I left London for Ballater the very next day; and having sent Ferguson
on in advance to prepare the place for me, I found Larkhall just as I
had left it four years before, down to a newspaper which had been
lying on my study table. But the spirit of home had deserted the
place; Ta-ta was still at Newcastle. To-to recognised me indeed, but
with more sulky impatience at my absence than pleasure at my return.
The cottage was shut up and empty; I got the key from Janet after
dinner, and wandered through the unused, damp-smelling little rooms.
The furniture had been left, by my orders, just as it had been during
the occupation of Babiole and her mother. But I found that instead of
recalling the child Babiole, as I had seen her so often flitting about
the sitting-room, or, in the latter days, leaning back, languid and
listless, with glistening dreamy eyes, in the rocking-chair by the
fire, it was the pale little London lady with pretty conventional
manners and worn weary face that I was trying to picture to myself in
the uninhabited rooms. I came out again, locked the door carefully,
and finished my cigar in the porch. It seemed to me a remarkably odd
thing that Babiole's degeneration from the faultless angel she used as
a child to appear, into a mere soured and sorrowful woman who looked
six or seven years more than her age, had deepened my interest in her,
while my knowledge that she had been lost to me through nothing but my
own diffidence had changed its character.
To get the better of the unhealthy and morbid state of mind into which
I now found myself falling, I began to break through my old habits of
retirement, and to avail myself of such society as Ballater and its
neighbourhood afforded. The hot weather had begun early this year, and
the summer residents were already established before my arrival. I was
a sort of 'great unknown' concerning whom there were floating about
many interesting and romantic stories; therefore I found no lack of
eager acquaintances as soon as I cared to make them. Prominent among
these was a certain Mr. Farington, a Liverpool solicitor, who, after
having made a yearly retreat to the Highlands each autumn, had now
retired from business and taken the lease of a large house at the foot
of Craigendarroch. He had been married twice, first to a lady of
dazzling pecuniary charms who had left him one daughter, and after her
death to a large and handsome lady who gave me a strong impression of
having had doubtful antecedents. This second wife had a numerous
family, ranging from five years old to fifteen, between whom and their
half-sister was fixed the gulf of her mother's fortune.
At a very early stage of our acquaintance the eldest Miss Farington,
who was a good-looking young woman of three and twenty, with a strong
sense of the importance attached to an income of fifteen hundred a
year, had honoured me by a marked partiality for which I, in my new
sociability, at first felt grateful. It was pleasant to find some one
who could pass an opinion, even if it was not a very original opinion,
on a picture, a book, or a landscape, and Miss Farington could always
do that with great precision. Perhaps, too, it flattered my vanity to
be appealed to as the one representative of high civilisation amidst
barbarian hordes. But when it became plain even to my modest merit
that the lady proposed to annex me, I grew suddenly coy; and I then
found to my surprise that, diffident as my disfigurement had made me,
I was still, like the rest of my sex, humble only to one woman, and
mightily fatuous as regarded the rest. But if Miss Farington was
merely what one calls 'a nice girl,' with no particularly conspicuous
qualities of alluring sweetness or captivating vivacity, she had one
virtue which would not have shamed an ancient Roman--an indomitable
resolution that would not know defeat.
I am not making an idle boast; I am recording a fact when I say that
that girl laid siege to me with a skill and patience which filled me
alternately with admiration, gratitude, and alarm. She learned my
tastes, she studied my habits, she mastered my opinions, until I began
to think that if a person who apparently knew me so well could like
me so much, I must be an infinitely more amiable man than I had ever
supposed. This frame of mind naturally led me to look kindly on the
lady who had enabled me to make such a pleasing discovery, and I knew
myself to be softening to such an extent that I felt that, unless Mr.
Farington should leave Ballater before the summer was over, I should
be 'a gone coon' before autumn. If she held on until the evenings grew
cold and long, until the winds began to howl about lonely Larkhall,
and to bring swirling showers of dead leaves to the ground with the
hissing sound of a beach of pebbles under the retreating waves of a
wintry sea, then I felt that I should give way, that I should see in
Miss Farington's prosaic gray eyes pleasant domestic pictures, in her
erect figure and sloping shoulders an attraction which to a lonely
man, when the deer-stalking and fishing seasons were over, were quite
irresistible.
