CHAPTER XVII

PAUL leaned back in his leather writing chair, smoking a cigarette and

focussing the electioneering situation. Beside a sheet of foolscap on

which he had been jotting down notes lay in neat piles the typewritten

Report of the Forlorn Widows' Fund, the account book and the banker's

pass book. He had sat up till three o'clock in the morning preparing

for his Princess. Nothing now remained but the formal "examined and

found correct" report of the auditors. For the moment the Forlorn

Widows stood leagues away from Paul's thoughts. He had passed a

strenuous day at Hickney Heath, lunching in the committee room on

sandwiches and whisky and soda obtained from the nearest tavern,

talking, inventing, dictating, writing, playing upon dull minds the

flashes of his organizing genius. His committee was held up for the

while by a dark rift in the Radical camp. They had not yet chosen their

man. Nothing was known, save that a certain John Questerhayes, K. C.,

an eminent Chancery barrister, who had of late made himself conspicuous

in the constituency, had been turned down on the ground that he was not

sufficiently progressive. Now for comfort to the Radical the term

"Progressive" licks the blessed word Mesopotamia into a cocked hat.

Under the Progressive's sad-coloured cloak he need not wear the red tie

of the socialist. Apparently Mr. Questerhayes objected to the

sad-coloured cloak, the mantle of Elijah, M. P., the late member for

Hickney Heath. "Wanted: an Elisha," seemed to be the cry of the Radical

Committee.

Paul leaned back, his elbows on the arms of his chair, his finger tips

together, a cigarette between his lips, lost in thought. The early

November twilight deepened in the room. He was to address a meeting

that night. In order to get ready for his speech he had not allowed

himself to be detained, and had come home early. His speech had been

prepared; but the Radical delay was a new factor of which he might take

triumphant advantage. Hence the pencil notes on the sheet of foolscap,

before him.

A man-servant came in, turned on the electric light, pulled the

curtains together and saw to the fire.

"Tea's in the drawing-room, sir."

"Bring me some here in a breakfast cup--nothing to eat," said Paul.

Even his dearest lady could not help him in his meditated attack on the

enemy whom the Lord was delivering into his hands.

The man-servant went away. Presently Paul heard him reenter the room;

the door was at his back. He threw out an impatient hand behind him.

"Put it down anywhere, Wilton, I'll have it when I want it."

"I beg pardon, sir," said the man, coming forward, "but it's not the

tea. There's a gentleman and a lady and another person would like to

see you. I said that you were busy, sir, but--"

He put the silver salver, with its card, in front of Paul. Printed on

the card was, "Mr. Silas Finn." In pencil was written: "Miss Seddon,

Mr. William Simmons."

Paul looked at the card in some bewilderment. What in the name of

politics or friendship were they doing in Portland Place? Not to

receive them, however, was unthinkable.

"Show them in," said he.

Silas Finn, Jane and Barney Bill! It was odd. He laughed and took out

his watch. Yes, he could easily give them half an hour or so. But why

had they come? He had found time to call once at the house in Hickney

Heath since his return to town, and then he had seen Jane and Silas

Finn together and they had talked, as far as he could remember, of the

Disestablishment of the Anglican Church and the elevating influence of

landscape painting on the human soul. Why had they come? It could not

be to offer their services during the election, for Silas Finn in

politics was a fanatical enemy. The visit stirred a lively curiosity.

They entered: Mr. Finn in his usual black with many-coloured tie and

diamond ring, looking more mournfully grave than ever; Jane wearing an

expression half of anxiety and half of defiance; Barney Bill, very

uncomfortable in his well-preserved best suit, very restless and

nervous. They gave the impression of a deputation coming to announce

the death of a near relative. Paul received them cordially. But why in

the world, thought he, were they all so solemn? He pushed forward

chairs.

"I got your postcard, Bill. Thanks so much for it."

Bill grunted and embraced his hard felt hat.

"I ought to have written to you," said Jane--"but---"

"She felt restrained by her duty towards me," said Mr. Finn. "I hope

you did not think it was discourteous on her part."

