Patty had thoughts enough, surely, to occupy her that night, but it is
doubtful whether there were any that came into her mind with the same
reality--repeated again and again, as if by accident the recollection
had been blown back upon her by a sudden wind--as those careless words
uttered by Pearson when he had described how he had found Gervase: “I
had been at a little hop at Coulter’s Mill;” he said ’op, but though
Patty had never used that manner of speech herself it did not hurt her.
A little hop at Coulter’s Mill. Such things were going on while she was
shut up in the dismal grandeur of Greyshott. Girls were whirling round
with their partners, receiving their attentions, which, though they
might be rough and not very refined, were all that Patty knew of those
delights of youth; while she, Patty, whom they all envied, who was now
so far above them, sat and played backgammon with an old dotard, or
watched half the night for her Softy’s return. There were still such
things, and Roger Pearson went to them! Patty had a soft place in her
heart for Roger; she wished him no harm, and it might very well have
been, had not Gervase and ambition come across her path, that she should
have been his wife; and though she wished him nothing but good, Patty
did hope that she had more or less broken his heart. She thought he
would never have wished to go to those sort of places again, where every
tune that was played and every dance would remind him of her. His
careless speech took her, therefore, full in the breast, with a
stupefying surprise. And he did not say it as if it was anything
wonderful, but only as the calm ordinary of life, “I’d been at a little
’op at Coulter’s Mill.” And he was returning about two o’clock in the
morning, which showed that he had amused himself well. Could such things
be, and she out of them all? Every time this thought crossed her mind it
gave her a new shock. It seemed almost impossible that such things could
be.
But at all events, it was a comfort that Gervase at last was roused and
got safely to his room before the servants were stirring, which it had
been Patty’s fear would not be possible. She had made up her story what
to say in case she had been surprised by the early housemaid. She meant
to keep the door closed, and to say that Mr. Piercey had been ill in the
night and could not sleep, and now had fallen asleep on the sofa, and
must not be disturbed. Happily, however, it was not necessary to burden
her conscience with this additional fib. She got him upstairs safely,
and to bed, and lay down herself upon the sofa with great relief. What a
night! while all the girls who had been at the dance at Coulter’s Mill
would still be sleeping soundly, and if they ever thought of Patty,
would think of her with such envy! Poor Patty, she was very brave. She
snatched a little sleep, and was refreshed before Jerningham came to the
door with that early cup of tea, which Patty understood all the fine
ladies took in the morning. For once she was glad of that unnecessary
refreshment. She told Jerningham that Mr. Piercey had been ill, and that
she feared he had taken a bad cold; and then Patty closed the door upon
the maid, who guessed, if she did not already know exactly, the
character of the illness, and began to think steadily what she should
do. She would tell Gervase that another night, if it happened again, he
would be brought in dead, not alive. He would die, she would tell him,
on the roadside like a dog. His was not a mind that could take in milder
imaginations, but he would understand _that_. And Patty made up her mind
to have another conversation with her father equally trenchant. She
would tell him that if anything happened to Gervase she would have him
tried for manslaughter. There would be abundant evidence, which she
would not hesitate to bring forth, that the victim was half-witted, that
he had been taken advantage of, and that the man who plied him with
drink and then turned him out, his poor brain more clouded than ever, to
find his way home, was his murderer and nothing else. Patty said to
herself that she did not mind what scandals she would raise in such
circumstances. If Richard Hewitt were brought to the scaffold she would
not mind, though he was her father. She would tell him that she would
drag him there with her own hands. She set here fierce little teeth, and
vowed to herself that she would ruin him were he ten times her father,
rather than let _this_ go on. She would frighten Gervase to death; but
before she was done she would set her foot on the ruins of the Seven
Thorns.
