It was not worth while to be angry. She had known, of course, all along,
how it must be. There had been no thought in her mind of resistance, of
remaining in Greyshott as Patty’s companion, of appealing to her uncle
against the new mistress of the house. It had not been a very happy home
for Margaret at any time; though, while Lady Piercey lived, it was a
sure one, as well as habitual,--the only place that seemed natural to
her, and to which she belonged. Perhaps, she said to herself, as she
went hurriedly upstairs, with that sense of the intolerable which a
little insult brings almost more keenly than a great sorrow, it was
better that the knot should thus be cut for her by an alert and decisive
hand, and no uncertainty left on the subject. She went into her room
quickly, with a “wind in her going,” a sweep of her skirts, an action
and movement about her which was unlike her usual composure. Sarah was
alone in her room, not seated quietly at work as was her wont, but
standing at the window looking out upon some scene below. There was a
corner of the stable yard visible from one window of Margaret’s rooms,
which were far from being the best rooms in the house.
“Where is Master Osy?” Mrs. Osborne said.
“He is with Sir Giles, ma’am. I--I was just taking a glance from the
window before I began my work----”
“Sarah,” said Margaret, “we shall have to begin our packing immediately.
We are going away.” How difficult it was not to say a little more--not
to relieve the burden of her indignation with a word or two! for,
indeed, there was nobody whom she could speak to except this round-faced
girl, who looked up half frightened, half sympathetic, into her face.
“Oh, ma’am, to leave Greyshott! Where are you a-going to?” Sarah said;
and her open mouth and eyes repeated with dismay the same question,
fixed upon Margaret’s face.
“Shall you be so sorry to leave Greyshott?” said Mrs. Osborne.
Sarah hung her head. She took her handkerchief from her pocket, and
twisted it into a knot; finally the quick-coming tears rolled over her
round cheeks. “Oh, ma’am!” she cried, and could say no more. A
nurserymaid’s tears do not seem a very tragic addition to any trouble,
and yet they came upon Margaret with all the force of a new misfortune.
“What is it, Sarah? Is it leaving Jim? is that why you cry?”
“Oh, we was to be married at Christmas,” the girl cried, in a passion of
tears.
“Then you meant to leave me, Sarah? Why didn’t you tell me so? Well, of
course, I should not hinder your marriage, my good girl; but Christmas
is six months off, and you will stay with Master Osy, won’t you, till
that time comes?”
Sarah became inarticulate with crying, but shook her head, though she
could not speak.
“No!--do you mean no? I thought you were fond of us,” said poor
Margaret, quite broken down by this unexpected desertion. It was of no
importance, no importance! she said to herself; but, nevertheless, it
gave her a sting.
“Oh, don’t ask me, ma’am, don’t ask me! So I am, fond: there never was a
nicer lady. But how do I know as Jim---- they changes so, they changes
so, does men!” Sarah cried, among her tears.
“Well, well; you will pack for me, at least,” said Margaret, with a
faint laugh, “if that is how we are to part, Sarah,--but you must begin
at once; no more looking out of the window, for a little while, at
least. But Jim is a good fellow. He will be faithful--till Christmas.”
She laughed again; was it as the usual alternative to crying? or was it
because there are junctures of utter forlornness and solitude to which a
laugh responds better than any crying? not less sadly, one may be sure.
Sarah dried her streaming eyes, but continued to shake her head. “It’s
out o’ sight out of mind with most of ’em,” she said. “I’ll have to go
and get the boxes, ma’am, and I don’t know who there is to fetch ’em
up, unless I might call Jim--and the others, they don’t like to see a
groom a-coming into the house.”
“Then let the others do it, Sarah.”
“Oh, Mrs. Osborne! they won’t go agin the---- the new lady, as they
calls her. Oh, they calls her just Patty and nasty names among
themselves, but if you asks them to do a thing, they says, ‘We wasn’t
hired to work for the likes of you and your Missus, Sal.’ Not a better
word from one o’ them men,” cried Sarah, “not one of ’em! They’re as
frightened of her already as if she was the devil, and she isn’t far
short. I’ll call him, ma’am, when they’re at their dinners; and,
perhaps, you’d give him a word, just a word, to say as how you think
he’s a lucky fellow to have got me, and that kind of thing--as a true
friend.”
“Is that the office of a true friend?” said Margaret. It is a great
thing in this life, which has so many hard passages, when you are able
to be amused. Sarah’s petition and the words which she kindly put into
her mistress’s mouth, did Margaret more good than a great deal of
philosophy. She went away after a time to look for her boy and to tell
her uncle of the decision she had come to. They were out, as usual, in
the avenue, Sir Giles being wheeled along by a very glum Dunning, and
Osy babbling and making his little excursions round and about the old
gentleman’s chair.
“When I am a man,” Osy was saying, “I s’all be far, far away from here.
I s’all be a soldier leading my tompany. I s’an’t do what nobody tells
me--not you, Uncle Giles, nor Movver, nobody but the Queen.”
