FOURTH

It was not in Lady Ellington's nature to be enthusiastic, since she

considered enthusiasm to be as great a waste of the emotional fibres as

anger, but she was at least thoroughly satisfied when, two evenings

after this, Madge came to her room before dinner after another punting

expedition with Philip, and gave her news.

"It is quite charming," said her mother, "and you have shown great good

sense. Dear child, I must kiss you. And where is Mr. Home--Philip I must

call him now?"

"He is outside," said Madge. "I said I would go down again for a few

minutes before dinner."

Lady Ellington got up and kissed her daughter conscientiously, first on

one cheek and then on the other.

"I will come down with you," she said, "just to tell him how very much

delighted I am. I shall have to have a long talk to him to-morrow

morning."

There was no reason whatever why the engagement should not be announced

at once, and in consequence congratulations descended within the half

hour. Mrs. Home was a little tearful, with tears of loving happiness on

behalf of her son, which seemed something of a weakness to Lady

Ellington; Tom Merivale was delighted in a sort of faraway manner that

other people should be happy; Evelyn Dundas alone, in spite of his

previous preparation for the news, felt somehow slightly pulled up. For

with his complete and instinctive surrender to every mood of the moment,

he had permitted himself to take great pleasure in the contemplation--it

was really hardly more than that--of Madge's beauty, and he felt

secretly, for no shadow obscured the genuineness of his congratulations,

a certain surprise and sense of being ill-used. He was not the least in

love with Madge, but even in so short a time they had fallen into ways

of comradeship, and her engagement, he felt, curtailed the liberties of

that delightful relationship. And again this evening, having cut out of

a bridge table, he wandered with her in the perfect dusk. Lady Ellington

this time observed their exit, but cheerfully permitted it; no harm

could be done now. It received, in fact, her direct and conscious

sanction, since Philip had suggested to Madge that Evelyn should paint

her portrait. He knew that Evelyn was more than willing to do so, and

left the arrangement of sitting to sitter and artist. In point of fact,

it was this subject that occupied the two as they went out.

"We shall be in London for the next month, Mr. Dundas," Madge was

saying, "and of course I will try to suit your convenience. It is so

good of you to say you will begin it at once."

Evelyn's habitual frankness did not desert him.

"Ah, I must confess, then," he said. "It isn't at all good of me. You

see, I want to paint you, and I believe I can. And I will write

to-morrow to a terrible railway director to say that in consequence of a

subsequent engagement I cannot begin the--the delineation of his

disgusting features for another month."

Madge laughed; as is the way of country-house parties, the advance in

intimacy had been very rapid.

"Oh, that would be foolish," she said. "Delineate his disgusting

features if you have promised. My disgusting features will wait."

"Ah, but that is just what they won't do," said Evelyn.

"Do you mean they will go bad, like meat in hot weather? Thank you so

much."

"My impression will go bad," said he. "No, I must paint you at once.

Besides"--and still he was perfectly frank--"besides Philip is, I

suppose, my oldest friend. He has asked me to do it, and friendship

comes before cheques."

They walked in silence a little while.

"I am rather nervous," said Madge. "I watched you painting this

afternoon for a bit."

"Oh, a silly sketch," said he, "flowers, terrace, woods behind; it was

only a study for a background."

"Well, it seemed to affect you. You frowned and growled, and stared and

bit the ends of your brushes. Am I going to be stuck up on a platform to

be growled at and stared at? I don't think I could stand it; I should

laugh."

Evelyn nodded his head in strong approval.

"That will be what I want," he said. "I will growl to any extent if it

will make you laugh. I shall paint you laughing, laughing at all the ups

and downs of the world. I promise you you shall laugh. With sad eyes,

too," he added. "Did you know you had sad eyes?"

Madge slightly entrenched herself at this.

"I really haven't studied my own expression," she said. "Women are

supposed to use mirrors a good deal, but they use them, I assure you, to

see if their hair is tidy."

"Your's never is quite," said he. "And it suits you admirably."

