CHAPTER IX.

Immediately after the republication of her sisters' book she went to

Miss Martineau's.

"I can write to you now, dear E----, for I am away from home) and

relieved, temporarily, at least, by change of air and scene, from the

heavy burden of depression which, I confess, has for nearly three months

been sinking me to the earth. I never shall forget last autumn! Some

days and nights have been cruel; but now, having once told you this, I

need say no more on the subject. My loathing of solitude grew extreme;

my recollection of my sisters intolerably poignant. I am better now.

I am at Miss Martineau's for a week. Her house is very pleasant, both

within and without; arranged at; all points with admirable neatness and

comfort. Her visitors enjoy the most perfect liberty; what she claims

for herself she allows them. I rise at my own hour, breakfast alone

(she is up at five, takes a cold bath, and a walk by starlight, and

has finished breakfast and got to her work by seven o'clock). I pass

the morning in the drawing-room--she, in her study. At two o'clock we

meet--work, talk, and walk together till five, her dinner-hour, spend

the evening together, when she converses fluently and abundantly,

and with the most complete frankness. I go to my own room soon after

ten,--she sits up writing letters till twelve. She appears exhaustless

in strength and spirits, and indefatigable in the faculty of labour. She

is a great and a good woman; of course not without peculiarities, but I

have seen none as yet that annoy me. She is both hard and warm-hearted,

abrupt and affectionate, liberal and despotic. I believe she is not at

all conscious of her own absolutism. When I tell her of it, she denies

the charge warmly; then I laugh at her. I believe she almost rules

Ambleside. Some of the gentry dislike her, but the lower orders have

a great regard for her. . . . I thought I should like to spend two or

three days with you before going home, so, if it is not inconvenient

to you, I will (D. V.) come on Monday and stay till Thursday. . . . I

have truly enjoyed my visit here. I have seen a good many people, and

all have been so marvellously kind; not the least so, the family of Dr.

Arnold. Miss Martineau I relish inexpressibly."

Miss Brontë paid the visit she here proposes to her friend, but only

remained two or three days. She then returned home, and immediately

began to suffer from her old enemy, sickly and depressing headache. This

was all the more trying to bear, as she was obliged to take an active

share in the household work,--one servant being ill in bed, and the

other, Tabby, aged upwards of eighty.

This visit to Ambleside did Miss Brontë much good, and gave her a

stock of pleasant recollections, and fresh interests, to dwell upon in

her solitary life. There are many references in her letters to Miss

Martineau's character and kindness.

"She is certainly a woman of wonderful endowments, both intellectual

and physical; and though I share few of her opinions, and regard her

as fallible on certain points of judgment, I must still award her my

sincerest esteem. The manner in which she combines the highest mental

culture with the nicest discharge of feminine duties filled me with

admiration; while her affectionate kindness earned my gratitude." "I

think her good and noble qualities far outweigh her defects. It is my

habit to consider the individual apart from his (or her) reputation,

practice independent of theory, natural disposition isolated from

acquired opinions. Harriet Martineau's person, practice, and character,

inspire me with the truest affection and respect."You ask me whether

Miss Martineau made me a convert to mesmerism? Scarcely; yet I heard

miracles of its efficacy, and could hardly discredit the whole of

what was told me. I even underwent a personal experiment; and though

the result was not absolutely clear, it was inferred that in time I

should prove an excellent subject. The question of mesmerism will be

discussed with little reserve, I believe, in a forthcoming work of Miss

Martineau's; and I have some painful anticipations of the manner in

which other subjects, offering less legitimate ground for speculation,

will be handled."

"Your last letter evinced such a sincere and discriminating admiration

for Dr. Arnold, that perhaps you will not be wholly uninterested in

hearing that, during my late visit to Miss Martineau, I saw much more of

Fox How and its inmates, and daily admired, in the widow and children

of one of the greatest and best men of his time, the possession of

qualities the most estimable and endearing. Of my kind hostess herself,

I cannot speak in terms too high. Without being able to share all her

opinions, philosophical, political, or religious,--without adopting

her theories,--I yet find a worth and greatness in herself, and a

consistency, benevolence, perseverance in her practice, such as wins the

sincerest esteem and affection. She is not a person to be judged by her

writings alone, but rather by her own deeds and life, than which nothing

can be more exemplary or nobler. She seems to me the benefactress of

Ambleside, yet takes no sort of credit to herself for her active and

indefatigable philanthropy. The government of her household is admirably

administered: all she does is well done, from the writing of a history

down to the quietest female occupation. No sort of carelessness or

neglect is allowed under her rule, and yet she is not over-strict, nor

too rigidly exacting: her servants and her poor neighbours love as well

as respect her.

