Lincoln, was assassinated yesterday, on the day appointed for
thanksgiving for Union victories. I have felt sick over it all day and
so has every one that I have seen. All seem to feel as though they had
lost a personal friend, and tears flow plenteously. How soon has sorrow
followed upon the heels of joy! One week ago to-night we were
celebrating our victories with loud acclamations of mirth and good
cheer. Now every one is silent and sad and the earth and heavens seem
clothed in sack-cloth. The bells have been tolling this afternoon. The
flags are all at half mast, draped with mourning, and on every store and
dwelling-house some sign of the nation's loss is visible. Just after
breakfast this morning, I looked out of the window and saw a group of
men listening to the reading of a morning paper, and I feared from their
silent, motionless interest that something dreadful had happened, but I
was not prepared to hear of the cowardly murder of our President. And
William H. Seward, too, I suppose cannot survive his wounds. Oh, how
horrible it is! I went down town shortly after I heard the news, and it
was wonderful to see the effect of the intelligence upon everybody,
small or great, rich or poor. Every one was talking low, with sad and
anxious looks. But we know that God still reigns and will do what is
best for us all. Perhaps we're "putting our trust too much in princes,"
forgetting the Great Ruler, who alone can create or destroy, and
therefore He has taken from us the arm of flesh that we may lean more
confidingly and entirely upon Him. I trust that the men who committed
these foul deeds will soon be brought to justice.
_Sunday, Easter Day, April_ 16.--I went to church this morning. The
pulpit and choir-loft were covered with flags festooned with crape.
Although a very disagreeable day, the house was well filled. The first
hymn sung was "Oh God our help in ages past, our hope for years to
come." Dr. Daggett's prayer, I can never forget, he alluded so
beautifully to the nation's loss, and prayed so fervently that the God
of our fathers might still be our God, through every calamity or
affliction, however severe or mysterious. All seemed as deeply affected
as though each one had been suddenly bereft of his best friend. The hymn
sung after the prayer, commenced with "Yes, the Redeemer rose." Dr.
Daggett said that he had intended to preach a sermon upon the
resurrection. He read the psalm beginning, "Lord, Thou hast been our
dwelling-place in all generations." His text was "That our faith and
hope might be in God." He commenced by saying, "I feel as you feel this
morning: our sad hearts have all throbbed in unison since yesterday
morning when the telegram announced to us Abraham Lincoln is shot." He
said the last week would never be forgotten, for never had any of us
seen one come in with so much joy, that went out with so much sorrow.
His whole sermon related to the President's life and death, and, in
conclusion, he exhorted us not to be despondent, for he was confident
that the ship of state would not go down, though the helmsman had
suddenly been taken away while the promised land was almost in view. He
prayed for our new President, that he might be filled with grace and
power from on High, to perform his high and holy trust. On Thursday we
are to have a union meeting in our church, but it will not be the day of
general rejoicing and thanksgiving we expected. All noisy demonstrations
will be omitted. In Sunday school the desk was draped with mourning, and
the flag at half-mast was also festooned with crape. Mr. Noah T. Clarke
opened the exercises with the hymn "He leadeth me," followed by "Though
the days are dark with sorrow," "We know not what's before us," "My days
are gliding swiftly by." Then, Mr. Clarke said that we always meant to
sing "America," after every victory, and last Monday he was wondering if
we would not have to sing it twice to-day, or add another verse, but our
feelings have changed since then. Nevertheless he thought we had better
sing "America," for we certainly ought to love our country more than
ever, now that another, and such another, martyr, had given up his life
for it. So we sang it. Then he talked to the children and said that last
Friday was supposed to be the anniversary of the day upon which our Lord
was crucified, and though, at the time the dreadful deed was committed,
every one felt the day to be the darkest one the earth ever knew; yet
since then, the day has been called "Good Friday," for it was the death
of Christ which gave life everlasting to all the people. So he thought
that life would soon come out of darkness, which now overshadows us all,
and that the death of Abraham Lincoln might yet prove the nation's life
in God's own most mysterious way.
_Wednesday evening, April_ 19, 1865.--This being the day set for the
funeral of Abraham Lincoln at Washington, it was decided to hold the
service to-day, instead of Thursday, as previously announced in the
Congregational church. All places of business were closed and the bells
of the village churches tolled from half past ten till eleven o'clock.