Again the gravel sounded crisply below their feet, without the overscore

of human voices.

Then he spoke again.

"And please accept my portrait of you as my wedding present to you--and

Philip," he said with boyish abruptness.

Madge for the moment was too utterly surprised to speak.

"But, Mr. Dundas," she said at length, "I can't--I--how can I?"

He laughed.

"Well, I must send it to Philip, then," he said, "if you won't receive

it. But--why should you not? You are going to marry my oldest friend. I

can't send him an ivory toothbrush."

This reassured her.

"It is too kind of you," said she. "I had forgotten that. So send it to

him."

"Certainly. But help me to make it then as good as I can."

"Tell me how?" she asked, feeling inexplicably uneasy.

"Why, laugh," he said. "That is how I see you. You laugh so seldom, and

you might laugh so often. Why don't you laugh oftener?"

Then an impulse of simple honesty came to her.

"Because I am usually bored," she said.

"Ah, you really mustn't be bored while I am painting you," he said. "I

could do nothing with it if you were bored. Besides, it would be so

uncharacteristic."

"How is that, when I am bored so often?" she asked.

"Oh, it isn't the things we do often that are characteristic of us,"

said he. "It is the things we do eagerly, with intention."

She laughed at this.

"Then you are right," she said. "I am never eagerly bored. And to tell

you the truth, I don't think I shall be bored when I sit to you. Ah,

there is Philip. He does not see us; I wonder whether he will?"

Philip's white-fronted figure had appeared at this moment at the French

window leading out of the drawing-room, and his eyes, fresh from the

bright light inside, were not yet focussed to the obscurity of the dusk.

At that moment Madge found herself suddenly wishing that he would go

back again. But as soon as she was conscious she wished that, she

resolutely stifled the wish and called to him.

"Evelyn there, too?" he asked. "Evelyn, you've got to go in and take my

place."

"And you will take mine," said he with just a shade of discontent in his

voice.

"No, my dear fellow," said Philip. "I shall take my own."

He laughed.

"I congratulate you again," he said, and left them.

Philip stood for a moment in silence by the girl, looking at her with a

sort of shy, longing wonder.

"Ah, what luck!" he said at length. "What stupendous and perfect luck."

"What is luck, Philip?" she asked.

"Why, this. You and me. Think of the chances against my meeting you in

this big world, and think of the chances against your saying 'Yes.' But

now--now that it has happened it couldn't have been otherwise."

Some vague, nameless trouble took possession of the girl, and she

shivered slightly.

"You are cold, my darling?" he said quickly.

She had been leaning against the stone balustrade of the terrace, but

stood upright, close to him.

"No, not in the least," she said.

"What is it, then?" he asked.

"It is nothing. Only I suppose I feel it is strange that in a moment the

whole future course of one's life is changed like this."

He took her hands in his, and the authentic fire of love burned in his

eyes.

"Strange?" he said. "Is it not the most wonderful of miracles? I never

knew anything so wonderful could happen. It makes all the rest of my

life seem dim. There is just this one huge beacon of light. All the rest

is in shadow."

She raised her face to him half imploringly.

"Oh, Philip, is it all that to you?" she asked. "I--I am afraid."

"Because you have made me the happiest man alive?"

A sudden, inevitable impulse of honesty prompted Madge to speak out.

"No, but because I have perhaps meddled with great forces about which I

know nothing. I like you immensely; I have never liked anyone so much. I

esteem you and respect you. I am quite willing to lead the rest of my

life with you; I want nothing different. But will that do? Is that

enough? I have never loved as I believe you love me. I do not think it

is possible to me. There, I have told you."

Philip raised her hands to his lips and kissed them.

"Ah, my dearest, you give me all you have and are, and yet you say, 'Is

that enough?'" he whispered. "What more is possible?"

She looked at him a moment, the trouble not yet quite gone from her

face. Then she raised it to his.

"Then take it," she said.

