II.

In large serpentine curves the road wound through a wood of small

beech trees--so small that in the November dishevelment the

plantations were like brushwood; and lying behind the wind-swept

opening were gravel walks, and the green spaces of the cricket field

with a solitary divine reading his breviary. The drive turned and

turned again in great sloping curves; more divines were passed, and

then there came a terrace with a balustrade and a view of the open

country. The high red walls of the college faced bleak terraces: a

square tower squatted in the middle of the building, and out of it

rose the octagon of the bell-tower, and in the tower wall was the

great oak door studded with great nails.

'How Birmingham the whole place does look,' thought Mr. Hare, as he

laid his hand on an imitation mediaeval bell-pull.

'Is Mr. John Norton at home?' he asked when the servant came. 'Will

you give him my card, and say that I should like to see him.'

On entering, Mr. Hare found himself in a tiled hall, around which was

built a staircase in varnished oak. There was a quadrangle, and from

three sides latticed windows looked on greensward; on the fourth there

was an open corridor, with arches to imitate a cloister. All was

strong and barren, and only about the varnished staircase was there

any sign of comfort. There the ceiling was panelled in oak; and the

banisters, the cocoa-nut matting, the bit of stained glass, and the

religious prints, suggested a mock air of hieratic dignity. And the

room Mr. Hare was shown into continued this impression. Cabinets in

carved oak harmonised with high-backed chairs glowing with red Utrecht

velvet, and a massive table, on which lay a folio edition of St.

Augustine's _City of God_ and the _Epistolae Consolitoriae_ of St.

Jerome.

The bell continued to clang, and through the latticed windows Mr. Hare

watched the divines hurrying along the windy terrace, and the tramp of

the boys going to their class-rooms could be heard in passages below.

Then a young man entered. He was thin, and he was dressed in black.

His face was Roman, the profile especially was what you might expect

to find on a Roman coin--a high nose, a high cheekbone, a strong chin,

and a large ear. The eyes were prominent and luminous, and the lower

part of the face was expressive of resolution and intelligence, but

the temples retreated rapidly to the brown hair which grew luxuriantly

on the top of the head. The mouth was large, the lips were thick, dim

in colour, undefined in shape. The hands were large, powerful, and

grasping; they were earthly hands; they were hands that could take and

could hold, and their materialism was curiously opposed to the

ideality of the eyes--an ideality that touched the confines of frenzy.

The shoulders were square and carried well back, the head was round,

with close-cut hair, the straight falling coat was buttoned high, and

the fashionable collar, with a black satin cravat, beautifully tied

and relieved with a rich pearl pin, set another unexpected detail to

an aggregate of apparently irreconcilable characteristics.

'And how do you do, my dear Mr. Hare? Who would have expected to see

you here? I am so glad.'

These words were spoken frankly and cordially, and there was a note of

mundane cheerfulness in the voice which did not quite correspond with

the sacerdotal elegance of this young man. Then he added quickly, as

if to save himself from asking the reason of this very unexpected

visit:

'You'll stay and dine? I'll show you over the college: you have never

been here before.... Now I come to reckon it up, I find I have not

seen you for nearly five years.'

'It must be very nearly that; I missed you the last time you were at

Thornby Place, and that was three years ago.'

'Three years! It sounds very shocking, doesn't it, to have a beautiful

place in Sussex and not to live there?'

The conversation paused a moment, and then John said:

'But you did not travel two hundred miles to see Stanton College. You

have, I fear, messages for me from my mother.'

'It is at her request I am here.'

'Quite so. You're here to advise me to return home and accept the

marriage state.'

'It is only natural that your mother should wish you to marry.'

'Her determination to get me married is one of the reasons why I am

here. My mother will not recognise my right to live my life in my own

fashion. When she learns to respect my opinions I will return home. I

wish you would impress that upon her. I wish you would try to get her

to understand that.'

'I will tell your mother what you say. It would be well for her to

know why you choose to live here. I agree with you that no one but

ourselves can determine what duties we should accept.'

'Ah! if you would only explain that to my mother. You have expressed

my feelings exactly. I have no pity for those who take up burdens and

then say they are not fitted to carry them. And now that disagreeable

matter is settled, come and I will show you over the college.'

The two men descended the staircase into the long stony corridor.

There were pictures along the walls of the corridor--pictures of

upturned faces and clasped hands--and these drew words of

commiseration for the artistic ignorance of the college authorities

from John's lips.

