The supper took place, and it was nearly dawn when the Czar left the

mess of the Lancers of the Guard, where he declared that he had spent a

most pleasant evening. He drove in a motor-car back to Tsarskoye Selo in

a very enjoyable frame of mind, which did not require the encouragement

of his aide-de-camp, who sat next to him, to become a boisterous one.

Lots of champagne had been drunk during the meal, and even after, and

when some one in the gay assembly had ventured to say that the only pity

of the whole thing was that no representatives of the fair sex had been

invited to enliven the party with their presence, Nicholas II. had

heartily echoed the regret expressed by the officer in question. Orloff,

when alone with the Sovereign, had very cleverly turned the conversation

into the same channel, and at last had wormed out of his Imperial Master

the confession that he was very unhappy at the extreme coldness of

character of his Consort, whose beauty he admired just as much as on the

day he had married her. The Colonel, upon this, had ventured to express

the conviction that this coldness was only assumed, and proceeded

perhaps from jealousy more than from anything else. When at last

Tsarskoye Selo was reached, instead of accompanying Nicholas to his own

apartments, as it was part of his duties to do, he brought him to the

door of the Empress’s room, which he opened and closed upon him.

The next day a pale and haggard woman appeared in Anna Wyrubewa’s house,

coming to seek consolation in what she considered an overwhelming

misfortune, and while she was sobbing out the agony of her soul with her

head hidden in her friend’s lap, a strong man who had borne many a

misfortune without flinching, and who had stood calm and unmoved while

his heart had been breaking, was sitting alone in his room, his head

hidden in his hands, and hot tears dropping one by one between his

fingers on the table over which he was leaning, in his overwhelming

despair.

XII

LOVED AT LAST

After a storm there comes, generally, so they say, at least, a great

calm. And in a certain sense this happened in regard to the troubled

mind of the Empress Alexandra. As time went on, she recognized the value

of the good advice which she had received from Madame Wyrubewa as well

as from Colonel Orloff. Her relations with the Czar, which had been more

than strained for long months, became gradually better when she could at

last tell him that she had once again, and this time without any

mistake, the hope of giving him the Heir for which they had been

longing. She saw his former confidence in her return, together with his

affection; an affection to which she did not perhaps respond, but which

she nevertheless appreciated, perhaps because she was told she ought to

do so.

The fact was that her two friends were doing their best to get her to

take a healthier view of her own position than had been the case until

then. Intrigues at the Court were getting worse and worse, as the

various events which finally brought about the Japanese war were slowly

unfolding themselves, and it became every day more important for the

security of the Empress that she should not disinterest herself from all

that was going on around her, as had been her wont, since she had

allowed disappointment and sorrow to overpower her.

It was an anxious and a critical time for the dynasty as well as for the

country that was coming on, and Anna Wyrubewa with her clear mind was

very well aware that such was the case. She used to hear all the gossip

in the various circles of St. Petersburg society, and she knew very well

that a war was wished for by the enemies of the existing order of

things. They saw in it the possibility of overthrowing the dynasty, as

the mistakes inevitable in dealing with such a corrupt administration as

the Russian one would appear in a new, bold light before the horrified

eyes of the public. She was also perfectly aware of the growing

unpopularity of Nicholas II., and of the way in which he was daily

losing what still remained of the former short-lived affection his

subjects had felt for him. She would have liked the Empress to assert

herself, and to claim as her right to be initiated in what was going on

in the domain of public affairs, but it was still too early for

Alexandra to avail herself of this advice. The Czarina did not feel sure

of her ground as yet, and she only replied to her friend’s adjurations

that, if she were lucky enough to give birth to a son, she would follow

her advice to the letter; in the mean while she felt afraid of being

snubbed by the Emperor, who, though he treated her with far more

consideration than he had done for a long time, still kept her in total

ignorance of all questions relating to the affairs of the State. On the

other hand, he did not hesitate to discuss them with his mother, the

Dowager Empress, and even occasionally with his sisters and his

brother-in-law, the Grand-Duke Alexander Michaylovitch, who had always

been his great friend and favorite.

