Patty had been married only about four months, when an incident happened
that brought this period of humiliation and trouble after her triumph to
a climax. The summer had gone, the dark days and long nights of early
winter had come back, and Gervase’s almost nightly visits to the Seven
Thorns were complicated by the storms and rains of the season, which,
however, were rarely bad enough to keep him indoors. Had Patty been free
to keep a constant watch upon him, it was her opinion that she could
have prevented his continual escape into the night. She could have made
him so comfortable at home. By moments she had visions of what she could
do to reclaim her husband and satisfy him, if the dreadful restraint of
the old man and his nightly game were withdrawn. Once or twice, when Sir
Giles was indisposed, she had, indeed, managed to do this. She had
brewed him hot and fragrant drinks to take the place of the beer, and
exhausted herself in talk to amuse him. Poor Patty! she thought to
herself that surely she must, at least, be as amusing as the old fellows
in the parlour at the Seven Thorns. Many a woman has thought the same:
a brilliant young creature, full of knowledge and spirit, and wit and
pleasantness, might not she think herself as attractive as the dull
gossip of the club? But it is a dangerous conflict to enter into, and
the race is certainly not to the swift nor the battle to the strong in
this respect. And Patty was not an amusing conversationalist. She knew
the methods of rustic flirtation, and how to hold off and call on a
provoked and tantalised lover; and she could be very lively in talk
about herself and what she meant to do; but the first was no longer a
method to be employed with Gervase, who was now brutally conscious of
being Patty’s proprietor; and he was not even so much interested in what
she meant to do as he once had been. He much preferred the heavy jokes,
the great guffaw, the half-mocking attention that was paid to himself in
the parlour at the Seven Thorns. He was not in the least aware that the
big laugh that went round, and in which he himself joined with a
sensation of truly enjoying himself, was chiefly at him and his folly.
And his freedom to do what he liked, to drink as much as he liked, and
babble and maunder at his pleasure, was very sweet to Gervase: he liked
it better than anything else in the world; perhaps not better than Patty
if there had been a conflict between the two--but then, as he said, he
had Patty all the same whatever he might do, and why shouldn’t he enjoy
himself when it was so entirely in his power?
But when Patty sat the whole evening through playing backgammon with Sir
Giles, her ears on the alert for every sound, her hopes sometimes
raised by a footstep on the stairs to imagine that he had not gone out
after all, or her fears excited by some noise to the terror of believing
that he had come back earlier than usual, and was coming in--like the
fool he was, to betray himself to his father! it was not wonderful if
she looked sometimes with a suppressed bitterness at her old
father-in-law fumbling at his game. What good was his life to that old
man? He could not walk a step without assistance. He was bound to that
chair whatever happened. He had nobody of his own age to speak to, no
one except people of another generation, whom he was keeping out of what
Patty called “their own.” “Oh, if the old man were out of the way, how
soon I could put everything right!” Patty said to herself. Though she
had indeed failed, and received a grievous defeat, her confidence in
herself was not shaken. It was only circumstances, she thought, that
were to blame. If she had things in her own hands, if her evenings were
unencumbered, if she could devote herself to her husband as she had
intended to do, let us see how long the Seven Thorns would have stood
against her! And, oh, what good was his life to that old man! If he were
to die, what a blessed relief it would be! Full of aches and pains, his
nerves shattered, unable to keep from crying when he talked, unable to
think of anything except his walk (walk! in his chair driven by
Dunning), and his dinner, which was chiefly slops, and his cups of beef
tea, and his drops, and his game at night, which he was allowed to win
to please him! Poor Sir Giles! It was not, indeed, a very pleasing
programme: but it is to be supposed that it did not seem so miserable to
him as to Patty, for Sir Giles showed no inclination whatever to die. He
might have thought, if he had been an unselfish old man, that he was a
burden, that he kept the young people from enjoying their lives, while
getting so little good out of his own--that if he were but out of the
way Patty would be my lady, and free to look after her own husband and
keep him straight; but he did not do so. She sat all the evening
through, and said: “Yes, dear papa,” and “How capitally you play!” and
“What luck you have!” and “I am nowhere beside you, dear papa,” smiling
and beaming upon him, and, to do her justice, exerting all her powers to
amuse him; but all the time saying to herself, “Oh, what good is his
life to him! Oh, how can he go on like this, keeping Gervase out of his
right place, and keeping me that I can’t do anything for my own husband!
Oh, that we had the house to ourselves and I were free to keep Gervase
straight!”
One evening, Patty had been feeling more keenly than usual this keen
contrariety and hindrance of everything. Sir Giles had sat longer than
he generally did, sending off Dunning when he appeared, demanding an
hour’s grace and another game. He was in higher spirits than usual.