The night was very warm and windless, and for some time longer they

walked up and down, or stood resting against the terrace wall looking

down over the hushed woods. A nightingale, the same perhaps that had

been charmed to Tom's finger two evenings ago, poured out liquid melody,

and the moon began to rise in the East. Gradually their talk veered to

other subjects, and Madge mentioned that Evelyn was willing to do her

portrait.

"He will begin at once," she said, "because it appears his impression of

me isn't a thing that will keep. He is putting off another order for

it."

"That is dreadfully immoral," said Philip, "but I am delighted to hear

it."

"Oh, and another thing. He gives it us--to you and me I think he

said--as a wedding present."

"Ah, I can't have that," said Philip quickly. "That is Evelyn all over.

There never was such an unthinking, generous fellow. But it is quite

impossible. Why, it would mean a sixth part of his year's income."

"I know; I felt that."

Philip laughed rather perplexedly.

"I really don't know what is to be done with him," he said. "Last year

he gave my mother a beautiful pearl brooch. That sort of thing is so

embarrassing. And if she had not accepted it, he would have been quite

capable of throwing it into the Thames. Indeed he threatened to do so.

And he will be equally capable of throwing his cheque into the fire."

"All the same, I like it enormously," she said; "his impulse, I mean."

"I know, but it offends my instincts as a man of business. I might just

as well refuse to charge interest on loans. However, I will see what I

can do."

They went in again soon after this, for it was growing late, and found

Lady Ellington preparing to leave the table of her very complete

conquests. It had fallen to Evelyn to provide her with a no-trump hand

containing four aces, and she was disposed to be gracious. The news,

furthermore, that he would begin her daughter's portrait at once was

gratifying to her, and she was anxious that the sittings should begin at

once. As both they and he would be in town for the next month, the

matter was easily settled, and it was arranged that the thing should be

put in hand immediately.

Philip followed Evelyn to the billiard-room as soon as the women went

upstairs, and found him alone there.

"The Hermit has gone to commune with Nature," he said. "He will die of

natural causes if he doesn't look out. He called me a Pagan this

morning, Philip. Wasn't it rude? And the fact that it is true seems to

me to make it ruder."

Philip lit his cigarette.

"I'm going to be rude too, old chap," said he. "Evelyn, you really

mustn't make a present of the portrait to Madge and me. It is awfully

good of you, and just like you, but I simply couldn't accept it."

Evelyn shrugged his shoulders.

"Then there will be no portrait at all," he said shortly. "I tell you I

won't paint it as an order."

Philip held out his hand.

"I appreciate it tremendously," he said. "It is most awfully good of

you. But it's your profession. Hullo, here's the Hermit back."

Tom Merivale entered at this moment.

"Aren't we going to sit out to-night?" he said.

Evelyn rose.

"Yes, let's go out," he said. "Well, Philip, not a line will I draw

unless you take it. Or I'll give it to Miss Ellington and not you."

"You really musn't," said Philip.

"But don't you see I want to paint her? I said so to you only the other

day. Hang it all, I tell you that I do it for pleasure. I shall also be

the vast gainer artistically. I've got an idea about her, in fact, and

if you don't let me paint her I shall do it from memory, in which case

it will not be so good."

An idea struck Philip.

"Well, paint me as well," he said, "and let me pay you for that."

Evelyn followed Tom out.

"Oh, I can't haggle," he said. "Yes, I'll paint you if you like. But I

will paint Miss Ellington first. In fact, you shall be painted when I've

nothing else to do. Well, Hermit, seen Pan to-day?"

"No, you scoffer," said Tom.

"Call me when you do. I should like to see him, too. Let's see, he was a

man with goat's legs; sort of things you see in Barnum's."

Tom shifted in his chair.

"Some day, perhaps, you may think it serious," he said.

"I daresay; a man with goat's legs is not to be taken lightly," said

Evelyn. "And he sits by the roadside, doesn't he, or so Browning says,

playing the pipes? What pipes, I wonder? Bagpipes, do you suppose?"

Tom laughed; his equanimity was quite undisturbed even by chaff upon

what was to him the most serious subject in the world.

