"I fear, my sister, that you have made a great mistake in refusing an
offer of marriage, which almost any woman might be proud to accept."
Sister Ruth closed her writing desk, and looked at Beryl over her
spectacles.
"Why should you infer that any such proposal has been made to me?"
"Simply because I know all that has occurred, and my cousin writes me
that you decline to marry him. If you had intended to remain here and
identify yourself with this institution, I could better understand your
motives in rejecting a man who offers you wealth, good looks, a
stainless reputation, an honored name, and the best possible social
position."
"All of which tempt me in no degree. Mr. Brompton is doubtless
everything you consider him; lives in a brown stone palace, is an
influential and respected citizen, but comparatively, we are strangers.
He bought my pictures, took a fleeting fancy to my face, and to my
great surprise, indulged in a romantic whim. What does he comprehend of
my past? How little he understands the barrier that shuts me out from
the lot of most women."
"He is fully acquainted with every detail of your life that has been
confided to me, or discovered by the public; and he has studied and
admired you ever since you came to dwell among us. In view of your very
peculiar history, you must admit that his affection is certainly
strong. If you married him, your past would be effectually blotted out."
"I have no desire to blot it out, and though misfortune overshadowed my
name, it is the untarnished legacy my father left me, and I hold it
very sacred; wrap it as a mantle about me. When suspicion of any form
of disgrace falls upon a woman, it is as though some delicate flower
had been thrust too close to a scorching fire; and no matter how
quickly or how far removed, no matter how heavy the dews that empearl
it, how fresh and cool the wind that sweeps over it, how bright the sun
that feeds its pulses,--the curled petals are never smoothed, the hot
blasts leaves its ineffaceable blight. To me, the thought of marriage
comes no more than to one who knows death sits waiting only for the
setting of the sun, to claim his own. That phase of life is as
inaccessible and uninviting to me, as Antartic circumpolar lands; and
even in thought, I have no temptation to explore it. My future and my
past are so interblended, that I could as easily tear out my heart and
continue to breathe, as attempt to separate them. I have a certain work
to do, and its accomplishment bars all other paths."
"Does the nature of that work involve vows of celibacy?"
"Sometimes fate decrees for us, allowing no voluntary vows. How soon
the path to my work will open before me, I cannot tell; but the day
must come, and like a pilgrim girded, I wait and watch."
"Can you find elsewhere a nobler field of work than surrounds you here?"
"Certainly not, and some dross of selfishness mingles with the motives
that will ultimately bear me beyond these hallowing precincts; yet a
day may come, when having fulfilled a sacred duty, I shall travel back,
praying you to let me live, and work, and die among you."
"My sister, your patient submission, your tireless application, have
endeared you to me; and I should grieve to lose you from our little
gray band, where your artistic labors have reflected so much credit on
the 'Home'."
"Thank you, Sister Ruth; praise from fellow toilers is praise indeed,
and the greatest blessing one human being can bestow upon another, I
owe to you; the blessing of being helped to procure work, which enables
me to help myself. If I leave the 'Anchorage' for a season, it will be
on an errand such as Noah's dove went forth from refuge to perform; and
when I return with my olive branch, the deluge of my life will have
spent its fury, and I shall rest in peace where the ark is anchored."
"Do you imagine that desertion from our ranks will be so readily
condoned? Drum-head court martial obtains here."
"Would you call it desertion, if seizing the flag of duty that floats
over us here, I forsook the camp only long enough to scout on a
dangerous outpost, to fight single-handed a desperate battle! If I
fell, the folds of our banner would shroud me; if I conquered, would
you not all greet me, when weary and worn I dragged myself back to the
ranks? Some day, when I tap at the ark window, you will open your arms
and take me in; for then my earthly mission will have ended, and the
smoke of the accepted sacrifice will linger in my garments."
"Meantime, to-day's duties demand attention. I have a note from Cyril
Brompton requesting that special courtesy be shown by us to his friend,
the new Bishop, who is in the city, and who desires to inspect the
'Anchorage'. Cyril declines escorting the party, because he finds it
painful to meet you now, and he wishes particularly that you should
show your own department. I shall not be able to climb to the third
story, while my ankles are so swollen, so I must deputize you to do the
honors on your floor. Hold yourself in readiness, if I should send for
you, and do not forget to give the Bishop a package of the new
prospectus of the art school. That basket of orchids must be delivered
before five o'clock. Sister Joanna said you detained her to make a
sketch of it."
"I had almost finished when you summoned me. Send her up for the basket
in half an hour."