“Come, Patty,” he said, “you’re not tired. Have your revenge and give me
a good beating. I’m in high feather to-night. I don’t care that! for
Dunning. Come back in an hour, and perhaps I’ll go to bed.”
“‘Alf an hour, Sir Giles: and that’s too long,” Dunning said.
“Half an hour, dear papa--you must not really tempt Providence by
staying any longer,” said Mrs. Gervase. “Have my revenge? Oh, no! but
I’ll give you another chance of beating me all to atoms. Isn’t Sir Giles
well to-night, Dunning? He looks ten years younger.”
“He’s excited with all that play,” said Dunning. “I don’t ’old with so
much backgammon. If he’s ill in the morning I wash my hands of it. He
knows well enough hisself he didn’t ought to be so late.”
“The white for me as usual,” said Sir Giles. “I’m a sad, selfish, old
fellow, always appropriating the winning colour, eh, Patty? Never mind,
you are coming on beautifully--you play a very pretty little game. I’m
training you to beat myself, my dear, if not to-night, well, some other
night. Come along, don’t let’s waste any time if that old curmudgeon
gives us only half an hour.”
Patty drew her chair to the table again with her most smiling aspect.
“Here I am, dear papa,” she said. The renovated drawing-room, if it was,
perhaps, in the taste of a past time and a little heavy and ungraceful,
was a handsome room, abundantly lighted, with an atmosphere of warmth
and luxurious comfort; and Patty in her black silk, with her hair
carefully dressed _à la_ Jerningham, and her dress from a fashionable
mantua-maker, recommended by that accomplished attendant--was as good an
imitation of what a lady at home ought to be, as it would be easy to
find; and as she sat there ministering to her old father-in-law, keeping
him in comfort and good humour, giving up her time and her attention to
play over again the same monotonous unending game--the picture, both
moral and physical, was one that would have gained the admiration of any
spectator. But as she drew her chair again towards the table, there
flashed across Patty’s mind a remembrance of another scene: the parlour
at the Seven Thorns full of a cloud of smoke and a smell of beer; the
rustic customers, with their slow talk, holding forth each to his
neighbour, calling with knocks upon the floor and table for further
supplies; while she, Patty, the same girl, hastened to see what was
wanted, and to bring them what they called for--she, Mrs. Piercey, the
wife of the heir of Greyshott, the mistress of all this great house! And
it was only four months ago. How clearly she saw that scene! The same
thing would be going on to-night while she played backgammon with Sir
Giles, and smiled, and talked to her dear papa--and with a thrill of
mingled rage, vexation, and anxiety, Patty felt herself deserted and her
husband there! It gave her a pang which was all the more keen from her
confidence in what she could do, and her sense of the bondage which
prevented her from doing it. Oh, why should this old man go on with his
cackle and his dice, and his life which was no good to any one? Why, why
couldn’t he die and set her free? “Here I am, dear papa,” she said.
“Perhaps that sleepy fellow, Gervase, will wake up and appear before
we’ve done,” said Sir Giles. “I wouldn’t humour him too much, my dear.
It’s one thing to be devoted to your husband, and another thing to let
him muddle his brains away. He sleeps a great deal too much, that’s my
opinion. He’s not too bright at the best of times, and if you let him
drowse about like this it’ll do him harm--it’ll do him harm. I don’t see
that he gets up any earlier in the morning for sleeping like this at
night. His poor mother would never have permitted it. Sixes, my dear.
No, no, you mustn’t humour him too much.”
“What luck you have, dear papa! Oh, yes, I know, I know, he’s humoured
too much. But some need more sleep than others: and don’t you think, on
the whole, it does him good? His mind comes out so much; he’s so
sensible when you talk to him. I couldn’t wish for better advice than
Gervase gives.”
“I’m very glad to hear you say so, my dear; there’s a great deal in him,
poor boy; I always said so; more than anybody knows. But I wouldn’t let
him sleep like that. What, Dunning, you old rascal, here again already?
It can’t be half an hour yet.”
“Oh, yes, dear papa,” said Patty, “it is the half-hour; and that last
throw has quite made an end of me. Good-night, and I hope you’ll sleep
well. And I’ll go, as you say, and wake up that lazy boy. He _is_ a lazy
boy. But I’ll try and break him of it now you’ve told me. I thought it
was best to humour him. But I’ll break him of it, now I know what you
think.”
