CHAPTER XI

Next day there came out of that room a new Sylvie or rather a dozen new

Sylvies: a flighty witch of a Sylvie who tempted her blindness with rash

ventures about the rooms and even out of doors, who laughed at Hugh and

led him on, and drew him out to his maddest improvisations, who treated

Pete to snubs and tauntings that stung like so many little whips; and

again a Sylvie who was still and timid and a trifle furtive, who

rarely spoke, but sat with locked hands in an attitude of desperate

concentration and seemed to be planning something secret and dangerous;

and then there was a haughty, touch-me-not Sylvie; and a Sylvie who

mysteriously wept. But all of these Sylvies showed an impetuous, new

tenderness toward Bella.

“I’ve been all wrong about you, Bella,” she confessed. “I know you’re

not really old and ugly and cross at all. Let me touch your face.”

Bella, awkward and flushed, had no choice but to submit to the flick of

the light, young fingers. “I’m learning the touch of the blind,” Sylvie

boasted. “Now, listen--isn’t this right? You have thick, straight

eyebrows and deep-set eyes; are they blue or brown, Bella, or bright

gray?”

“They’re gray,” said Pete.

Hugh was watching from eyes sunk in a nervous, pallid face. He had come

in from his traps in the midst of Sylvie’s experiment.

“And she has a nice, straight, strong, short nose, and a mouth that she

holds too tight. Loosen your mouth, Bella; it might be very sweet if

you gave it a chance. And she has a sharp chin--not pretty, your

chin, but--look! If you’d soften your hair, pull it over your ears and

forehead--Why do you brush it back that way? It _must_ be unbecoming.

And, Bella, it’s curly, or would be with a little freedom. What color is

your hair?”

“Gray--like my eyes,” said Bella, scarlet now, and trying to draw

herself away.

“Is it really gray, Pete? Tell me the truth, if you can.”

“Her hair is a very light brown,” said Pete, flushed as scarlet now as

Bella; “sort of a grayish brown; you wouldn’t notice any gray hairs,

hardly.”

“Bella, I’m sure you don’t look a day older than thirty-five. Your skin

feels smooth and young. Why do you let Hugh call you an old woman? Poor

Bella, I’m afraid you’ve spoiled those two boys?”

Sylvie turned suddenly and imperiously upon the men, and Bella made

her escape, not from the room, for she was too stirred, too full of an

excited suspense, to bring herself to leave. From a far corner, near the

window through which came the soft May wind, she watched them.

“Now, Pete,” said Sylvie, “it’s your turn. If I’m to learn the touch of

the blind, I must have practice. What can I make of you! Come here. Why

don’t you come?” She stamped her foot. “My, but you are badly trained.

Really, Hugh, you ought to discipline him. Wait until I am your

sister-in-law.”

Hugh started angrily. “Don’t joke about that!” he threatened in a harsh,

sudden voice.

She turned toward him with quickness and bent her head sidelong as

though listening intently for what else he might have to say. Her lips

were set close and narrow. She had listened to him like this, almost

breathlessly, ever since her sudden faintness, listened as though she

would draw his very soul in through her ears.

He too flushed. “It’s life and death to me, Sylvie,” he pleaded.

“Life and death--life _or_ death,” she repeated strangely. She stood,

as if turning the speech over in her mind, then gave her head a quick

little shake like a diver coming to the surface of deep water, and moved

a step toward Pete. “Are you coming, boy, or not? I want to feel your

face.”

“Do as she says,” Hugh commanded harshly, and Pete came slowly to her

and stood with his hands locked behind him, bending over the little

figure. She put her hands on his shoulders and gave him a shake, and

smiled.

“Such a big, strong boy! Where’s your face?” It winced and paled under

her touch. His eyes fell, shifted, could not meet Hugh’s, who watched

with unsteady breathing and white lips.