"My dear sir," Paul laughed, seating himself in his writing chair,

which he twisted away from the table, "Jane and I are too old friends

for that. In her heart I know she wishes me luck. And I hope you do

too, Mr. Finn," he added pleasantly--"although I know you're on the

other side."

"I'm afraid my principles will not allow me to wish you luck in this

election, Mr. Savelli."

"Well, well," said Paul. "It doesn't matter. If you vote against me

I'll not bear malice."

"I am not going to vote against you, Mr. Savelli," said Mr. Finn,

looking at him with melancholy eyes. "I am going to stand against you."

Paul sprang forward in his chair. Here was fantastic news indeed!

"Stand against me? You? You're the Radical candidate?"

"Yes."

Paul laughed boyishly. "Why, it's capital! I'm awfully glad."

"I was asked this morning," said Mr. Finn gravely. "I prayed God for

guidance. He answered, and I felt it my duty to come to you at once,

with our two friends."

Barney Bill cocked his head on one side. "I did my best to persuade him

not to, sonny."

"But why shouldn't he?" cried Paul courteously--though why he should

puzzled him exceedingly. "It's very good of you, Mr. Finn. I'm sure

your side," he went on, "could not have chosen a better man. You're

well known in the constituency--I am jolly lucky to have a man like you

as an opponent."

"Mr. Savelli," said Mr. Finn, "it was precisely so that we should not

be opponents that I have taken this unusual step."

"I don't quite understand," said Paul.

"Mr. Finn wants you to retire in favour of some other Conservative

candidate," said Jane calmly.

"Retire? I retire?"

Paul looked at her, then at Barney Bill, who nodded his white head,

then at Mr. Finn, whose deep eyes met his with a curious tragical

mournfulness. The proposal took his breath away. It was crazily

preposterous. But for their long faces he would have burst into

laughter. "Why on earth do you want me to retire?" he asked

good-humouredly.

"I will tell you," said Mr. Finn. "Because you will have God against

you."

Paul saw a gleam of light in the dark mystery of the visit. "You may

believe it, Mr. Finn, but I don't. I believe that my war cry, 'God for

England, Savelli and Saint George,' is quite as acceptable to, the

Almighty as yours."

Mr. Finn stretched out two hands in earnest deprecation. "Forgive me if

I say it; but you don't know what you're talking about. God has not

revealed Himself to you. He has to me. When my fellow-citizens asked me

to stand as the Liberal candidate, I thought it was because they knew

me to be an upright man, who had worked hard on their council, an

active apostle in the cause of religion, temperance and the suppression

of vice. I thought I had merely deserved well in their opinion. When I

fell on my knees and prayed the glory of the Lord spread about me and I

knew that they had been divinely inspired. It was revealed to me that

this was a Divine Call to represent the Truth in the Parliament of the

nation."

"I remember your saying, when I first had the pleasure of meeting you,"

Paul remarked, with unwonted dryness, "that the Kingdom of Heaven was

not adequately represented in the House of Commons."

"I have not changed my opinion, Mr Savelli. The hand of God has guided

my business. The hand of God is placing me in the House of Commons to

work His will. You cannot oppose God's purpose, Paul Savelli--and that

is why I beg you not to stand against me."

"You see, he likes yer," interjected Barney Bill, with anxiety in his

glittering eyes. "That's why he's a-doing of it. He says to hisself,

says he, 'ere's a young chap what I likes with his first great chance

in front of him, with the eyes of the country sot on him--now if I

comes in and smashes him, as I can't help myself from doing, it'll be

all u-p with that young chap's glorious career. But if I warns him in

time, then he can retire--find an honourable retreat--that's what he

wants yer to have--an honourable retreat. Isn't that it, Silas?"

"Those are the feelings by which I am actuated," said Mr. Finn.

Paul stretched himself out in his chair, his ankles crossed, and

surveyed his guests. "What do you think of it, Jane?" said he, not

without a touch of irony.