“And I sha’n’t be here at all, Osy,” said the old man. “When you come
back a great Captain like your cousin Gerald, there will be no old Uncle
Giles to tell you what you said when you were a little boy.”
“Why?” said the child, coming up close to the chair. “Will they put you
down in the black hole with Aunt Piercey, Uncle Giles?”
“Master Osy, don’t you speak of no such drefful things,” said Dunning.
“But Parsons said, ‘She have don to heaven,’” said the child. “I like
Parsons’ way the best, for heaven’s a beau’ful place. I’d like to go and
see you there, Uncle Giles. You wouldn’t want Dunning, you’d have an
angel to dwive you about.”
“Oh, my little man!” said Sir Giles, “I don’t think I am worthy of an
angel. I’m more frightened for the angel than for the black hole, Osy. I
don’t think I want any better angel than you are, my nice little boy. I
hope God will let me go on a little just quietly with Dunning, and you
to talk to your old uncle. Tell me a little more about what you will do
when you are a man. That amuses me most.”
“Uncle Giles, Cousin Gervase doesn’t do very much though he’s a man.
He’s only don and dot marrwed. I’m glad he’s dot marrwed. I dave him my
big silver penny for a marrwage present. If he hadn’t been marrwed he
would have tooked it, and a gemplemans s’ouldn’t never do that. So I’m
glad. Are you glad, Uncle Giles?”
“Never mind, never mind, my boy. Are you sure you’ll go to India, Osy,
and fight all the Queen’s battles? She doesn’t know what a great, grand
champion she’s going to have, like Goliath,” said the old man with his
rumbling laugh.
“Goliaf,” said Osy, gravely, “wasn’t a nice soldier. He was more big nor
anybody and he bragged of it. It’s grander to be the littlest and win. I
am not very big, Uncle Giles, not at pwesent.”
“No, Osy. That’s true, my dear,” said the old gentleman.
“But I’ll twy!” cried the boy. “I’m not fwightened of big men. They’re
generwally,” he added, half apologetically and with a struggle over the
word, “nice to little boys. Cousin Colonel, he is wather like Goliaf. He
dave me a wide upon his s’oulder; but when he sawed Movver tomin, he----
Are big men ever fwightened of ladies, Uncle Giles?”
“Sometimes, Osy,” said Sir Giles, with a delighted laugh.
“Then it was that!” cried Osy. “I touldn’t understand. Oh, wait, Uncle
Giles; just wait till I tatch that butterfly. I’ll tatch him; I’ll tatch
him in a moment! I’m a great one,” the child sang, running off--“for
tatching butterflies, for tatching---- Movver, movver, you sended it
away.”
“What did the little shaver mean by giving a wedding present?” said Sir
Giles. “Where’s my money, Dunning? have I got any money? If he gave my
boy a wedding present, it was the--the only one. They’ll come in now,
perhaps, when it gets known; but I’ll not forget Osy for that, I’ll not
forget Osy for that. Did you ever see a child like him, Dunning? I never
saw a child like him, except our first one that we lost,” said the old
man with a sob. “Did I ever tell you of our first that we lost? Just
such a child; just such a child! And my poor Gervase was the dearest
little thing when he was a baby, before----. Children are very different
from men--very different, very different, Dunning. You never know how
the most promising is to grow up. Sometimes they’re a---- a great
disappointment. They’re always a disappointment, I should say from what
I’ve seen, comparing the little thing with the big man, as Osy says.
But, please God, we’ll make a man of that boy, whatever happens. Ah,
Meg! is it you? I was just saying we must make a man of Osy--we must
make a man of him--whatever happens.”
“I hope he will turn out a good man, Uncle Giles.”
“Oh, we shall make a man of him, Meg! not but what, as I was saying,
they’re always disappointments more or less. Your poor aunt would never
let me say that, when she was breaking her poor heart for our first boy
that we lost. I used to say he might have grown up to rend our
hearts--but she would never hear me, never let me speak. It broke her
heart, that baby’s going, Meg.” This had happened a quarter of a century
before, but the old gentleman spoke as if it had been yesterday. “You
may think she did not show it, and looked as if she had forgotten; but
she never forgot. I saw it in her eyes when she saw Gerald Piercey
first. She gave me a look as if to say, this might be him coming home, a
distinguished man. For he was a delightful child--he might have grown to
be anything, that boy!”
“Dear Uncle Giles! You must try to look to the future--to think that
there may be perhaps other children to love.” Margaret laid her hand
tenderly upon the old man’s shoulder, which was heaving with those
harmless sobs--which meant so little, and yet were so pitiful to the
beholder. “I wanted to speak to you--about Osy, Uncle Giles.”
“Yes, yes,” said the old man, cheering up. “Did you hear that he gave my
poor Gervase a wedding present? that little chap! and the only one--the
only one! I’ll never forget that, Meg, if I should live to be a hundred.
And, please God, we’ll pay it back to him, and make a man of him, Meg.”