"Ah, who was frightened at a nightingale coming to sit on my finger a

few nights ago? Evelyn, if you are not serious, I'll frighten you

again."

"Well, but is it bagpipes?" asked he.

Tom suddenly got grave.

"No, it sounded more like a glass flute very far off," he said. "No

explanations are forthcoming, because I haven't got any."

Evelyn was silent a moment.

"And when did you hear this glass flute very far off?" he asked.

"Two mornings ago, up above the house in that big clearing in the

woods," he answered. "I know nothing more about it. It frightened me

rather, and then it stopped."

"What did it play?" asked Philip.

"A world-without-end tune," he said. "The catechising is now over. I

shall go to bed, I think. I must leave to-morrow, Philip."

"I hoped you would stop a day or two longer. Must you really go?"

"I must, I find."

"Appointment with Pan in the New Forest," remarked Evelyn, dodging the

cushion that was thrown at him.

Philip had to spend the inside of the next day in London, and left with

Tom Merivale by an early train, leaving Evelyn alone with his mother,

Lady Ellington, and Madge. It came about very naturally that Lady

Ellington gravitated to Mrs. Home, and Evelyn, finishing his background

sketch in front of a great clump of purple clematis, found Madge on the

terrace when he went out, with an unopened book on her lap.

The book had lain there, indeed, in the same state for half an hour

before he came, for Madge had been very fully occupied with her own

thoughts. She had had a talk to her mother the night before, which this

morning seemed to her to be more revealing of herself than even her own

confession to Philip in their stroll on the terrace had been. She had

told her just what she had told him, namely, that she gave him very

willingly all that she knew of herself, liking, esteem, respect, adding

out of Philip's mouth that this more than contented him. But then Lady

Ellington, for the first time perhaps for many years, had made a

strategical error, allowing her emotion, not her reason, to dictate to

her, and had said--

"Ah, Madge, how clever of you."

She had seen her mistake a moment afterwards, and just a moment too

late, for Madge had asked the very simple question "Why?" And the

unsatisfactory nature of her mother's reply had given her food for

thought.

For Lady Ellington had applauded as clever what was to her the very

rudiment of honour, and she had supposed that her mother would say "How

very stupid of you." Clearly, then, while extremely uncalculating to

herself, Madge had succeeded in giving the impression of calculation to

one who, she well knew, calculated. What, then, she asked herself, was

the secret of this love of which she was ignorant, that rendered her

confession of ignorance so satisfactory a reply?

Effusive pleasure on her mother's part at the termination of this

recital had not consoled her. Somehow, according to Lady Ellington's

view, an almost quixotic honesty appeared clever. And it was over this

riddle that she was puzzling when Evelyn appeared, with brilliance, so

to speak, streaming from him. Brilliance certainly streamed from his

half-finished sketch, and brilliance marked his exposition of it.

"Oh, I lead a dog's life," he said, as he planted his easel down on the

gravel. "Do you know Lady Taverner, for whom this is to be a background?

No? I congratulate you. She is pink, simply pink, like a phlox, with

butter-coloured hair, probably acquired. Well, put a pat of butter and a

phlox on a purple plate, and you will see that the phlox is pinker than

ever and the butter more buttery. Therefore, since I really am very

thorough, I make a sketch of clematis to see how the flowers really

grow, and shall plaster her with them--masses behind her, sapphires

round her neck; and a pink Jewess in the middle," he added, in a tone of

extraordinary irritation.

Madge let her book slide to the ground.

"Do you want to be talked to or not?" she asked. "If you don't, say so,

and I will go away."

Evelyn looked up from his purple clematis.

"I lead a dog's life," he said, "but sometimes somebody throws me a

bone. So throw me one."

"You seem to growl over it," said she.

"I know I do. That is because, though I lead a dog's life, nobody shall

take my bone from me."

He bit the end of his brush.

"And the filthy thing casts purple shadows upwards," he said. "At least

the sun shines on the purple, and reflects the purple on leaves that

overhang it. I wish I had been born without any sense of colour. I

should have made such ripping etchings."