She had been looking into the fire, her face in profile. Addressed, she

turned. "Mr. Finn has your interests very deep at heart," she answered

tonelessly.

Paul jumped to his feet and laughed his fresh laugh. It was all so

comic, so incredible, so mad. Yet none of them appeared to see any

humour in the situation. There sat Jane and Barney Bill cowering under

the influence of their crazy fishmongering apostle; and there,

regarding him with a world of appeal in his sorrowful eyes, sat the

apostle himself, bolt upright in his chair, an odd figure with his

streaked black and white hair, ascetic face and Methodistico-Tattersall

raiment. And they all seemed to expect him to obey this quaint person's

fanatical whimsy.

"It's very kind indeed of you, Mr. Finn, to consult my interests in

this manner," said he. "And I'm most indebted to you for your

consideration. But, as I said before, I've as much reason for believing

God to be on my side as you have. And I honestly believe I'm going to

win this election. So I certainly won't withdraw."

"I implore you to do so. I will go on my knees and beseech you," said

Mr. Finn, with hands clasped in front of him.

Paul looked round. "I'm afraid, Bill," said he, "that this is getting

rather painful."

"It is painful. It's more than painful. It's horrible! It's ghastly!"

cried Mr. Finn, in sudden shrill crescendo, leaping to his feet. In an

instant the man's demeanour had changed. The mournful apostle had

become a wild, vibrating creature with flashing eyes and fingers.

"Easy, now, Silas. Whoa! Steady!" said Barney Bill.

Silas Finn advanced on Paul and clapped his hands on his shoulders and

shouted hoarsely: "For the love of God--don't thwart me in this. You

can't thwart me. You daren't thwart me. You daren't thwart God."

Paul disengaged himself impatiently. The humour had passed from the

situation. The man was a lunatic, a religious maniac. Again he

addressed Barney Bill. "As I can't convince Mr. Finn of the absurdity

of his request, I must ask you to do so for me."

"Young man," cried Silas, quivering with passion, "do not speak to

God's appointed in your vanity and your arrogance. You--you--of all

human beings--"

Both Jane and Barney Bill closed round him. Jane clutched his arm.

"Come away. Do come away."

"Steady now, Silas," implored Barney Bill. "You see it's no use. I told

you so. Come along."

"Leave me alone," shouted Finn, casting them off. "What have I to do

with you? It is that young man there who defies God and me."

"Mr. Finn," said Paul, very erect, "if I have hurt your feelings I am

sorry. But I fight this election. That's final. The choice no longer

rests with me. I'm the instrument of my party. I desire to be courteous

in every way, but you must see that it would be useless to prolong this

discussion." And he moved to the door.

"Come away now, for Heaven's sake. Can't you realize it's no good?"

said Jane, white to the lips.

Silas Finn again cast her off and railed and raved at her. "I will not

go away," he cried in wild passion. "I will not allow my own son to

raise an impious hand against the Almighty."

"Lor' lumme!" gasped Barney Bill, dropping his hat. "He's done it."

There was a silence. Silas Finn stood shaking in the middle of the

room, the sweat streaming down his forehead.

Paul turned at the door and walked slowly up to him. "Your son? What do

you mean?"

Jane, with wringing hands and tense, uplifted face, said in a queer

cracked voice: "He promised us not to speak. He has broken his promise."

"You broke your sacred word," said Barney Bill.

The man's face grew haggard. His passion left him as suddenly as it had

seized him. He collapsed, a piteous wreck, looked wide of the three,

and threw out his hands helplessly. "I broke my promise. May God

forgive me!"

"That's neither here nor there," said Paul, standing over him. "You

must answer my question. What do you mean?"

Barney Bill limped a step or two toward him and cleared his throat.

"He's quite correct, sonny. Silas Kegworthy's your father right enough."

"Kegworthy?"

"Yes. Changed his name for business--and other reasons."

"He?" said Paul, half dazed for the moment and pointing at Silas Finn.

"His name is Kegworthy and he is my father?"