It is the fourth anniversary of the first bloodshed of the war at
Baltimore. It was said to-day, that while the services were being held
in the White House and Lincoln's body lay in state under the dome of the
capitol, that more than twenty-five millions of people all over the
civilized world were gathered in their churches weeping over the death
of the martyred President. We met at our church at half after ten
o'clock this morning. The bells tolled until eleven o'clock, when the
services commenced. The church was beautifully decorated with flags and
black and white cloth, wreaths, mottoes and flowers, the galleries and
all. The whole effect was fine. There was a shield beneath the arch of
the pulpit with this text upon it: "The memory of the just is blessed."
It was beautiful. Under the choir-loft the picture of Abraham Lincoln
hung amid the flags and drapery. The motto, beneath the gallery, was
this text: "Know ye that the Lord He is God." The four pastors of the
place walked in together and took seats upon the platform, which was
constructed for the occasion. The choir chanted "Lord, Thou hast been
our dwelling-place in all generations," and then the Episcopal rector,
Rev. Mr. Leffingwell, read from the psalter, and Rev. Dr. Daggett
followed with prayer. Judge Taylor was then called upon for a short
address, and he spoke well, as he always does. The choir sang "God is
our refuge and our strength."
_Thursday, April_ 20.--The papers are full of the account of the funeral
obsequies of President Lincoln. We take Harper's Weekly and every event
is pictured so vividly it seems as though we were eye witnesses of it
all. The picture of "Lincoln at home" is beautiful. What a dear, kind
man he was. It is a comfort to know that the assassination was not the
outcome of an organized plot of Southern leaders, but rather a
conspiracy of a few fanatics, who undertook in this way to avenge the
defeat of their cause. It is rumored that one of the conspirators has
been located.
_April_ 24.--Fannie Gaylord and Kate Lapham have returned from their
eastern trip and told us of attending the President's funeral in Albany,
and I had a letter from Bessie Seymour, who is in New York, saying that
she walked in the procession until half past two in the morning, in
order to see his face. They say that they never saw him in life, but in
death he looked just as all the pictures represent him. We all wear
Lincoln badges now, with pin attached. They are pictures of Lincoln upon
a tiny flag, bordered with crape. Susie Daggett has just made herself a
flag, six feet by four. It was a lot of work. Mrs. Noah T. Clarke gave
one to her husband upon his birthday, April 8. I think everybody ought
to own a flag.
_April_ 26.--Now we have the news that J. Wilkes Booth, who shot the
President and who has been concealing himself in Virginia, has been
caught, and refusing to surrender was shot dead. It has taken just
twelve days to bring him to retribution. I am glad that he is dead if he
could not be taken alive, but it seems as though shooting was too good
for him. However, we may as well take this as really God's way, as the
death of the President, for if he had been taken alive, the country
would have been so furious to get at him and tear him to pieces the
turmoil would have been great and desperate. It may be the best way to
dispose of him. Of course, it is best, or it would not be so. Mr. Morse
called this evening and he thinks Booth was shot by a lot of cowards.
The flags have been flying all day, since the news came, but all,
excepting Albert Granger, seem sorry that he was not disabled instead of
being shot dead. Albert seems able to look into the "beyond" and also to
locate departed spirits. His "latest" is that he is so glad that Booth
got to h--l before Abraham Lincoln got to Springfield.
Mr. Fred Thompson went down to New York last Saturday and while stopping
a few minutes at St. Johnsville, he heard a man crowing over the death
of the President. Mr. Thompson marched up to him, collared him and
landed him nicely in the gutter. The bystanders were delighted and
carried the champion to a platform and called for a speech, which was
given. Quite a little episode. Every one who hears the story, says:
"Three cheers for F. F. Thompson."
The other afternoon at our society Kate Lapham wanted to divert our
minds from gossip I think, and so started a discussion upon the
respective characters of Washington and Napoleon. It was just after
supper and Laura Chapin was about resuming her sewing and she exclaimed,
"Speaking of Washington, makes me think that I ought to wash my hands,"
so she left the room for that purpose.