Gervase, however, was too ill to be threatened the day after that
dreadful vigil. He had caught cold lying out upon the moor, and he was
very ill and in a high fever, quite unable to get up, or to have
anything but nursing and kindness. Patty had the confidence of a woman
well acquainted with the consequences of a debauch, that this would wear
off in a short time and leave no particular results. She gave him
beef-tea and gruel and kept him quiet, and told him, like a child, that
he would be better to-morrow. “Gervase has caught a bad cold,” she told
Sir Giles, “but you must not be anxious, dear papa. I am keeping him in
his warm bed, and he’ll be all right to-morrow.” “Right, right, my
dear,” said Sir Giles. “Bed is the best place. There is nothing like
taking a cold in time, nothing like it. And we must remember he was
always delicate. There’s no stamina in him, no stamina.” “He’ll be all
right to-morrow,” Patty said, and she kept running up and down between
the games to see if he was asleep, if he was comfortable, if he wanted
anything. “Good creature!” said Sir Giles, half to himself, half to
Dunning, who silently but consistently refused to appreciate Mrs.
Piercey. “Now, what would you and I have done with the poor boy if he
had been ill, and no wife on the spot to look after him?” “Maybe he
wouldn’t have had the same thing the matter with him,” said Dunning,
significantly. “Eh, what do you mean? What’s the matter with him? He’s
got a bad cold,” cried Sir Giles. “There are colds and colds,” said the
enigmatical Dunning. But Patty came back at the moment, saying that
Gervase was quite quiet and asleep, and resumed her place for the second
game. It was a longer game than usual, and Patty played badly, wishing
her dear papa we will not venture to say how far off. But it came to an
end at last, as everything does. “I hope you’ll have a good night, my
dear, and not be disturbed with him,” the old gentleman said kindly.
“Oh, I feel sure,” cried Patty, “he’ll be better to-morrow.” But, as a
matter of fact, she was not at all sure. The fumes of the drink ought to
have died off by that time, but the fever had not died off. He was ill,
and she was frightened and did not know what to do. And instead of being
better in the morning, poor Gervase was worse, and the doctor had to be
sent for, to whom, after various prevarications, poor Patty was obliged
to confess the truth. Impossible to look more grave than the doctor did
when he heard of this. “It was enough to kill him,” he said. Patty
understood (with a private reserve of vengeance against her father, who
had been the cause of it) that Gervase was really ill and had escaped
something still worse. But she was confident in her own powers of
nursing, and did not take fright. She was really an excellent nurse,
having a great deal of sense, and the habit of activity, and no fear of
giving herself trouble. She devoted herself to her husband quite
cheerfully, and even during the two first nights went down in a very
pretty dressing-gown to play his game with Sir Giles. “We must not look
for any change just yet, the doctor says, but he’ll soon be well, he’ll
soon be well,” she said; and believed it so thoroughly that Sir Giles,
too, was quite cheerful, notwithstanding that Dunning, in the
background, shook his head. Dunning would have shaken his head whatever
had been the circumstances. It was part of his position to take always
the worst view. And the household in general also took the worst view.
Nobody had said anything about that fatal lying out on the moor. Mrs.
Gervase certainly had not said a word (except to the doctor), and Roger
Pearson had resisted every temptation to betray his share in the matter;
yet everybody knew. How did they know? It is impossible to tell. The
butler shook his head like Dunning, and so did the cook. “He have no
constitution,” they said.
But it was not till some days after that Patty began to take fright. She
said “He’ll be better to-morrow,” even after she saw that the doctor
looked grave--and resisted the aid of a nurse as long as she could,
declaring that for a day or two longer she could hold out. “For he’s not
going to be long ill,” she said, cheerfully. “Perhaps not,” the doctor
replied, with a tone that was exasperating in its solemnity. What did
he mean? “You must remember, Mrs. Piercey,” he continued, “that your
husband has no constitution. Fortunately he has had no serious illness
before, but he has always been delicate. It’s common in--in such cases.
He never had any stamina. You cannot expect him to throw off an attack
such as this like any other man.”
