CHAPTER XXVIII

A CALL FROM BOB JENNINGS

One day, however, I realized that I hadn't walked around Tom. I really

hadn't circumvented, by persistence and determination, the obstacles

that lay in the way to triumph. Some one, like a fairy godmother from

Grimm's, had waved a wand and wished the obstacles away. Virginia told

me about it. I learned that except for Mrs. Sewall I might still be

delivering bandboxes. The searchlight following me about wherever I went

for the last six months, making my way bright and easy, came not from

heaven. It came instead from a lady in black who chose to conceal her

good offices beneath an unforgiving manner, as she hid the five hundred

dollars inside a trivial bag.

Mrs. Sewall called one day at the shop. She asked for Miss Van de Vere.

She was contemplating redecorating a bed-chamber, it seemed. Virginia

came to me in the workshop, and told me about it.

"Your old lady is out there," she said. "You'd better take her order."

"My old lady?"

"Yes, Mrs. Sewall, who landed you in our midst, my dear."

I stared at Virginia.

"Certainly, and pays a portion of your ridiculous salary, baby-mine."

She went on pinching my cheek playfully. She delights in patronizing me.

"You're an expensive asset, my dear--not but what I am glad. I always

urged somebody of your sort to relieve me. Mrs. Scot-Williams never saw

it that way, however, until the old lady Sewall came along and crammed

you down our throats. I wasn't to tell you, but I see no harm in it. Go

on in, and whatever the tiff's about make it up with the old veteran.

She's not a bad sort."

I went upstairs. My heart was bursting with gratitude. I had vexed,

displeased, cruelly hurt my benefactress--she had likened me to a steel

knife--and yet she had bestowed upon me my greatest desire. Much in the

same way as I had rescued the little bug, buffeted by winds, Mrs. Sewall

had picked me up and placed me at the zenith of my hopes. But for her,

no Mrs. Scot-Williams, no Van de Vere's, no trade of my own, no precious

business to work for, and make succeed!

"Mrs. Sewall," I began eagerly (I found her alone in the living-room),

"Mrs. Sewall----" and then I stopped. There was no encouragement in her

expression.

"Ah, Miss Vars," she remarked frostily.

"Mrs. Sewall--please," I begged, "please let me----"

"My time is limited this morning," she cut in. "Doubtless Miss Van de

Vere has sent you to me to attend to my order. If so, let us hasten

with it. I am hunting for a cretonne with a peacock design for a

bed-chamber. I should like to see what you have."

"But Mrs. Sewall----"

"My time is limited," she repeated.

"I know, but I simply _must_ speak."

She raised her hand. "I hope," she said, "that you are not going to make

me ill again, Miss Vars."

I surrendered at that. "No, no," I assured her. "No, I'm not. I'm

thoughtless. I think only of myself. I'll go and call Miss Van de Vere."

"That will not be necessary," said Mrs. Sewall. "You may show me the

cretonne, now that you are here."

For half an hour we hunted for peacocks. I had the samples brought down

to the living-room, piled on a chair near-by, and then dismissed the

attendant. Mrs. Sewall appeared only slightly interested. In fact, I

think we both were observing each other more closely than the cretonnes.

They acted simply as a screen, through the cracks of which we might

surreptitiously gaze.

I noted all the familiar points--the superb string of pearls about Mrs.

Sewall's neck; the wealth of diamonds on her slender fingers when she

drew off her glove; the band of black on the lower edge of the veil,

setting off her small features in a heavy frame. I noted, too, the

increased pallor beneath the veil. There was a sort of emaciated

appearance just behind the ears, which neither carefully-set earring nor

cleverly arranged coiffure could conceal. The veins on Mrs. Sewall's

hands, moreover, were prominent and blue.

But for a tangle in the chain of Mrs. Sewall's glasses she would have

left me with no sign of friendliness. It was when I passed her a small

sample in a book, and she attempted to put on her glasses, that I

observed the fine platinum cord was in a knot. I offered my services. I

didn't suppose she would accept them. I was surprised at her cool, "Yes,

if you will."

Mrs. Sewall was sitting down. I had to kneel to my task. The chain

proved to be in a complicated snarl. My fingers trembled. I was very

clumsy. I was afraid Mrs. Sewall would become exasperated. "Just a

moment," I said, and looked up. Our eyes met. I was so close I could

see the tiny network of wrinkles in the face above me. I could see

the sudden tenderness in the eyes.

"It seems to be a particularly difficult snarl," I quavered, then bent

my head and worked in silence for a moment. We were so near, we could

hear each other breathe.

Suddenly in a low voice, almost a whisper, Mrs. Sewall asked, "Are you

happy here?"

"Oh, so happy," I replied.