Madge had no immediate reply to this, and he painted for some ten

minutes in silence. She had picked up her book again, and read the words

of it--reading it could not be called.

"You haven't given me many bones," said he at length.

Madge looked up.

"I know I haven't," she said; "but seriously I considered if I had got

anything to say, and found I hadn't. So I decided to say nothing."

Evelyn dabbed in a purple star.

"But surely one has always something in one's mind," he said. "One can't

help that, so why not say it? A penny for your thoughts now."

Madge laughed.

"No, they are worth far more. In fact, they are not in the market," she

said.

Evelyn grew portentously grave.

"Mrs. Gummidge," he said.

"Oh, what do you mean?" she asked.

"You've been thinking of the old one," said Evelyn. "Philip."

"Quite true, I was," she said. "He is such a dear."

"So glad you like him," muttered Evelyn, again frowning and biting his

brushes. "Lord love us, what a blue world it is this morning! There, I

can't paint any more just now."

"That's rather sudden, isn't it?"

"Oh, I always stop like that," said Evelyn. "I go on painting and

painting, and then suddenly somebody turns a tap off in my head, and

I've finished. I can't see any more, and I couldn't paint if I did. I

suppose the day will come when the tap will be turned permanently off.

Shortly afterwards I shall be seen to jump off Westminster Bridge. I

only hope nobody will succeed in rescuing me."

"I will try to remember if I happen to be there," said she.

Evelyn put his sketch to dry in the shadow of the terrace wall.

"The law is so ridiculous," he said. "They punish you if you don't

succeed in committing suicide when you try to, and say you are

temporarily insane if you do. Whereas the bungler is probably far more

deranged than the man who does the job properly."

"I shall never commit suicide," said Madge with conviction.

"Ah, wait till you care about anything as much as I care about

painting," said Evelyn, "and then contemplate living without it. Why, I

should cease without it. The world would be no longer possible; it

wouldn't, so to speak, hold water."

"Ah, do you really feel about it like that?" said she. "Tell me what

it's like, that feeling."

Evelyn laughed.

"You ought to know," he said, "because I imagine it's like being

permanently in love."

Here was as random an arrow as was ever let fly; he had been unconscious

of even drawing his bow, but to his unutterable surprise it went full

and straight to its mark. The girl's face went suddenly expressionless,

as if a lamp within had been turned out, and she rose quickly, with a

half-stifled exclamation.

"Ah, what nonsense we are talking," she said quickly.

Evelyn looked at her in genuine distress at having unwittingly caused

her pain.

"Why, of course we are," he said. "How people can talk sense all day

beats me. They must live at such high pressure. Personally I preserve

any precious grains of sense I may have, and put them into my pictures.

Some of my pictures simply bristle with sense."

The startled pain had not died out of Madge's eyes, but she laughed, and

Evelyn, looking at her, gave a little staccato exclamation.

"And what is it now?" she asked.

"Why, you--you laughed with sad eyes. You were extraordinarily like what

my picture will be at that moment."

The girl glanced away. That sudden, unexplained little stab of pain she

had experienced had left her nervous. Her whole nature had winced under

it, and, like a man who feels some sudden moment of internal agony for

the first time, she was frightened; she did not know what it meant.

"I expect that is nonsense, too," she said. "At least, it is either

nonsense or very obvious, for I suppose when anyone laughs, however

fully he laughs, there is always something tragic behind. Ah, how nice

to laugh entirely just once from your hair to your heels."

"Can't you do that ever?" asked Evelyn sympathetically.

"No, never, nor can most people, I think. We are all haunted houses;

there is always a ghost of some kind tapping at the door or lurking in

the dusk. Only a few people have no ghosts. I should think your's were

infinitesimal. You are much to be envied."

Evelyn listened with all his ears to this; partly because he and Madge

were already such good friends, and anything new about her was

interesting; partly because, though, as he had said, surface was enough

for him--it bore so very directly on his coming portrait of her.

"Yes, I expect that is true," he said; "most people certainly have their

ghosts. But it is wise to wall up one's haunted room, is it not?"