“Your face is as smooth as a girl’s, Pete. What a wide, low forehead

and crisp, short hair; it ripples back from your temples. You must be

a pretty boy! A neat nose and a round, hard chin and--oh, Pete, Pete! I

believe you have a dimple. How absurd! A great, long dimple like a slit

in your right cheek. Why do you blink your eyes so? They’re long eyes,

with thick, short lashes. What a strong, round neck! I think I like your

face.”

She patted his cheek, the pat more like a smart slap. He pulled away.

“That’s for disobedience. Come back. I’m not through with you. Where’s

your mouth? A big, long mouth. Pete, why does your mouth tremble?” Her

hand fell from his lips, and she turned away. “Take me out for a walk,

Hugh, please,” she said. “This cabin is stuffy, now that the days are

warm. I want to sit under the pines and listen to the river. You can

tell me one of your wonderful stories about yourself.”

“What does it mean, Bella?” Pete asked breathlessly when Hugh had gone

out, not so much leading the girl as hurrying after her to save her from

the rashness of her impetuous progress. “What does it mean?” Pete was as

white as paper.

“I don’t know.” Bella came over from the window and stood by the

fireplace, rolling her arms in her apron and shaking her head. “She’s a

crazy little witch. She’ll drive us mad. Hugh is half mad now--have you

noticed? She won’t let him touch her. And you, poor boy! Pete, why don’t

you go away?”

“I’ve thought about it,” he said. “I--I can’t.” He flung himself down in

Hugh’s chair and rested his head in his hands.

Bella bent over him. “Poor Pete! It’s cruel for you--and,” she added

softly, uncertainly, “and for me.”

“For you too, Bella?” He looked up at her through tears.

She nodded her head, and her face worked. “Perhaps you could take her

back to her friends, Pete?”

“And leave Hugh? Didn’t you hear what he said, Bella? Life and death! It

would kill him if she should go away with me. Or--he’d follow and kill

me.”

“Yes,” Bella assented somberly; “yes, he’d kill you. The devil is still

living in his heart.”

“No. Sylvie will marry him. Hugh gets his will.” Pete shook his head.

“Wait a few days--you’ll see. She’s fighting against him now; I don’t

know why--some instinct. But though he tells her so many lies, he

doesn’t lie about one thing. He loves her. He does love her.”

“No! No!” Bella’s passion, tearing its way through her long habit of

repression, was almost terrifying. “He loves the image she has of him.

If he knew that she could see him as I do, his love would shrivel up

like a flower in a drought. Hugh can’t love the truth. He can’t love

anything but his delusions. Pete, tell her the truth. For God’s sake,

tell her the truth. Give her back her eyesight. Let her know his name,

his story--his _face_!”

“Don’t dare ask me, Bella!”

“Why not?” She seemed to be out of breath, like a person who has been

climbing in thin air. Her lips were dry.

“Because--well, would you do it yourself?”

“Ah! He would hate me, if I did. But you, Pete, when Sylvie loved

you--and if she knew you, she would surely love you; any woman

would--why, then you could bear Hugh’s hatred. I have only him--only

him.”

She locked her hands and lifted them to her forehead and was now making

blind steps toward the kitchen door.

Pete followed her, and turning her about, drew down the hands from her

face.

“Bella--_you_? Without saying a word? All these years?”

Under the first pressure of sympathy that her agony had ever known, she

could not speak. She bent her head for an instant against his arm,

then moved away from him, groping through the kitchen door, back to her

unutterable loneliness.

Pete stood staring after her. A new Bella, this, not the cousin, the

little cousin from the farm; not the nurse who had saved him from Hugh’s

hardness and told him limping fairy tales and doctored his hurts; not

the accepted necessity, but a woman--a woman young, yes, young. In the

instant when he had glimpsed her face, broken and quivering, the tight

lips parted and the hair disarranged about flushed, quivering cheeks,

the eyes deep with widened pupils, she had revealed beauty and

passion--the two halves of youth. How blind, how blind Hugh had been,

blind and selfish and greedy, drinking up the woman’s heart, feeding

upon her youth!

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