"I must not, however, fall into the error of talking too much about

her merely because my own mind is just now deeply impressed with what

I have seen of her intellectual power and moral worth. Faults she has;

but to me they appear very trivial weighed in the balance against her

excellences."

"Your account of Mr. A---- tallies exactly with Miss M----'s. She, too,

said that placidity and mildness (rather than originality and power)

were his external characteristics. She described him as a combination of

the antique Greek sage with the European modern man of science. Perhaps

it was mere perversity in me to get the notion that torpid veins, and

a cold, slow-beating heart, lay under his marble outside. But he is a

materialist: he serenely denies us our hope of immortality, and quietly

blots from man's future Heaven and the Life to come. That is why a

savour of bitterness seasoned my feeling towards him.

"All you say of Mr. Thackeray is most graphic and characteristic. He

stirs in me both sorrow and anger. Why should he lead so harassing

a life? Why should his mocking tongue so perversely deny the better

feelings of his better moods?"

For some time, whenever she was well enough in health and spirits, she

had been employing herself upon Villette; but she was frequently unable

to write, and was both grieved and angry with herself for her inability.

In February, she writes as follows to Mr. Smith:--

"Something you say about going to London; but the words are dreamy,

and fortunately I am not obliged to hear or answer them. London and

summer are many months away: our moors are all white with snow just

now, and little redbreasts come every morning to the window for crumbs.

One can lay no plans three or four months beforehand. Besides, I don't

deserve to go to London; nobody merits a change or a treat less. I

secretly think, on the contrary, I ought to be put in prison, and kept

on bread and water in solitary confinement--without even a letter from

Cornhill--till I had written a book. One of two things would certainly

result from such a mode of treatment pursued for twelve months; either

I should come out at the end of that time with a three-volume MS. in my

hand, or else with a condition of intellect that would exempt me ever

after from literary efforts and expectations."

Meanwhile, she was disturbed and distressed by the publication of Miss

Martineau's "Letters," etc.; they came down with a peculiar force and

heaviness upon a heart that looked, with fond and earnest faith, to a

future life as to the meeting-place with those who were "loved and lost

awhile."

"Feb. 11th, 1851.

"My dear Sir,--Have you yet read Miss Martineau's and Mr. Atkinson's new

work, 'Letters on the Nature and Development of Man'? If you have not,

it would be worth your while to do so.

"Of the impression this book has made on me, I will not now say much.

It is the first exposition of avowed atheism and materialism I have

ever read; the first unequivocal declaration of disbelief in the

existence of a God or a future life I have ever seen. In judging of

such exposition and declaration, one would wish entirely to put aside

the sort of instinctive horror they awaken, and to consider them in an

impartial spirit and collected mood. This I find it difficult to do. The

strangest thing is, that we are called on to rejoice over this hopeless

blank--to receive this bitter bereavement as great gain--to welcome this

unutterable desolation as a state of pleasant freedom. Who COULD do this

if he would? Who WOULD do it if he could?

"Sincerely, for my own part, do I wish to find and know the Truth; but

if this be Truth, well may she guard herself with mysteries, and cover

herself with a veil. If this be Truth, man or woman who beholds her

can but curse the day he or she was born. I said, however, I would not

dwell on what I thought; I wish to hear, rather, what some other person

thinks,--some one whose feelings are unapt to bias his judgment. Read

the book, then, in an unprejudiced spirit, and candidly say what you

think of it. I mean, of course, if you have time--NOT OTHERWISE."

And yet she could not bear the contemptuous tone in which this work

was spoken of by many critics; it made her more indignant than almost

any other circumstance during my acquaintance with her. Much as she

regretted the publication of the book, she could not see that it had

given any one a right to sneer at an action, certainly prompted by no

worldly motive, and which was but one error--the gravity of which she

admitted--in the conduct of a person who had, all her life long, been

striving, by deep thought and noble words, to serve her kind.