I had had one plaintive little letter from Babiole, in which she
entreated me, in rather stiff and stilted language, out of which
peeped a most touching anxiety, to beware of her father, who, she
assured me, was more desperate and dangerous in his intentions to do
me harm than she had even dared to suggest when face to face with me.
I wrote back in a clumsy letter as stiff as her own, but not so
touching, that she need have no fear, as her father had settled down
quietly at Aberdeen. I dared not tell her the truth, which I had found
out through Ferguson--that Mr. Ellmer had indeed come up to the
Highlands with the avowed intention of doing me some desperate harm;
but that, having availed himself too freely, through his daughter's
generosity, of his favourite indulgences, he had had an attack of
_delirium tremens_, and had been placed under restraint in the county
lunatic asylum.
Babiole's letter I carried about with me, and sometimes--for
loneliness among the hills would make a sentimental fool of the most
robust of us--I fancied that the little sheet of paper, in spite of
Miss Farington and the domestic pictures, burnt into my heart.
It was in the middle of August, while the weather was
still--everywhere but in the Highlands--insufferably hot, that I
received a letter from Fabian which gave me a great shock. His wife
had been very ill, he said, and although she had now been declared out
of danger, she recovered strength so slowly that it had become
imperative to send her away somewhere. Mrs. Ellmer, who was now with
her, having suggested her old home in the Highlands, the doctor had
agreed warmly, and Fabian therefore begged, as an old friend, that I
would lend his wife and her mother the cottage for a short time,
adding that he was sure I would look after my little favourite until,
in a few days' time, he could rejoin her.
I took this letter up to Craigendarroch, and had first a cigar and
then a pipe over it. To refuse Fabian's request was impossible; to
lend the cottage and go away myself would be inhospitable and
suspicious; to lend it and stay would be dangerous. With the last
whiffs of tobacco an inspiration came. I swung back home, wrote back
to Fabian that Larkhall itself, the cottage, the garden, the stables,
and every toolshed about the place were entirely at Mrs. Scott's
disposal, together with all the live stock, human and otherwise; and
that she had only to fix the time of her arrival and Mrs. Ellmer's.
The letter finished and put in the bag, I had a glass of sherry; and
fortified by that and by an heroic sense of duty, I sallied forth in
the direction of the Mill o' Sterrin, in which neighbourhood Miss
Farington, who did everything by rule, was always to be found
district-visiting on a Thursday.
I suppose no man with ever so little brain or ever so little heart,
who has deliberately made up his mind to propose to a girl, sees the
moment approaching without a certain trepidation. I own that when I
saw the moment and Miss Farington approaching together, although I had
very little doubt about her answer, and very little enthusiasm about
the result, I had a thumping at my heart and a singing in my ears.
With the memory of Babiole and the thought of her visit in my mind,
not even the sherry would cast a glamour over those exceedingly
sloping shoulders, which seemed almost to argue some moral deficiency,
some terrible lack of some quality without which no woman's character
is complete. In the meantime, she was bearing down upon me, and I was
still without an opening speech. But she was not.
'What a treat to see you in this part of the world, Mr. Maude,' said
she, holding out her hand. 'I confess I did you the injustice to think
you would forget your promise.'
'Promise!' I repeated vaguely. 'I am afraid I must confess----'
'You had forgotten?' she said smiling. 'Really this is too bad.'
'At least, you see, I hadn't forgotten that this is the way you always
walk on a Thursday,' said I, with a look that was intended to convey
much.
'And had forgotten my beautiful site for a new school!'
However, she was more pleased with me for what I had remembered than
angry for what I had forgotten.
'At any rate you can come and see it now,' she said, and turning back
she led the way towards a broad meadow in the valley of the Muick,
with a fair view of the little river and of the hills beyond, which
would have been a very good site for a school, if a school had been
needed.
'An awfully nice place for it,' I agreed, as she expatiated upon the
merits of a rising ground with drainage towards the river, and shelter
from the woods above. 'And if the school ever gets built, I expect
there will be only one thing it will want.'
'Go on, though I know what you are going to say,' said she.
'Scholars,' I finished briefly.