"Yes, sonny. 'Tain't my fault, or Jane's. He took his Bible oath he

wouldn't tell yer. We was afraid, so we come with him."

"Then?" queried Paul, jerking a thumb toward Lancashire.

"Polly Kegworthy? Yes. She was yer mother."

Paul set his teeth and drew a deep breath--not of air, but of a million

sword points, Jane watched him out of frightened eyes. She alone, with

her all but life-long knowledge of him, and with her woman's intuition,

realized the death-blow that he had received. And when she saw him take

it unflinching and stand proud and stern, her heart leaped toward him,

though she knew that the woman in the great chased silver photograph

frame on the mantelpiece, the great and radiant lady, the high and

mighty and beautiful and unapproachable Princess, was the woman he

loved. Paul touched his father on the wrist, and motioned to a chair.

"Please sit down. You too, please,"--he waved a hand, and himself

resumed his seat in his writing chair. He turned it so that he could

rest his elbow on his table and his forehead in his palm. "You claim to

be my father," said he. "Barney Bill, in whom I have implicit

confidence, confirms it. He says that Mrs. Button is my mother--"

"She has been dead these six years," said Barney Bill.

"Why didn't you tell me?" asked Paul.

"I didn't think it would interest yer, sonny," replied Barney Bill, in

great distress. "Yer see, we conspirated together for yer never to know

nothing at all about all this. Anyway, she's dead and won't worry yer

any more."

"She was a bad mother to me. She is a memory of terror. I don't pretend

to be grieved," said Paul; "any more than I pretend to be overcome by

filial emotion at the present moment. But, if you are my father, I

should be glad to know--in fact, I think I'm entitled to know--why

you've taken thirty years to reveal yourself, and why"--a sudden fury

swept him--"why you've come now to play hell with my life."

"It is the will of God," said Silas Finn, in deep dejection.

Paul snapped three or four fingers. "Bah!" he cried. "Talk sense. Talk

facts. Leave God out of the question for a while. It's blasphemy to

connect Him with a sordid business like this. Tell me about myself--my

parentage--let me know where I am."

"You're with three people as loves yer, sonny," said Barney Bill. "What

passes in this room will never be known to another soul on earth."

"That I swear," said Silas Finn.

"You can publish it broadcast in every newspaper in England," said

Paul. "I'm making no bargains. Good God! I'm asking for nothing but the

truth. What use I make of it is my affair. You can do--the three of

you--what you like. Let the world know. It doesn't matter. It's I that

matter--my life and my conscience and my soul that matter."

"Don't be too hard upon me," Silas besought him very humbly.

"Tell me about myself," said Paul.

Silas Finn wiped his forehead with his handkerchief and covered his

eyes with his hand. "That can only mean telling you about myself," he

said. "It's raking up a past which I had hoped, with God's help, to

bury. But I have sinned to-night, and it is my punishment to tell you.

And you have a right to know. My father was a porter in Covent Garden

Market. My mother--I've already mentioned--"

"Yes--the Sicilian and the barrel organ--I remember," said Paul, with a

shiver.

"I had a hard boyhood. But I rose a little above my class. I educated

myself more or less. At last I became assistant in a fishmonger's shop.

Our friend Simmons here and I were boys together. We fell in love with

the same girl. I married her. Not long afterward she gave way to drink.

I found that in all kinds of ways I had mistaken her character. I can't

describe your own mother to you. She had a violent temper. So had I. My

life was a hell upon earth. One day she goaded me beyond my endurance

and I struck at her with a knife. I meant at the bloodred instant to

kill her. But I didn't. I nearly killed her. I went to prison for three

years. When I came out she had vanished, taking you with her. In prison

I found the Grace of God and I vowed it should be my guide through

life. As soon as I was free from police supervision I changed my

name--I believe it's a good old Devonshire name; my father came from

there--the prison taint hung about it. Then, when I found I could

extend a miserable little business I had got together, I changed it

again to suit my trade. That's about all."