"Your remarks on Miss Martineau and her book pleased me greatly, from

their tone and spirit. I have even taken the liberty of transcribing for

her benefit one or two phrases, because I know they will cheer her; she

likes sympathy and appreciation (as all people do who deserve them); and

most fully do I agree with you in the dislike you express of that hard,

contemptuous tone in which her work is spoken of by many critics."

Before I return from the literary opinions of the author to the domestic

interests of the woman, I must copy out what she felt and thought about

"The Stones of Venice".

"'The Stones of Venice' seem nobly laid and chiselled. How grandly the

quarry of vast marbles is disclosed! Mr. Ruskin seems to me one of the

few genuine writers, as distinguished from book-makers, of this age.

His earnestness even amuses me in certain passages; for I cannot help

laughing to think how utilitarians will fume and fret over his deep,

serious (and as THEY will think), fanatical reverence for Art. That pure

and severe mind you ascribed to him speaks in every line. He writes like

a consecrated Priest of the Abstract and Ideal.

"I shall bring with me 'The Stones of Venice'; all the foundations of

marble and of granite, together with the mighty quarry out of which they

were hewn; and, into the bargain, a small assortment of crotchets and

dicta--the private property of one John Ruskin, Esq."

As spring drew on, the depression of spirits to which she was subject

began to grasp her again, and "to crush her with a day- and night-mare."

She became afraid of sinking as low as she had done in the autumn; and

to avoid this, she prevailed on her old friend and schoolfellow to come

and stay with her for a few weeks in March. She found great benefit from

this companionship,--both from the congenial society in itself, and from

the self-restraint of thought imposed by the necessity of entertaining

her and looking after her comfort. On this occasion, Miss Brontë said,

"It will not do to get into the habit offrom home, and thus temporarily

evading an running away oppression instead of facing, wrestling with and

conquering it or being conquered by it."

I shall now make an extract from one of her letters, which is purposely

displaced as to time. I quote it because it relates to a third offer of

marriage which she had, and because I find that some are apt to imagine,

from the extraordinary power with which she represented the passion of

love in her novels, that she herself was easily susceptible of it.

"Could I ever feel enough for ----, to accept of him as a husband?

Friendship--gratitude--esteem--I have; but each moment he came near me,

and that I could see his eyes fastened on me, my veins ran ice. Now

that he is away, I feel far more gently towards him, it is only close

by that I grow rigid, stiffening with a strange mixture of apprehension

and anger, which nothing softens but his retreat, and a perfect subduing

of his manner. I did not want to be proud, nor intend to be proud, but

I was forced to be so. Most true it is, that we are over-ruled by One

above us; that in His hands our very will is as clay in the hands of the

potter."

I have now named all the offers of marriage she ever received, until

that was made which she finally accepted. The gentle-man referred to in

this letter retained so much regard for her as to be her friend to the

end of her life; a circumstance to his credit and to hers.

Before her friend E---- took her departure, Mr. Brontë caught cold,

and continued for some weeks much out of health, with an attack of

bronchitis. His spirits, too, became much depressed; and all his

daughter's efforts were directed towards cheering him.

When he grew better, and had regained his previous strength, she

resolved to avail herself of an invitation which she had received some

time before, to pay a visit in London. This year, 1851, was, as every

one remembers, the time of the great Exhibition; but even with that

attraction in prospect, she did not intend to stay there long; and, as

usual, she made an agreement with her friends, before finally accepting

their offered hospitality, that her sojourn at their house was to be as

quiet as ever, since any other way of proceeding disagreed with her both

mentally and physically. She never looked excited except for a moment,

when something in conversation called her out; but she often felt so,

even about comparative trifles, and the exhaustion of reaction was sure

to follow. Under such circumstances, she always became extremely thin

and haggard; yet she averred that the change invariably did her good

afterwards.

Her preparations in the way of dress for this visit, in the gay time of

that gay season, were singularly in accordance with her feminine taste;

quietly anxious to satisfy her love for modest, dainty, neat attire, and

not regardless of the becoming, yet remembering consistency, both with

her general appearance and with her means, in every selection she made.