“It was precisely of that, Uncle, I wanted to speak.” But how was she to
speak? What was she to say to this old man so full of affection and of
generous purpose? Margaret went on patting the old gentleman on the
shoulder unconsciously, soothing him as if he had been a child. “Dear
Uncle Giles, you know that now Gervase is married, they--he will want to
live, perhaps, rather a different way.”
“What different way?” said Sir Giles, aroused and holding up his head.
“I mean, they are young people, you know, and will want to, perhaps--see
more company, have visitors, enjoy their life.”
Sir Giles gave her an anxious, deprecating look.
“Do you think then, Meg, that--that she will do? that she will know how
to manage? that she will be able to keep Gervase up to the mark?”
“I think,” said Margaret, pausing to find the best words, “I think--that
she is really clever, and very, very quick, and will adapt herself and
learn, and--yes--I believe she will keep him up to the mark.”
“God bless you for saying so, my dear! that is what I began to hope. We
could not have expected him to make a great match, Meg.”
“No, Uncle.”
“His poor mother, you know, always had hopes. She thought some nice girl
might have taken a fancy to him. But it was not to be expected, Meg.”
“No, Uncle. I don’t think it was to be expected.”
“In that case,” said Sir Giles--he was so much aroused and interested
that there was a certain clearness in his thoughts--“in that case, it is
perhaps the best thing that could have happened after all.”
“Dear Uncle, yes, perhaps. But to give them every chance, to make them
feel quite at ease and unhampered, I think they should be left to
themselves.”
“I will not interfere with them,” he cried; “I will not meddle between
them. Once I have accepted a thing, Meg, I accept it fully. You might
know me enough for that.”
“I never doubted you, Uncle; but there is more: I think, dear Uncle
Giles, I must go away.”
“You--go away!” he said, looking up at her, his loose lips beginning to
quiver; “you--go away! Why, Meg, you can be of more use here than ever.
You can show her how to--how to--why, bless us, we all know, after all,
that though she’s Mrs. Piercey, she was only, only--well, nobody, Meg!
you know--don’t bother me with names. She is nobody. She can’t know how
to--to behave herself even. I looked to you to---- Dunning, be off with
you: look after Master Osy. I know it’s wrong to speak before servants,
Meg, but Dunning’s not exactly a servant, he knows everything; he has
heard everything discussed.”
“Too much, I fear,” said Margaret half to herself. “Dear Uncle, perhaps
you have not considered that mine has always been rather a doubtful
position. I am your niece, and you have always been like my father, but
Gervase’s wife thinks me only a dependant. One can’t wonder at
it--neither mistress nor servant. She thinks a little as the servants
do. I am only here as a dependant. She will not take a hint from me. She
will be better without me here. For one thing, she would think I was
watching her, and making unkind remarks, however innocent I might be. It
is best, indeed it is best, dear Uncle, that I should go.”
“Go! away from Greyshott, Meg!--why, why! Greyshott--you have always
been at Greyshott.”
“Yes, Uncle Giles, thanks to you; dear Uncle Giles, when I was an
orphan, and had no one, you have done everything for me; but now the
best thing I can do for you is to go away. Oh, I know it, and am sure of
it; everything will go better without me. You may imagine I don’t like
to think that, but it is true.”
There was an interval, during which the old man was quite broken down,
and Dunning, rushing to his master’s side, shot reproachful speeches, as
well as glances, at Mrs. Osborne. “It appears,” said Dunning, “that I’m
never believed to know nothink, not even my own dooty to my master; but
those as comes to him with disagreeable stories and complaints, and that
just at this critical moment in the middle of his trouble, poor
gentleman, knows less than me. Come, Sir Giles. Compose yourself, Sir
Giles. I’ll have to give you some of your drops, and you know as you
don’t like ’em, if you don’t take things more easy, Sir Giles.”
“I’m better,” said the old gentleman, feebly; “better, better. But, Meg,
you’ve got no money--how are you to live without money, Meg?”
“I have my pension, uncle.”
“A pension! what is a pension? It isn’t enough for anything. Even your
poor aunt always allowed that.”
“It is enough to live on, Uncle--for Osy and me.”
“Osy, too,” he cried--“Osy, that I was just saying we must make a man
of! You are very, very hard upon me, Meg. I never thought you would be
hard upon me.” But already Sir Giles was wearied of his emotions, and
was calming down.
“I hope there will be other children to make up to you, Uncle Giles.”
“What!” cried the old man, “is there a prospect of that? Are there
thoughts of that already, Meg? Now, that is news, that is news! Now you
make up for everything. Whew!” Sir Giles uttered a feeble whistle, and
then he gave a feeble cheer. “Hurrah--then there may be an heir to the
old house still. Hurrah! Hurrah?”
“Shall I say it for you, Uncle Giles?” said Osy. “Stand out of the way,
Movver, and let Uncle Giles and me do it. Hurrah!” cried the little
fellow, waving his hat upon Sir Giles’ stick. “Now, Uncle Giles, hip,
hip, as the men do--hurrah! hurrah! hurrah!”