I perceived that after this his heart began to fail him.

There existed in the House of Preventive Detention a system of

communication between the luckless prisoners carried on by means of

tapping on the wall. Sigismund, being a clever fellow, had become a

great adept at this telegraphic system, and had struck up a friendship

with a young student in the next cell; this poor fellow had been

imprisoned three years, his sole offence being that he had in his

possession a book of which the Government did not approve, and that he

was first cousin to a well-known Nihilist.

The two became as devoted to each other as Silvio Pellico and Count

Oroboni; but it soon became evident to Valerian Vasilowitch that, unless

Zaluski was released, he would soon succumb to the terrible restrictions

of prison life.

"Keep up your heart, my friend," he used to say. "I have borne it three

years, and am still alive to tell the tale."

"But you are stronger both in mind and body," said Sigismund; "and you

are not madly in love as I am."

And then he would pour forth a rhapsody about Gertrude, and about English

life, and about his hopes and fears for the future; to all of which

Valerian, like the brave fellow he was, replied with words of

encouragement.

But at length there came a day when his friend made no answer to his

usual morning greeting.

"Are you ill?" he asked.

For some time there was no reply, but after a while Sigismund rapped

faintly the despairing words:--

"Dead beat!"

Valerian felt the tears start to his eyes. It was what he had all along

expected, and for a time grief and indignation and his miserable

helplessness made him almost beside himself. At last he remembered that

there was at least one thing in his power. Each day he was escorted by a

warder to a tiny square, walled off in the exercising ground, and was

allowed to walk for a few minutes; he would take this opportunity of

begging the warder to get the doctor for his friend.

But unfortunately the doctor did not think very seriously of Zaluski's

case. In that dreary prison he had patients in the last stages of all

kinds of disease, and Sigismund, who had been in confinement too short a

time to look as ill as the others, did not receive much attention.

Certainly, the doctor admitted, his lungs were affected; probably the

sudden change of climate and the lack of good food and fresh air had been

too much for him; so the solemn farce ended, and he was left to his fate.

"If I were indeed a Nihilist, and suffered for a cause which I had at

heart," he telegraphed to Valerian, "I could bear it better. But to be

kept here for an imaginary offence, to bear cold and hunger and illness

all to no purpose--that beats me. There can't be a God, or such things

would not be allowed."

"To me it seems," said Valerian, "that we are the victims of violated

law. Others have shown tyranny, or injustice, or cruelty, and we are the

victims of their sin. Don't say there is no God. There must be a God to

avenge such hideous wrong."

So they spoke to each other through their prison wall as men in the free

outer world seldom care to speak; and I, who knew no barriers, looked now

on Valerian's gaunt figure, and brave but prematurely old face, now on

poor Zaluski, who, in his weary imprisonment, had wasted away till one

could scarcely believe that he was indeed the same lithe, active fellow

who had played tennis at Mrs. Courtenay's garden-party.

Day and night Valerian listened to the terrible cough which came from the

adjoining cell. It became perfectly apparent to him that his friend was

dying; he knew it as well as if he had seen the burning hectic flush on

his hollow cheeks, and heard the panting, hurried breaths, and watched

the unnatural brilliancy of his dark eyes.

At length he thought the time had come for another sort of comfort.

"My friend," he said one day, "it is too plain to me now that you are

dying. Write to the procurator and tell him so. In some cases men have

been allowed to go home to die."

A wild hope seized on poor Sigismund; he sat down to the little table in

his cell and wrote a letter to the procurator--a letter which might

almost have drawn tears from a flint. Again and again he passionately

asserted his innocence, and begged to know on what evidence he was

imprisoned. He began to think that he could die content if he might

leave this terrible cell, might be a free agent once more, if only for a

few days. At least he might in that case clear his character, and

convince Gertrude that his imprisonment had been all a hideous mistake;

nay, he fancied that he might live through a journey to England and see

her once again.

But the procurator would not let him be set free, and refused to believe

that his case was really a serious one.

Sigismund's last hope left him.

The days and weeks dragged slowly on, and when, according to English

reckoning, New Year's Eve arrived, he could scarcely believe that only

seventeen weeks ago he had actually been with Gertrude, and that disgrace

and imprisonment had seemed things that could never come near him, and

death had been a far-away possibility, and life had been full of bliss.

As I watched him a strong desire seized me to revisit the scenes of which

he was thinking, and I winged my way back to England, and soon found

myself in the drowsy, respectable streets of Muddleton.

It was New Year's Eve, and I saw Mrs. O'Reilly preparing presents for her

grandchildren, and talking, as she tied them up, of that dreadful

Nihilist who had deceived them in the summer. I saw Lena Houghton, and

Mr. Blackthorne, and Mrs. Milton-Cleave, kneeling in church on that

Friday morning, praying that pity might be shown "upon all prisoners and

captives, and all that are desolate or oppressed."

It never occurred to them that they were responsible for the sufferings

of one weary prisoner, or that his death would be laid at their door.

I flew to Dulminster, and saw Mrs. Selldon kneeling in the cathedral at

the late evening service and rigorously examining herself as to the

shortcomings of the dying year. She confessed many things in a vague,

untroubled way; but had any one told her that she had cruelly wronged her

neighbour, and helped to bring an innocent man to shame, and prison, and

death, she would not have believed the accusation.

I sought out Mark Shrewsbury. He was at his chambers in Pump Court

working away with his type-writer; he had a fancy for working the old

year out and the new year in, and now he was in the full swing of that

novel which had suggested itself to his mind when Mrs. Selldon described

the rich and mysterious foreigner who had settled down at Ivy Cottage.