"By the bye, I meant to ask you when you went to Leeds, to do a small

errand for me, but fear your hands will be too full of business. It

was merely this: in case you chanced to be in any shop where the lace

cloaks, both black and white, of which I spoke, were sold, to ask their

price. I suppose they would hardly like to send a few to Haworth to be

looked at; indeed, if they cost very much, it would be useless, but

if they are reasonable and they would send them, I should like to see

them; and also some chemisettes of small size (the full woman's size

don't fit me), both of simple style for every day and good quality for

best.". . . ."It appears I could not rest satisfied when I was well off.

I told you I had taken one of the black lace mantles, but when I came to

try it with the black satin dress, with which I should chiefly want to

wear it, I found the effect was far from good; the beauty of the lace

was lost, and it looked somewhat brown and rusty; I wrote to Mr. ----,

requesting him to change it for a WHITE mantle of the same price; he

was extremely courteous, and sent to London for one, which I have got

this morning. The price is less, being but 1 pound 14s.; it is pretty,

neat and light, looks well on black; and upon reasoning the matter over,

I came to the philosophic conclusion, that it would be no shame for a

person of my means to wear a cheaper thing; so I think I shall take it,

and if you ever see it and call it 'trumpery' so much the worse."

"Do you know that I was in Leeds on the very same day with you--last

Wednesday? I had thought of telling you where I was going, and having

your help and company in buying a bonnet, etc., but then I reflected

this would merely be making a selfish use of you, so I determined to

manage or mismanage the matter alone. I went to Hurst and Hall's for the

bonnet, and got one which seemed grave and quiet there amongst all the

splendours; but now it looks infinitely too gay with its pink lining. I

saw some beautiful silks of pale sweet colours, but had not the spirit

nor the means to launch out at the rate of five shillings per yard, and

went and bought a black silk at three shillings after all. I rather

regret this, because papa says he would have lent me a sovereign if he

had known. I believe, if you had been there, you would have forced me

to get into debt. . . . I really can no more come to B---- before I go

to London than I can fly. I have quantities of sewing to do, as well as

household matters to arrange, before I leave, as they will clean, etc.,

in my absence. Besides, I am grievously afflicted with headache, which I

trust to change of air for relieving; but meantime, as it proceeds from

the stomach, it makes me very thin and grey; neither you nor anybody

else would fatten me up or put me into good condition for the visit; it

is fated otherwise. No matter. Calm your passion; yet I am glad to see

it. Such spirit seems to prove health. Good-bye, in haste.

"Your poor mother is like Tabby, Martha and Papa; all these fancy I

am somehow, by some mysterious process, to be married in London, or

to engage myself to matrimony. How I smile internally! How groundless

and improbable is the idea! Papa seriously told me yesterday, that

if I married and left him he should give up housekeeping and go into

lodgings!"

I copy the following, for the sake of the few words describing the

appearance of the heathery moors in late summer.

TO SYDNEY DOBELL, ESQ.

"May 24th, 1851.

"My dear Sir,--I hasten to send Mrs. Dobell the autograph. It was the

word 'Album' that frightened me I thought she wished me to write a

sonnet on purpose for it, which I could not do.

"Your proposal respecting a journey to Switzerland is deeply kind; it

draws me with the force of a mighty Temptation, but the stern Impossible

holds me back. No! I cannot go to Switzerland this summer.

"Why did the editor of the 'Eclectic' erase that most powerful and

pictorial passage? He could not be insensible to its beauty; perhaps he

thought it profane. Poor man!

"I know nothing of such an orchard-country as you describe. I have never

seen such a region. Our hills only confess the coming of summer by

growing green with young fern and moss, in secret little hollows. Their

bloom is reserved for autumn; then they burn with a kind of dark glow,

different, doubtless, from the blush of garden blossoms. About the close

of next month, I expect to go to London, to pay a brief and quiet visit.

I fear chance will not be so propitious as to bring you to town while I

am there; otherwise, how glad I should be if you would call. With kind

regards to Mrs. Dobell,--Believe me, sincerely yours,

C. BRONTË."

Her next letter is dated from London.