“Why not like any other man?” cried Patty. She was so familiar with
Gervase that she had forgotten his peculiarities. Except when she
thought of it as likely to serve her own purpose with her father, she
had even forgotten that he was the Softy. He was her husband--part of
herself, about whom, assuredly, there was no fibre of weakness. “Why
shouldn’t he shake it off like any other man?” she cried angrily.
The doctor gave her a strange look. “He has no constitution,” he said.
The words and the look worked in Patty’s mind like some strange leaven,
mingling with all her thoughts. She could not at first imagine what they
meant. After a while, when she was relieved by the nurse and went into
another room to rest, instead of going to sleep, as she had, indeed,
much reason to do, she sat down and thought it all over in the quiet. No
constitution--no stamina. Patty knew very well, of course, what these
words meant; it was the application of them that was difficult. Gervase!
He was a little loose in his limbs, not very firmly knit perhaps, with
not so much colour as the rustics around--but he was young, and
healthy, and strong enough. Nobody had ever imagined that he was not
strong. As for being a little soft, perhaps, in the mind, that was
because people did not know him; and even if they did, the mind had
nothing to do with the body, and it was all in his favour, for he did
not worry and vex himself about things as others did. Like other
men--why wasn’t he like other men? He was as tall as most, he was not
crooked or out of proportion, he was----
Did it mean that he might die?
Patty rose from her chair and flung her arms above her head with a cry.
She was not without natural affection; she liked her husband, and was
not dissatisfied with him, except in that matter of going to the Seven
Thorns. She did not object to him because he was a fool; she was fond of
him in a way. But when it suddenly flashed upon her that this might be
the meaning of what the doctor said, it was not of Gervase’s fate that
she thought. Die! and deprive her of what she had made so many efforts
to secure! Die! so that she never, never should be Lady Piercey, should
she live a hundred years! Patty stood for a moment all quivering with
emotion as she first realised this thought. It was intolerable, and not
to be borne. She had married him, coaxed him, kept him in good humour,
given up everything for him--only for this, that he should die before
his father, and leave her nothing but Mrs. Piercey--Mrs. Piercey only,
and for ever! Patty raised her hands unconsciously as if to seize him
and shake him, with a long-drawn breath and a sobbing, hissing “Oh!”
from the very bottom of her heart. She had it in her mind to rush to
him, to seize him, to tell him he must not do it. He must make an
effort; he must live, whatever happened. It was inconceivable,
insupportable that he should die. He must not, should not die before his
father, cheating his wife! She stood for a moment with her hands
clenched, as if she had in reality grasped Gervase by his coat, and then
she flung herself upon her face on the sofa in a passion of wild
weeping. It could not, could not be; it must not be. She would not allow
the possibility. Before his father, who was an old man--leaving all the
honours to--anybody, whoever happened to be in the way, Margaret
Osborne, for anything she knew--but not Patty, not she who had worked
for them, struggled for them! It could not, and it must not be.
Patty did not sleep that day, though she had been up all night and
wanted sleep. She bathed her face and her eyes, and changed her dress,
and went back to her husband’s bedside with a kind of fierce
determination to hold by him, not to let him die. There was no change in
him from what there had been when she left him, and the nurse was half
offended by her intrusion. “I assure you, ma’am, I know my duties,” she
said, “and you’ll break down next if you don’t mind. Go, there’s a dear,
and get some sleep; you can’t nurse him both by night and day. And
there’s no change, nothing to make you anxious.”
“You are sure of that, nurse?”
“Quite sure. He’s quite quiet and comfortable, so far as I can see.”
“But they say he has no constitution,” said Patty, gazing into the
woman’s face for comfort.
“Well, Mrs. Piercey; but most times it’s the strongest man with whom it
goes hardest,” the nurse said.
And this gave Patty great consolation; it was the only comfort she had.