Miss Farington nodded. 'They will come,' she said confidently, 'if the
thing is properly organised.'
Organisation was her hobby. If that little affair came off, my library
would be partly catalogued and partly burnt, and To-to would be
organised into the stable-yard. Still I did not flinch.
'Think,' said she enthusiastically, 'what it would mean! To plant the
first footing of knowledge, civilisation, refinement, among these
peasants! To give them eyes to see the beauty of the nature which
surrounds them! To give them resources for refined enjoyment when
winter closes the door of nature to them! To widen their knowledge of
the world, and teach them that "hinter den Bergen sind auch Leute!"
Oh, Mr. Maude, if building and starting this school were to cost ten
thousand pounds, I should say the money had been well spent if in it
but one single Highland boy were taught to read!'
Rather appalled by the thought of the lengths to which such a
boundless enthusiasm might carry her, I murmured something to the
effect that it would be rather expensive. Whereat she turned upon
me--
'And can you, Mr. Maude, who profess to revel in Montaigne and
Shakespeare, delight in Charles Lamb and Alfred de Vigny, deny such
pleasures to your humble neighbours?'
'But my humble neighbours wouldn't read Shakespeare or Montaigne, nor
even Wilkie Collins nor Dumas the Elder. They'd read the _Bow Bells_
novelettes. And as to teaching them to admire their own hills, why
they love them more than you do, for Nature isn't to them a closed
book in winter as it seems to you.'
I was on the wrong tack altogether, as I felt, when by good luck the
lady herself brought me to more congenial ground.
'Then I suppose I mustn't expect much help from you, Mr. Maude,' she
said, rather stiffly.
'Yes, you may indeed, you may expect every help,' I said, rushing at
the opportunity, and growing hot over it. 'It's true I--that--I
don't much care--I mean I'm not deeply interested in Highland
children, except as scenery, you know, picturesqueness and all that;
but--er--but for you--in a plan of yours, that is to say, I should be
delighted to do whatever lay in my power.'
During this lame performance Miss Farington listened with a perfectly
stolid face, but with a heightened colour which told that she knew, in
vulgar parlance, what I was driving at. Now that I was coming to the
point, however, she did not mean to have any 'humbugging about.' At
least, some such determination as that, rather than maiden coyness,
seemed to prompt her next speech.
'I don't _think_ I quite understand you, Mr. Maude.'
This was a challenge. I took it up.
'I think, Miss Farington, you must have noticed my growing interest
in----'
'In my plans? No, indeed I haven't. Don't you remember your saying
the other day that it seemed a pity to waste good drainage and
sanitary regulations upon people who were never ill?'
'I--I only mean that my interest in--er--in drainage was swallowed up
in my interest in you.'
It was the very last way in which I should have chosen to introduce a
declaration of love, but with a girl too much absorbed in the progress
of humanity to encourage that of the individual man, there is nothing
for you but to take what opening you can get. It was all right, at any
rate, for she smiled and gave me her hand, the glove of which I
respectfully kissed, noticing at the time that it smelt of treacle,
and wondering how it had acquired that particular perfume. It occurred
to me, even as I stood there trying to think of something to say, that
the little boys she had been teaching must have been eating bread and
treacle, and imparted its fragrance to their lesson-books.
'You have surprised me very much, Mr. Maude,' she said. 'Are you quite
sure that I deserve this honour?'
Perhaps the question was not so insincere as it seemed to me, for she
looked pleased, though not at all agitated. But I felt, as I reassured
her with some conventional words, that my heart would have gone out
more to the emptiest-headed little fool that ever giggled and blushed
than to this most intelligent and matter-of-fact young woman. And I
fell to wondering, as we began to walk back together, why the
sentimental and the practical were so oddly divided in the feminine
mind that a girl could glow with enthusiasm while talking about
impracticable plans for making her neighbours uncomfortable, and
listen quite coolly to a proposal to pass her life with the man she
had made no secret of liking best. I had an awkward sense of not
knowing what to talk about, and I asked her how she liked Larkhall.
She had evidently considered that matter well already, and was quite
prepared with her answer.
'I think it only wants the south wing raised a storey, and the
drawing-room enlarged by taking in that space between the outer wall
and that row of lilacs and guelderroses at the back, to make it one of
the pleasantest of the country houses about here,' she replied
promptly.