There was a spell of dead silence. The shrunken man, stricken with a

sense of his sin of oath-breaking, had Spoken without change of

attitude, his hand over his eyes. Paul, too, sat motionless, and

neither Jane nor Barney Bill spoke. Presently Silas Finn continued:

"For many years I tried to find my wife and son--but it was not God's

will. I have lived with the stain of murder on my soul"--his voice

sank--"and it has never been washed away. Perhaps it will be in God's

good time.... And I had condemned my son to a horrible existence--for I

knew my wife was not capable of bringing you up in the way of clean

living. I was right. Simmons has since told me--and I was crushed

beneath the burden of my sins."

After a pause he raised a drawn face and went on to tell of his

meeting, the year before, with Barney Bill, of whom he had lost track

when the prison doors had closed behind him. It had been in one of his

Fish Palaces where Bill was eating. They recognized each other. Barney

Bill told his tale: how he had run across Polly Kegworthy after a dozen

years' wandering; how, for love of his old friend, he had taken Paul,

child of astonishing promise, away from Bludston--

"Do you remember, sonny, when I left you alone that night and went to

the other side of the brickfield? It was to think it out," said Bill.

"To think out my duty as a man."

Paul nodded. He was listening, with death in his heart. The whole

fantastic substructure of his life had been suddenly kicked away, and

his life was an inchoate ruin. Gone was the glamour of romance in which

since the day of the cornelian heart he had had his essential being. Up

to an hour ago he had never doubted his mysterious birth. No real

mother could have pursued an innocent child with Polly Kegworthy's

implacable hatred. His passionate repudiation of her had been a

cardinal article of his faith. On the other hand, the prince and

princess theory he had long ago consigned to the limbo of childish

things; but the romance of his birth, the romance of his high destiny,

remained a vital part of his spiritual equipment. His looks, his

talents, his temperament, his instincts, his dreams had been

irrefutable confirmations. His mere honesty, his mere integrity, had

been based on this fervent and unshakable creed. And now it had gone.

No more romance. No more glamour. No more Vision Splendid now faded

into the light of common and sordid day. Outwardly listening, his gay,

mobile face turned to iron, he lived in a molten intensity of thought,

his acute brain swiftly coordinating the ironical scraps of history. He

was the son of Polly Kegworthy. So far he was unclean; but hitherto her

blood had not manifested itself in him. He was the son of this violent

and pathetic fanatic, this ex-convict; he had his eyes, his refined

face; perhaps he inherited from him the artistic temperament--he

recalled grimly the daubs on the man's walls, and his purblind gropings

toward artistic self-expression; and all this--the Southern

handsomeness, and Southern love of colour, had come from his Sicilian

grandmother, the nameless drab, with bright yellow handkerchief over

swarthy brows, turning the handle of a barrel organ in the London

streets. Instinct had been right in its promptings to assume an Italian

name; but the irony of it was of the quality that makes for humour in

hell. And his very Christian name--Paul--the exotic name which Polly

Kegworthy would not have given to a brat of hers--was but a natural one

for a Silas to give his son, a Silas born of generations of evangelical

peasants. His eyes rested on the photograph of his Princess. She, first

of all, was gone with the Vision. An adventurer he had possibly been;

but an adventurer of romance, carried high by his splendid faith, and

regarding his marriage with the Princess but as a crowning of his

romantic destiny. But now he beheld himself only as a base-born

impostor. His Princess was gone from his life. Death was in his heart.

He saw his familiar, luxurious room as in a dream, and Jane,

anxious-eyed, looking into the fire, and Barney Bill a little way off,

clutching his hard felt hat against his body; but his eyes were fixed

on the strange, many-passioned, unbalanced man who claimed to be--nay,

who was--his father.

"When I first met you that night my heart went out to you," he was

saying. "It overflowed in thankfulness to God that He had delivered you

out of the power of the Dog, and in His inscrutable mercy had condoned

that part of my sin as a father and had set you in high places."

With the fringe of his brain Paul recognized, for the first time, how

he brought into ordinary talk the habits of speech acquired in

addressing a Free Zionist congregation.