The delicate condition of health of Alexandra Feodorowna furnished her

with the pretext she required to isolate herself more than ever from her

family, and she used to spend long hours with Madame Wyrubewa in the

latter’s small house, and whenever she went there she met, as if

accidentally, Colonel Orloff, whose faithful, devoted eyes followed her

with a love which she could not have helped noticing, even if she had

not been aware of its existence. She was a woman gifted with a very pure

mind, given to idealize the people she cared for and her own feelings in

regard to them. She soon grew to think of the young officer as of a

kind of guardian angel sent by Providence to help her in the various

difficulties of her daily existence, and with a selfishness almost

touching in its unconsciousness she took to confiding to him her various

doubts and perplexities, and to initiate him into all the details of her

married life, together with the constant disgust and struggles which

attended it, not suspecting that by doing so she was breaking the heart

of this one faithful friend who had sacrificed himself so entirely to

her welfare.

In the mean while events had been rapidly unfolding themselves. The war

with Japan had begun and was progressing, together with its long series

of appalling disasters coming one on top of the other. Mukden had been

fought, the _Pétropawlosk_ had gone down in the waves of the Pacific,

with brave Admiral Makharoff and its whole crew of officers and men, and

the catastrophe of Tsu Shima had also taken place. These had been met by

the utter indifference of Nicholas II., who had not even thought it

worth while to interrupt the game of tennis he had been playing when the

telegram with the news of this unprecedented misfortune had been brought

to him. In the interior of the country trouble was also brewing. The

Grand-Duke Sergius, the uncle of the Czar and the husband of the

Empress’s eldest sister, Elisabeth, had fallen under the bomb of an

assassin in Moscow, and the famous Minister of the Interior, Von

Plehwe, whose very name was a horror to all the liberal elements in the

land, had met with the same fate.

It was evident that grave events were at hand, and that unless something

was attempted to meet them the very foundations of the Throne might come

to be shaken by this rising tide of discontent which threatened to

engulf the dynasty in its waves. It was high time something were done,

and that some one should interfere to save Nicholas II. from impending

calamity. Who could do so better than his wife and the mother of his

children? Thus reasoned Anna Wyrubewa, and it was also what her friend,

Colonel Orloff, thought; but that was not at all what was wished by the

various other forces at work trying to dictate to the weak-minded Czar

the conduct he ought to hold in the presence of these unexpected

difficulties with which he found himself confronted, to his dismay and

surprise. There had got about among the public an inkling as to the

possibility of the Empress becoming all at once a factor to be reckoned

with in the general situation. Immediately the efforts of all her

enemies became concentrated on that one point--how best to eliminate

this new element, which they understood but too well would necessarily

counteract their own influence.

A careful watch was set on the person and the conduct of the young

Sovereign. It did not bring any of the hoped-for results, because both

Anna Wyrubewa and Colonel Orloff were prudent people, who contrived to

arrange matters in such a way, that no one suspected they used to see

Alexandra Feodorowna every day, and who had persuaded the latter to

resort to all kinds of precautions whenever she visited her friend.

One day, however, an officer who was serving in that very same regiment

of Lancers to which Colonel Orloff belonged made a playful remark to the

effect that he was believed to be a favorite with the lovely and cold

Czarina, who had never hitherto allowed her glances to fall on any man

whatsoever. The young Colonel became immediately alarmed, the more so

that he could not discover the source whence this piece of gossip had

arisen. He sought Madame Wyrubewa and told her that he had made up his

mind to ask to be transferred to a regiment at the front, so as to put a

quick end to any possible unpleasantness. She heartily agreed with him

in the opinion that this was the best thing he could do, for the sake of

everybody, and especially for that of the Empress.

The latter had to be told of Orloff’s resolution. But when he broke to

her his intention to request the favor of risking his life in distant

Manchuria, she gave way to a fit of despair that absolutely frightened

her two devoted friends, and implored him not to leave her, at least not

until her child had been born, saying with sobs and tears that she would

never be able to undergo the trial which awaited her if she did not know

that he was there, as near to her as possible, and that she could see

him after all was over, to wish her joy, if the expected babe were a

son, and to comfort her if it turned out to be another girl, the one

thing which she feared above all others.

