CHAPTER XVIII

That Sabbath of the Sermon on the Mount became a most important day.

When Jesus made an end of speaking, the people did not disperse, but

pressed round Him to kiss the hem of His garment. Many who until then

had been in despair could not tear themselves from Him. They wished to

follow Him wherever He went, and to share His destiny. Whatever He

might say to the contrary, that destiny, they felt sure, would be

brilliant. Was He not tearing the masses from earthly thoughts that

formed their curse. All they heard was His counsel upon absence of

anxiety. But what would it be when He revealed the universal power of

the Messiah? Many said that the Sermon on the Mount was a trial of

strength intended to steel the will for the holy struggle for the

Kingdom of the Messiah that was now to be established on earth.

People came out of Judaea; they hastened from the valley of the Jordan;

they streamed from the hills. They came from the seaports of Tyre and

Sidon, and some even came from lands far beyond the sea in order to

discover if what the people on all sides were saying was true. They

brought asses and camels, laden with gifts, and Jesus accepted what He

and His friends needed, but declined the rest or divided it among the

people. For there were many among His followers who were starving, His

word being all their sustenance. And sick persons began to drag

themselves to Him so that He might heal and comfort them. But the more

they heard of miracles wrought on the sick and crippled, the more

miracles they desired, so that He grew angry, and reminded them that He

did not come on account of their bodies but of their souls. Moreover,

He pointed out to them that He was not the Messiah from whom men

expected deliverance and the establishment of the kingdom of the Jews.

But they regarded that as an excuse, as prudent reserve, until the time

was ripe for the entry of the great general. The curiosity increased

at every new speech, and they hoped to hear Him sound the call to arms.

Others held aloof and thought over the deeper meaning of His words, and

if it was possible to comprehend them and live according to them. At

first they found it easy and pleasant to be free from care, and to be

conciliatory towards their neighbours. It suited the poor admirably to

make a virtue of necessity, so that their indolence and poverty

appeared as meritorious. But after a few days they began to realise

that perhaps they had not understood the Master's words aright. Even

the Samaritans from over the border listened to the strange teaching

about heaven or earth. If the ancient writings spoke of future

blessedness, Jesus spoke of present blessedness.

A money-changer from Carioth was among His disciples. So far he had

only been with the Prophet on Sabbaths; on week-days he sat in his

office and counted money and reckoned interest. But things did not go

well, for while he was doing his accounts his thoughts were with the

Master, and he made errors; and when he was with the Master his

thoughts were with his money, and he missed what was being said. He

must leave either one or the other, and he could not decide which. But

after listening to the Sermon on the Mount he determined to go no more

to his place of business, but to remain with Jesus, so strong was his

belief in Him. And the exchange brought as much joy into his heart as

if he had lent money to a man at two hundred per cent. For he would

have treasure in the Kingdom of the Messiah.

The only people who more or less still held aloof were the Galileans.

They had known the Prophet as a carpenter, and were uncertain what

position to take up towards Him. On the other hand, there were

Galileans who came to Jerusalem, or Joppa, and were proud to hear their

Prophet spoken of there, and they pretended to be His acquaintances and

friends, only to greet Him on their return with the same old contempt.

He used to say that no man was a prophet in his own country. At this

period Jesus often went to Nazareth, and always accompanied by an

ever-increasing number of followers. His mother could never get any

confidential talk with Him. And His native place disowned Him. His

youthful acquaintances fought shy of Him as an eccentric vagrant who

opposed the law, stirred up the people, and from whose further career

no great honour was to be expected. The Rabbi in the synagogue warned

men of Him as of a public traitor. He described with ardent zeal the

ruin in which all would be involved who were persuaded by this man

without a conscience to renounce the belief of their ancestors. "There

is only one true faith," he exclaimed, "and only one God, and that is

not the faith and God of this heretic, but the faith of Moses and the

God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. And that God curses the false

prophet and all his followers, so that the devil has power over him."

And he continued sorrowfully: "His relations are greatly to be pitied,

especially the unhappy mother who has borne such a son to the shame of

the family and the grief of the whole land." And then the Rabbi

alluded to a hope that they might perhaps succeed in bringing to reason

the erring man who sinned so deeply against the law, if not by love, at

least by a vigorous effort and display of authority, till He was made

to resume the honourable handicraft in which He had once lived in a

manner pleasing to God.

And so it happened that Mary, when she left the synagogue and proceeded

homewards, was scoffed at by her ill-natured neighbours, who gave her

to understand that she might take herself off, and the sooner the

better. She said nothing, but bade her weeping heart be still.