"June 2nd.

"I came here on Wednesday, being summoned a day sooner than I expected,

in order to be in time for Thackeray's second lecture, which was

delivered on Thursday afternoon. This, as you may suppose, was a genuine

treat to me, and I was glad not to miss it. It was given in Willis'

Rooms, where the Almacks balls are held--a great painted and gilded

saloon with long sofas for benches. The audience was said to be the

cream of London society, and it looked so. I did not at all expect the

great lecturer would know me or notice me under these circumstances,

with admiring duchesses and countesses seated in rows before him; but he

met me as I entered--shook hands--took me to his mother, whom I had not

before seen, and introduced me. She is a fine, handsome, young-looking

old lady; was very gracious, and called with one of her grand-daughters

next day.

"Thackeray called too, separately. I had a long talk with him, and I

think he knows me now a little better than he did: but of this I cannot

yet be sure; he is a great and strange man. There is quite a furor

for his lectures. They are a sort of essays, characterised by his own

peculiar originality and power, and delivered with a finished taste and

ease, which is felt, but cannot be described. Just before the lecture

began, somebody came behind me, leaned over and said, 'Permit me, as a

Yorkshireman, to introduce myself.' I turned round--saw a strange, not

handsome, face, which puzzled me for half a minute, and then I said,

'You are Lord Carlisle.' He nodded and smiled; he talked a few minutes

very pleasantly and courteously.

"Afterwards came another man with the same plea, that he was a

Yorkshireman, and this turned out to be Mr. Monckton Milnes. Then came

Dr. Forbes, whom I was sincerely glad to see. On Friday, I went to the

Crystal Palace; it is a marvellous, stirring, bewildering sight--a

mixture of a genii palace, and a mighty bazaar, but it is not much in

my way; I liked the lecture better. On Saturday I saw the Exhibition

at Somerset House; about half a dozen of the pictures are good and

interesting, the rest of little worth. Sunday--yesterday--was a day to

be marked with a white stone; through most of the day I was very happy,

without being tired or over-excited. In the afternoon, I went to hear

D'Aubigne, the great Protestant French preacher; it was pleasant--half

sweet, half sad--and strangely suggestive to hear the French language

once more. For health, I have so far got on very fairly, considering

that I came here far from well."

The lady, who accompanied Miss Brontë to the lecture at Thackeray's

alluded to, says that, soon after they had taken their places, she

was aware that he was pointing out her companion to several of his

friends, but she hoped that Miss Brontë herself would not perceive

it. After some time, however, during which many heads had been turned

round, and many glasses put up, in order to look at the author of "Jane

Eyre", Miss Brontë said, "I am afraid Mr. Thackeray has been playing

me a trick;" but she soon became too much absorbed in the lecture to

notice the attention which was being paid to her, except when it was

directly offered, as in the case of Lord Carlisle and Mr. Monckton

Milnes. When the lecture was ended, Mr. Thackeray came down from the

platform, and making his way towards her, asked her for her opinion.

This she mentioned to me not many days afterwards, adding remarks almost

identical with those which I subsequently read in 'Villette,' where a

similar action on the part of M. Paul Emanuel is related.

"As our party left the Hall, he stood at the entrance; he saw and knew

me, and lifted his hat; he offered his hand in passing, and uttered

the words 'Qu'en dites-vous?'--question eminently characteristic, and

reminding me, even in this his moment of triumph, of that inquisitive

restlessness, that absence of what I considered desirable self-control,

which were amongst his faults. He should not have cared just then to ask

what I thought, or what anybody thought; but he DID care, and he was too

natural to conceal, too impulsive to repress his wish. Well! if I blamed

his over-eagerness, I liked his naivete. I would have praised him; I had

plenty of praise in my heart; but alas I no words on my lips. Who HAS

words at the right moment? I stammered some lame expressions; but was

truly glad when other people, coming up with profuse congratulations,

covered my deficiency by their redundancy."