At first the Colonel protested. He tried to explain to the despairing

and over-excited woman that it was for her sake he wished to go away, at

least for a while, and that it cost him more than he could say to come

to such a resolution, but that he loved her far too much to let her run

any risk. The Empress would not listen to anything, and at last she told

him that if he went away she would consider it as a proof that he did

not love her, and that all he had said to her had been nothing but empty

phrases, such as no doubt he had repeated already to many more women

than he even cared to remember. Orloff was stung to the quick, but he

remained, nevertheless, firm until Alexandra Feodorowna exclaimed that

unless he promised her to remain by her side she would make a scandal

and depart for Darmstadt, whether the Emperor allowed her to do so or

not. Man-like, he yielded, without suspecting whither this weakness was

to lead him sooner than he could imagine.

While this drama was going on in the pretty little house whither Anna

Wyrubewa received the Empress of All the Russias, unknown to the rest of

the world, so she believed, at least, speculations were rife as to the

eventual sex of the child expected by the Czar and Czarina. Everybody,

with few exceptions, hoped that it would be another daughter, none more

ardently than the Dowager Empress, who would have infinitely preferred

the Throne passing to her youngest son than to any boy born to a

daughter-in-law whom she made no secret of disliking, and whom she

distrusted even more than she disliked. She realized very well that

Alexandra Feodorowna, if she was the mother of an Heir to the Imperial

Crown, would become a most important personage in the State, as well as

in the eyes of her husband. This was not to be desired, in view of her

strong German sympathies, which she had lately exhibited more than she

had ever dared to do before.

The French alliance was very popular at the time I am talking about, and

the Empress was considered as its principal and most bitter adversary.

This was one more reason for not wishing her to acquire suddenly an

importance that had never been awarded to her by the nation since she

had become its Sovereign.

For months this kind of thing went on. Alexandra Feodorowna knew herself

to be watched with anything but kind eyes, and this consciousness of the

ill-will of which she was the object added to her anxiety and moral

sufferings. As the weary months dragged on, she thought more and more of

Orloff, and suddenly she realized that she loved him more than any one

in the world, and she began to understand all that she must have cost

him, in pain and vain regret.

But for her, at least, consolation was at hand. One July morning the

Imperial Family were called together with the principal Court and State

functionaries in all haste to Peterhof. The long-expected event was at

hand, and a few hours would decide as to the future of the Romanoff

dynasty. People with anxious faces thronged the vast halls of the

Palace, waiting for news which seemed to be very long in coming.

At last, just as the clock struck noon, a doctor entered the room, and

told the assistants that Nicholas II. was the father of a son.

There was one person present who listened to this announcement with an

impassible face but with a breaking heart, and who could barely find

sufficient strength to reach the little cottage where Anna Wyrubewa was

sitting pale and anxious, in expectation of--she did not know well

herself what. When she saw Colonel Orloff she extended toward him her

two hands in a gesture of passionate greeting. But what was her surprise

to see him fall on the sofa beside her and bury his head in the silk

cushions, with such sobs as rarely shake the frame of a strong man. He

had had the courage to sacrifice his personal happiness at the shrine of

the woman whom he adored with such religious fervor, but it was more

than he could bear to find how thoroughly this sacrifice had been

accepted by Providence, and for just a few minutes he had hated this

new-born child, whom he knew but too well was going to usurp the place

he had hoped to keep forever in the heart and the affections of

Alexandra Feodorowna.

XIII

HE DIED TO SAVE HER HONOR

The christening of the little Grand-Duke Alexis was solemnized with

great pomp at Peterhof, and there is no doubt but that the position of

his mother became, after his birth, quite different from what it had

been before this much-wished-for baby had appeared. For one thing, the

talk of a divorce between her and the Czar, which had been so frequently

indulged in, came to an end, and it was felt, even by the most bitter

enemies of the Empress, that it would be waste of time to think about

the possibility of its ever taking place.

Nicholas II., in his joy at having at last an Heir, seemed to have

returned to his former allegiance in regard to his wife, and he began to

confide in her far more than he had done formerly, even consulting her

on different occasions. She was the mother of the future Sovereign, and

as such entitled to a consideration a childless Empress Dowager could

never aspire to in the case of widowhood. It became, therefore,

necessary to initiate her in matters concerning the government of the

country, and the Czar did this the more willingly that at heart he

distrusted his brother, and his numerous uncles and cousins, and feared

that in case he died before the small Cesarewitsch had reached his

majority the interests of the latter would not be looked after as well

as would be necessary, unless his mother were there to protect them.

