too late to ask the

servants to change your room.'

'Well, then, I shall be obliged to sleep at the hotel in Henfield.'

'You should not speak to your mother in that way; I will not have it.'

'There! you see we are quarrelling already; I did wrong to come home.'

'It was not to please me that you came home. You were afraid if you

didn't you mightn't find another tenant for the Beeding farm. You were

afraid you might have it on your hands. It was self-interest that

brought you home. Don't try to make me believe it wasn't.'

Then the conversation drifted into angry discussion.

'You are not even a J. P., but there will be no difficulty about that;

you must make application to the Lord-Lieutenant.... You have not seen

any of the county people for years. We'll have the carriage out some

day this week, and we'll pay a round of visits.'

'We'll do nothing of the kind. I have no time for visiting; I must get

on with my book. I hope to finish my study of St. Augustine before I

leave here. I have my books to unpack, and a great deal of reading to

get through. I have done no more than glance at the Anglo-Latin.

Literature died in France with Gregory of Tours at the end of the

sixth century; with St. Gregory the Great, in Italy, at the

commencement of the seventh century; in Spain about the same time. And

then the Anglo-Saxons became the representatives of the universal

literature. All this is most important. I must re-read St. Aldhelm.'

'Now, sir, we have had quite enough of that, and I would advise you

not to go on with any of that nonsense here; you will be turned into

dreadful ridicule.'

'That's just why I wish to avoid them. Just fancy my having to listen

to them! What is the use of growing wheat when we are only getting

eight pounds ten a load? ... But we must grow something, and there is

nothing else but wheat. We must procure a certain amount of straw, or

we'd have no manure. I don't believe in the fish manure. But there is

market gardening, and if we kept shops at Brighton, we could grow our

own stuff and sell it at retail price.... And then there is a great

deal to be done with flowers.'

'Now, sir, that will do, that will do.... How dare you speak to me so!

I will not allow it.' And then relapsing into an angry silence, Mrs.

Norton drew her shawl about her shoulders.

'Why will she continue to impose her will upon mine? Why has she not

found out by this time the uselessness of her effort? She hopes at

last to wear me down. She wants me to live the life she has marked out

for me to live--to take up my position in the county, and, above all,

to marry and give her an heir to the property. I see it all; that is

why she wanted me to spend Christmas with her; that is why she has

Kitty Hare here to meet me. How cunning, how mean women are! a man

would not do that. Had I known it.... I have a mind to leave to-

morrow. I wonder if the girl is in the little conspiracy.' And turning

his head he looked at her.

Tall and slight, a grey dress, pale as the wet sky, fell from her

waist outward in the manner of a child's frock. There was a lightness,

there was brightness in the clear eyes. The intense youth of her heart

was evanescent; it seemed constantly rising upwards like the breath of

a spring morning. The face sharpened to a tiny chin, and the face was

pale, although there was bloom on the cheeks. The forehead was

shadowed by a sparkling cloud of brown hair, the nose was straight,

and each little nostril was pink tinted. The ears were like shells.

There was a rigidity in her attitude. She laughed abruptly, perhaps a

little nervously, and the abrupt laugh revealed the line of tiny white

teeth. Thin arms fell straight to the translucent hands, and there was

a recollection of Puritan England in look and in gesture. Her

picturesqueness calmed John's ebullient discontent; he decided that

she knew nothing of, and was not an accomplice in, his mother's

scheme. And, for the sake of his guest, he strove to make himself

agreeable during dinner, but it was clear that he missed the hierarchy

of the college table. The conversation fell repeatedly. Mrs. Norton

and Kitty spoke of making syrup for bees; and their discussion of the

illness of poor Dr.---, who would no longer be able to get through the

work of the parish single-handed, and would require a curate, was

continued till the ladies rose from the table. Nor did matters mend in

the library. The room seemed to him intolerably uncomfortable and

ugly, and he went to the billiard-room to smoke a cigar. It was not

clear to him that he would be able to spend two months in Thornby

Place. If every evening passed like the present, it were a modern

martyrdom.... But had they removed the feather-bed? He went upstairs.