Most happily he laboured on, never dreaming that his careless words had

doomed a fellow-man to a painful and lingering death; never dreaming that

while his fingers flew to and fro over his dainty little keyboard,

describing the clever doings of the unscrupulous foreigner, another man,

the victim of his idle gossip, tapped dying messages on a dreary prison

wall.

For the end had come.

Through the evening Sigismund rested wearily on his truckle-bed. He

could not lie down because of his cough, and, since there were no extra

pillows to prop him up, he had to rest his head and shoulders against the

wall. There was a gas-burner in the tiny cell, and by its light he

looked round the bare walls of his prison with a blank, hopeless, yet

wistful gaze; there was the stool, there was the table, there were the

clothes he should never wear again, there was the door through which his

lifeless body would soon be carried. He looked at everything

lingeringly, for he knew that this desolate prison was the last bit of

the world he should ever see.

Presently the gas was turned out.

He sighed as he felt the darkness close in upon him, for he knew that his

eyes would never again see light--knew that in this dark lonely cell he

must lie and wait for death. And he was young and wished to live, and he

was in love and longed most terribly for the presence of the woman he

loved.

The awful desolateness of the cell was more than he could endure; he

tried to think of his past life, he tried to live once again through

those happy weeks with Gertrude; but always he came back to the aching

misery of the present--the cold and the pain, and the darkness and the

terrible solitude.

His nerveless fingers felt their way to the wall and faintly rapped a

summons.

"Valerian!" he said, "I shall not live through the night. Watch with

me."

The faint raps sounded clearly in the stillness of the great building,

and Valerian dreaded lest the warders should hear them, and deal out

punishment for an offence which by day they were forced to wink at.

But he would not for the world have deserted his friend. He drew his

stool close to the wall, wrapped himself round in all the clothes he

could muster, and, shivering with cold, kept watch through the long

winter night.

"I am near you," he telegraphed. "I will watch with you till morning."

From time to time Sigismund rapped faint messages, and Valerian replied

with comfort and sympathy. Once he thought to himself, "My friend is

better; there is more power in his hand." And indeed he trembled,

fearing that the sharp, emphatic raps must certainly attract notice and

put an end to their communion.

"Tell my love that the accusation was false--false!" the word was

vehemently repeated. "Tell her I died broken-hearted, loving her to the

end."

"I will tell her all when I am free," said poor Valerian, wondering with

a sigh when his unjust imprisonment would end. "Do you suffer much?" he

asked.

There was a brief interval. Sigismund hesitated to tell a falsehood in

his last extremity.

"It will soon be over. Do not be troubled for me," he replied. And

after that there was a long, long silence.

Poor fellow! he died hard; and I wished that those comfortable English

people could have been dragged from their warm beds and brought into the

cold dreary cell where their victim lay, fighting for breath, suffering

cruelly both in mind and body. Valerian, listening in sad suspense,

heard one more faint word rapped by the dying man.

"Farewell!"

"God be with you!" he replied, unable to check the tears which rained

down as he thought of the life so sadly ended, and of his own

bereavement.

He heard no more. Sigismund's strength failed him, and I, to whom the

darkness made no difference, watched him through the last dread struggle;

there was no one to raise him, or hold him, no one to comfort him. Alone

in the cold and darkness of that first morning of the year 1887, he died.

Valerian did not hear through the wall his last faint gasping cry, but I

heard it, and its exceeding bitterness would have made mortals weep.

"Gertrude!" he sobbed. "Gertrude!"

And with that his head sank on his breast, and the life, which but for me

might have been so happy and prosperous, was ended.

* * * * *

Prompted by curiosity, I instantly returned to Muddleton and sought out

Gertrude Morley. I stole into her room. She lay asleep, but her dreams

were troubled, and her face, once so fresh and bright, was worn with pain

and anxiety.

Scarcely had I entered the room when, to my amazement, I saw the spirit

of Sigismund Zaluski.

I saw him bend down and kiss the sleeping girl, and for a moment her sad

face lighted up with a radiant smile.

I looked again; he was gone. Then Gertrude threw up both her arms and

with a bitter cry awoke from her dream.

"Sigismund!" she cried. "Oh, Sigismund! Now I know that you are dead

indeed."

For a long, long time she lay in a sort of trance of misery. It seemed

as if the life had been almost crushed out of her, and it was not until

the bells began to ring for the six o'clock service, merrily pealing out

their welcome of the new year morning, that full consciousness returned

to her again. But, as she clearly realised what had happened, she broke

into such a passion of tears as I had never before witnessed, while still

in the darkness the new year bells rang gaily, and she knew that they

heralded for her the beginning of a lonely life.

And so my work ended; my part in this world was played out. Nevertheless

I still live; and there will come a day when Sigismund and Gertrude shall

be comforted and the slanderers punished.

For poor Valerian was right, and there is an Avenger, in whom even my

progenitor believes, and before whom he trembles.

There will come a time when those self-satisfied ones, whose hands are

all the time steeped in blood, shall be confronted with me, and shall

realise to the full all that their idle words have brought about.

For that day I wait; and though afterwards I shall be finally destroyed

in the general destruction of all that is unmitigatedly evil, I promise

myself a certain satisfaction and pleasure (a feeling I doubtless inherit

from my progenitor), when I watch the shame, and horror, and remorse of

Mrs. O'Reilly and the rest of the people to whom I owe my existence and

rapid growth.

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