As they were preparing to leave the room, her companion saw with dismay

that many of the audience were forming themselves into two lines, on

each side of the aisle down which they had to pass before reaching the

door. Aware that any delay would only make the ordeal more trying, her

friend took Miss Brontë's arm in hers, and they went along the avenue

of eager and admiring faces. During this passage through the "cream

of society," Miss Brontë's hand trembled to such a degree, that her

companion feared lest she should turn faint and be unable to proceed;

and she dared not express her sympathy or try to give her strength by

any touch or word, lest it might bring on the crisis she dreaded.

Surely, such thoughtless manifestation of curiosity is a blot on the

scutcheon of true politeness! The rest of the account of this, her

longest visit to London, shall be told in her own words.

"I sit down to write to you this morning in an inexpressibly flat state;

having spent the whole of yesterday and the day before in a gradually

increasing headache, which grew at last rampant and violent, ended with

excessive sickness, and this morning I am quite weak and washy. I hoped

to leave my headaches behind me at Haworth; but it seems I brought them

carefully packed in my trunk, and very much have they been in my way

since I came. . . . Since I wrote last, I have seen various things worth

describing; Rachel, the great French actress, amongst the number. But

to-day I really have no pith for the task. I can only wish you good-bye

with all my heart."

"I cannot boast that London has agreed with me well this time; the

oppression of frequent headache, sickness, and a low tone of spirits,

has poisoned many moments which might otherwise have been pleasant.

Sometimes I have felt this hard, and been tempted to murmur at Fate,

which compels me to comparative silence and solitude for eleven months

in the year, and in the twelfth, while offering social enjoyment, takes

away the vigour and cheerfulness which should turn it to account. But

circumstances are ordered for us, and we must submit."

"Your letter would have been answered yesterday, but I was already gone

out before post time, and was out all day. People are very kind, and

perhaps I shall be glad of what I have seen afterwards, but it is often

a little trying at the time. On Thursday, the Marquis of Westminster

asked me to a great party, to which I was to go with Mrs. D----, a

beautiful, and, I think, a kind woman too; but this I resolutely

declined. On Friday I dined at the ----'s, and met Mrs. D---- and Mr.

Monckton Milnes. On Saturday I went to hear and see Rachel; a wonderful

sight--terrible as if the earth had cracked deep at your feet, and

revealed a glimpse of hell. I shall never forget it. She made me shudder

to the marrow of my bones; in her some fiend has certainly taken up an

incarnate home. She is not a woman; she is a snake; she is the ----.

On Sunday I went to the Spanish Ambassador's Chapel, where Cardinal

Wiseman, in his archiepiscopal robes and mitre, held a confirmation.

The whole scene was impiously theatrical. Yesterday (Monday) I was

sent for at ten to breakfast with Mr. Rogers, the patriarch-poet. Mrs.

D---- and Lord Glenelg were there; no one else:this certainly proved a

most calm, refined, and intellectual treat. After breakfast, Sir David

Brewster came to take us to the Crystal Palace. I had rather dreaded

this, for Sir David is a man of profoundest science, and I feared it

would be impossible to understand his explanations of the mechanism,

etc.; indeed, I hardly knew how to ask him questions. I was spared all

trouble without being questioned, he gave information in the kindest and

simplest manner. After two hours spent at the Exhibition, and where, as

you may suppose, I was VERY tired, we had to go to Lord Westminster's,

and spend two hours more in looking at the collection of pictures in his

splendid gallery."

To another friend she writes:--

"----may have told you that I have spent a month in London this summer.

When you come, you shall ask what questions you like on that point, and

I will answer to the best of my stammering ability. Do not press me much

on the subject of the 'Crystal Palace.' I went there five times, and

certainly saw some interesting things, and the 'coup d'oeil' is striking

and bewildering enough; but I never was able to get any raptures on the

subject, and each renewed visit was made under coercion rather than my

own free will. It is an excessively bustling place; and, after all, its

wonders appeal too exclusively to the eye, and rarely touch the heart

or head. I make an exception to the last assertion, in favour of those

who possess a large range of scientific knowledge. Once I went with Sir

David Brewster, and perceived that he looked on objects with other eyes

than mine."

Miss Brontë returned from London by Manchester, and paid us a visit of

a couple of days at the end of June. The weather was so intensely hot,

and she herself so much fatigued with her London sight-seeing, that we

did little but sit in-doors, with open windows, and talk. The only thing

she made a point of exerting herself to procure was a present for Tabby.