One day Jesus was invited to dine down by the lake with a friend who

held the same views as Himself. There were so many people present that

there was neither room nor food enough. They expected some miracle.

Jesus was in a happy mood, and said that He wondered that people should

rush after little wonders, and overlook the great ones; for all things

that lived, all things with which we were daily surrounded, were pure

and incomprehensible wonders. As for the wonders men desired Him to

work, the most important thing was not turning of stones into bread or

the making of the sick whole, but that such miracles should awaken

faith. Faith was the greatest miracle-worker. While He was talking He

was called away; some one stood under the cedars who wished to speak to

Him. He found two of His relations there, who asked Him curtly, and

without ceremony, what He purposed doing; did He propose to return to

Nazareth or not? If not, then He had better realise that His house and

workshop would be confiscated.

Jesus answered them: "Go and tell your elders in Nazareth: The house

belongs to him who needs it, and let him who has a use for the workshop

have it. And leave Him in peace who would build a House in which there

are many mansions."

They remained standing there, and said; "If you turn a deaf ear and are

heedless of us, there is some one else here." And then His mother came

forward. She had thrown a blue shawl over her head. She looked ill,

and could hardly speak for sobbing. She took hold of His hand: "My

son! where will all this lead? Can you undertake such responsibility?

You reject the belief of your fathers, and you deprive others of it."

To which He replied: "I deprive them of their belief. On the contrary,

I give them faith."

"But, my child, I can't understand it. You are stirring up the whole

country. The people leave their houses, their families, their work, to

follow you. What enchantment do you practise on them?"

"They follow the tidings," He said. "They thirst after comfort as the

hart pants for water."

"And you call it comfort to starve and freeze in the wilderness," broke

in one of his relations; "you call it comfort to deny oneself

everything till our rags fall off our bodies, and we are taken by the

soldiers as criminals? Take heed. The governors at Caesarea and

Jerusalem are displeased at the state of affairs. They mean to put a

stop to the demagogue's proceedings, and they are right."

"Who is the demagogue?"

"Why, you, of course."

Jesus was surprised at the reply, and said:--"I? I, who say to you,

Peace be with you! Love one another! Do good to your enemies! I, a

demagogue?"

"They say you claim to be the Messiah who shall conquer the kingdom."

"A kingdom that is not of this world."

Mary fell into His arms. "My dear son, leave all this alone. If it is

to be, God will do it all without you. See how lonely your mother is

at Nazareth! Come with me to our peaceful home, and be once again my

good, dear Jesus. And these here, they love you, they are your

brothers."

Then Jesus stretched out His arm and pointed to His followers, who had

pushed their way into the house. "Those are My brothers! Those who

acknowledge the Heavenly Father as I do, they are My brothers."

His relations stepped back, and wrung their hands in perplexity. "He

is out of His mind. He is possessed by devils."

The people in the road who were looking over the fence felt sorry for

the forsaken woman, and wanted to interfere; whereupon a voice

exclaimed loudly: "Happy the mother who has such a son! The nations

will arise and call her blessed!"

Jesus turned to them gravely. "Blessed are those who follow the word

of God."

His mother felt, as He spoke those words, as if she had been stabbed to

the heart with a sword. The people were silent, and whispered to each

other: "Why is He so hard towards His mother?"

John the younger answered them: "He sees salvation only in God the

Father. He has converted many people to His view, but just those whom

He loves best will not listen to the tidings of the Kingdom of Heaven."

Jesus lifted up His voice and cried: "He who desires to be My disciple,

and his parents and brothers and sisters do not believe in Me, he must

forsake his parents and brothers and sisters in order to follow Me. He

who has wife and child, and they despise My tidings, he must forsake

wife and child and follow _Me_ if he wishes to be My disciple. Who

does not love God more than mother and child, than brother and sister,

yea, more than himself and his life, he is not worthy of God."

Many were troubled by this speech, and murmured: "He asks too much."

Then said John: "Whoever is in earnest about his faith in the Heavenly

Father cannot speak otherwise. He feels Himself how hard it is to

destroy all ties. Do you not observe how He struggles with Himself,

and must subdue His own heart, so that it may lose its power over Him?

He asks all from His disciples because He gives them all. We already

know that what He has to give us is worth more than all we have given

up."

His relations went away. They talked violently against Jesus. His

mother could not endure that, so she remained behind and climbed the

stony path by herself. In her sorely tried heart she prayed: "My

Father which art in Heaven, Thy will be done!" And she had no idea

that it was her son's prayer, in which she found the same faith and

comfort as He did. She knew not that thus she, too, became a disciple

of Jesus.

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