Madge shook her head.

"Yes, but it is still there," she said.

She got up from the low chair in which she was sitting with an air of

dismissing the subject of their talk.

"Come, ask me some more of those very silly riddles," she said. "I think

they are admirable in laying ghosts. So, too, are you, Mr. Dundas. I am

sure you will not resent it when I say it is because you are so

frightfully silly. Ghosts cannot stand silliness."

Evelyn laughed.

"It is so recuperative to be silly," he said, "because it requires no

effort to a person of silly disposition, that is to say. One has to be

oneself. How easy!"

She opened her eyes at this.

"That means you find it easy to be natural," she said. "Why, I should

have thought that was almost the most difficult thing in the world to

be. Now a pose is easy; it is like acting; you have got to be somebody

else. But to be oneself! One has to know what one is, first of all, one

has to know what one likes."

Evelyn laughed again.

"Not at all. You just have to shut your eyes, take a long breath, and

begin talking. Whatever you say is you."

The girl shook her head.

"Ah, you don't understand," she said. "You, you, I, everybody, are

really all sorts of people put into one envelope. Am I to say what one

piece of me is prompting me to say or what another is thinking about?

And it's just the same with one's actions; one hardly ever does a thing

which every part of one wants to do; one's actions, just like one's

words, are a sort of compromise between the desires of one's different

components."

She paused a moment, and, with a woman's quickness of intuition provided

against that which might possibly be in his mind.

"Of course, when a big choice comes," she said, "one's whole being has

to consent. But one only has half a dozen of those in one's life, I

expect."

She had guessed quite rightly, for the idea of her marriage had

inevitably suggested itself to Evelyn when she said "one hardly ever

does a thing which every part of one wants to do." But in the addition

she had made to her speech there was even a more direct allusion to it,

which necessarily cancelled from his mind the first impression. He was

bound, in fact, to accept her last word. But he fenced a little longer.

"I don't see that one choice can really be considered bigger than

another," he said. "The smallest choice may have the hugest consequences

which one could never have foretold, because they are completely outside

one's own control. I may, for instance, settle to go up to London

to-morrow by the morning train or the later one. Well, that seems a

small enough choice, but supposing one train has a frightful accident?

What we can control is so infinitesimal compared to what lies outside

us--engine-drivers, bullets, anything that may kill."

The girl shuddered slightly.

"It is all so awful," she said, "that. An ounce of lead, a fall, and one

is extinguished. It is so illogical, too."

"Ah, anything that happens to one's body, or mind either, is that," said

Evelyn.

"How? Surely one is responsible for what happens to one's mind."

"Yes, in the way of learning ancient history, if we choose, or having

drawing-lessons. But all the big things that can happen to one are

outside one's control. Love, hate, falling in love particularly is, I

imagine, completely independent of one's will."

The girl gave a short, rather scornful laugh.

"But one sees a determined effort to marry someone," she said, "often

productive of a very passable imitation of falling in love."

Had she boxed his ears, Evelyn could not have been more astonished. If

this was an example of shutting the eyes; drawing a long breath and

being natural, he felt that there was after all something to be said for

the artificialities in which we are most of us wont to clothe ourselves.

There was a very Marah of bitterness in the girl's tone; he felt, too,

as if all the time she had concealed her hand, so to speak, behind her

back, and suddenly thrown a squib at him, an explosive that cracked and

jumped and jerked in a thoroughly disconcerting manner. And she read the

blankness of his face aright, and hastened to correct the impression she

had made.

"Did you ever get behind a door when you were a child," she asked, "and

jump out calling 'Bo!'? That is what I did just then, and it was a

complete success."

He looked at her a moment with his head on one side, as if studying an

effect.

"But it was you who jumped out?" he asked rather pertinently.

"Ah, I wouldn't even say that," said she. "I think it was only a

turnip-ghost that I had stuck behind the door."

Evelyn gave a sort of triumphant shout of laughter.

"Well, for the moment it took me in," he said. "I really thought it was

you."

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