_May_ 7.--Anna and I wore our new poke bonnets to church this morning
and thought we looked quite "scrumptious," but Grandmother said after we
got home, if she had realized how unbecoming they were to us and to the
house of the Lord, she could not have countenanced them enough to have
sat in the same pew. However, she tried to agree with Dr. Daggett in his
text, "It is good for us to be here." It was the first time in a month
that he had not preached about the affairs of the Nation.
In the afternoon the Sacrament was administered and Rev. A. D. Eddy, D.
D., who was pastor from 1823 to 1835, was present and officiated. Deacon
Castle and Deacon Hayes passed the communion. Dr. Eddy concluded the
services with some personal memories. He said that forty-two years ago
last November, he presided upon a similar occasion for the first time in
his life and it was in this very church. He is now the only surviving
male member who was present that day, but there are six women living,
and Grandmother is one of the six.
The Monthly Concert of Prayer for Missions was held in the chapel in the
evening. Dr. Daggett told us that the collection taken for missions
during the past year amounted to $500. He commended us and said it was
the largest sum raised in one year for this purpose in the twenty years
of his pastorate. Dr. Eddy then said that in contrast he would tell us
that the collection for missions the first year he was here, amounted to
$5, and that he was advised to touch very lightly upon the subject in
his appeals as it was not a popular theme with the majority of the
people. One member, he said, annexed three ciphers to his name when
asked to subscribe to a missionary document which was circulated, and
another man replied thus to an appeal for aid in evangelizing a portion
of Asia: "If you want to send a missionary to Jerusalem, Yates county, I
will contribute, but not a cent to go to the other side of the world."
Rev. C. H. A. Buckley was present also and gave an interesting talk. By
way of illustration, he said he knew a small boy who had been earning
twenty-five cents a week for the heathen by giving up eating butter. The
other day he seemed to think that his generosity, as well as his
self-denial, had reached the utmost limit and exclaimed as he sat at the
table, "I think the heathen have had gospel enough, please pass the
butter."
_May_ 10.--Jeff Davis was captured to-day at Irwinsville, Ga., when he
was attempting to escape in woman's apparel. Mr. Green drew a picture of
him, and Mr. Finley made photographs from it. We bought one as a
souvenir of the war.
The big headlines in the papers this morning say, "The hunt is up. He
brandisheth a bowie-knife but yieldeth to six solid arguments. At
Irwinsville, Ga., about daylight on the 10th instant, Col. Prichard,
commanding the 4th Michigan Cavalry, captured Jeff Davis, family and
staff. They will be forwarded under strong guard without delay." The
flags have been flying all day, and every one is about as pleased over
the manner of his capture as over the fact itself. Lieutenant Hathaway,
one of the staff, is a friend of Mr. Manning Wells, and he was pretty
sure he would follow Davis, so we were not surprised to see his name
among the captured. Mr. Wells says he is as fine a horseman as he ever
saw.
_Monday evg., May_ 22.--I went to Teachers' meeting at Mrs.
Worthington's to-night. Mrs. George Willson is the leader and she told
us at the last meeting to be prepared this evening to give our opinion
in regard to the repentance of Solomon before he died. We concluded that
he did repent although the Bible does not absolutely say so. Grandmother
thinks such questions are unprofitable, as we would better be repenting
of our sins, instead of hunting up Solomon's at this late day.
_May_ 23.--We arise about 5:30 nowadays and Anna does not like it very
well. I asked her why she was not as good natured as usual to-day and
she said it was because she got up "s'urly." She thinks Solomon must
have been acquainted with Grandmother when he wrote "She ariseth while
it is yet night and giveth meat to her household and a portion to her
maidens." Patrick Burns, the "poet," who has also been our man of all
work the past year, has left us to go into Mr. McKechnie's employ. He
seemed to feel great regret when he bade us farewell and told us he
never lived in a better regulated home than ours and he hoped his
successor would take the same interest in us that he had. Perhaps he
will give us a recommendation! He left one of his poems as a souvenir.
It is entitled, "There will soon be an end to the war," written in
March, hence a prophecy. He said Mr. Morse had read it and pronounced it
"tip top." It was mostly written in capitals and I asked him if he
followed any rule in regard to their use. He said "Oh, yes, always begin
a line with one and then use your own discretion with the rest."