“Do, my dear, do!” said Sir Giles, nodding his head at her as he was
wheeled away. Dunning gave Mrs. Gervase a look behind his master’s
chair. Ah, you may keep such a secret from those whom it affects most,
but to keep it from the servants is more than any one can do! Dunning
knew well enough where Gervase was. He knew how Gervase returned home,
at what hour, and in what condition. Dunning, in addition, thought he
knew that it was Patty’s doing, part of some deep-laid scheme of hers,
and could not divine that the poor young woman’s heart was beating under
that fine gown with terror and anxiety. She gave a little gasp of relief
when the sound of Sir Giles’ chair died away, and his door was closed
audibly. And then she rang to have the lights put out, telling the
butler that Sir Giles and Mr. Piercey had both gone to bed; and then
Patty, heroic as any martyr, placed herself under Jerningham’s hands to
have her hair brushed, going through all the routine that nobody might
think from her demeanour that anything was wrong. She was quivering with
anxiety in every limb when she sent the maid away; and then, in her
dressing-gown, stole downstairs to open the side door, and strain her
ears for the heavy footstep stumbling through the blackness of the
night.
Poor Patty! what thoughts went through her mind as she kept that vigil!
Fury and determination to do something desperate, to stop it at all
hazards--and that this should be the last time, the very last! She would
take him by the shoulder and shake the very life out of him rather than
that this should go on. She would fling herself at his feet and implore
him--alas, Patty knew very well that to implore and to threaten were
alike useless, and that the fool would only open his moist mouth and
laugh in her face. What could she do? what could she do? She would make
an appeal to her father, she would threaten him with the loss of his
licence, she would bribe him with all the money she could scrape
together, she did not know what she would not do--but to bear this
longer was impossible! And then she fell into a dreary calm, and thought
over all that had happened, her wonderful triumph, the change in
everything, the contrast. And yet what advance had she made if she
never, never could separate herself from the Seven Thorns? Whether it
was she who was there or her husband, what did it matter? Who would ever
acknowledge them or give them their own place if this were to go on? Oh,
if these county people had but done as they ought, if they had but shown
themselves friendly and taken some notice of the young pair, people who
had known Gervase all his life, and ought to have felt for him! Patty
shed a few hot tears over the unkindness of the world, and then, as is
so natural, her mind went back upon her own hopes, and the ideal she had
formed of her life which, as yet, was so little realised. She had
thought of herself as driving about the country, paying visits at those
grand houses which had been to her as the abodes of the blest; her
husband at her side, well-dressed and well set up, with everybody saying
how much he had improved! And invitations raining upon them, and
fortune smiling everywhere. Sir Gervase and Lady Piercey! how
delightfully it had seemed to sound in her fortunate ears! To be sure
all this could not be realised until poor old Sir Giles had been fully
convinced that it was not for his advantage to live any longer; but that
might have happened any day. Oh, if he could but be convinced of it now,
and leave her free to care for her husband! Was not Gervase her first
duty? Why should this old man go on living, keeping his son out of his
own?
And then Patty’s mind went back to the Seven Thorns, that place from
which it appeared she could not get free. She saw herself there before
anything was yet settled, while all her life was before her. As she sat
alone and shivered and listened, the image of Patty, light-hearted and
free, came up before her like a picture. How busy she had been, how
everybody had admired her, even the old fellows in the parlour! And the
young ones, how they had watched for a word with her, and some had
almost come to blows! Roger, for instance, who had made so much fun of
the Softy, who had looked such a gallant fellow in his brown velveteen
coat and his red tie! She remembered how he had appealed to her not to
do it, not to bind herself to a fool. The impudent fellow! to talk so of
Gervase--Sir Gervase Piercey that was soon to be! Oh, poor Gervase, poor
Gervase! he was not, perhaps, very wise, but he could still be set right
again and kept straight if she were but free to give herself up
altogether to the care of him. Roger Pearson could never have been
anything but a country fellow living in a cottage. It was true that he
was handsome, and all that. Patty seemed to see him, too, though she did
not wish it, with the light in his eyes, looking at her with his air of
mastery, the Adonis of the village. Every girl in the place had wanted
Roger, but he had eyes for only her. Why did he come before her now? She
did not want to see him or to think of him--far from that. There was not
a fibre of the wanton in Patty’s nature. She had no understanding of the
women who, with husbands of their own, could think of any other man. And
if she had the choice to make over again, she knew that she would do the
same; but still she could not help thinking of Roger Pearson, though she
had no idea why.
This effect, however, was shortly after explained to her in the most
trying way. The night grew darker and darker, and colder and colder. The
Seven Thorns must have been closed long ago, and all its revellers
dispersed to their homes. What could have happened to Gervase? where
could he have gone? Could he have taken so much that he was made to stay
there, as unable to take care of himself, a thing which Patty could
remember to have happened in her time? She became afraid to look at her
watch or to listen to a clock, in the sickness of her heart. It was
impossible but that he must have reached home long ago had he left the
Seven Thorns in the natural way. Oh, where was he? where was he? Where
had he gone? what had happened to him? Patty dared not go upstairs to
bed, even when she was convinced that he could not be coming now; for
her father, she was sure, would turn him out in the early morning if
this was what had happened. Yet how could she remain up, and on the
watch, when the servants would be stirring, revealing what had happened
to the whole household? Patty is, perhaps, not a person for whom to
appeal to the reader’s sympathies, but she was very unhappy, very
anxious, not knowing what to think.