'And they actually believe that that dreadful monk with the skull is a

real Ribera.... The chapel is on the right, the refectory on the left.

Come, let us see the chapel; I am anxious to hear what you think of my

window.'

'It ought to be very handsome; it cost five hundred, did it not?'

'No, not quite so much as that,' John answered abruptly; and then,

passing through the communion rails, they stood under the multi-

coloured glory of three bishops. Mr. Hare felt that a good deal of

rapture was expected of him; but in his efforts to praise he felt that

he was exposing his ignorance. John called his attention to the

transparency of the green-watered skies; and turning their backs on

the bishops, the blue ceiling with the gold stars was declared, all

things considered, to be in excellent taste. The benches in the body

of the church were for the boys; the carved chairs set along both

walls, between the communion rails and the first steps of the altar,

were for the divines. The president and vice-president knelt facing

each other. The priests, deacons, and sub-deacons followed, according

to their rank. There were slenderer benches, and these were for the

choir; and from the great gold lectern the leader conducted the

singing.

The side altar, with the Turkey carpet spread over the steps, was St.

George's, and further on, in an addition made lately, there were two

more altars, dedicated respectively to the Virgin and St. Joseph,

'The maid-servants kneel in that corner. I have often suggested that

they should be moved out of sight.'

'Why would you remove them out of sight? You will not deny their right

to hear Mass?'

'Of course not. But it seems to me that they would be better away.

They present a temptation where there are a number of young men about.

I have noticed that some of the young men look round when the maid-

servants come into church. I have overheard remarks too.... I know not

what attraction they can find in such ugliness. It is beastly.'

'Maid-servants are not attractive; but if they were princesses you

would dislike them equally. The severest moralists are those who have

never known the pain of temptation.'

'Perhaps the severest moralists are those who have conquered their

temptations.'

'Then you have been tempted!'

John's face assumed a thoughtful expression, and he said:

'I'm not going to tell you my inmost soul. This I can say, if I have

had temptations I have conquered them. They have passed away.'

The conversation paused, and, in a silence which was pregnant with

suggestion, they went up to the organ-loft, and he depreciated the

present instrument and enlarged upon some technical details anent the

latest modern improvements in keys and stops. He would play his

setting of St. Ambrose's hymn, 'Veni redemptor gentium,' if Mr. Hare

would go to the bellows; and feeling as if he were being turned into

ridicule, Mr. Hare took his place at the handle.

In the sacristy the consideration of the censers, candle-sticks,

chalices, and albs took some time, and John was a little aggressive in

his explanation of Catholic ceremonial, and its grace and comeliness

compared with the stiffness and materialism of the Protestant service.

Handsome lads of sixteen were chosen for acolytes; the torch-bearers

were selected from the smallest boys, the office of censer was filled

by himself, and he was also the chief sacristan, and had charge of the

altar plate and linen and the vestments.

In answer to Mr. Hare, who asked him if he did not weary of the

narrowness of ecclesiastical life, John said that when the desire of

travel came upon him, he had to consult no one's taste or convenience

but his own, merely to pack his portmanteau. Last year he had been

through Russia, and had enjoyed his stay in Constantinople. And while

speaking of the mosques he said that he had had an ancestor who had

fought in the crusades. Perhaps it was from him he had inherited his

love and comprehension of Byzantine art--he did not say so, but it

might be so; one of the mysteries of atavism! Who shall say where they

end?

'You would have liked to have fought in the crusades?'

'Yes, I think that I should have made a good knight. The hardships

they underwent were no doubt quite extraordinary. But I am strong; my

bones are heavy; my chest is deep; I can bear a great deal of

fatigue.'

Then laughing lightly he said:

'You can't imagine me as a knight on the way to the Grail.'

'Why not? I think you would have acquitted yourself very well.'

'The crusades were once as real in life as tennis parties are to-day;

and I think infinitely more beautiful.'

'You would not have fought in the tournaments for a lady love?'

'Perhaps not; I should have fought for the Grail, like Parsifal. I was

at Bayreuth last year. But Bayreuth is no longer what it was. Popular

innovations have been introduced into the performances. Would you

believe it, the lovely music in the cupola, written by Wagner for

boys' voices, is now sung by women.'

'Surely a woman's voice is finer than a boy's.'

'It is more powerful, of course; but it has not the same quality--the

_timbre_ is so much grosser. Besides, women's voices are opposed to

the ecclesiastical spirit.'

'How closely you do run your hobby.'