It was one of those dicta which she had heard often both about children
and men, and therefore she received it the more willingly. “It goes
harder with the strong ones.” That was the very commonest thing to say,
and perhaps it was true. The old women often knew better than the
doctors, she said to herself. Indeed, there was in her mind a far
greater confidence in such a deliverance than in anything the doctors
could say.
And nothing could exceed the devotion with which poor Gervase was
nursed. His wife was by his side night and day. She never tired--never
wanted repose; was always ready; the most careful and anxious of nurses.
“He’s much better to-day, don’t you think?” was her greeting to the
doctor when he came. And Dr. Bryant said afterwards that Mrs. Piercey
looked as if she would have flown at his throat when he looked grave.
She could not bear to be contradicted or checked in her hopes. And every
day she went downstairs and assured Sir Giles that his son would soon be
better.
“We can’t expect it to pass in a day,” she said, “for it is a very
serious attack.”
“And he has no stamina, no stamina; we always knew it--we were always
told that,” said the old gentleman.
Mrs. Piercey looked fiercely at her father-in-law, too. She could not
bear to hear this repeated.
“Dear papa,” she said, “it comes hardest always on the strongest men.”
“God bless you, my dear!” cried old Sir Giles, falling a-sobbing, as was
his wont when his mind was disturbed, “I believe that’s true.”
Oh, how could he go on living--that old man for whom nobody cared; who
did nothing but keep the younger ones out of their own! What had he to
live for? Patty wondered, with a wild, yet suppressed rage which no
words could express; old, helpless, not able to enjoy anything except
that wretched, tedious backgammon, and keeping others out of their own;
yet he would live and see Gervase die! He would go on, and on, and see
his only child buried, as he had seen his wife, and forget all about it
after a week, and play his backgammon, and be guarded by Dunning from
every wind that blew. Dunning! Was it Dunning, perhaps, that kept him
alive; that knew things which the doctors don’t know? It was natural to
Patty’s education and training to think this, and that some private
nostrum would do more than all the drugs in the world.
“Shall I send down a nurse to you for a moment,” she said to Sir Giles
suddenly, “and will you let Dunning come up and look at him?” Dunning
could not refuse to go, but he looked at Patty suspiciously, as if she
meant to betray him into some trap.
“I don’t know nothing about that kind of illness,” he said.
“Oh, but you don’t know what kind of illness it is till you see him,”
cried Patty. She hastily led the man to her husband’s bedside, and
watched his looks while he stood awkwardly, holding as far aloof as he
could, looking down upon the half-sleep, half-stupor, in which the
patient lay.
“Oh, Dunning, what do you think?”
“I think as he looks very bad,” Dunning said, in a subdued and troubled
voice.
“That’s not what I want you to tell me. I want you to think if there is
anything we could give him to rouse him up. What he wants is to be
roused up, don’t you see? When you are roused to see the need of it, you
can do a deal for yourself, however ill you may be. What could we give
him, Dunning, to rouse him up?”
Dunning could see nothing but some unintelligible trap that was being
laid for him in those words.
“I’m not a doctor,” he said, sullenly. “I know what’s good for Sir
Giles, as is chronic; but I don’t know anything about the like of this.
I should say there’s nothing to give him, but just wait and--trust in
God,” said Dunning.
“Oh, God!” said Patty, in the unintentional profanity of her hot terror
and distress. He was so far off; so difficult to get at; so impossible
to tell what His meaning was! whereas she had felt that this man might
have known something--some charm, some medicine which could be given at
once.
“You had better go back to Sir Giles,” she said, shortly, and sat down
herself by that hopeless bed. But it was not hopeless to Patty. As soon
as Dunning was gone she began to take a little comfort even from what he
had said: “Wait, and trust in God.” Patty knew all that could be said in
words about trusting in God, and she knew many collects and prayers;
but, somehow, even she felt that to ask God by any means, whatever
happened, to exert His power that she might be Lady Piercey in the
end--that the old man might die and the young man live for this
purpose--was a thing not thought of in any collect: her mouth was
stopped, and she could not find a word to say.