The long studio was deserted, and very quiet on that sultry Saturday
afternoon in midsummer, and the drowsy air was laden with fragrance
from the pots of white carnations, massed on the iron balcony, upon
which the tall, plate glass windows opened to the north. Down the
centre of the apartment ran a table covered with oil cloth, and on the
walls hung pictures in oil, water-color, crayon, while upon brackets
and pedestals were mounted plaster casts, terra cotta heads, a few
bronzes, and some hammered brass plaques. In the corners of the room,
four marvels of taxidermy contributed brilliant colors mixed on the
feathered palettes of a pea-fowl, a scarlet flamingo, a gold and a
silver pheasant, all perched on miniature mounds, built of curious
specimens of rock, of shells, coral and sphagnum.
The slow, languid swish, swish of the waters stirred by a passing
steamer, broke on the cliff beyond the wall; and along the sky line
where lake and atmosphere melted insensibly into blue distance, great
cumulus copper-colored clouds hooded with salmon-tinted folds, tipped
here and there with molten silver, shadowed with pearly hollows, hung
entranced by their own image, over the inland sea that gleamed like a
mirror.
At the end of the studio, near the open windows, Beryl had placed the
plateau basket of orchids on the table; and she stood before an easel,
transferring to the surface of a concave brass plaque, the fluted
outlines of the scarlet and orange ribbons, the vivid green, purple and
golden-brown lips, the rose velvet cups, the tender canary-hued calyxes
of the glistening floral mass, whose aroma seemed a panting breath from
equatorial jungles. Having secured the strange forms of these vegetable
simulacra of the insect world, she replaced the sheathing of tissue
paper around the gorgeous mosaic of color; and just then, Sister Joanna
threw open the door, and ushered in a party of visitors, consisting of
two gentlemen and a lady. One was Mr. Kendall, a member of the Chapter
of Trustees.
"Good evening, Sister. Bishop Douglass, of our State, and Miss Gordon,
from the South. I have been boasting to them of the perfect success of
the 'Anchorage', as an industrial institution. Will you show us some of
the work done in this department?"
As on a swiftly revolving wheel, Beryl saw the black eyes and
gold-rimmed spectacles of Leighton Douglass; the shield-shaped amethyst
ring on his broad, white hand; the slender figure by his side, draped
in some soft brown tint of surah silk, the blond hair, the wide,
startled hazel eyes of Leo, who made a step forward, then paused
irresolute.
The gaze of the visitors was fastened upon the superb form wearing the
gray garb of flannel, with snowy fluted frills at the rounded wrists
and throat, and a ruffled white muslin mob cap crowning rich waves of
bronze hair, that framed a beautiful pale face, whose gray eyes kept
always the soft shadow of their long jet lashes.
Only half a minute sufficed to gird Beryl, and with no hint of
recognition in her tranquil countenance, she moved forward, opened the
drawers, and spread out for inspection various specimens of drawing and
painting, in all stages of advancement.
A crimson tide overflowed Leo's cheeks, but accepting the cue of
silence, she refrained from any manifestation of previous acquaintance;
and bending over the pictures, listened to the grave, sweet voice that
briefly, though courteously answered all inquiries concerning the
school, hours of classes, tuition fees, remunerative rates paid for
designs for carpets, wall papers and decorative upholstering. Unrolling
from a wooden cylinder a strip of thick paper, two yards long and
twenty inches wide, she displayed an elaborate arabesque pattern done
in sepia for a sgraffito frieze, sixteenth century, which had been
ordered by the architect of the new "Museum of Art".
"A bit of your favorite Florentine facade," said the Bishop, addressing
his cousin, and peering closely at the scroll work.
"In this corner of the world, one scarcely expects a glimpse of Andrea
Feltrini," answered Leo, avoiding the necessity of looking at Beryl, by
glancing at Mr. Kendall.
"What are your sources of information?" inquired Bishop Douglass.
"We have a carefully selected collection of engravings, and a few good
sketches and cartoons; moreover, some of our Sisterhood have been in
Italy."
In attempting to roll the strip, it slipped from her fingers. Both
women stooped to catch it, and their hands met. Looking into Leo's
eyes, Beryl whispered: "See me alone." Then she rewound the paper,
restored its oil silk cover, and shut the drawer.
"Do you find that the demand for purely ornamental work renders this
department self-sustaining?" asked Leighton Douglass.
"I think the experience of the 'Anchorage' justifies that belief;
especially since the popularization of so-called 'Decorative Art',
which projects the useful into the realm of the beautiful; and by
lending the grace of ornament to the strictly utilitarian, dims the old
line of demarcation."