It was to be a shawl, or rather a large handkerchief, such as she could

pin across her neck and shoulders, in the old-fashioned country manner.

Miss Brontë took great pains in seeking out one which she thought

would please the old woman. On her arrival at home, she addressed

the following letter to the friend with whom she had been staying in

London:--

"Haworth, July 1st, 1851.

"My dear Mrs. Smith,--Once more I am at home, where, I am thankful to

say, I found my father very well. The journey to Manchester was a little

hot and dusty, but otherwise pleasant enough. The two stout gentlemen,

who filled a portion of the carriage when I got in, quitted it at Rugby,

and two other ladies and myself had it to ourselves the rest of the

way. The visit to Mrs. Gaskell formed a cheering break in the journey.

Haworth Parsonage is rather a contrast, yet even Haworth Parsonage does

not look gloomy in this bright summer weather; it is somewhat still,

but with the windows open I can hear a bird or two singing on certain

thorn-trees in the garden. My father and the servants think me looking

better than when I felt home, and I certainly feel better myself for

the change. You are too much like your son to render it advisable I

should say much about your kindness during my visit. However, one cannot

help (like Captain Cuttle) making a note of these matters. Papa says

I am to thank you in his name, and offer you his respects, which I do

accordingly.--With truest regards to all your circle, believe me very

sincerely yours,

C. BRONTË."

"July 8th, 1851.

"My dear Sir,--Thackeray's last lecture must, I think, have been his

best. What he says about Sterne is true. His observations on literary

men, and their social obligations and individual duties, seem to me

also true and full of mental and moral vigour. . . . The International

Copyright Meeting seems to have had but a barren result, judging from

the report in the Literary Gazette. I cannot see that Sir E. Bulwer and

the rest DID anything; nor can I well see what it is in their power to

do. The argument brought forward about the damage accruing to American

national literature from the present piratical system, is a good and

sound argument; but I am afraid the publishers--honest men--are not

yet mentally prepared to give such reasoning due weight. I should

think, that which refers to the injury inflicted upon themselves, by

an oppressive competition in piracy, would influence them more; but, I

suppose, all established matters, be they good or evil, are difficult

to change. About the 'Phrenological Character' I must not say a word.

Of your own accord, you have found the safest point from which to view

it: I will not say 'look higher!' I think you see the matter as it is

desirable we should all see what relates to ourselves. If I had a right

to whisper a word of counsel, it should be merely this: whatever your

present self may be, resolve with all your strength of resolution, never

to degenerate thence. Be jealous of a shadow of falling off. Determine

rather to look above that standard, and to strive beyond it. Everybody

appreciates certain social properties, and likes his neighbour for

possessing them; but perhaps few dwell upon a friend's capacity for

the intellectual, or care how this might expand, if there were but

facilities allowed for cultivation, and space given for growth. It seems

to me that, even should such space and facilities be denied by stringent

circumstances and a rigid fate, still it should do you good fully to

know, and tenaciously to remember, that you have such a capacity. When

other people overwhelm you with acquired knowledge, such as you have not

had opportunity, perhaps not application, to gain--derive not pride, but

support from the thought. If no new books had ever been written, some of

these minds would themselves have remained blank pages: they only take

an impression; they were not born with a record of thought on the brain,

or an instinct of sensation on the heart. If I had never seen a printed

volume, Nature would have offered my perceptions a varying picture of

a continuous narrative, which, without any other teacher than herself,

would have schooled me to knowledge, unsophisticated, but genuine.

"Before I received your last, I had made up my mind to tell you that I

should expect no letter for three months to come (intending afterwards

to extend this abstinence to six months, for I am jealous of becoming

dependent on this indulgence: you doubtless cannot see why, because you

do not live my life). Nor shall I now expect a letter; but since you say

that you would like to write now and then, I cannot say 'never write,'

without imposing on my real wishes a falsehood which they reject, and

doing to them a violence, to which they entirely refuse to submit. I

can only observe that when it pleases you to write, whether seriously

or for a little amusement, your notes, if they come to me, will come

where they are welcome. Tell----I will try to cultivate good spirits, as

assiduously as she cultivates her geraniums."

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