Alexandra Feodorowna, on the other hand, urged by her two friends,

Madame Wyrubewa and Colonel Orloff, began to show far more interest in

public affairs than she had ever done since her marriage, and she tried

to establish between herself and her husband more intimate relations

than she had cared to do formerly, when she used to spend her days

lamenting over sorrows, imaginary most of the time, but sufficiently

acute to render her intensely miserable. Her son became the principal

preoccupation of her existence, and she would not intrust his care to

any one, but transformed herself into his nurse, governess, and constant

attendant, forgetting everything else, even the care of her daughters,

in her nervous solicitude for him. Unfortunately the child was born

excessively delicate, and had a curious and rare disease, a weakness of

the blood-vessels, which were affected in such a way that he was

attacked with hemorrhage at the slightest touch; the smallest of knocks

or wounds would endanger his life. He might bleed to death from an

ordinary bruise. An unfortunate accident which occurred when he was two

years old, and which brought about a rupture that necessitated an

operation from which he recovered only by a kind of miracle, only

aggravated the chronic ailment with which he was afflicted.

One may imagine how terrible this state of things proved for the

Empress, who very stupidly, as it seemed to some people, applied herself

to hide from the public the state of physical health of her son, which

had, among other results, that of people supposing him to be even more

dangerously ill than was the case. The truth was that Alexandra feared

that if it were known the boy was afflicted with an incurable disease,

it might add to her own unpopularity. Her friends hoped that she might

bear another son in time, but after the birth of Alexis she never had

any more hopes of maternity, and so there remained nothing else to do

but to try and rear this weak, frail, and puny infant, in whom were

centered all the future hopes of the proud Romanoff dynasty.

Anna Wyrubewa did her best to comfort the sorrowing mother, and both she

and Colonel Orloff agreed that the only thing to do in order to turn her

thoughts into another channel than that of her child’s state of health,

over which she brooded until she had become absolutely morbid in her

constant preoccupation of the painful subject, was to speak to her of

the necessity of becoming the Czar’s principal adviser and counselor.

They tried to induce her to assert herself in the interest of Alexis,

who they assured her would one day outgrow his native weakness and

require her help in the numerous duties entailed upon him by his

position as Heir to the Throne. In a certain sense they succeeded, and

the Empress began to develop an independence of opinions and views in

which she had never dared to indulge before. Ministers were surprised to

hear the Czar say to them, when they pressed him for a reply to some

decision or order they presented to him for confirmation, that he first

wished to discuss the subject with his wife. Somehow there arose among

the public, and especially among the Imperial Family, an impression that

Alexandra had at last completely subjugated her husband, and that she

was henceforward a factor to be reckoned with in every important State

affair which might arise in regard to foreign or home politics.

Of course people did not like it. One had been used for such a long time

to consider the Czarina as a nonentity that it seemed a strange thing to

have suddenly to take her into account; one began to wonder what could

have brought about such an unexpected change in her whole conduct and

demeanor. Maternal love was not sufficient to explain it, and the cause

of it had to be looked for elsewhere, and one fine day her constant

intercourse with Anna Wyrubewa was noticed. Once people were started on

that path, there was but one step to take--to try and find out whether

or not these suspicions were founded on anything tangible. Some

inquisitive persons took to watching the actions of Anna Wyrubewa, and

they were not long in discovering that her house served as a

meeting-place for several people in whom Alexandra Feodorowna was

interested, among others Colonel Orloff, whose hopeless passion for his

Sovereign had been already suspected at different times.

Foremost among these voluntary observators, not to give them another

name, figured members of the Imperial Family who had never taken kindly

to the Consort of Nicholas II., and who hated the idea of her becoming a

power in the State. They tried to find out something to her detriment,

and who also attempted to enroll among their number the Dowager-Empress

Marie, who, however, refused to listen to them, and whose affection for

her eldest son induced her to make an effort to warn her daughter-in-law

of the dangers which were threatening her. But the young Czarina would

not hear anything, and haughtily refused the hand that was extended to

her in sincere friendship. She snubbed Marie Feodorowna in such a manner

that the latter, wounded to the quick in finding her good intentions

misunderstood, swore that she would never again attempt to come to the

help of a person who was so prejudiced against her.