"We are particularly interested in acquiring accurate knowledge on this
subject, because Miss Gordon hopes to establish a similar institution
near her home in the South; where so many of our countrywomen, rendered
destitute in consequence of the late war, need training which will
enable them to do faithful remunerative work, without compromising
their feminine refinement. While in Europe she inspected various
industrial organizations; saw Kaiserswerth, and the Training Schools
for Nurses, even the Swedish 'Naas Slojd', and her visit here is solely
to verify the flattering accounts she has received of the success of
the eclectic system of the 'Anchorage'. The South is so rich in fine
materials that appear to offer a premium for carving, that we wish to
investigate this branch of 'decorative' labor, and hope you can help us
by some practical suggestions."
"Within the past twelve months, we have commenced the experiment of
wood work; make all the utensils we need, and one of our patrons
secured for us some models from the school you mentioned near
Gothenburg. As yet we have received only two orders; one for a base in
walnut for a baptismal font; the other an oak triptych frame for a
choir in a Minnesota church. The carving is a distinct branch, that
does not belong to my department; but if you will knock at the arched
door on the right hand side of the hall, Sister Katrina, who has charge
of that work, will take pleasure in exhibiting the process. Mr. Kendall
knows the 'Anchorage' so well, he needs no guide to the work-rooms.
Permit me to offer you some copies of our new prospectus, and also a
photograph of this building, as a slight souvenir of your visit here."
She fitted papers and picture into a square envelope stamped with an
anchor in red ink, and handing it to Miss Gordon, walked to the door
and opened it. On the threshold Leo turned, and looked intently into
her face:
"Are you sufficiently at leisure to allow me a little further
conversation this afternoon; or shall I call again?"
"I am entirely at your service, and shall gladly furnish any
information you may desire. Our matron has placed my time at your
disposal."
"Mr. Kendall, if you will kindly accompany the Bishop to the
wood-carving room, I can remain here a little while, to ask Sister some
questions, which would scarcely interest you gentlemen. I will join you
there, very soon. Leighton, please get an estimate of the cost of the
necessary outfit, and talk with Mr. Kendall concerning the feasibility
of sending one of our women here for a year."
Closing the door, Beryl put out both hands, and took Leo's. She stood a
moment, holding them in a tight clasp.
"Thank you, for considerately withholding a recognition that would have
embarrassed me. I hoped that the habit of our Order would in some
degree disguise me, yet, at a glance you knew me."
"Shall I infer that your history is unknown here?"
"Sister Ruth, our Matron, is thoroughly acquainted with my past life,
but she kindly respects my sorrows, and deems it unnecessary to publish
the details among the Sisterhood. Do you know me so little, that you
imagine I am capable of abusing the confidence of the head of an
establishment which mercifully shelters an outcast?"
She stepped back, and motioned her visitor to a seat near the balcony.
"I should be very reluctant to ascribe any unworthy motive to you;
therefore I fail to understand why you desire to preserve your
incognito, especially since the signal vindication of your innocence.
The news of the extraordinary discovery of the picture on the glass,
and of your complete acquittal, even of suspicion, gave me so much
pleasure that I should have written you my hearty congratulations, had
I been able to obtain your address."
"I felt assured you would rejoice with me; and because I hold your good
opinion so valuable, let me say that my happiness in the unexpected
vindication of my character was enhanced by the proud consciousness
that in your estimation I needed none. When the blackness of an
intolerable shame overshadowed me, you groped your way to the dungeon,
and held out your hands in confidence and sympathy. All the world
suspected; you trusted me. You offered your noble name as bond, and
made a place for me at your own sacred hearthstone. Do you think I can
ever forget the blessedness of the balm that your faith in me poured
into my crushed, despairing heart? Do you doubt that no sun sets,
without seeing me on my knees, praying God's blessing of perfect
happiness for you? What would I not do--what would I not suffer--to
secure your peace, and to prove my gratitude?"
Her voice vibrated like the silver string of a deep violon-cello, and
Leo, gazing up into the misty splendor of the beautiful sad eyes,
ceased to wonder at the fascination which she had exerted over Mr.
Dunbar. Unintentionally this woman's face had marred her life; had
unwittingly stolen her lover's heart; yet she believed no treachery
sullied the pure perfection of the soft red lips, and Leo's generous
nature rose above the narrow limits of ordinary feminine jealousy. Had
she doubted for an instant the theory that Beryl was heroically
suffering the penalty of a crime, in order to screen her guilty lover,
some suspicion of the truth might have dawned upon her.