'No; in art I have no prejudices; I recognise the beauty of a woman's

voice in its proper place--in opera. It is as inappropriate to have

Palestrina sung by women as it would be to have Brunnhilde and Isolde

sung by boys--at least so it seems to me. I was at Cologne last year--

that is the only place where you can hear Palestrina. I was very

lucky--I heard the great Mass, the Mass of Pope Marcellus. Wagner's

music in the cupola is very lovely, but it does not compare with

Palestrina.'

From the sacristy they went to the boys' library, and while affecting

to take an interest in the books Mr. Hare continued to encourage John

to talk of himself. Did he never feel lonely?

'No, I do not know what it is to feel lonely. In the morning I write;

I ride in the afternoon; I read in the evening. I read a great deal--

literature and music.'

'But when you go abroad you go alone--do you feel no need of a

companion? Do you never make acquaintances when you go abroad?'

'People don't interest me. I am interested in things much more than in

people--in pictures, in music, in sculpture. When I'm abroad I like

the streets, I like to see people moving about, I like to watch the

spectacle of life, but I do not care to make acquaintances. As I grow

older it seems to me that a process of alienation is going on between

me and others.'

They stopped on the landings of the staircases; they lingered in the

passages, and, speaking of his admiration of the pagan world, John

said: 'It knew how to idealise, it delighted in the outward form, but

it raised it, invested it with a sense of aloofness.... You know what

I mean.' He looked inquiringly at Mr. Hare, and, gesticulating with

his fingers, said, 'You know what I mean.' 'A beyond?'

'Yes; that's the word--a beyond. There must be a beyond. In Wagner

there is none. That is his weakness. He is too perfect. Never since

the world began did an artist realise himself so completely. He

achieved all he desired, therefore something is wanting. A beyond is

wanting.... I do not say that I have changed my opinion regarding

Wagner, I still admire him: but I no longer accept his astonishing

ingenuities for inspiration. No, I'm not afraid to say it, I bar

nearly the whole first act of Parsifal. For instance, Gurnemanz's long

narrative, into which is introduced all the motives of the opera--is

merely beautiful musical handicraft, and I cannot accept handicraft,

however beautiful, for inspiration. I rank much higher the entrance of

Kundry--her evocation of Arabia.... That is a real inspiration! The

over-praised choruses are beautiful, but again I have to make

reservations. These choruses are, you know, divided into three parts.

The chorus of the knights is ordinary enough, the chorus of the young

men I like better, but I can only give my unqualified admiration to

the chorus of the children. Again, the chorus of the young girls in

the second act is merely beautiful writing, and there is no real

inspiration until we get to the great duet between Kundry and

Parsifal. The moment Kundry calls to Parsifal, "Parsifal... Remain!"

those are the words, I think, Wagner inspiration begins, then he is

profound, then he says interesting things.' John opened the door of

his room.

In the centre of the floor was an oak table--a table made of sharp

slabs of oak laid upon a frame that was evidently of ancient design,

probably early German, a great, gold screen sheltered a high canonical

chair with elaborate carvings, and on a reading-stand close by lay the

manuscript of a Latin poem.

The parson looked round for a seat, but the chairs were like cottage

stools on high legs, and the angular backs looked terribly knife-like.

'Shall I get you a pillow from the next room? Personally I cannot bear

upholstery. I cannot conceive anything more hideous than a padded

armchair. All design is lost in that infamous stuffing. Stuffing is a

vicious excuse for the absence of design. If upholstery were forbidden

by law to-morrow, in ten years we should have a school of design. Then

the necessity of composition would be imperative.'

'I daresay there is a good deal in what you say; but tell me, don't

you find these chairs very uncomfortable? Don't you think that you

would find a good comfortable arm-chair very useful for reading

purposes?'

'No, I should feel far more uncomfortable on a cushion than I do on

this bit of hard oak. Our ancestors had an innate sense of form that

we have not. Look at these chairs, nothing can be plainer; a cottage

stool is hardly more simple, and yet they are not offensive to the

eye. I had them made from a picture by Albert Durer.'

Mr. Hare smoked in silence, uncertain how far John was in earnest, how

far he was assuming an attitude of mind. Presently he walked over to

the book-cases. There were two: one was filled with learned-looking

volumes bearing the names of Latin authors; and the parson, who prided

himself on his Latinity, was surprised, and a little nettled, to find

so much ignorance proved upon him. With Tertullian, St. Jerome, and

St. Augustine, he was acquainted, but of Lactantius Hibernicus Exul,

Angilbert, he was obliged to admit he knew nothing--even the names

were unknown to him.

