A few days after this she told Richard that she wished to begin to make
her arrangements for going away for the summer.
"What, so early!" he exclaimed, with an air of some slight discontent.
"It has been quite cool so far."
"I remained too late last year," she answered; "and I want to make up
for lost time."
They were at dinner, and he turned his wineglass about restlessly on the
table-cloth.
"Are you getting tired of Washington?" he asked. "You seem to be."
"I am a little tired of everything just now," she said; "even"--with a
ghost of a laugh--"of the Westoria lands and Senator Planefield."
He turned his wineglass about again.
"Oh," he said, his voice going beyond the borders of petulance, "it is
plain enough to see that you have taken an unreasonable dislike to
Planefield!"
"He is too large and florid, and absorbs too much of one's attention,"
she replied, coldly.
"He does not always seem to absorb a great deal of yours," Richard
responded, knitting his delicate dark brows. "You treated him cavalierly
enough last night, when he brought you the roses."
"I am tired of his roses!" she exclaimed, with sudden passion. "They are
too big, and red, and heavy. They cost too much money. They fill all the
air about me. They weight me down, and I never seem to be rid of them. I
won't have any more! Let him give them to some one else!" And she threw
her bunch of grapes on her plate, and dropped her forehead on her hands
with a childish gesture of fatigue and despair.
Richard knit his brows again. He regarded her with a feeling very
nearly approaching nervous dread. This would not do, it was plain.
"What is the matter with you?" he said. "What has happened? It isn't
like _you_ to be unreasonable, Bertha."
She made an effort to recover herself, and partly succeeded. She lifted
her face and spoke quite gently and deprecatingly.
"No," she said. "I don't think it is; so you will be all the readier to
overlook it, and allow it to me as a luxury. The fact is, Richard, I am
not growing any stronger, and"--
"Do you know," he interrupted, "I don't understand that. You used to be
strong enough."
"One has to be very strong to be strong _enough_," she replied, "and I
seem to have fallen a little short of the mark."
"But it has been going on rather a long time, hasn't it?" he inquired.
"Didn't it begin last winter?"
"Yes," she answered, in a low voice, "it _began_ then."
"Well, you see, that is rather long for a thing of that sort to go on
without any special reason."
"It has seemed so to me," she responded, without any change of tone.
"Haven't you a pretty good appetite?" he inquired.
She raised her eyes suddenly, and then dropped them again. He had not
observed what a dozen other people had seen.
"No," she answered.
"Don't you sleep well?"
"No."
"Are you thinner? Well, yes," giving her a glance of inspection. "You
are thinner. Oh! come, now, this won't do at all!"
"I am willing to offer any form of apology you like," she said.
"You must get well," he answered; "that is all." And he rose from his
seat, went to the mantel for a cigarette, and returned to her side,
patting her shoulder encouragingly. "You would not be tired of
Planefield if you were well. You would like him well enough."
The change which settled on her face was one which had crossed it many a
time without his taking note of it. Possibly the edge of
susceptibilities so fine and keen as his is more easily dulled than that
of sensitiveness less exquisite. She arose herself.
"That offers me an inducement to recover," she said. "I will begin
immediately--to-day--this moment. Let me light your cigarette for you."
After it was done they sauntered into the library together and stood for
a moment looking out of the window.
"Do you know," she said at length, laying her hand on his sleeve, "I
think even you are not quite yourself. Are you an invalid, too?"
"I," he said. "Why do you think so?"
"For a very good reason," she answered. "For the best of reasons. Two or
three times lately you have been a trifle out of humor. Are you aware of
it? Such, you see, is the disadvantage of being habitually amiable. The
slightest variation of your usually angelic demeanor lays you open to
the suspicion of bodily ailment. Just now, for instance, at table, when
I spoke to you about going away, you were a little--not to put too fine
a point upon it--cross."
"Was I?"
Her touch upon his sleeve was very soft and kind, and her face had a
gentle, playful appeal on it.
"You really were," she returned. "Just a little--and so was I. It was
more a matter of voice and manner, of course; but we didn't appear to
our greatest advantage, I am afraid. And we have never done things like
that, you know, and it would be rather bad to begin now, wouldn't it?"
"It certainly would," he replied. "And it is very nice in you to care
about it."
"It would not be nice in me not to care," she said. "Just for a moment,
you know, it actually sounded quite--quite married. It seemed as if we
were on the verge of agreeing to differ about--Senator Planefield."
"We won't do it again," he said. "We will agree to make the best of
him."
She hesitated a second.
"I will try not to make the worst," she returned. "There is always a
best, I suppose. And so long as you are here to take care of me, I need
not--need not be uncomfortable."
