A maid opened the door. Her face was drawn, and she enveloped the
half-frantic young man in a hostile gaze. He felt like a guilty
scoundrel. Evidently he was in for a hard night, but he didn't trouble
about himself. His unique sorrow was Mona. He walked up and down the
semi-darkened drawing-room. A premature birth. Without doubt. It could
be nothing else, unless--unless an accident had supervened. Perhaps his
darling had been run down by some selfish brute of a motorist--Mona was
so imprudent--he was become well-nigh frantic when Mrs. Milton entered.
He thought her positively angelic when she came to him and took his
hand in hers. "Don't worry too much, Mr. Invern. Mona is better since
she knows you are here. No, no! I shan't listen to any accusations....
We understand, and to understand is to forgive. Mr. Milton thinks as I
do. How did it happen! Mona was nearly killed by an auto this morning.
She crossed the avenue dreaming of her future happiness. Yes, the
sweet child has told us all. Don't be shocked. Girls have different
moral codes today and parents must try to sympathize with them; if
they do not, then they can't be of use to their daughters--and that
would be terrible. The wheels missed her but she received a glancing
blow on the shoulder and arm. She fell, and heavily, but she didn't
faint. The gentleman in the car drove her home. He was very much
concerned, although I am sure he was not to blame. The doctor said the
blow was superficial. He bandaged her shoulder, and put her arm in a
sling"--Ulick buried his face in his hands and groaned:
"Poor, suffering Mona!" Her mother touched his arm reassuringly. "All
went well till late this afternoon. Mona began to suffer atrociously.
Pains in her abdomen. They were so horrible that I summoned the doctor
again. She didn't mind him, she was suffering so: He hinted at the
shock and asked to examine her, fearing, no doubt, peritonitis. And
that's precisely what it is ... as soon as he saw her poor swollen
figure.... Of course, he knew at once ... and that brave girl never
flinched. Her first question was the safety of the ... of her child
... when he told her the truth. Tears rolled down her cheek ... that,
and no thought of disgrace troubled her ... she bites the pillow-case
when the pains return, she won't scream ... such a brave girl.... She
holds as tight as her strength allows that big doll of hers.... Oh, Mr.
Invern, don't cry. Be brave. You must see her ... she doesn't speak
of anyone but you--she says you are her dear husband--as you are in
the sight of God--No, Mr. Milton takes the thing philosophically. He
entertains no harsh thoughts concerning you. Young people! Ah! Mr.
Invern, this is a sad meeting. My son Milt has spoken so often of you,
and so beautifully--why didn't Mona tell us of her love for you? We
should have been happy to receive you--but now--the future is a blank.
She fell asleep when she learned that you were here. Her father is with
her, and the doctor--he would give us no definite promise--septicaemia
he fears, and that awful peritonitis ... wait, I'll go see if you may
come." Like a genteel apparition she stole away, leaving Ulick in a
doleful mood. Where his philosophy now? Where his calm attitude of a
spectator on the sidewalk of life? Vanished all his shallow theories.
Confronted by invincible facts his sensual day-dreams shrivelled into
nothingness. Only Mona--only that she be spared, he prayed, and prayed
for the first time since his boyhood. "O Jesus, sauve-moi! Sans toi je
périra!" A scrap of a supplication he had heard his mother utter many
times in her tribulations: Mrs. Milton was beckoning from the door. He
followed her, treading as lightly as he could. He was chilled with fear.
She lay under a counterpane that was as white as her face. The room
was empty, the father and medical man elsewhere. She slept. A large
French doll was clasped in her arms. Her heavy hair had been braided
and rolled off her forehead. Her features were discomposed, her eyelids
discoloured. Shocked by the change he saw in her, Ulick knelt at the
bedside. Mrs. Milton remained without. Mona's breathing was irregular.
She looked ten years older. He hated the grotesque doll with the
staring eyes of porcelain. It took up so much space in her bed--in her
affection. Her eyes opened.
"Little boy," she tenderly murmured, and stroked his head. He
choked his sobs. "Don't worry, poor little boy, we still have our
dream-babies." Her face contracted with sudden pain. It was ash-gray,
death-like, this sweet face. She held his hand so tightly that it hurt
him. She bit the sheet. A low moaning sound issued from her lips,
foam-speckled. No longer able to endure the sight of her suffering he
called her mother. Mona made a sign, and he got away, he hardly knew
how, hurtling into the two men as he went through the corridor. The
doctor paid no attention. Mr. Milton, an old man with a head too large
for his body, and with white hair like a grizzled mop, looked keenly
at him, and then as if he were solving some intricate chess-problem he
paused, ruminated, and finally made up his mind. He conducted the young
man who had wrought such havoc in his household to the library, gently
pushed him into a chair, offered him whisky and cigars. Ulick shook a
negative. He was too much moved to utter a word. If he had opened his
mouth it would have been to sob. Apologies, explanations, offers of
reparation--all such silly phraseology were forgotten in the rush of
repentance. It was the first time that he had come to grips with naked
truth, and it hurt like a knife in his entrails. He could only sit with
eyes half closed and wait--wait. Facing him was her father, who smoked
a pipe. Neither one spoke. The hours slowly went by, every tick of the
clock torture-breeding. Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow!
It was dawn when the groaning of the girl forced itself into his ears,
though all doors were closed. The crisis approached. Hurried footsteps
were heard and the brittle sound of china. The odors of vinegar, ether
and of fumigating pastilles penetrated his nostrils. A solitary scream
punctuated the air. Silence followed, profound, enigmatic. Mr. Milton
tip-toed to the door and listened. The orders of the doctor had been
definite; no one save Mrs. Milton was to be near the sufferer. When
Ulick, at last no longer able to sit still, approached the door,
the father raised his eyebrows. Not yet! At six o'clock Mrs. Milton
appeared. She looked worn and her features were pinched, but she
suggested hope. Trembling, Ulick took her hand. She squeezed his. Her
husband had left the room.
"The crisis is passed, the doctor tells me. There remains the danger
of blood-poisoning. She is weaker than her precious doll. She was
delirious for a time and raved over her dream-children. She always
loved babies. Poor Mona, what a disappointment her's?" He rubbed his
eyes. Was he in a trance! Such people! Such a father and mother! Not
a reproach. He might have been the husband of Mona. Truly they were
more than Christian in their charity, in their comprehension; they were
angelic--there was no other word to describe them as they really were.
He asked if he might see Mona once more. She refused. "Come tonight
about nine o'clock. She will surely see you then. I'll tell her you
stayed near her all night. Go home, and do try to sleep. Don't worry.
Everything, please providence, will come out right." Tears fell as he
hurried through the morning streets.
Mona slept, though fitfully, her doll beside her. At intervals she
opened her eyes murmuring. "Frustrate, frustrate!" Her mother thought
that she was again raving....