CHAPTER LVIII

FINDING Cleveland hopeless for me, I one day picked up and left. Then

came Buffalo, which I reached toward the end of March. Aside from the

Falls I found it a little tame, no especial snap to it—not as much as I

had felt to be characteristic of Cleveland. What interest there was for

me I provided myself, wandering about in odd drear neighborhoods, about

grain elevators and soap factories and railroad yards and manufacturing

districts. Here, as in Cleveland, I could not help but see that in spite

of our boasted democracy and equality of opportunity there was as much

misery and squalor and as little decent balancing of opportunity against

energy as anywhere else in the world. The little homes, the poor,

shabby, colorless, drear, drab little homes with their grassless

“yards,” their unpaved streets, their uncollected garbage, their

fluttering, thin-flamed gas-lamps, the crowds of ragged, dirty,

ill-cared-for children! Near at hand was always the inevitable and

wretched saloon, not satisfying a need for pleasure in a decent way but

pandering to the lowest and most conniving and most destroying instincts

of the lowest politicians and heelers and grafters and crooks, while the

huge financial and manufacturing magnates at the top with their lust for

power and authority used the very flesh of the weaker elements for

purposes of their own. It was the saloon, not liquor, which brought

about the prohibition folly. I used to listen, as a part of my

reportorial duties, to the blatherings of thin-minded, thin-blooded,

thin-experienced religionists as well as to those of kept editorial

writers, about the merits and blessings and opportunities of our noble

and bounteous land; but whenever I encountered such regions as this I

knew well enough that there was something wrong with their noble

maunderings. Shout as they might, there was here displayed before my

very eyes ample evidence that somewhere there was a screw loose in the

“Fatherhood of Man—Brotherhood of God” machinery.

After I had placed myself in a commonplace neighborhood near the

business center, I canvassed the newspaper offices and their editors.

Although I had in my pocket that letter from the publisher of the St.

Louis _Republic_ extolling my virtues as a reporter and correspondent,

so truly vagrom was my mood and practical judgment that I did not

present it to any one. Instead I merely mooned into one office after

another (there were only four papers here), convinced before entering

that I should not get anything—and I did not. One young city editor,

seeming to take at least an interest in me, assured me that if I would

remain in Buffalo for six weeks he could place me; but since I had not

enough money to sustain myself so long I decided not to wait. Ten days

spent in reconnoitering these offices daily, and I concluded that it was

useless to remain longer. Yet before I went I determined to see at least

one thing more: the Falls.

Therefore one day I traveled by trolley to Niagara and looked at that

tumbling flood, then not chained or drained by turbine water-power

sluices. I was impressed, but not quite so much as I had thought I

should be. Standing out on a rock near the greatest volume of water

under a gray sky, I was awed by the downpour and then became dizzy and

felt as though I were being carried along whether I would or not.

Farther upstream I stared at the water as it gathered force and speed,

wondering how I should feel if I were in a small canoe and fighting it

for my life. Behind the falls were great stalagmites and stalactites of

ice and snow still standing from the cold of weeks before. I recalled

that Blondel, a famous French swimmer of his day, had ten years before

swum these fierce and angry waters below the Falls. I wondered how he

had done it, so wildly did they leap, huge wheels of water going round

and round and whitecaps leaping and spitting and striking at each other.

When I returned to Buffalo I congratulated myself that if I had got

nothing else out of my visit to Buffalo, at least I had gained this.

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