"It was only the self-restraint," Silas continued, "taught me by bitter

years of agony and a message from God that it was part of my punishment

not to acknowledge you as my son--"

"And what I told you, and what Jane told you about him," said Barney

Bill. "Remember that, Silas."

"I remember it--it was these influences that kept me silent. But we

were drawn together, Paul." He bent forward in his chair. "You liked

me. In spite of all our differences of caste and creed--you liked me."

"Yes, I was drawn to you," said Paul, and a strange, unknown note in

his voice caused Jane to glance at him swiftly. "You seemed to be a man

of many sorrows and deep enthusiasms--and I admit I was in close

sympathy with you." He paused, not moving from his rigid attitude, and

then went on: "What you have told me of your sufferings--and I know,

with awful knowledge, the woman who was my mother--has made me

sympathize with you all the more. But to express that sympathy in any

way you must give me time. I said you had played hell with my life.

It's true. One of these days I may be able to explain. Not now. There's

no time. We're caught up in the wheels of an inexorable political

machine. I address my party in the constituency to-night." It was a

cold intelligence that spoke, and once more Jane flashed a

half-frightened glance at him. "What I shall say to them, in view of

all this, I don't quite know. I must have half an hour to think."

"I know I oughtn't to interfere, Paul," said Jane, "but you mustn't

blame Mr. Finn too much. Although he differs from you in politics and

so on, he loves you and is proud of you--as we all are--and looks

forward to your great career--I know it only too well. And now he has

this deep conviction that he has a call from on High to ruin your

career at the very beginning. Do understand, Paul, that he feels

himself in a very terrible position."

"I do," said Mr. Finn. "God knows that if it weren't for His command, I

should myself withdraw."

"I appreciate your position, perfectly," replied Paul, "but that

doesn't relieve me of my responsibilities."

Silas Finn rose and locked the fingers of both hands together and stood

before Paul, with appealing eyes. "My son, after what I have said, you

are not going to stand against me?"

Paul rose too. A sudden craze of passion swept him. "My country has

been my country for thirty years. You have been my father for five

minutes. I stand by my country."

Silas Finn turned away and waved a haphazard hand. "And I must stand by

my God."

"Very well. That brings us to our original argument. 'Political foes.

Private friends.'"

Silas turned again and looked into the young man's eyes. "But father

and son, Paul."

"All the more honourable. There'll be no mud-throwing. The cleanest

election of the century."

The elder man again covered his face with both hands, and his black and

white streaked hair fell over his fingers and the great diamond in his

ring flashed oddly, and he rocked his head for a while to and fro.

"I had a call," he wailed. "I had a call. I had a call from God. It was

clear. It was absolute. But you don't understand these things. His will

must prevail. It was terrible to think of crushing your career--my only

son's career. I brought these two friends to help me persuade you not

to oppose me. I did my best, Paul. I promised them not to resort to the

last argument. But flesh is weak. For the first time since--you

know--the knife--your mother--I lost self-control. I shall have to

answer for it to my God--" He stretched out his arms and looked

haggardly at Paul. "But it is God's will. It is God's will that I

should voice His message to the Empire. Paul, Paul, my beloved son--you

cannot flout Almighty God."

"Your God doesn't happen to be my God," said Paul, once more

suspicious--and now hideously so--of religious mania. "And possibly the

real God is somebody else's God altogether. Anyway, England's the only

God I've got left, and I'm going to fight for her."

The door opened and Wilton, the man-servant, appeared. He looked round.

"I beg your pardon, sir."

Paul crossed the room. "What is it?"

"Her Highness, sir," he said in his well-trained, low voice, "and the

Colonel and Miss Winwood. I told them you were engaged. But they've

been waiting for over half-an-hour, sir."

Paul drew himself up. "Why did you not tell me before? Her Highness is

not to be kept waiting. Present my respectful compliments to Her

Highness, and ask her and Colonel and Miss Winwood to have the kindness

to come upstairs."

"We had better go," cried Jane in sudden fear.

"No," said he. "I want you all to stay."

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