I have no friends in it, no feel-of-friendship, no human friendliness.

And the sculpturesque poetry of the outlying deserts and buttes

pushes and presses hurtingly upon the lonely and introspective gazer

in Body and Soul: I knew it as child and girl and woman.

There is nothing benign, nothing enlightening--no gentleness, no

pity--in its barren beauty. But its hard chaste influence on the

sensitive spirit is beyond any analytic power to gauge.

Its wonderful Aridness starves human nerve-soil till the sad

wide eyes of the Soul grow bright--fever-bright, light-bright,

star-bright--from denial and unconscious prayer: involuntary worship:

homage of the unsuppliant unhoping dévotee.

Because of that--and because of all its long-familiar outsidenesses--

mournful, beautiful, mystic, lavish, madly-mixed, gray-purple--a

fascination beyond plaisance or pain--I feel love for this Butte.

_The subdivided cell_

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