"Suppose I intend to put your gratitude to the test? You have
exaggerated the debt which you acknowledge; are you prepared to cancel
it? If I say to you, because I believed in you, trusted you, will you
repay me now, by granting a favor which I shall ask?"
"I think Miss Gordon could express no wish that I would not gladly
execute, in order to promote her happiness."
"Will you come back to X----and help me to establish a home for women,
who are destitute alike of money and of family ties? When you preside
over it I shall be haunted by no fears of failure. Once, I gave you my
sympathy; now, when I need help, will you give me yours?"
Beryl shivered, and looked wonderingly at her companion. Was she indeed
so unsuspicious of the quicksand on which stood the fair temple of her
hopes in marriage?
"O, Miss Gordon! That is the one thing, in all the world, that for your
sake as well as mine, I could never do. No, no; impossible."
"Why, not for my sake, since I desire it so earnestly?"
A bright flush had risen in Leo's cheeks, and she threw back her small
head challengingly.
For a moment Beryl wavered. Could she bear to wound that proud spirit?
"Go back to X----? To X----! It would be a renewal of my martyrdom, and
I should only be a stumbling block in the scheme you contemplate. You
do not understand, perhaps; but believe me, I prove my gratitude by
refusing your kind offer."
"I think I understand; and if I am willing to run the risk, what then?"
"Do not ask me the impossible. The very atmosphere of X----would numb
me, destroy all capability of usefulness, by reviving harrowing
memories."
"Had not every shadow of suspicion vanished, and the entire community
manifested delight in your triumphant innocence, I should never have
suggested a return to the scene of your sufferings. Certainly, I cannot
press the payment of a debt, which you volunteered to cancel; but I am
sorry your refuse to oblige me."
There was a starry sparkle in the soft hazel eyes, and an involuntary
and unconscious hardening of her lips, as Leo rose.
"It is hard, Miss Gordon, to be always misunderstood; but sometimes
duty points to lines that subject us to harsh and bitter censure. I
bear ever a heavy burden; do not increase my load by condemning me as
ungrateful, God knows, you hold a warm and a holy place in my heart,
and your happiness is more to me than my own; yet the one thing you
ask, my conscience forbids."
"How long have you been here?"
"It will be two years to-morrow since I entered these peaceful walls."
"Then your probation ends, and you become permanently a Sister of the
'Anchorage'?"
"Not yet. I have been permitted to earn my daily bread here, upon
conditions somewhat at variance with the regulations that usually
govern the institution. I have not applied for admission to permanent
membership, because my stay is contingent upon circumstances, which may
call me hence to-morrow; which may never arise to beckon me away.
Sister Ruth generously allows me the latitude of choice; not for my own
sake, but for that of a friend, whose influence secured my admission.
After a while, when I have finished my work, I hope to come back; to
spend the residue of my earthly days, and to die here, a faithful
Umilta Sister of the 'Anchorage', which opened its arms when I was a
needy and desolate waif."
"The peace of your new life is certainly reflected in your face.
Patience has had its perfect work; and that 'peace that passeth all
understanding' is the reward granted you."
Leo held out her hand, and Beryl took it between both hers.
"Dear Miss Gordon, grapes yield no wine until they are crushed,
trampled, bereft of bloom, of rounded symmetry, of beautiful color; but
the Lord of the Vineyard is entitled to His own. I was a very proud,
self-reliant girl, impatient of poverty, daringly ambitious; and what I
deemed a cruel fate, threw me into the vat, to be trodden under foot.
It may be, that when the ferment ends, and time mellows all, the purple
wine of my bruised and broken life may be accounted worthy the seal of
a sacramental sacrifice. I have ceased to question, to struggle, to
plan. Like a blind child, fearing to stumble into ruin, I stand, and
stretch out my hands to Him, who has led me safely through deep waters,
along frightful gorges. Each day brings its work, which I strive
worthily to accomplish; but my aim is to lay my heart, mind, soul, my
stubborn will, all in God's hands. You think peace the summum bonum?
Sometimes we obtain it by an ignominious surrender, when we should
possess it by conquest. 'Peace of mind is a beautiful and heavenly
thing; but even peace of mind may become an idol; and there is perhaps
no idol to which women bow down more passionately.' For this reason, I
am waiting for the drum beat of duty, and my march may begin at any
moment. I asked to see you alone, in order to beg that you will
increase my debt of obligations, by promising to reveal to no one the
place of my retreat. Accident has betrayed to you that which I am
anxious to keep secret; and I trust you will tell no one where you met
me."