"About what?" he asked.
She hesitated again, and a shade of new color touched her cheek.
"I don't think I am over-fastidious," she said, "but he has a way I
don't like. He is too fulsome. He admires me too much. He pays me too
many compliments. I wish he would not do it."
"Oh! come, now," he said, gayly, "that _is_ prejudice! It is worse than
all the rest. I never heard you complain of your admirers before, or of
their compliments."
She hesitated a moment again. It was not the first time she had
encountered this light and graceful obstinacy, and found it more
difficult to cope with than words apparently more serious.
"I have never had an admirer of exactly that quality before," she said.
"Oh," he said, airily, "don't argue from the ground that it is a bad
quality!"
"Has it never struck you," she suggested, "that there is something of
the same quality, whether it is good, bad, or indifferent, in all the
persons who are connected with the Westoria lands? I have felt once or
twice lately, when I have looked around the parlors, as if I must have
suddenly emigrated, the atmosphere was so different. They have actually
rather crowded out the rest--those men."
It was his turn to pause now, and he did so, looking out of the window,
evidently ill at ease, and hesitant for the moment.
"My dear child," he said, at length, "there may be truth in what you
say; but--I may as well be frank with you--the thing is necessary."
"Richard," she said, quickly, prompted to the question by a sudden,
vague thought, "what have _you_ to do with the Westoria lands? Why do
you care so much about them?"
"I have everything to do with them--and nothing," he answered. "The
legal business connected with them, and likely to result from the
success of the scheme, will be the making of me, that is all. I haven't
been an immense success so far, you know, and it will make me an immense
success and a man of property. Upon my word, a nice little lobbyist
_you_ are, to look frightened at the mere shadow of a plot!"
"I am not a lobbyist," she exclaimed. "I never wanted to be one. That
was only a part of the nonsense I have talked all my life. I have talked
too much nonsense. I wish--I wish I had been different!"
"Don't allow your repentance to be too deep," he remarked, dryly. "You
won't be able to get over it."
"It's too late for repentance; but I shall not be guilty of that
particular kind of folly again. It was folly--and it was bad taste"--
"As I had not observed it, you might have been content to let it rest,"
he interrupted.
She checked herself in the reply she was about to make, clasping her
hands helplessly.
"O Richard!" she said; "we are beginning again!"
"So we are," he responded, coolly; "we seem to have a tendency in that
direction."
"And it always happens," she said, "when I speak of Senator Planefield,
or of going away."
"You have fallen into the habit of wanting to go away lately," he
answered. "You wanted to go to Europe"--
"I want to go still," she interposed, "very much."
"And I wish you to remain here," he returned, petulantly. "What's the
use of a man's having a wife at the other side of the globe?"
She withdrew a pace and leaned against the side of the window, letting
her eyes rest upon him with a little, bitter smile. For the moment she
had less care of herself and of him than she had ever had before.
"Ah!" she said, "then you keep me here because you love me?"
"Bertha!" he exclaimed.
Even his equable triviality found a disturbing element in the situation.
"Richard," she said, "go and finish your cigarette out of doors. It will
be better for both of us. This has gone far enough."
"It has gone too far," he answered, nervously. "It is deucedly
uncomfortable, and it isn't our way to be uncomfortable. Can't we make
it smooth again? Of course we can. It would not be like you to be
implacable. I am afraid I was a trifle irritable. The fact is, I have
had a great deal of business anxiety lately,--one or two investments
have turned out poorly,--and it has weighed on my mind. If the money
were mine, you know; but it is yours"--
"I have never wished you to feel the difference," she said.
"No," he replied. "Nothing could have been nicer than your way about it.
You might have made me very uncomfortable, if you had been a hard,
business-like creature; but, instead of that, you have been charming."
"I am glad of that," she said, and she smiled gently as he put his arm
about her, and kissed her cheek.
"You have a right to your caprices," he said. "Go to your summer haunts
of vice and fashion, if you wish to, and I will follow you as soon as I
can; but we won't say any more about Europe, just at present, will we?
Perhaps next year."
And he kissed her again.
"Perhaps next year or the year after," she repeated, with a queer little
smile. "And--and we will take Senator Planefield with us."
"No," he answered, "we will leave him at home to invest the millions
derived from the Westoria lands."
And he went out with a laugh on his lips.
A week later Colonel Tredennis heard from Richard that Bertha and the
children were going away.
"When?" asked the colonel. "That seems rather sudden. I saw Janey two
days ago, and did not understand that the time was set for their
departure."
"It is rather sudden," said Richard. "The fact is, they leave Washington
this morning. I should be with them now if it were not for a business
engagement."