"Are you better? Are you well?" she pursued.

I dropped my hands in her lap, looked up, and nodded. I could not trust

myself to speak. I knelt there in silence for a moment.

Finally I said, "Are _you_ happy? Are _you_ better? Are _you_ well, dear

Mrs. Sewall?"

"What does it matter? I am an old woman," she replied, in that

disparaging little way of hers.

Our old intimacy shone clear and bright in that stolen moment. We were

like two lovers forbidden to each other, whispering there together, when

the lights suddenly go out, and they are enfolded in the protecting

dark. "You are not too old to have created great happiness!" I exclaimed

softly.

She shrugged and smiled.

It was a rare moment. I did not mean to spoil it. I ought to have been

content. My eagerness was at fault.

"Oh!" I burst out crudely, "if you knew how sorry I am to have done

anything to _you_, of all people, that displeased. If----" She recoiled;

she drew back. I had ventured where angels feared to tread. The chain

was not yet untangled, but she would not let me kneel there any longer.

She rose; I too.

"My time is limited, as I said," she reminded me; "I am here on

business. Let us endeavor to complete it, Miss Vars."

"Yes," I said, blushing scarlet, "let us, by all means. I'm sorry,

excuse me, I'll go upstairs and see what else we have."

* * * * *

When Bob finally called at Van de Vere's I hadn't seen him for over a

year. While I had been working so hard to establish myself in my new

venture, Bob had been starting a brand-new law firm of his own, in a

little town I had never heard of in the Middle West. He had severed all

connections with the University when his mother had died. I knew as well

as if he had told me that when he broke loose from any sort of steady

salary he had abandoned all hope of persuading me to come and grow in

his green-house, as he had once put it. It had been our original plan

that Bob would work gradually into a law firm in Boston, at the same

time retaining some small salaried position at the University enabling

us to be married before he became established as a lawyer. Bob had been

able to lay little by. His mother had required specialists and trained

nurses. When I first realized that Bob had gone West and set about

planning his life without reference to me I felt peculiarly free and

unhampered. When he as much as told me that it was easier for him not to

hear from me at all, than in the impersonal way I insisted upon, I was

glad. I cared for Bob too much not to feel a little pang in my breast

every time I saw my name and address written by his hand. And I wanted

nothing to swerve me away from the goal I had my eyes set on--the goal

of an acknowledged success as an independent, self-supporting human

being.

When Bob first dropped in at Van de Vere's I hardly recognized him as

the romantic figure who had wandered over brown hillsides with me, a

volume of poetry stuffed into his overcoat pocket. No one would have

guessed from this man's enthusiastic interest in the progressive spirit

of the West that he had been born on Beacon Hill behind violet-shaded

panes of glass. No one would have guessed, when he talked about

cleaning out a disreputable school-board by means of the women's vote,

that he had once opposed parades for equal suffrage in Massachusetts.

When Bob shook hands with me, firmly, shortly, as if scarcely seeing me

at all, I wondered if it might have slipped his mind that I was the girl

he had once been engaged to marry.

He explained that he was in town on business, leaving the same evening.

He could give me only an hour. There was a man he had to meet at his

hotel at five. Bob was all nerves and energy that day. He talked about

himself a good deal. They wanted to get him into politics out there in

that wonderful little city of his. He'd been there only fourteen months,

but it was a great place, full of promise--politics in a rather rotten

condition--needed cleaning and fumigating. He'd a good mind to get into

the job himself--in fact, he might as well confess he was in it to some

extent. He was meeting the governor in Chicago the next night, or else

he'd stay over and ask me to go to the theater with him.

I don't suppose Bob would have referred to the old days if I hadn't. It

was I, who, when at last a lull occurred, said something about that time

when he had found me struggling in a mire that threatened to drown, and

I had grasped his good, strong arm.

"Wasn't it better, Bob," I asked, "that I should learn to swim myself,

and keep my head above water by my own efforts?"

"It certainly seems to be what women are determined to do," he dodged.

"Well, isn't it better?" I insisted.

"I'll say this, Ruth," he generously conceded. "I think there would be

less men dragged down if all women learned a few strokes in

self-support."

"Oh, Bob!" I exclaimed. "Do you really think that? So do I. Why, _so do

I!_ We agree! Women would not lose their heads so quickly in times of

catastrophe, would they? You see it, too! Women would help carry some of

the burden. All they'd need would be one hand on a man's shoulder, while

they swam with the other and made progress."

He laughed a little sadly. "Ruth," he said, for the first time becoming

the Bob I had known, "I fear you would not need even one hand on a

shoulder. It looks to me," he added, as he gazed about the luxuriously

furnished living-room of Van de Vere's, "that you can reach the shore

quite well alone."

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