"Why should you hide, as though you were a culprit? You have been so
completely exonerated from the imputation of guilt which once hung over
you, that you owe it to yourself to front the gaze of the world
fearlessly. What have you to dread?"
"The failure of something, which, though its accomplishment costs me
very dear, I shall not relax my efforts to promote. I am trying to be
loyal to my duty, even when the command is to strangle my own weak
heart. You do not, cannot understand. God grant you never will. There
are reasons why it is best for me to live in strict seclusion, for the
present. Those reasons I can explain neither to you, nor to any other
human being; and yet, I ask you to respect them, and to keep my secret.
You trusted me in the terrible exigencies of the past; and you must
trust me now, for--oh! God knows--I do indeed deserve your confidence."
She raised the hand folded in her own, and bowed her head upon it.
"You have my promise. Without your permission, I will mention our
meeting to no one. I trust you; and perhaps if you would trust me, I
might render you some aid."
"The day may come, when I can find it compatible with duty to tell you
the secret of my life. In future years, when you are a happy wife, I
shall by God's help be able to seek you and your husband, and thank you
both for many kindnesses. I pray that you may be as happy as you
deserve."
There was no tremor in the voice that answered quickly.
"If you refer to Mr. Dunbar, you have been led astray by the gossip in
X----. Once, there seemed a probability that our lives might be united;
but long ago, we found that ardent friendship could not take the place
of love; and rather more than three years have passed since we have
even seen each other."
With a startled movement Beryl dropped her companion's fingers, and
laid a hand on her shoulder.
"Oh! do not tell me that you have broken your engagement!"
The two looked steadily at each other, and while Leo's proud face gave
no hint of pain or embarrassment, Beryl's blanched, quivered.
"How did you know that any engagement ever existed?"
"All X----knew it. Mrs. Singleton and Sister Serena told me."
"I dissolved that engagement before I went to Europe."
"Then you rashly wrecked your beautiful future. Why did you cast him
off? He would have made you happy; he is worthy, I think, even of you."
"Yes, he is worthy, I believe, of any woman whom he may really love;
but my happiness is not in his keeping, and my future holds, I trust,
something much brighter than our marriage would hate proved to me."
"You have thrown away the substance for the shadow. Before it is too
late, reconsider your decision; give him an opportunity to reinstate
himself in your affection. You have both been so kind to me, that I
have hoped you would find life long happiness in each other."
"Dismiss that delusion. His path and mine diverge more and more, and we
no longer dwell in the same State. He has inherited a large amount of
property in Louisiana, and now lives in New Orleans; hence you can
readily perceive how far apart the currents of our lives have drifted.
I rejoice in my freedom; and he, I suspect, is not inconsolable for my
loss."
Through Beryl's whirling brain darted the recollection of a rumor, that
Leighton Douglass was suitor for his cousin's hand; and that Miss Dent
favored the alliance. Was the solution of Miss Gordon's cold, calm
indifference to be found in the presence and devotion of the Bishop?
Could he have supplanted Mr. Dunbar in her affection? Had the world
swung from its moorings? What meant the light that broke upon her, as
if the walls of heaven had fallen, and let all the glory out?
After a moment she said, solemnly:
"I pray God to overrule all earthly things, for your welfare, for your
heart's truest happiness; and for the realization of your dearest
hopes. When my mission has been accomplished, and duty lifts her seal
from my lips, I may try to see you once more, and explain the necessity
that forced me to seek seclusion."
"I believe I understand; and I trust your reward will not be delayed.
You and I can lean with confidence upon the wisdom and the mercy of the
God we worship; but each must serve out His appointed time of bondage
in the Egypt of suffering, in the famine of the desert; and must drink
at Marah, before the blessing of the manna, the grapes of Eshcol, the
roses of Sharon. If ever you should need an earthly friend, remember
me; and if all other refuge fail you, my home can be always yours."
Hand in hand they walked to the door, and Leo pitied the future of this
woman, whose lover was a wandering outlaw, with a price set upon his
head; and beneath her gray flannel habit, Beryl's heart was torn with
conflicting emotions, as she watched the placid, proud face, that
showed no vestige of the storm of disappointment which had stranded her
sweetest hope in life.
"Good-bye, Beryl; God keep you in His tender care."
"Good-bye, dear Miss Gordon. I will pray for your happiness, so long as
I live."
She stooped, drew Leo's hands to her face, pressed her trembling lips
twice upon them; then turned quickly, and locked herself in the studio.
Is it true, that "Orestes and Pylades have no sisters?"