The feather-bed had been removed. But the room was draped with many

curtains--pale curtains covered with walking birds and falling petals,

a sort of Indian pattern. There was a sofa at the foot of the bed, and

a toilet table hung out its skirts in the light of the fire. He

thought of his ascetic college bed, of the great Christ upon the wall,

of the _prie-dieu_ with the great rosary hanging. To lie in this great

bed seemed ignoble; and he could not rid his mind of the distasteful

feminine influences which had filled the day, and which now haunted

the night.

After breakfast next morning Mrs. Norton stopped John as he was going

upstairs to unpack his books. 'Now,' she said, 'you must go out for a

walk with Kitty Hare, and I hope you will make yourself agreeable. I

want you to see the new greenhouse I have put up; she'll show it to

you. And I told the bailiff to meet you in the yard. I thought you

would like to see him.'

'I wish, mother, you would not interfere in my business; had I wanted

to see Burns I should have sent for him.'

'If you don't want to see him, he wants to see you. There are some

cottages on the farm that must be put into repair at once. As for

interfering in your business, I don't know how you can talk like that;

were it not for me the whole place would be falling to pieces.'

'Quite true; I know you save me a great deal of expense; but really--'

'Really what? You won't go out to walk with Kitty Hare?'

'I did not say I wouldn't, but I must say that I am very busy just

now. I had thought of doing a little reading, for I have an

appointment with my solicitor in the afternoon.'

'That man charges you 200 pounds a year for collecting the rents; now,

if you were to do it yourself, you would save the money, and it would

give you something to do.'

'Something to do! I have too much to do as it is.... But if I am going

out with Kitty I may as well go at once. Where is she?'

'I saw her go into the library a moment ago.'

It was preferable to go for a walk with Kitty than to continue the

interview with his mother. John seized his hat and called Kitty,

Kitty, Kitty! Presently she appeared, and they walked towards the

garden, talking. She told him she had been at Thornby Place the whole

time the greenhouse was being built, and when they opened the door

they were greeted by Sammy, He sprang instantly on her shoulder.

'This is my cat,' she said. 'I've fed him since he was a little

kitten; isn't he sweet?'

The girl's beauty appeared on the brilliant flower background; and the

boyish slightness of her figure led John to think of a statuette done

in a period of Greek decadence. 'Others,' he thought, 'would only see

her as a somewhat too thin example of English maidenhood. I see her

quite differently.' And when her two tame rooks alighted at her feet,

he said:

'I wonder how you can let them come near you.'

'Why not; don't you like birds?'

'No, they frighten me; there's something electric about birds.'

'Poor little things, they fell out of the nest before they could fly,

and I brought them up. You don't care for pets?'

'I don't like birds. I couldn't sit in a room with a large bird.

There's something in the sensation of feathers I can't bear.'

'Don't like birds! Why, that seems as if you said that you didn't like

flowers.'

And while the young squire talked to his bailiff Kitty fed her rooks.

They cawed, and flew to her hand for the scraps of meat. The coachman

came to speak about oats and straw. They went to the stables. Kitty

adored horses, and it amused John to see her pat them, and her

vivacity and light-heartedness rather pleased him than otherwise.

Nevertheless, during the whole of the following week the ladies held

little communication with John. In the morning he went out with his

bailiffs to inspect farms and consult about possible improvement and

necessary repairs. He had appointments with his solicitor. There were

accounts to be gone through. He never paid a bill without verifying

every item. At four o'clock he came in to tea, his head full of

calculations of such complex character that even his mother could not

follow the different statements to his satisfaction. When she

disagreed with him he took up the _Epistles of St. Columban of Bangor_

the _Epistola ad Sethum,_ or the celebrated poem, _Epistola ad

Fedolium,_ written when the saint was seventy-two, and continued his

reading, making copious notes in a pocket-book.

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