_May_ 25.--I wish that I could have been in Washington this week, to
have witnessed the grand review of Meade's and Sherman's armies. The
newspaper accounts are most thrilling. The review commenced on Tuesday
morning and lasted two days. It took over six hours for Meade's army to
pass the grand stand, which was erected in front of the President's
house. It was witnessed by the President, Generals Grant, Meade, and
Sherman, Secretary Stanton, and many others in high authority. At ten
o'clock, Wednesday morning, Sherman's army commenced to pass in review.
His men did not show the signs of hardship and suffering which marked
the appearance of the Army of the Potomac. The scenes enacted were
historic and wonderful. Flags were flying everywhere and windows,
doorsteps and sidewalks were crowded with people, eager to get a view of
the grand armies. The city was as full of strangers, who had come to see
the sight, as on Inauguration Day. Very soon, all that are left of the
companies, who went from here, will be marching home, "with glad and
gallant tread."
_June_ 3.--I was invited up to Sonnenberg yesterday and Lottie and Abbie
Clark called for me at 5:30 p.m., with their pony and democrat wagon.
Jennie Rankine was the only other lady present and, for a wonder, the
party consisted of six gentlemen and five ladies, which has not often
been the case during the war. After supper we adjourned to the lawn and
played croquet, a new game which Mr. Thompson just brought from New
York. It is something like billiards, only a mallet is used instead of a
cue to hit the balls. I did not like it very well, because I couldn't
hit the balls through the wickets as I wanted to. "We" sang all the
songs, patriotic and sentimental, that we could think of.
Mr. Lyon came to call upon me to-day, before he returned to New York. He
is a very pleasant young man. I told him that I regretted that I could
not sing yesterday, when all the others did, and that the reason that I
made no attempts in that line was due to the fact that one day in
church, when I thought I was singing a very good alto, my grandfather
whispered to me, and said: "Daughter, you are off the key," and ever
since then, I had sung with the spirit and with the understanding, but
not with my voice. He said perhaps I could get some one to do my singing
for me, some day. I told him he was very kind to give me so much
encouragement. Anna went to a Y.M.C.A. meeting last evening at our
chapel and said, when the hymn "Rescue the perishing," was given out,
she just "raised her Ebenezer" and sang every verse as hard as she
could. The meeting was called in behalf of a young man who has been
around town for the past few days, with only one arm, who wants to be a
minister and sells sewing silk and needles and writes poetry during
vacation to help himself along. I have had a cough lately and
Grandmother decided yesterday to send for the doctor. He placed me in a
chair and thumped my lungs and back and listened to my breathing while
Grandmother sat near and watched him in silence, but finally she said,
"Caroline isn't used to being pounded!" The doctor smiled and said he
would be very careful, but the treatment was not so severe as it seemed.
After he was gone, we asked Grandmother if she liked him and she said
yes, but if she had known of his "new-fangled" notions and that he wore
a full beard she might not have sent for him! Because Dr. Carr was
clean-shaven and also Grandfather and Dr. Daggett, and all of the
Grangers, she thinks that is the only proper way. What a funny little
lady she is!
_June_ 8.--There have been unusual attractions down town for the past
two days. About 5 p.m. a man belonging to the
Ravel troupe walked a rope, stretched across Main street from the third
story of the Webster House to the chimney of the building opposite. He
is said to be Blondin's only rival and certainly performed some
extraordinary feats. He walked across and then returned backwards. Then
took a wheel-barrow across and returned with it backwards. He went
across blindfolded with a bag over his head. Then he attached a short
trapeze to the rope and performed all sorts of gymnastics. There were at
least 1,000 people in the street and in the windows gazing at him.
Grandmother says that she thinks all such performances are wicked,
tempting Providence to win the applause of men. Nothing would induce her
to look upon such things. She is a born reformer and would abolish all
such schemes. This morning she wanted us to read the 11th chapter of
Hebrews to her, about faith, and when we had finished the forty verses,
Anna asked her what was the difference between her and Moses.
Grandmother said there were many points of difference. Anna was not
found in the bulrushes and she was not adopted by a king's daughter.
Anna said she was thinking how the verse read, "Moses was a proper
child," and she could not remember having ever done anything strictly
"proper" in her life. I noticed that Grandmother did not contradict her,
but only smiled.