In the mean while, ignorant of the conspiracy which was being engineered

against her, Alexandra continued to spend her afternoons with Madame

Wyrubewa, often taking her little boy with her. The two women watched

the child sleeping in his cradle, and often Colonel Orloff shared their

vigil with a bleeding heart, the baby reminding him of all that he had

suffered for the sake of its mother, but with the consciousness of

having done his duty to both. But one day rumors again reached his ears

that his name had once more become associated with that of the Empress.

This time he made up his mind to go away definitely, no matter how much

she might ask him to stay. He realized, if neither she nor Anna Wyrubewa

did so, that the position was becoming threatening, and that he ought to

put an end to it in some way or other. Unfortunately, when he came to

this conclusion it was already too late.

Madame Wyrubewa’s husband was a naval officer, not gifted with a

superabundance of brains, but honest in his way, and incapable of

intrigues of any kind. He had troubled very little about his wife, and

was perhaps the only man in St. Petersburg and in Tsarskoye Selo who was

not aware of the high favor in which she stood with the Empress. His

duties generally kept him far from his home most of the year, and when

he was there he rarely troubled Anna with his presence. But he was known

to be of a violent disposition, and as a fellow who would not suffer any

stain to rest upon his honor. It was of this man that the enemies of

Alexandra Feodorowna determined to make use in order to ruin her.

Anonymous letters were sent to him accusing his wife of carrying on a

guilty intrigue with Colonel Orloff, intrigue which he was assured the

Empress knew and favored. He was advised to return home unexpectedly any

afternoon between four and five o’clock, when he would find proofs of

the information vouchsafed to him by his unknown friend. The young man,

instead of putting these denunciations in the fire, became so enraged

that he determined to follow the advice of his anonymous correspondent.

After having advised Anna that he was going away on a few days’ cruise,

he waited until the hour that had been indicated to him, and boldly

walked back to his house.

He was met at the door by the Cossack in personal attendance on the

Empress, who informed him that he could not get in. Wyrubew protested,

and was quietly told that the Sovereign was visiting his wife, and that

according to etiquette no one could be allowed to enter a place where

she was unless by her special permission. The officer became furious,

brushed the Cossack aside, and penetrated into the sitting-room, after

having noticed that a military overcoat was hanging in his hall. He

found the apartment empty, but in the adjoining one, which was Anna’s

boudoir, he could hear voices, one of which was distinctly masculine. He

did not hesitate, but made his way inside, to find that his wife was not

there, but that the Empress, pale and lovely, was standing by the

mantelpiece, while Colonel Orloff, on his knees before her, was kissing

passionately the hem of her skirt.

Alexandra Feodorowna gave one cry, which echoed through the whole

building and brought Madame Wyrubewa to her help. Wyrubew himself

remained silent and dazed by the unexpected sight. The only one not to

lose presence of mind was Colonel Orloff, who, starting to his feet,

went up to the intruder with the stern words:

“You are going to give me your word of honor to remain silent.”

Wyrubew passed his hand over his eyes. He could hardly believe his own

senses, and the terrible idea crossed his mind that his wife had been

helping the Czarina in an amorous intrigue, and that very probably he

would have to pay the penalty for this piece of complaisance, which he

did not in the least care to do. He thought that insolence was the best

way to get out of an impossible position with flying colors, and so he

simply sneered in the face of Orloff, with the remark:

“Not I. If you have chosen to abuse my confidence, together with my

wife, you cannot expect me to help you in your villainy.”

Anna rushed to the Empress and took her in her arms, trying to lead her

out of the room. Orloff made a movement forward as if he wanted to

strangle Wyrubew; then he contained himself and said in a low voice:

“You know that you are not speaking the truth. Once more I implore you

not to mention to any one what has taken place here, and I give you my

word of honor to meet you whenever and wherever you like.”

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