I felt a cold shiver up my back, perceiving that even my study might
be already doomed.
'But I like it even as it is because it is your home,' she added, with
a touch of human feeling for which I felt grateful.
'Thank you,' I said, and I took her hand again. I hesitated about
using her Christian name, and decided not to. 'Lucy' seemed such an
inappropriate appellation for Miss Farington; she ought at least to
have been 'Henrietta.'
'I will try to make you like it still more,' I said, quietly and
sincerely, upon which she went the length of returning the pressure of
my fingers on hers.
But she could not keep long away from those confounded plans. As we
drew near the grounds of Larkhall, and could see the stables and one
corner of the roof of the cottage, she stopped short and said
pensively--
'I've often thought, Mr. Maude, what a pity it is that cottage should
be kept empty, when it is so nicely furnished too. Your housekeeper,
Mrs. Janet, took me over it one day.' Perhaps it was anger at the
thought that this young lady had mentally disposed of all my property
prematurely, perhaps annoyance that she should have intruded in the
cottage at all, which helped to augment the sudden fury which seized
me at this suggestion. She went on, quite unaware of what she had
done. 'Now I was thinking what a charming convalescent home a place
like that would make for poor widows in reduced circumstances who----'
'Unfortunately I am too selfish to give up to strangers the
accommodation which has always been reserved for my friends.'
Miss Farington might be cold, might be prosaic, but she was not
stupid. She saw at once she had gone too far, and hastened to
apologise with very maidenly humility.
'I am afraid you will think I care more for my plans than for the
great happiness and honour you have just done me. But indeed, Mr.
Maude, it is not so. It is only that I never find any one to
sympathise with my efforts but you, and so I tax your patience too
much in my delight at meeting some one who is kind to me.'
'Be kind to me too, then,' I suggested, venturing, now that we had got
among the trees of the garden, to put my hand lightly on her waist.
She understood, and with a real blush at last, she let me kiss her. 'I
have been a hermit a long time,' I said in a low voice, 'and I have
fallen out of the ways of the world and of women. But if you will only
have patience with me, and not be too much frightened by my uncouth
ways, I will make you a very good husband; and I promise you it shall
be your own fault if I do not make you happy.'
'I am sure of it,' she said simply, with a confidence which was
flattering, if still astonishingly prosaic.
I led her round the garden, gathered for her my best roses and
fastened them together, while she critically surveyed the front of the
house.
'It wants a coat of whitewash, doesn't it?' I suggested, anxious to
show her that I was not too conservative.
'Ye--es, and the ivy wants trimming. Why don't you put it in the hands
of the painters, Mr. Maude?'
'What, and go away--already! Surely that is too much to expect,' I
ventured, looking down into her eyes, which, if not boasting any
poetical attractions of 'hidden depths,' were very clear and
straightforward.
'Oh no, I don't mean that; but you could come and stay nearer to us.
The people at Lossie Villa are just going to leave, I know.'
'I am bound here for a little while, as one of my oldest friends has
just asked me to give shelter to his wife and her mother for a few
weeks.'
'Indeed! Oh, they will be some people to know. Have I ever heard of
them?'
'I don't know. The mother's name is Mrs. Ellmer, the daughter's--Mrs.
Scott. She has been ill, I believe.'
'Mrs. Ellmer! Why, surely those are the people who used to live at the
cottage! Oh, I have heard about them and your kindness to them. People
said----' She hesitated.
'Well, what did they say?'
'Oh, well, they said you used to be very fond of--the daughter.'
'So I was; so I am. But you need not be jealous.'
She laughed, a bright clear laugh, scarcely without a touch of
good-humoured contempt at the suggestion.
'I jealous! Oh, Mr. Maude, you would not seriously accuse me of such a
paltry feeling! It would be unworthy of you, unworthy of me.'
I felt, when I had taken my _fiancee_ home and formally received her
parents' sanction to our engagement, that I was myself unworthy to
live in the intellectual and moral heights on which she flourished.
But I could creep after her in a humble fashion, and do my best to
make her love me.
And in the meantime my loyalty to my friend and my friend's wife was
strengthened by a new and sacred bond.