_June_ 13.--Van Amburgh's circus was in town to-day and crowds attended
and many of our most highly respected citizens, but Grandmother had
other things for us to consider.
_June_ 16.--The census man for this town is Mr. Jeudevine. He called
here to-day and was very inquisitive, but I think I answered all of his
questions although I could not tell him the exact amount of my property.
Grandmother made us laugh to-day when we showed her a picture of the
Siamese twins, and I said, "Grandmother, if I had been their mother I
should have cut them apart when they were babies, wouldn't you?" The
dear little lady looked up so bright and said, "If I had been Mrs. Siam,
I presume I should have done just as she did." I don't believe that we
will be as amusing as she is when we are 82 years old.
_Saturday, July_ 8.--What excitement there must have been in Washington
yesterday over the execution of the conspirators. It seems terrible that
Mrs. Surratt should have deserved hanging with the others. I saw a
picture of them all upon a scaffold and her face was screened by an
umbrella. I read in one paper that the doctor who dressed Booth's broken
leg was sentenced to the Dry Tortugas. Jefferson Davis, I suppose, is
glad to have nothing worse served upon him, thus far, than confinement
in Fortress Monroe. It is wonderful that 800,000 men are returning so
quietly from the army to civil life that it is scarcely known, save by
the welcome which they receive in their own homes.
_July_ 16.--Rev. Dr. Buddington, of Brooklyn, preached to-day. His wife
was Miss Elizabeth Willson, Clara Coleman's sister. My Sunday School
book is "Mill on the Floss," but Grandmother says it is not Sabbath
reading, so I am stranded for the present.
_December_ 8.--Yesterday was Thanksgiving day. I do not remember that it
was ever observed in December before. President Johnson appointed it as
a day of national thanksgiving for our many blessings as a people, and
Governor Fenton and several governors of other states have issued
proclamations in accordance with the President's recommendation. The
weather was very unpleasant, but we attended the union thanksgiving
service held in our church. The choir sang America for the opening
piece. Dr. Daggett read Miriam's song of praise: "The Lord hath
triumphed gloriously, the horse and his rider hath he thrown into the
sea." Then he offered one of his most eloquent and fervent prayers, in
which the returned soldiers, many of whom are in broken health or maimed
for life, in consequence of their devotion and loyalty to their country,
were tenderly remembered. His text was from the 126th Psalm, "The Lord
hath done great things for us, whereof we are glad." It was one of his
best sermons. He mentioned three things in particular which the Lord has
done for us, whereof we are glad: First, that the war has closed;
second, that the Union is preserved; third, for the abolition of
slavery. After the sermon, a collection was taken for the poor, and Dr.
A. D. Eddy, who was present, offered prayer. The choir sang an anthem
which they had especially prepared for the occasion, and then all joined
in the doxology. Uncle Thomas Beals' family of four united with our
three at Thanksgiving dinner. Uncle sent to New York for the oysters,
and a famous big turkey, with all the usual accompaniments, made us a
fine repast. Anna and Ritie Tyler are reading together Irving's Life of
Washington, two afternoons each week. I wonder how long they will keep
it up.
_December_ 11.--I have been down town buying material for garments for
our Home Missionary family which we are to make in our society. Anna and
I were cutting them out and basting them ready for sewing, and
grandmother told us to save all the basting threads when we were through
with them and tie them and wind them on a spool for use another time.
Anna, who says she never wants to begin anything that she cannot finish
in 15 minutes, felt rather tired at the prospect of this unexpected task
and asked Grandmother how she happened to contract such economical
ideas. Grandmother told her that if she and Grandfather had been
wasteful in their younger days, we would not have any silk dresses to
wear now. Anna said if that was the case she was glad that Grandmother
saved the basting thread!
1866
_February_ 13.--Our brother James was married to-day to Louise
Livingston James of New York City.
_February_ 20.--Our society is going to hold a fair for the Freedmen, in
the Town Hall. Susie Daggett and I have been there all day to see about
the tables and stoves. We got Mrs. Binks to come and help us.
_February_ 21.--Been at the hall all day, trimming the room. Mr.
Thompson and Mr. Backus came down and if they had not helped us we would
not have done much. Mr. Backus put up all the principal drapery and made
it look beautiful.