At last, in the blackest hour of the night, about three o’clock or so in
the morning, her anxious ear heard, or seemed to hear, a faint sound.
Steps, and then a pause, and then steps again, and the sound of the
little side gate in the beech avenue pushed open. Patty was immediately
on the alert, with unspeakable relief in her mind. But the sounds were
not those of one man stumbling home. Sometimes there was a noise as of
something being tugged along the grass, then another stop, and the steps
again making the gravel fly, and then the sound as of a fall. In her
terror she stole out into the darkness, fearing she knew not what, and
at last, by faint perception through the gloom, by sound, and by almost
contact in the stifling dark, perceived how it was--her husband,
scarcely conscious, being dragged and hustled along through the dark by
another man.
“Is it you, Gervase? oh, is it you, Gervase?” she cried.
Oh, poor Patty! is there any one so hard-hearted as to refuse to pity
her in her misery? The voice that answered her out of the blackness of
the night was not that of Gervase. He uttered no sound but that of heavy
breath. Yet it was a well-known voice, a voice that made her heart jump
to her throat with intolerable horror, anger, and shame--to hear how
sober, manful, energetic, and capable it was.
“There’s nothing wrong with him,” it said, clearly and quickly, “except
that he’s drunk. Show a light and I’ll get him in. I’ve had such a job,
but I’ll manage now; only for goodness’ sake look sharp and show a
light.”
It was the voice of Roger Pearson, whom she had been thinking of, whose
presence had sent some subtle intimation through the air to bring him to
her thoughts.
Patty hurried back to the open door and brought out the candle, which
burned steadily in the motionless blackness of the air. She said not a
word. Of the pang it gave her to see the man whom she had rejected
bringing back the man whom she had married she gave no sign. If she
could have covered her face that he might not see her, she would have
done so; but that being impossible, Patty never flinched. She held the
light to direct him, while now and then roused to take a step of his own
accord, but generally dragged by the other, Gervase was got in. She led
the way to the library, which was on the same level, stepping with
precaution not to be heard, shading the light with her hand, with all
her wits about her. There was not a tinge of colour on Patty’s face. She
was cold, shivering with excitement and distress. It was not till
Gervase had been laid upon the sofa that she spoke.
“I am sorry you have had this trouble,” she said. “I hope you have not
over-strained yourself with such a weight. Can I get you anything?” She
looked at him courageously in the face. It was right to offer a man
something who had brought, even were it only a strayed dog, home.
And he, too, looked at her, and for a moment said nothing. He stretched
his arms to relax them.
“I’m not a man that cares for the stuff,” he said, “but perhaps I’d be
none the worse for a drop of brandy to take off the strain. He’s safe
enough there,” he added. “You needn’t be anxious. He’ll wake up before
the daylight, and then you can get him upstairs.”
Patty did not say a word, but led the way to the dining-room, where
there was brandy to be got. It was a thing any lady might have done, she
said to herself, even through the wild beating of her heart, and the
passion in her breast--the passion of rage, and exasperation, and shame.
He was cool enough, thinking more of stretching and twisting himself to
ease his muscles than of the silent anguish in which she was. When he
had swallowed the brandy he advised her, with rough friendliness, “Take
a little yourself. It’s hard on you; you want something to give you a
little strength!”
“Will you take any more?” said Patty, sharply.
“No, I don’t want no more. It’s awful good stuff; it runs through a man
like fire. I’d been at a bit of an ’op over there by Coulter’s Mill, and
I nigh fell over him lying out on the moor. He might have got his death;
so when I saw who it was, I thought I’d best bring him home. But he’ll
take no harm; the drink that’s in him will keep the cold out.”
“I am much obliged to you,” said Patty. “If there’s any reward you’d
take----”
“Meaning money?” he said, with a suppressed roar of a laugh. “No, I
won’t take no money. I might say something nasty to you after that, but
I won’t neither. It ain’t very nice for you, poor girl, to have your man
brought home in that state by your old sweetheart. I feel for you; but
you always had a sharp tongue, and you never would give in. I advise you
to take more care of the Softy now you’ve got him back,” he said as he
went away.
Patty shut and locked the door with an energy of rage and humiliation
which almost overcame the horror of being heard. And then she went into
the library and sat beside her husband till he had sufficiently
recovered from his stupor to be taken upstairs. What hours of vigil! All
the sins of her triumph might have been expiated while she sat there and
shivered through the miserable night.