In the book-case on the opposite side of the room there were complete

editions of Landor and Swift, then came two large volumes on Leonardo

da Vinci. Raising his eyes, the parson read through the titles:

Browning's works; Tennyson in a cheap seven-and-six edition;

Swinburne, Pater, Rossetti, Morris, two novels by Rhoda Broughton,

Dickens, Thackeray, Fielding, and Smollett; the complete works of

Balzac, Gautier's _Emaux et Camees_, Salammbo, L'Assommoir; Carlyle,

Newman, Byron, Shelley, Keats, and the dramatists of the Restoration.

At the end of a long silence Mr. Hare said glancing once again at the

Latin authors, and walking towards the fire:

"Tell me, John, are those the books you are writing about? Supposing

you explain to me, in a few words, the line you are taking. Your

mother tells me that you intend to call your book the History of

Christian Latin."

"Yes, I had thought of using that title, but I am afraid it is a

little too ambitious. To write the history of a literature extending

over at least eight centuries would entail an appalling amount of

reading; and besides, only a few, say a couple of dozen writers out of

some hundreds, are of the slightest literary interest, and very few

indeed of any real aesthetic value.

"Ah!" he said, as his eye lighted on a certain name, 'here is

Marbodius, a great poet; how well he understood women! Listen to this:

'"Femina, dulce malum, pariter favus atque venenum,

Melle linens gladium cor confodit et sapientum.

Quis suasit primo vetitum gustare parenti?

Femina. Quis partem natas vitiare coegit?

Femina. Quis fortem spoliatum crine peremit?

Femina. Quis justi sacrum caput ense recidit?

Femina, quae matris cumulavit crimine crimen,

Incestum gravem graviori caede notavit....

"Chimeram

Cui non immerito fertur data forma triformis,

Nam pars prima leo, pars ultima cauda draconis,

Et mediae partes nil sunt nisi fervidus ignis."'

'Well, of course, that quite carries out your views of women. And now

tell me what I am to say to your mother. Will you come home for

Christmas?'

'I suppose I must. I suppose it would seem unkind if I didn't. I

wonder why I dislike the place? I cannot think of it without a

revulsion of feeling.'

'I won't argue that point with you, but I think you ought to come

home.'

'Why come home? Come home and marry my neighbour's daughter--one of

those Austin girls, for instance? Fancy my settling down to live with

one them, and undertaking to look after her all my life; walking after

her carrying a parasol and a shawl. Don't you see the ludicrous side?

I always see a married man carrying a parasol and a shawl--a parasol

and a shawl, the symbols of his office.' John laughed loudly.

'The swinging of a censer and the chanting of Latin responses are

equally absurd if--'

'Do you think so?'

'Ritual is surely not the whole of religion?'

'No. But we were speaking of several rituals, and Catholic ritual

seems to me more dignified than that of the shawl and parasol. The

social life of the nineteenth century, that is to say, drawing-rooms,

filled with half-dressed women, present no attraction for me. You and

my mother think because I do not wish to marry and spend some small

part of my time in this college that I intend to become a priest.

Marry and bring up children, or enter the Church! There is nothing

between, so you say, having regard for my Catholicism. But there is an

intermediate state, the onlooker. However strange it may seem to you,

I do assure you that no man in the world has less vocation for the

priesthood than I. I am merely an onlooker, the world is my monastery.

I am an onlooker.'

'Is not that a very selfish attitude?'

'My attitude is this. There is a mystery. No one denies that. An

explanation is necessary, and I accept the explanation offered by the

Roman Catholic Church. I obey Her in all her instruction for the

regulation of life; I shirk nothing, I omit nothing, I allow nothing

to come between me and my religion. Whatever the Church says I

believe, and so all responsibility is removed from me. But this is an

attitude of mind which you as a Protestant cannot sympathise with.'

'I know, my dear John, I know your life is not a dissolute one; but

your mother is very anxious--remember you are the last. Is there no

chance of your ever marrying?'

'I fear I am not suited to married life. There is a better and a purer

life to lead... an inner life, coloured and permeated with feelings

and tones that are intensely our own. He who may live this life

shrinks from any adventitious presence that might jar it.'

'Maybe, it certainly would take too long to discuss--I should miss my

train. But tell me, are you coming home for Christmas?'

'Yes, yes; I have some estate business to see to. I shall be home for

Christmas. As for your train ... will find out all about your train

presently... you must stay to dinner.'